#in good news tho im pretty certain im a dude more sure about pronouns and have a potential name im thinking of!!
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shout out to thomas from ghosts for yoinking me out of a panic attack before it could really get going
#was shaking and trying not to cry and floating somewhere on the ceiling#then friday im in love came on the radio and reminded me of him doing his stupid little dance and it made me smile and calmed me down a bit#but i gotta give myself credit for not panicking at the panic too much and feeding it more#time was when feeling the thing i felt from first year tm would've sent me into a week long spiral#feels so stupid tho all it was was my volunteering manager asked if i wanted to start doing a longer shift#when im already struggling doing two measly hours a week and nothing else like jfc#but that's cos im not on my adhd meds which make life yknow tolerable and im gonna try getting back on them next week#and i also don't wanna start anything else bc i wanna change my name first so it's not quite so complicated#hahaaa it's already complicated and confusing and frustrating as all hell#but ik if i can just be patient and take these few months to figure stuff out it'll be so much better in the long term#im getting support for the gender tm and I've made so much progress in a month#i still feel guilty and ashamed bc im not actively job hunting or doing more volunteering#and like im just making excuses to let my anxiety win when ik i can cope with it#but i can't handle going into another situation where im misgendered and uncomfortable with my name#im at the end of my tether with it and i need to figure it out#wahoo#mine#vent#in good news tho im pretty certain im a dude more sure about pronouns and have a potential name im thinking of!!
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92 Questions Tag Game
I was tagged by @ghoulpunks (heck eeeyeah thanks friendo)
Last:
1. Drink: think it was water (but i rlly want some orange juice rn)
2. Phone call: my boyfriend bc we havent been able to talk in school
3. Text message: i usually use skype to message but my last text was to my friend gillian
4.Song you listened to: i’m listening to take her to the moon by waterparks rn
5.Time you cried: i think it was because the cover from my light on my ceiling fell on my face the other day??
Have you ever:
6. Dated someone twice: nope im still in my first relationship so thats kinda impossible rn
7.Kissed someone and regretted it: never had a legit kiss yo
8.Been cheated on: nope
9.Lost someone special: heck yeah, a lot of times
10.Been depressed: absolutely
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope
12.13.14.List three Favourite colours: blue, red, and yellow
In the last year have you :
15.Made new friends: yeah!!!
16.Fallen out of love: nahh
17.Laughed until you cried: i’m pretty sure??
18.Found out someone was talking about you: no i don’t think so
19.Met someone who changed you: yeah
20.Found out who your friends are: absolutely
21.Kissed someone on your Facebook list: see number 7. (answer is no)
General:
22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them??? (i dont use facebook, my mom manages it pretty much)
23. Do you have any pets: yes!!!!! I have a dog named Chito and i love him very much
24. Do you want to change your name: i used to, but now im comfortable with it
25. What did you do for your last birthday: i cant remember? I think i went to church that day?
26. What time did you wake up: 5:30am (i slept in)
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: bitch i was asleep for once
28. Name something you can’t wait for: the school year to be over (i know it just started like a month ago but shhh)
29. When was the last time you saw your mum: like an hour ago?? idk
30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my mental stability i guess??
31. What are you listening to right now: waterparks
32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah my grandfather
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: idk im pretty chill atm. Maybe the fact that an old friend lied to me the other day like .. multiple times even tho i knew the truth anyway
34. Most visited websites: tumblr i guess? And rabb.it
35. Elementary school: ye??? Idk what this is asking
36. High school: i am currently in high school yes
37. University: yeah im gonna go to that one day
38. Hair colour: blonde
39 . Long or short hair: mine is rlly short but still a longer than it was the last time i posted selfies on here
40. Do you have a crush on someone: idk how to answer this question?? Not really i guess??
41. What do you like about yourself: my eyes, hair and my ability to help others i guess?
42. Piercings: nope
43. Blood type: lol i forgot oops
44. Nickname: ughhh okay. Amy, ames, millie, mill, macklemore, chihuahua, egg, etc.
45. Relationship status: taken
46. Zodiac sign: scorpio (i think????)
47. Pronouns: she/her but i dont really care so y’all can call me whatever
48. Favorite TV show: idk?? I cant remember when i last watched tv
49. Tattoos: uhhh no i dont want one
50. Right or left hand: left
First
51. Surgery: nope
52. Hair dyed: no
53. Sport: t-ball lol
54. Vacation: florida
55. Pair of trainers: they prolly had dora the explorer on them or smth idk
More general
56. Eating: nothing but i had a boiled egg this morning
57. Drinking: nothing rn
58. I’m about to: take a nap bc im Sick
59. Waiting for: the weekend so i can take a break
60. Want: idk?
61. Get married: wait what’s this asking? I wanna have just a chill marriage ig???
62. Career: idk, im thinking psychologist maybe
63. Favorite artist: waterparks and those who dream
64. Place you want to travel: New York
65. Favorite subject: art or english i guess? im not in pe rn but thats pretty alright at my school usually
Which is better
66. Hugs or kisses: depends on the situation
67. Lips or eyes: eyes i guess?? certain lips are Good tho
68. Shorter or taller: it doesnt matter to me; no preference
69. Older or younger: once again no preference
70. Nice arms or nice stomach: hhhh,,,, arms
71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
72. Hookup or relationship: relationship
73. Troublemaker or hesitant: both? I guess??
Have you ever
74. Kissed a stranger: nno
75. Drank hard liquor: nope never gonna do it either
76. Lost glasses/ contact lenses: i lost my glasses a couple times throughout middle school i think??
77. Turned someone down: uhhh a couple times??? but more often i notice where the conversation is going and shut it down somehow before it gets awkward
78. Sex on the first date: no, thank you very much
79. Broken someone’s heart: dont think so
80. Had your heart broken: i guess not?
81. Been arrested: nope
82. Cried when someone died: for sure
83. Fallen for a friend: ….yeah…..
Do you believe in
84. Yourself: sure i guess… to some extent
85. Miracles: yes
86. Love at first sight: i have an unusual opinion on this. i feel like you can see someone and think “that person is special” and find out later on that y’all are perfect for each other, but thats it
87. Santa Claus: uhhhhhhh no
88. Kiss on first date: uhhhh it depends on how well you know the person before the date imo
89. Angels: yes
Other
90. Current best friend’s name: carolyn my dude my buddy my pal my friend (also blake !!)
91. Eye colour: a confusing mess (they’re hazel)
92. Favorite movie: Sing Street is a 2016 musical coming-of-age comedy-drama film co-written, co-produced and directed by John Carney. Starring Ferdia Walsh-Peelo, Lucy Boynton, Maria Doyle Kennedy, Aiden Gillen, Jack Reynor, and Kelly Thornton, the story revolves around a boy starting a band to impress a girl in 1980s Ireland. It is an international co-production from Ireland, the United States, and United Kingdom.
im sorry i dont feel like tagging anyone so if you wanna do it, go wild pals
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