#it's not a diagnosis it's not 'treatable' it's not billable BUT

[faeriekit]

This is more mental health but my people pleasing tendencies are so severe that I accidentally started pretending I was getting less anxious and solving interpersonal conflicts in order to make my therapist feel like he was having a positive effect on me. I didn't want him to feel bad. Once I saw how happy he was about my "progress" I couldn't bear to correct him and eventually started strategizing how I'd answer when he asked how I'd been.

Unrelated, but a different therapist once described me as "sensitive" and not only had this never occurred to me as a possible description of myself, it shocked me and hurt my feelings so severely that I cried about it. Which sort of felt like proving her right, if I'm honest about it.

TMI but me before I got on meds for my rampant RSD 💀jhghvhbjnlkg I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for your poor therapist. If it helps, they definitely didn't say it to be mean, although it's not as helpful of a declaration as, like, something treatable or something easier to research. High Sensitivity is, like...a in informal trait marker for a couple of different possibly atypical neurotypes. It's just sort of floating around in the collective psych professional hivemind at the moment.