#im prolly gonna feel a bit lost in a few years if i am still alive by then

[satsuma-saturn]

Ive been feeling down could you do some satan comfort? Like im just so overwhelmed and when im like this i either get mad or depressed.

I Am Not A Robot - Satan x Reader

A/N: Dude, I feel you on the being overwhelmed bit. I didn’t really know what route to take this, but I know when I’m laying awake at night, my mind wanders. I was listening to Call Me Kevin videos while writing this and almost wrote in random words that he was saying and that wouldn’t make any actual sense in the fic 💀 I also prolly should’ve waited to write this, since it’s super late and I just want to sleep, but I did want to get this posted, or else it was gonna take awhile before I got to it. Anyway, hope you enjoy, Anon! If it’s not up to your standards, feel free to shoot me a message. I could’ve gone a little more in depth about the reader’s thoughts and feelings, but I just wanted to keep it short and sweet.

WC: 1007

Warning(s): Idk, just general depression ig? Nothing specific tho

Another sleepless night. Moonlight peeked through the curtains, illuminating your face and dark circles. You hadn’t had decent sleep in...well, you couldn’t remember. Staying awake all night left you alone with your thoughts, consuming you. You sat up, running shaky fingers through your unbrushed locks. Your hands slid down from your head, down your face as you groaned. Maybe you needed to do something to take your mind off of the thoughts invading your mind. The library, maybe? Delving into a land of fantasy didn’t sound like a bad way to distract yourself.

Swinging your legs over your bed, you stood up, stretching. With a quick glance at the clock, it was some time after two, you strode out into the hall, shutting your door behind you. You walked down the hall, past the brothers’ rooms. As you passed Leviathan’s room, you could hear some tune from some game, probably. He needed to sleep, but you would be a hypocrite to say anything. None of the other brothers seemed active, though, which didn’t surprise you. They had normal sleeping schedules.

Finally approaching the library, you saw a dim light flooding under the door. Someone probably forgot to turn off all of the lights, the culprit most likely being Satan, since he was the one most often in the library. There was no way he hasn’t read all of the books in the library, being alive as long as he has, yet he was still always in there, reading. He even went in there to read when he was reading ebooks. You found yourself joining him often, trying to hide your little crush on him. With a small sigh, you pushed open the door, you stepped inside, not noticing that you weren’t alone. In fact, you didn’t notice until you heard someone clearing their throat. You jumped, startled by the noise.

“Shouldn’t you be asleep?” It was Satan. He was curled up in a chair, a book propped open in his hands. His eyebrows were high on his forehead as he stared at you, waiting for your response.

“I…” You weren’t sure how to respond. Because you were human, unlike the brothers, they tended to get pissy when you weren’t taking care of yourself. “I could say the same to you, Satan. Why are you in the library so late at night?” Your arms cross over your chest as you wait, pleased with yourself for turning it back on him.

Chuckling he shut his book, setting it on the coffee table in front of his chair. He stood up, striding over to you. “I have an eternity to sleep. You have around a hundred years, give or take a few. Copying your actions, he crossed his arms over his chest. “Again I’ll ask, shouldn’t you be asleep?” Cyan eyes, illuminated by the dim lamp light, bored into your soul as he waited for you to respond. A small, smug grin ghosted his face, as he knew you couldn’t retort.

You sighed, flopping into the nearest armchair. “I couldn’t sleep. Trust me, I’ve been trying for hours. I just...I dunno, I guess I just have a lot on my mind. I thought I’d come here to find some book to read, try to take my mind off of things. I didn’t really expect to come across you here. I thought you were asleep.”

He was silent for a moment, appearing to be lost in thought. “Well, I am here. I couldn’t sleep either, but I don’t technically need it to live. Did you know that it only takes three days of not sleeping for a human to begin hallucinating? The human body will shut down at some point, forcing sleep.”

“I sleep at night, just not very long,” you retorted, not wanting to be lectured about sleep.

“I’m just saying,” Satan said, raising his hands in defense. “Look, if you’re not going to sleep, you may as well come sit with me.” He sat back down, choosing to sit on a couch, instead of the arm chair he’d previously been sitting in. “Come sit over here.” His hand rested on the space directly next to him. You got off the arm chair, taking a spot near him on the couch. It wasn’t quite where he was indicating for you to sit, but your heart might have exploded out of your chest if you sat that close. Since you didn’t sit next to him, he apparently made the decision to sit next to you, as he scooted over stopping when his thigh was touching yours. “What? You don’t wanna sit next to me?”

When he was next to you, you made the bold decision to rest your head on his lap. He didn’t attempt to make you move, so you figured it was alright. “No, I do want to sit next to you. I just sat down here.”

Satan grunted in response, his nimble fingers finding purchase in your hair. “When was the last time you washed your hair?” He asked, rubbing circles into your scalp. “I suppose it doesn’t matter,” he said, not giving you a chance to answer. “You can worry about that later. It’s clear you need some comfort, and lecturing you won’t help. Just...just try to get some sleep, okay? You are far from well rested and humans need proper sleep to function.”

“Okay,” was all you replied with, closing your eyes. You weren’t ready to fall asleep yet, but his fingers against your scalp felt nice, soothing.

“No matter what’s going on in that little human brain of yours, your health is of utmost importance. You have to take care of yourself.” His breath tickled your hair as he leaned down to place a kiss on your forehead. “You aren’t a robot. A simple reboot won’t fix you and I can’t fix you. I can only stand in your corner and be here to comfort you when you need it. Now, get some sleep, or I’ll get Belphegor to help you sleep.”

[womenofcolor15]

OUT OF THE SUNKEN PLACE: Lamar Odom Introduces His New Fitness Queen, Defends Her After Trolls Come For Their #BlackLove

It seems Lamar Odom has gotten out of the Sunken Place and found him a black queen. Now, he's responding to trolls who are bashing their #BlackLove. See their new coupledom flicks, Lamar's clapback and more deets about his fitness guru girlfriend inside...

Lamar Odom says he's WOKE, y'all.

The former NBA player - who was recently released from the Big3 League - has a new woman in his life and he's over the moon!

Last night, the former NBA baller was spotted holding hands with his new girlfriend, Sabrina Parr, while leaving Craig's restaurant in West Hollywood. It was the couple's first public appearance after Odom had to come to her defense on social media.

Just yesterday, Odom - Khloe Kardashian's ex-husband - introduced his new girlfriend to the masses. She's a personal trainer/health & life coach, whose body is #FitnessGoal x 10!

“What we have is much more than they can see...,” Odom captioned a picture of himself with Parr sitting on his lap.

The 39-year-old then posted a picture of his 32-year-old girlfriend with a Malcolm X quote.

“It’s just like when you’ve got some coffee that’s too black, which means it’s too strong, what do you do? You integrate it with cream… But if you pour too much cream in it, you won’t even know you ever had coffee. It used to be hot, it becomes cool. It used to be strong, it becomes weak. It used to wake you up, now it puts you to sleep.” - MALCOLM X @getuptoparr #blackroyalty"

Folks quickly accused him of SHADING his ex-wife, Khloe Kardashian. So, he hopped back on Instagram to defend his new relationship.

Im a bit disappointed to read that people are using my words to enforce their own perceptions and assumptions pointing towards things that just are not MY TRUTH OR REALITY," he wrote.

"This post isn’t against anyone including my ex wife that I still respect deeply. I am just PRO love. Can I do that without people feeling offended? Why does that make you mad? Our black women have been held down for centuries ! I am now deciding to send them and my NEW WOMAN a lot of love. My post goes out to the new leading woman in my life, that I’m gonna tell everyday how beautiful she is, from the inside out. Thanks @getuptoparr for teaching me what real self value means. It changed my entire mindset. #woke"

Now he's deciding to send black women love? Oh.

Earlier this week, the couple was spotted locking lips outside of a Chipotle in Atlanta:

As for his new boo...

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                  Set your life up to smile more and stress less . . #happysunday #smilemore #summertimefine #summerbody

A post shared by Sabrina Parr (@getuptoparr) on Jun 30, 2019 at 10:38am PDT

Parr is a personal trainer and fitness model. According to her personal website, she's a five-time All American track competitor and two-time state champion. Parr returned to lead her alma mater Collingwood High School to a state title as assistant coach. Sabrina also works for ESPN Radio as a broadcaster. Beauty and brains.

While Lamar and Sabrina are basking in their new love, the media is digging up her criminal past.

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                  Good morning! Who needs some motivation today??? I’m here to give it to you!! I am living proof that you can change any and everything about your life if you make your mind up to do so!!! . . I’ll make this short cuz I know y’all getting y’all day started and texting and driving tryna read this lol.... A lot of you don’t know my story (Soon the whole world will). I can hear some of y’all now saying “omg she was in jail?? She prolly beat up some girl” lol. That wasn’t the case in my situation. I was in a very crazy marriage! I won’t get into too many details because we are divorced and moved on now. He’s a great father and I have a lot of respect for him and I’s relationship! I don’t like to say anything bad about him because that was just a time in our life we experienced! What I will say is I encourage EVERYONE to make it an effort no matter what happened to get along with the other parent of your child/children! Being mad and holding onto stuff effects the children more than you may realize. . . Anyways moving on... I was miserable, lost, angry, hurt, unhealthy and just struggling overall just a few years ago. You can see it all in my face on my pic on the left!!!! Then one day I woke up and said to myself “Sabrina this is not you! You’re a beast! You’re a winner! You’re a champion! You’re a giant! You deserve happiness. You deserve peace! Go and get the life you want”! That was literally the conversation! . . From that point on, I been moving forward in the right direction! I continue to make mistakes and stumble along the way... But I never stop the journey! That’s it y’all!!! Figure out where you want to be, where you want to go... and NEVER STOP THE JOURNEY!!! So, how can I motivate and encourage you all today??? . . #happyfriday #motivation #thenandnow #neverstopthejourney #turnadversityintoadvertisement #empowerment #encouragement #getuptoparr #realwoman #legend #atlanta #cleveland

A post shared by Sabrina Parr (@getuptoparr) on Jun 14, 2019 at 7:22am PDT

Lamar's new woman was arrested for assault against after she allegedly attacked her ex-husband with a trophy!

RadarOnline obtained court papers from Cuyahoga County Court in Ohio, which reveals Parr - who has a son - was arrested on May 7, 2015 for attacking her then-husband. The site reports:

She was charged with one count of felonious assault when she allegedly “did knowingly cause serious harm to [victim.]”

For the second count of felonious assault, she allegedly “attempted to cause physical harm to [victim] by means of a deadly weapon or dangerous ordnance, to wit: a trophy.”

For the third and final count, she was charged with allegedly “knowingly causing or attempting to cause physical harm to [victim], a family or household member.”

Parr pled not guilty to the charges against her. She was ordered to have no contact with the victim and their child under a temporary protection order. The temporary protection order was later lifted so she could see their son, as the judge determined, “there is no indication that the child was at risk of any harm concerning the alleged events that took place between the defendant and the victim.”

Sabrina's ex filed for divorce on May 21, 2015. It was finalized on February 2, 2016.

Parr posted her mugshot with an IG caption reflecting on her criminal past. She opened up about making mistakes and how she has grown since the incident.

"I can hear some of y’all now saying 'omg she was in jail?? She prolly beat up some girl' lol. That wasn’t the case in my situation. I was in a very crazy marriage! I won’t get into too many details because we are divorced and moved on now. He’s a great father and I have a lot of respect for him and I’s relationship! I don’t like to say anything bad about him because that was just a time in our life we experienced! What I will say is I encourage EVERYONE to make it an effort no matter what happened to get along with the other parent of your child/children! Being mad and holding onto stuff effects the children more than you may realize...

"Anyways moving on... I was miserable, lost, angry, hurt, unhealthy and just struggling overall just a few years ago. You can see it all in my face on my pic on the left!!!! Then one day I woke up and said to myself “Sabrina this is not you! You’re a beast! You’re a winner! You’re a champion! You’re a giant! You deserve happiness. You deserve peace! Go and get the life you want”! That was literally the conversation! . . "From that point on, I been moving forward in the right direction! I continue to make mistakes and stumble along the way... But I never stop the journey! That’s it y’all!!! Figure out where you want to be, where you want to go... and NEVER STOP THE JOURNEY!!! So, how can I motivate and encourage you all today???" 

Now that all that is behind her, she has seemingly found love with the former NBA player.

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