#im halfway s2 now pwease no spoilers

[tainbocuailnge]

i just fuckin love lelouch so much and i think what best encapsulates why is that he’s got a whole washing list of love interests who are all interested in a different lelouch. shirley likes her high school classmate lelouch and kallen likes revolutionary leader zero and cc likes her co-conspirator and suzaku likes his childhood friend. and all of those are entirely lelouch and he genuinely cares about each of those people but he can’t really maintain being all of those different lelouches at once without alienating the people he cares about in the process, because he’s always trying to live up to everyone’s expectations of him on some level and when inevitably one of them sees one of the other masks in his closet they feel betrayed that he’s been hiding the ‘real’ lelouch from them, unaware that every one of those masks is the real lelouch because he’s a liar by nature and a people pleaser to boot. even with cc, who has long since seen the whole wardrobe and accepted all of it, he still tries everything in his power to keep her from seeing high school lelouch when he’s already determined that he is to be co-conspirator lelouch around her and he can’t show her a side of him that contradicts that. he’s the leader of a global revolutionary movement known for defying authority and expectation alike at every turn and yet his need for approval is so crippling that he was 100% planning to die a heroin addict in a back alley purely because nunnally disapproved of his methods and the only reason he got back in the game was because he realized there are people who are counting on him to do so. he’s a stone cold tactical genius and commits war crimes like it’s his hobby and has terminal caring too much disease and he’s constantly lying yet all of it is real. every lie is the real lelouch because lelouch is a liar.