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#im resigned and bitter and optimistic until im given proof not to be but mostly what i am is tired. not physically just-
beholdthemem
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The universe saw fit to gift my grandmother with a lovely case of covid for Christmas because of course it fucking did, so the past few days have been, uh...
Busy.
#personal
#she's not in the hospital- she did end up going to urgent care on the 25th but they sent her home.
#she did not TELL US she was going to urgent care we found out via whatsapp from my aunt
#who'd been trying to coordinate a family zoom call and was informed by my granddad 'later. we're
#at the hospital now'.
#why did they not call and ask us to drive given that we live TEN MINUTES AWAY and granddad shouldn't be driving at the best of times?
#that i could not tell you. something about 'not wanting to inconvenience-' which is insane
#dad and i have been going up to try and get everything we can done for them since then
#nana's been granddad's caretaker since he got diagnosed but anyone who's had covid can tell you it takes fucking EVERYTHING out of you
#to just fucking walk around. im off work till the 9th thank god so i can be there as often as required but even so...
#I have a sense that i should probably be freaking the fuck out but mostly im just... calm? it's not a happy calm idk what emotion this is
#but it definitely isn't positive- but im not panicking. i feel like new bad info does not surprise me anymore it's just kind of a grit-your-
#teeth-and-adjust-to-handle-shit deal. like. 'mm. god shits in our collective dinner once again. figures.'
#there's no point in flying off the handle just figuring out how to fix things. im not happy but im... steady i guess?
#im resigned and bitter and optimistic until im given proof not to be but mostly what i am is tired. not physically just-
#my brain feels like a wrung out dishcloth. i keep trying to write because i know it'll make me happy if i can but its not working.
#i keep writing paragraphs of shit that aren't matching up with what i want and if somebody gives me some meaningless platitude about
#how maybe it's a sign it should be there and to try and incorporate it ill rip their face off. shut. up.
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