#im not even english and our system has grades 1 through 10 and then next school stage years 1-4 and then university

[peopleareaproblem]

can't believe the americans are mocking "sixth form" when freshman, sophomore, junior and senior makes NO INTUITIVE SENSE

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i was tagged by the wonderful gem gem gemmaaaaaaaaaa @whenwinterfell

1. what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

name-calling? bitch (affectionate) or bro (sarcastic) but jan is also fine

2. when is your birthday?

10 april

3. where do you live?

atm im still enrolled in bremen but i moved back to [redacted] to live with my parents when i started going insane(r) in my dorm room after months of isolation. will probably move to berlin in the fall bc my plans a, b, and c fell through and i dont know what else to do but lets not talk about that 🥲

4. three things you are doing right now?

having a really bad day, drawing on my arm like a child, listening to marina

5. four fandoms that have peaked your interest?

i honestly dont even know what a fandom really is lmao my obsessions with stuff never last long enough to grow into anything substantial

6. how has the pandemic been treating you?

idek how to answer this.... i know im one of the lucky ones and im very grateful, but at the same time im doing worse than ever before... the past 15 months have been hard, a lot has been destroyed and im struggling to look ahead or feel hopeful ✌️😗

7. a song you can’t stop listening to right now?

VENUS FLY TRAP

8. recommend a movie:

Legally Blonde (2001)

9. how old are you?

29 and fuck you for asking (jk lol)

10. school, university, occupation, other?

im about to start an MA in english lit 🤡 and i justify my existence in this capitalist system with 3 separate jobs in 3 diff teams of my uni's pr department (yes its about as adhd friendly as it sounds)

11. do you prefer heat or cold?

COLD!!!! im a sweaty bitch and my skin is a beautiful, delicate shade of raw pork so i really hate the summer. i can admit that the concept has a certain appeal tho

12. name one fact others may not know about you

not really a fact but a fun anecdote: i transferred schools in first grade, just a few months into the school year and, on the first day at my new school, went home with a random girl. apparently sabrina had invited me to hang out, so we went to her house and spent the afternoon watching cartoons and eating candy. we were both latchkey kids (quite common where im from). my mom finished work around noon and obviously shat a brick when she came home to an empty apartment. my parents freaked the fuck out, called everyone they knew and eventually a major police operation was launched within hours of my disappearance... like friends and family were searching all over town for me, police were sweeping fields and the forest next to our neighborhood and 6 year old me was just chilling at this girls house lmaooooo... her mom came home later that night and asked me if my parents knew where i was BECAUSE SHE HAD HEARD A RADIO ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT A MISSING BOY. the weird thing is that sabrina had TWO older sisters who were obviously supposed to watch her (us?) but neither of them had the wherewithal to ask "hmm do the parents of this new kid you dragged in from the street know where he is?"

13. are you shy?

idk man... yeah? but then people keep telling me i come across as an extrovert and outgoing or whatever and i just think to myself omfg? i have to stop overcompensating

14. preferred pronouns?

he/they

15. biggest pet peeves?

"people who chew with their mouth open" <- yes absolutely! and when people interrupt others... which is slightly hypocritical of me but it just drives me up the wall!!!! even when it happens to others and im just a witness it makes me flip my lid

16. what is your favourite “dere” type?

my what now

17. rate your life from 1-10: idk man my brain doesnt really do long term analytics? i find a gummy bear on the floor - its an eleven. i experience a minor inconvenience - i want to kms.

18. what’s your main blog?

this is my only one

19. list your sideblogs and what they’re used for:

i feel like you're not even listening to me

20. is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?

i guess it takes me a while to warm up to people but once we reach the friendship stage its basically impossible to get rid of me and im very loyal and committed? sounds like a dog lmao. BUT at the same time that can be hard to see for other people bc im also impulsive and not the best when it comes to consistent communication so... dont take it personally when i disappear for a few days and then message u like nothing happened🥺

tagging: @shyredpanda @mmolia ❤️‍🔥

[nanalikessurveys]

Alphabet Tag

aka another long ass survey

A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? No  
02. Do you have a lot of scars? Not many, but some 
03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? No 
04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? Well not very seriously 
05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? My stomache, when i got a mole removed surgically

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? HAHA no 
07. Are you self conscious of how you look? Yes 
08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? Yes, i hate to say this but i can’t go out without makeup cos i’m ugly af 
09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? I have considered that, yes. but not yet tho.  
10. What do you think makes a person beautiful?

As cliché as it sounds: confidence

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? I have never been grounded 
12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? I would not have an abortion, i would put the baby into adoption, simple as that. But i understand if someone would want to have an abortion don’t get me wrong. 
13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? Yes 
14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? Take my family away<true 
15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? I have no idea

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? I’m just quiet, don’t talk to them 
17. Name a time when you had to be strong. The bullying i suffered, and parents splitting up 
18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? Parents splitting up, no fights or abuse tho 
19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? I don’t really know, i’m pretty weak tbh 
20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. I have lost a cat, i cried alot  

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? No, never 
22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? Haha not really 
23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? I have been through some bad times but idk 
24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? I’m moving next saturday(in two days) to live on my own. And i would like to have a job but my mental health says no 
25. How old do you act? I’m pretty childish LOL

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? No there’s not 
27. If you had to choose, family or friends? Don’t make me choose 
28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything?   I can tell my mom almost everything, we’re really close 29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? I have and older sister, and no i’m not very jealous person in general so no i don’t get jealous of her 30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? Everyday 

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? 160-163cm, i‘m happy with my height 
32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? No 
33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? I’m childish like i said above 
34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? Very, i hate aging 
35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? Of course

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? Real, obvi 
37. Are you a pessimist or an optimist? I’m both depending on the situation 
38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way?   Hmm, i don’t know 
39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? I hope so at least 
40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? My family and my friend 

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? I don’t have the diagnosis depression but i have other mental illnesses that include depression soooo, yes 
42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? Hypothyroidism and anemia 
43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? I am not in a relationship 
44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? No i don’t 
45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? Every now and then

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke) It is what it is 
47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? Hmm, both tbh 48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? Yes
 49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! Too many to name just one 50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? 

When i was in school, for laughing yes, sometimes for talking

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? To learn and be with and maybe make friends  52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? I’m DUMB AF and i know it 53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? Our grading system in Finland is from 4-10, 4 meaning failed and 10 being the excellent, soo my best grade i ever got on my report card was 9 from English and swedish 

54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher?                                                                                                           

My gpa on my last report card was 7.6 i think?? not the worst, but not even near being good

55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)?                                                                                                          Psychology

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? No, yes 57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? I guess so 58. Is love worth it? It can be

59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months?                                 What, no, why would i hate it?

60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? Yeah, i’m really bad at expressing my feelings in general

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? Yes i do  62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? Average 63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? No need to, it’s free here, besides i’m not going to uni anyway 64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? Tbh, millions of dollars, lol

65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you?   

I’d say 7

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? No 67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? I wouldn’t do it, i’d have to be completely relaxed with that person 68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? No, i don’t call people sluts 69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? Yes 70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both! Nice

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? Pretty long actually  72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? I don’t know  73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? Yeah, i guess so  74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? i don’t knoooow 75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? I would tell my mom almost everything 

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? Do you remember the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? Well, yes 77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? Sure 78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? I have already answered this  79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? Yes
 80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please explain what it was: I don’t really know

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? Haha, i try to figure it out myself usually  82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? Not really, that makes me scared thinking about things like that 83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? TBH, i don’t know 84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? Depends who it is 85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? Hmm

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? Just being polite and smiling, saying nice things etc 87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? Being ignorant, racist or sexist i guess, those don’t really make me lose my respect tho so idk, i respect everyone’s opinions even though i don’t agree with them 88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? Yes, like i said above, i respect everyone in some way 89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? Im not disrespectful to my parents. But in my family we don’t have any punishments anyway 90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? Just ignore them

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? Nope, not in school 92. When will you graduate high school/college? Already gratuaded high school 93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? I have no clue 94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? I don’t like school, never did 95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? 

I dropped out of college, but no i’ve never been suspended or expelled

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? I guess  97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? Not really pressured, but i’ve tried my friends cigarette two times, because i was curious, it wasn’t my thing, and my friend has quit it too 98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? No 99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? Yes, haha, but i didn’t do anything                                                                           100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed?

I don’t know tbh

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? No
 103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? I wear what i want 104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? I don’t think i give in easily to peer pressure, and no i don’t smoke, drink or have casual sex 105. What makes you different from people your age? I don’t know?? i’m not studying OR working?? but i’ll start my studies next month tho

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? My computer it think 107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? Loved ones i think, i think i would 108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? Hmm 109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? My cats and maybe the photo albums 110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? Too tired to answer LOL 

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? I want to be healthy, and my family to be healthy and everyone in the world to be healthy in general tbh haha 112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? Loved ones 113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? No 114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? Well kinda, when i was little i wished we had a cat, then we got a cat, lol 115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? Not, not really

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? Independent 122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? People being mean or abusive to other people or animals 123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? I would hope so 124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? They develop personalities 125. Do you think people are generally good ? I believe everyone has something good in them

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? Not really, i’m sick in the head and physically aswell and i have no future plans 127. Do you go on FacebookCraze.com to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? I do not 128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? Really depends 129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? Nope not really 130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? LOL idk, how interesting answers i have