#it says “we” bc i share a bday w one of my uni friends !!

[lacharcutiere]

i’m alive n i’m 20 n i beat teen pregnancy <33 (my bday was last friday and i had an existential crisis the night before at 11:30 pm about being in my 20s and accidentally got way too high to feel less weird about it) (and then i almost blacked out the night of)

enjoy this pic of my bday cake, made by urs truly

also i wanna get back to writing on here bc i haven’t rly written anything that’s not a philosophy paper in a hot minute !! lowk i have less time/attention span now but if u have any requests (esp for hcs!!) send em my way:)

[webslingingslasher]

hiii it's sleepover anon again ;____;

it's my bday and ahahah i'm not having a good time..... i mean, ever since that night actually. i haven't confronted my bffs bc bff1 was at the beach for like 2 weeks and and bff2 was mia. i wanted to talk to both of them in person and i didn't want to push thru if we weren't complete so i've been waiting.. but anw i've just been civil w them. no actually, i've been dry hahah. but i think i'm just gonna have to confront both of them either on call or individually bc my bff's leaving to return back to her uni abroad like tmrw. smh

but the reason why bff2 was mia is bc she's been feeling bad abt that night.. she msged me last night and apologized for being mia and that was the reason why, then she greeted me. i haven't even confronted them but i guess she realized it herself, how mean she was lol.. i still want to bring it up tho, ik she's gonna feel even worse when i do, but idk i just can't let it slide y'know.. plus bff1 has no clue of whats rly going on so i have to bring it up bc both of them still quite literally talked abt me behind my back so.

anw. i've been rly down ever since bc i had no one to share my happiness with... i do have other friends but it's just not the same bc our dynamic is different. i just feel so down and rly empty now... nothing fuels me except my comfort shows and movies, but they're just distractions.

i also went to watch barbie for my bday today, and there were 3 misogynist guys (i think they were high schoolers) who were rly fucking noisy and annoying.. during the mom's speech (i forgot her name but iykyk, i don't want to spoil), one of them went "that sucks" sarcastically and they were giggling bc they noticed everyone staring at them for being annoying as fuck.. literally went "they're staring at us *giggling*" like the fuckkk... also, one of them groaned twice like really fucking loudly, almost screaming like wtf... i do not even know what to say about that. i feel like they were feeling cool for being a nuisance and got attention 😒 they rly ruined my barbie experience AND ON MY BDAY!!!!! i srsly wanted to push them down the stairs i kid u not.. and at the end of the movie when everyone left, u'd see their spot full of trash from their food and drinks just splattered everywhere... fucking pigs. i didn't even enjoy the movie like at all bc of them and i'm rly pissed bc it was supposed to be the highlight of my bday.. i just genuinely wanted to have a good time WHY R MEN SO FUCKING TRASHHHH

anw that's all. sorry my asks are long ;__; i don't rly have anyone to confide in anymore.. u don't rly have to reply to this if u don't want to btw no pressure!

also fyi i am a constant consumer of ur peter works and i'm very grateful for u. can't wait for ur frat!peter series heheh and thank u so much for making this a safe space🥺💗 wishing u well mwahugs<3

first- HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🥳🥳🥳

tbh it sounds like bff2 had a wake up call, or imo seems like the person that will jump in and make fun of someone else so they’re not getting made fun of.

bff2 apologized on her own behalf and that speaks volumes.

((you’re so welcome, i am very glad to have you here and happy to know you have a safe space ❤️))

[yyxgin]

a lot has happened at work recently!! but who cares bleh. libra season!!! which means bday celebrations!! except i’m at work BOO 👎 and my two assistant managers have officially left (i’m helping them move on wednesday) and they were probably the only two who knew when my bday was apart from my supervisor but he’s gone to a different branch to train to be an assistant manager before coming back so i’m super bummed bc now i have to deal w al the new staff by myself 😭

also one of the ladies in kp read my palms?? and she told me i spend too much money impulsively which isn’t false… but i have to spend money impulsively or if spend none at all (which is good for saving ig) but i’d also be doing nothing other than working and that would make me sad lol. she also told me bc i’m a libra this month i’ll be unlucky with love but lucky with money so 🥺🙏🙏 i was having a relatively bad day that day so she was cheering me up n all of that.

did i tell you when my txt and skz albums came, they also came like a week or two later (again) bc they’d accidentally doubled up my order? it was like heaven with skz bc changbin baby is my ult n he was in some of the pulls for the second album 🥵🥵 the limited edition of no easy confuses me bc it’s not like the last one of theirs i bought and typically groups stick to a style when they design albums like mamamoo are all in these cute magnetic flip box thingies and nct’s are all little books type things as well as txt’s but skz switched it up and there’s a fair bit of loose stuff? but it’s okay bc i have two posters n all of the mini flip card things for the members and some bangchan (i’m gifted in pulling chan).

im also hopefully getting a car?? the barman hasn’t gone to prison yet bc the court keep moving his sentencing date(s?) so when i discussed this w my mum she said they’ll probably throw it out and relief filled me!! but ik i shouldn’t be so hopeful but at the same time it’s like why would you mess someone around so much? anyway i’ll move on, i wanted to drop him home in my car bc he deserves a lift everyday what a sweetheart❣️ my co-worker facetimed me today as it was my day off and i said hi to everyone it was so heartwarming to see everyone missing me but also not bc my manager overworks me and he knows that after this weekend 💉🩸

im jumping about with my points and things i want to say but i’m horrible at internet friends so this is okay for me as recently i’ve just not had energy for any friends which is awful of me but i’m still trying to find the balance between work and social. also everyone’s gone to uni and i’m just chilling. i like my life.

i want to redecorate my room. i don’t like the vibe other than when people compliment my kpop wall bc it’s a bunch of my art and then other peoples art and i thoroughly enjoy decorating w pictures and stickers and stuff but it’s literally just a door and it’s depresses me that my happiness is reduced to the back of a singular door now. i want to redo the vibe in my room and make it more me. i’ve never felt comfortable until recently and even now i’m going back to feeling uncomfy now that i know i want it a certain way and to give a certain vibe. idk, maybe it’s bc i watched sex education and seeing lily’s room in the most recent season (i won’t say much more in case you are watching/haven’t seen it yet) really made me realise i want to love myself and love the space i create for myself more. do you enjoy your space you’ve created for yourself? i always feel like peoples rooms say a lot about them as a person but how they see their room in their own eyes always says more.

i want to ask loads of questions and am awful at asking them so please just tell me everything i missed or should be updated on!! ily, always

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LIBRA SEASON !!! omg did i ask you when's your bday ?? i hope i didn't miss it. >:( happy birthday !!!! you deserve so much love. also, i'm sorry about your managers leaving. dealing with new staff is hella stressful and i hope you don't have to have too much responsibility and nerves <3

ooh palm readings are hella interesting. i've never had one but i think i'd like to try. spending money impulsively isn't a bad thing, if it's not an irresponsible spending. and if it is,, well who cares. yolo. i feel you on that tho, bc even tho i am really stingy w money, sometimes i just buy stuff i don't need and act on impulse.

OMG THAT IS A DREAM ?? getting free albums ?? (at least i hope they were free lmao). i like it when groups stick to one type of packaging although i must say i dont like the book thingies nct uses bc there is no magnetic part so it falls apart on my shelf and i hate that. i acutally like the sleeve packaging txt's albums have ?? everyone seems to bitch abt it on tiktok but i find it the most conveniet. also i'm glad changbin came home to you <3

YAAAY TO THE CAR !! AND ALSO TO YOUR COWORKER. i am praying he won't have to go, then, i am really hopeful. he is a sweet soul and doesn't deserve that. pleeease don't put up with your boss overworking you. take care of yourself :(

YOURE NOT HORRIBLE AT INTERNET FRIENDS we are besties. okay ??? and its totally okay to have no energy for friends as well, bc as you can see, i am struggling as well recently. it took me so long to reply to this ask and i feel so bad but it is what it is :// social battery has been low and i am busy with studying and work and trying to put my shit together. i am rooting for you !! <3

go for the decorating !! i actually haven't watched sex education and am not planning on watching so i dont really understand what you mean, but i hope you get to create a space for yourself when you feel free and comfortable. i share a room with my brother so its kind of difficult to decorate it how i want it, but i honestly like sharing a room tbh. he's not here half the time anyway so it's good to see him at least when we go to sleep lmao. but i have a bunch of stuff in my corner that are kpop and my side is full of plants, so i feel good surrounded by them hihi. i like it here.

i don't have many updates. i am actually living a very boring life, so i have nothing to share. preparing for graduation exams has been making me anxious and also depressed with everything that's been going on lately, but it's okay. i'll pull myself together <3 i love you a lot, take care !! i missed you