#it doesn't feel gratifying. it doesnt feel deserved. it just feels wrong. and off. why do things have to be this way. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

skitskatdacat63 · 22 days ago

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Ship dynamic in which the older, more jaded Character A insists to the younger, idealistic Character B that their youthful idealism will eventually be ground down by the harsh realities of the world, based off their own personal experience, much to B's disagreement. But then, when A actually witnesses B lose that sparkle in their eye over time, they don't feel as triumphant as they thought they'd feel. Maybe deep down, they had hoped that B would prove them wrong.

#patronizing in a way in the first place but it comes from a place of care #trying to soften the eventual blow but instead it feels like they caused a self fufilling prophecy #A is like. well this is what happened to me so i want you to be prepared for it to happen to you #coming from a place of knowledge and maybe A feels that B is foolhardy and childish #but hoped that B would actually be right. that they could change the world with their idealism #so seeing them actually ground down by the world. not be able to beat the odds. to just become what A is #makes A realize something about themselves. that they had just accepted it. was ground down #but then actually seeing the light go out of the person's eyes #someone that reminded them of a younger version of their self that had been destroyed #it just feels wrong :( they wish they could put the light back in B's eyes. wish they hadn't been ultimately right.#this can be read both platonically or in a shippy way. very mentor-ish #ship dynamic so good i had to bring it out of the dms #no one except one person will know what this comes from HDJFJGKVKVKVK #but gah idk really thinking about this. being a grumpy adult annoyed by the youth #but then when the youth ceases being a youth and starts to become the same sort of worn down grumpy adult #it doesn't feel gratifying. it doesnt feel deserved. it just feels wrong. and off. why do things have to be this way.#annoyed at first by their idealism bcs they themselves learned the hard way how foolish it is #but watching them lose that idealism is even worse #ANYWAYS. THINKING.#i feel like i start to get very redundant when i write tags bcs im like AM I MAKING SENSE and then just end up repeating the same ideas #catie.rambling.txt

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