#it just makes me sad that the interaction is not reciprocated bc the energy i give is sincere

[noxtivagus]

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[angy-mouse]

that reminds me of this post I saw forever ago about how to react to someone coming out and they put it into words so well

basically reciprocate their energy. if they're super excited "FUCK YEAH IM GAY!!!" then celebrate with them. if they're super nervous and explain/talk their way thru it then thank them for telling u and reassure them. if they mention it super casually in passing then you act that way too. don't make it more or less of a deal than they are. and when you really look at it thats fairly similar to empathy. idk the best word for it but just being open and receptive to others emotions and actions and picking up on their body language and reacting accordingly.

n e ways here's a picture of mouse and her family at the beach hanging w me and my family (colorized) (real not fake)

there are two conversations/topics happening in this one ask

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right, basically just match their energy. it's their thing so if they act like it's not a big deal then it isn't, if they act like it is then it is. it's like my cousin acts so straight and neurtotypical even tho she identifies as either lesbian or bi and says she has anxiety and she constantly 'thats not a big deal why are you acting like that' and 'why would you say that thats so weird' and i can only handle like 3-4 hours with her when she comes up to stay with her mom before im like yeah i dont wanna be around you anymore and its not that she's neccessarily a bad person its just that she literally cannot comprehend that i think differently than her and it makes me feel bad when im around her too much

RANT ALERT MY BAD

another thing about her bc i dont get to vent to my therapist anymore: remember me talking about always being right about bad vibes? I told her her bf sounded emotionally manipulative at best and abusive at worst and she told me i was wrong. then he went thru her contact to get my snap (bc they shared their contacts thru google bc thats a sign of a healthy 2-month old relationship) and lied to her, saying i added him and was flirting with him, I sent the screenshots proving him wrong and she basically said 'oh ok' with no apology and to my knowledge nothing said to him about it. I talked with her irl about this and expressed my sadness at her thinking i would lie to her bc ive literally never done that and told her hes clearly okay with lying to her face which is a manipulative trait, she said she knows but im definately wrong about him it was an honest mistake, in fact the same thing happened with another girl. then on my way home i got a lot of all-caps cussing messages from him telling me to mind my business, and screenshots of her lying about the interaction to him.

then a year later after no communication bc i told her to stop feeding her bf lies about me and keep him out of my inbox she calls and puts all the blame on him for manipulating her and tries to act like nothing happened between us but she wants to talk about what we used to when i told her everything and im like yeah, im never telling you anything of substance ever again bc who knows when youre gonna date someone new and give it all to them bc they dont like me

anyways its scary how much that picture looks like my actual family like i can pick out every member of my family there how dare you leak our family photo /j

[aresrl]

I hihi I am!!! A little nervous w/ doing this bc I've never done this b4 so please bear🐻 w// me💦 May I request a match up? A vision, a romantic partner and maybe a friend and/or enemy? If that's too much feel free to just assign me a vision + partner, ehe/// Preferably male for a romantic match-up, but either gender is fine with a friend and enemy match-up^^ I tried to be as detailed as possible but I think I ended up just ranting, so im v v sorry if it's long! I sort of fluctuate when it comes to being an introvert/extroverted. W// strangers and irl, I'm very introverted and shy!! Rarely speak and if I do it's just the usual "Hi how are you? That's good. I'm good too, thank you for asking:)" yeayea I'm not too. Keen on social interaction irl. But I always do my best to be very nice!! I never wanna come off as mean bc wow what a bad first impression that would be. But with friends / ppl ik online?? Whew I am very very friendly n chatty ^^ Either very high energy or very chill, there's rarely any inbetween. Sometimes I like to jokingly tease my friends but I'd never go too far / make them uncomfortable!! And if I do I always apologize right away!! I like to say that I'm affectionate?? My strongest love language is def physical affection, if not quality time. Idk man there's just something about vibing with someone or hugging them that just aaaaa/// Although I usually display affection w// words of affection bc. Literally most of my friends are online friends so I can't actually hug them, sad times. Idk if this is needed/important info but I just remembered: I'm 5'6 around??? Need glasses bc. Whew i am blind (near sighted), I'm poc (specifically black) anndd, hm. Actually I think thats it for this section, aha. As you can see I'm, not really all that organized. Also I don't have the best attention span - while writing this I'm circling between 4 different apps - and I'm a bit of a mess. And also a little stupid. Just a smidge dumb. But I have my moments - I solved like. 2 puzzles in Inazuma by myself so I think that counts for something. I also find that I tend to talk a whole lot when I have an idea or smthn to say abt a thing I'm super interested in!! That's info-dumping. I info dump. Yes. I also really like to listen to other people talk abt things they like!!!! Its so nice :) I'm protective over people I care about!! I've never done it but 100% would bark at someone who messed with someone close to be. Arf arf yaknow. I tend to he impulsive. I'll do something, and be all "YEAH>:D" and then regret it later. And then I'll do it all over again in a fun little cycle :) I consider myself an optimist, but quickly turn into a pessimist whenever it concerns myself. Fun funfun. Should probably mention that I am. A very insecure person w/ dangerously low self esteem, which is super fun esp when you mix that with the fact that I'm rarely ever motivated to improve. Yayayay Also sort of a pushover?? Like most often than not I'll be convinced to do something, even if I'm not too keen on doing it. Also afraid of confrontation when it comes to my friends and strangers (that is, if it's concerning me!! I'll order smthn for my friend but if I need to order for myself?? uhh stutter time aha). I'm also a mega simp ahah! Srsly though if I fall for someone/get infatuated with someone I. Will be so obvious abt it even though I try very hard not to be. Would gush over that person probably. I don't really like mean people tbh. Like yes I'll be nice and civil with them but!!! I cannot stand!!! Rude people!!! Esp when they're mean for no reason like sir??? maam??? homie??? chill pls ty<3 People who aren't necessarily mean, but moreso have bastard energy and are just really "hehe>:D" but playfully are p poggers tho!!! I think I get along with kids!! I have a little sister,, around like. Nine? And we get along really well!! I also try and match a kid's energy whenever I'm tasked with looking after them. I take pride in the fact that kids like me >:].... even if they sometimes scare me-- Ok, interest time!!

I like art!! Quite a bit!! Less of a realistic artist and more of a cartoonist!! Idk there's just something fun abt drawing cartoons, hehe. I also like self ships - I have quite a bit of them, actually ! Idk its comforting drawings your fictional crushes loving you idkidk. I like writing too! Both original stories, and one-shots or personal fics that are associated with already created media!! Writing character backstories and personalities and stuff is also fun too! I've even made my own fictional world with a full fledged backstory n everything! It's very fun to think about. I'm a day dreamer!!! Yea remember when I said I write stories? I day dream abt potential stories even more. Mmm daydream world so nice so warm so fun I read aswell!! Mostly fantasy books, or stories where animals are the protagonists. Think Warrior Cats. But my favorite book series has got to be Guardians of Ga'Hoole. Fantasy owl books, anyway! X Readers are also things I enjoy reading :) Again, s I m p Also gaming!!! Is something fun I do sometimes!!! Although it's usually Genshin Impact, or Wii Sports/Resort w// my little sister. Oh, also pokemon! I rlly like Primarina, Vaporeon, Sylveon and Vulpix/Ninetails! I absolutely adore sweet foods, and baking is smthn I'm def interested in! Don't like foods w// weird textures though, like beans or mashed potatoes. Also I. Love spice so much. Mmm love it when my mouth burns so bad. Don't have a favorite animal but I've had three cats in my lifetime (btw not important but my current cat is named Sylvester and. He's my baby boy) so I am. A very big cat fan. Probably not needed but I really like sword and claymore characters. Literally all of the characters I main are either sword or claymore users. Although I did get Diona, so I miiight start forcing myself to learn how to aimmm. I see that I tend to like people/characters that are a little more extroverted than me. Upbeat, happy type beat!!! Nice sunshine babies, :) I think thats it! I hope this was good enough? Again, first time doing this (at 2am nonetheless) so forgive me if I got too rambly or did anything wrong ^^ Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this! And I hope your day is good / you had a good day, depending on when you read this, ehe!

Hey! Sorry if the wait has been long! I also love Warrior Cats (I promise myself, one day I'll finish it.)

You received... A Pyro vision! Optimistic, enthusiastic, impulsive, reckless, and a lot of energy are the general characteristics held by the Pyro vision. • I hesitated between the Pyro and Hydro vision, but your energy distinguishes you from the Hydro vision. • You said you were impulsive, always doing something you might regret later but still doing it. • You react quickly: as you said, if somebody hurt someone you love, you won't think twice before barking. Your partner would be... Xingqiu! “This feeling was unexpected.” • At first, you were just friends, and Xingqiu really loved to tease you. Actually, you both teased each other. But eventually, a feeling of love towards you grew into Xingqiu. And that was reciprocated. • Your relationship is filled with teases, jokes, and good/funny moments where you mostly share what you commonly appreciate. • He also knows when to get serious: for example, he does everything to support you during your moments of struggle concerning your self-esteem. Your friend would be... Childe! “Luckily, I'm here!” • You two also share funny moments, especially during situations where your “stupidity” is overtaken by his insight. • Sometimes, he finds you cute. • He likes the fact that you get along well with kids. It leads you to great moments with him and his siblings. • You're quite the opposite in terms of self-esteem. I think it's a good thing because it makes you complementary. Your enemy would be... Albedo! A misunderstanding. • You wouldn't hate each other, but I think Albedo wouldn't like the way you use your energy, and when you're more in a chill mood (meaning you're more available for him to talk), he could get pissed at how much times he'd have to repeat himself for you to understand something. • He's very patient, but he understood quickly that his interests would maybe not be within your reach. • You would just be too different. Worth to mention • You and Venti are like drama queens in Mondstadt. You are good friends. But you both know that you can't be more, as it would eventually both drag you down (because of similar problems). • Klee is also your best friend: both of you share decisions that you definitely will regret later. Or maybe not. • Hu tao and you are kinds of silently competing over who's the best tease, and she beats you. My goal is definitely not achieved. I hope I can catch up tomorrow. And don't worry, it was surprisingly good for a first description!

[allmyspideys]

it's who you miss (t.h.)

Summary: based on this text post. You’re at a party and you should be happy hanging out with friends, but you can’t help but think about the one that’s missing

Warnings: idk none really but there’s a slight sad mood to it a little. A little angsty in a part. overall fluff

A/N: I love this post bc it's super true!! Also, requests are open so send me some concepts!! also listen to this playlist for some great vibes

Dim lights, lots of people and laughter filling your ears, a couple of shouts from the stack cup game in the back corner, people making out on couches, a few more huddled around the snacks and pj container. 

You could feel the thumping of the speaker in your body as you made your way through the huddles of people to the kitchen. You couldn’t help but look at the eyes of every person you passed, hoping that just one of them would be the set of warm brown eyes that you were looking for. The eyes that you couldn’t get out of your head and the amazing person they were attached to that you couldn’t help but think about. 

You knew that you should be happier and more willing to party; it was your best friend's birthday party after all, but your mind was just consumed with thoughts of the boy that you didn’t want to admit owned your heart. You thought he was going to be here, but you hadn't seen him yet and it was well past the time that people showed up. It was more the time of finding some random person to make out with and maybe, just maybe, go home with. Normally you'd take part in the festivities, but the one guy you wanted the most just wouldn't get off your mind. In fact, the main thing on your mind was the last interaction you had.

(flashback) Tom had just come home from filming some new project and the first person he wanted to see was you. Harry had picked him up from the airport, super excited to get to see his brother again, but he was a little alarmed by Tom's first request.

"Mate, I gotta see Y/N," he said, looking down at his hands and heart beating faster than normal. See Tom had realized something about his best friend during an interview and needed to tell you. He was surrounded by beautiful people that he should have been more attracted to, and friends he should have been more engaged with, but all he could think about was you. He found a way to slide your name into every interview. Just talking about you made him feel less alone, less unloved, despite all the love he got from his friends and family. 

It was in that moment that Tom knew he was in love with his best friend. His mum had always warned him that love might hit when he least expected it. She said "mind your own business and the truest love will hit you". Tom knew that the things he felt for you were more than just friends and he needed to tell you.

He couldn't help but feel nervous as he knocked on your door. Tom could feel his heart pounding and Harry's eyes peering at him from the car. The second you opened the door though, everything felt right again. Tom was in love with you; Tom was in love with his best friend. You looked so beautiful in sweatpants that were probably his, at this point he didn't know whose Adidas sweats were whose, and a huge tshirt that was definitely his.

"Y/N," he said breathlessly. He knew he had some major heart eyes, but Tom couldn't help it. He hadn't seen you in so long and missed you so much. You flung yourself into his arms, just excited to see your best friend.

"You miss me?" Tom laughed into your ear.

"Not at all," you quipped back.

When you pulled away, you noticed something off with Tom. He looked good, he always looked good, but something about his energy was just off.

"Y/N, I love you," Tom said, looking into your eyes for some kind of understanding and reciprocity. 

You just laughed, Tom's heart fluttering at the sound. 

"I love you too! You want some tea?" As you turned to go inside and make some tea, Tom grabbed your hand, pulling you back to him

You knew immediately what was off. Tom was in love with you and it scared you. You had thought about it a lot, but he was your best friend. If it didn't work out, you would not only lose your love, but also your best friend, and that cost was too high to dive deep into the thought of loving Tom.

"Tom.." you trailed off.

"I'm in love with you," he said, still full of hope. You thought he hadn't thought the cost through because once he did, he'd move on. 

"Tom," you pulled your hand away from him, " we've talked about this. We've laughed about this, every time one of your family members mentions us getting married. We laugh it off, remember". You knew this wasn't what Tom wanted to say, but you couldn't lose him, even if it meant losing his love. He'd get over it, you knew he would.

"Yeah I know, but listen Y/N. It's about who you miss when you have everyone else with you," he was trying to explain it to you. Tom used to feel the same way you did. Losing you was too much of a threat, but the thought of you gave him more love than everyone else combined. 

"I'm sorry Tom," you felt like you couldn't breath, "I just don't get it".

Tom couldn't lose you, so he was determined to get over it. He just wanted to keep his best friend, so he kissed your hand and turned to leave.

"It's okay Y/N," he assured you before getting back in the car with Harry.

That was the last time you saw your best friend. You'd texted every now and then, but definitely less than before. Now, here you were, standing in a room full of your friends, at your best friend's birthday party, and yet, you couldn't feel more lonely, all because one person was missing. That's when it hit you; you understood what Tom was saying. You were surrounded by friends and having a good time, but you just wanted to share it with Tom.

Quickly, you pulled out your phone to call him. You were trying to make sense of just one of the many thoughts that were racing through your head, but all you could make sense of was Tom. He didn't pick up, but you needed to tell him.

"Tom! I get it! It's who you miss when you're in a room full of people, not when it's 3AM and you're all alone. I miss you." In that one I miss you, there were so many things unsaid: I love you, I'm in love with you, I'm an idiot, I love you again. 

You hung up a little defeated, but so happy that you could finally admit that you're in love with your best friend, and so excited for whatever came next. 

"So you missed me." You heard Tom's voice behind you, knowing that he had heard that entire voicemail. You turned around to look at those beautiful brown eyes you'd been looking for all night. You snaked your hands around Tom's neck and pulled him down to you, and finally kissed him. You could feel Tom smile into the kiss and the vibrations of his laugh against your lips.

"It's always you Y/N".

[thafreshquince]

i like a boy. a lot. a lot, a lot. and i am feeling. real weird. about it. 

we work together, which already makes it less than ideal because, as my father would say, “you don’t fish off the company dock,” and it’s hard to actually work when we’re together. we clicked instantly. we get along so well and it’s like we can talk about anything with each other. never have i been so open with someone so quickly. i “came out” to him as being non-binary and pansexual or whatever tf i am and he was totally accepting and thought it was cool. he was one of the first people i’d actually said it out loud to. we make each other laugh a lot. he’s so kind and empathetic. i have also never been so physically attracted to a dude before. he has the greenest eyes i’ve ever seen. i don’t know what it is about him, but i like him.

this would all be well and good if he didn’t have a girlfriend. which is honestly fine because i don’t feel compelled to act on this attraction, and the fact that he has a gf guarantees that i won’t. what is not fine though is that i think my feelings are reciprocated and he gets more flirtatious every time we work together. he compliments me all the time. he thinks i’m adorable. especially when i’m wearing headbands because i’m trying to grow out my hair and i can’t keep it out of my face. last night he asked me which of the two other guys i work with should he be jealous of w/r/t their time spent with me. we usually end up in each other’s personal space, and on several occasions he has come and stocked items off of my cart instead of using his own so we could still talk or be close to each other or whatever. he likes to look at my necklaces. he was All About my tattoo (which is on my thigh) when i showed him a pic of it and keeps asking when he gets to see it in person. last week he broke the “touch barrier” by putting his hand on my shoulder. last night he did it again, and he touched my arm and he lifted the hood on my sweatshirt so he could “read the back” and he squeezed both of my hands in his when we combined our sign piles at the end of the night. all i could do was smile. it’s all so comfortable. it feels. right, i guess. we were both sad that time passes so quickly when we are together. he wants to hang out outside of work. i want to hang out outside of work. this is all very bad.

he doesn’t talk about his girl much at all, and lately when he has brought her up it’s been like....”man, relationships are great and all, but they’re a lot of work!” or telling me how she doesn’t put enough effort into their relationship and they’d broken up before because of it, or that she’s pretty anti-social and gets mad at him for being out late or that she doesn’t communicate with him well enough. or telling me that he met another girl that he had intense energy with and that it is confusing for him bc he’s already in a relationship. but he’s just gonna see where this energy takes him. he’s open to dating someone new. but he’s still with his girlfriend. when he does this, i don’t say anything. nothing for me to say.

it only really sunk in yesterday that this is not going anywhere good. it just can’t be. couldn’t get sza lyrics outta my head. why you bother me when you know you got a woman? love galore on repeat. honestly that whole album has been eerily relevant. i’m playing myself. i am probably getting played. shortly after this epiphany, he asked me if something was wrong. why was i being so distant with him. i couldn’t say it. i was still mulling it over, psycho-analyzing myself and everything he’s ever said to me, every non-verbal interaction. it’s got me fucked up and i don’t know what to do about it and i don’t feel comfortable being like “hey homie we gotta address this flirtatiousness and tone it tf down,” bc i think i’ve been gaslighting myself into thinking it’s just friendliness or just How He Is. the last time i got close to addressing our dynamic he just told me not to think about it too much. i dunno. this is a mess.