#sorta. Mental health?

[faeriekit]

This is more mental health but my people pleasing tendencies are so severe that I accidentally started pretending I was getting less anxious and solving interpersonal conflicts in order to make my therapist feel like he was having a positive effect on me. I didn't want him to feel bad. Once I saw how happy he was about my "progress" I couldn't bear to correct him and eventually started strategizing how I'd answer when he asked how I'd been.

Unrelated, but a different therapist once described me as "sensitive" and not only had this never occurred to me as a possible description of myself, it shocked me and hurt my feelings so severely that I cried about it. Which sort of felt like proving her right, if I'm honest about it.

TMI but me before I got on meds for my rampant RSD 💀jhghvhbjnlkg I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for your poor therapist. If it helps, they definitely didn't say it to be mean, although it's not as helpful of a declaration as, like, something treatable or something easier to research. High Sensitivity is, like...a in informal trait marker for a couple of different possibly atypical neurotypes. It's just sort of floating around in the collective psych professional hivemind at the moment.

[i-eat-deodorant]

[yukipri]

If someone told me I was a handsome, perfect little boi as frequently as I say it to my cats, I too would probably walk around like I owned the place, sitting on/knocking over whatever I please

[pallanophblargh]

It’s wintry here, so have a… harpysona?

Art block still showing no real signs of letting up.

“Bup bup bup bup!”

[orange-orchard-system]

I wouldn't say everyone is plural in the way that everyone has lots of folks in their head, or even multiple versions of themselves, but I think a lot of people would benefit from viewing themselves in similar ways to plural folk. With a plural perspective, one learns to embrace their complexity and parts (not just in the parts language sense; in a general sense), and not treat them as somehow separate from themselves. Healthy plurality requires communication and cooperation amongst headmates (even if that varies from plural to plural), and to do that properly – to eliminate and manage disputes – one must learn to accept all of who they are and listen to themselves, not tuck parts of themselves away and never share them with their system. Can headmates struggle with communication and cooperation? Can headmates prefer to keep certain things to themselves? Of course, and privacy is as warranted to individual headmates as by anyone else. But my point remains: a (healthy) plural perspective is one that goes against unnecessary suppression, encourages openness and understanding with oneself, and allows one to accept their many working parts, listening to all of who they are and taking all their voices – whether literal or metaphorical – into account.

This is at odds with the implicit teaching that certain parts of oneself are to be separated and then overcome or simplified. For example, fear. A good number of people can accept that they get scared sometimes, right? Or at the very least, anxious? But not a lot of people accept that fear as a part of them, something that's trying to protect them and communicate with them. Unless danger is obviously present, fear is often treated as irrational, unneeded, and just a plain ol' bother, something to be stamped out, not accepted and listened to.

But listening to fear is often the most effective way of handling it. Asking your fear, "Why are you here? What are you trying to protect me from?" and then devising a strategy to handle it often yields great results, as fear often fades when shown that you're not going to be eaten by the metaphorical tiger (or at least, have a plan for dealing with the metaphorical tiger) that it's trying to warn you about. Does my fear always completely go away when I do this? No, but it lessens much more when told, "See, I know how to handle this." or "There's nothing we can do about that now, but here's some other things we can do to make things better." compared to when it's told, "You're just going to make things worse."

My fear is not sentient or sapient. It doesn't even have a proper voice. And yet, it is a part of me I listen to, in order to lead a healthier and happier life.

Reach out to all parts of yourselves and don't be afraid to have layers. It's just part of the natural complexity of existence

[angelpuns]

I'm glad that I got like a job and stuff but I know I'm gonna get burnt out so so so so fast just based on the amount of hours I come home and just zone out while on my phone instead of doing things I enjoy :/

[bellatrixnightshade]

this is for people who can relate, but does it bother you when others say stuff to you, like "you shouldn't be hard on yourself" "Stop placing so much expectations on yourself!"?

It doesn't work that way. It doesn't "stop." yeah, if it just stopped when I dropped it believe me it would have gone away by now.

And we work on it. But you know what's worse? These people giving shit advice don't even show that they care. They are emotionally distant from you and yet act like your friend. They don't provide reasons for you to trust them, or even see them as worthy of listening to. They come to the aid of other people and yet ignore you. When they finally do see your issues, that's when they give "oh you're awesome I like you don't have so high of an expectation UwU"

They never personally ask you if you are doing okay. they ask in public. Dude maybe I don't want to say how I feel when other people can listen/read what I say.

idk I'm so tired of the very people who make me feel like I'm not enough thinking they have ANY right to just give me horrible advice.

EDIT: also if you don't actually care don't bother talking to me or other people about whether we are fine or not. Go take your fake ass kindness somewhere else. Only seek us out when you are genuine.

[milimeters-morales]

I don’t really have the right words but i like the idea of Hobie doing quick checks for people’s safety without even really moving too much, as both a skill learned from his childhood and just a way he would be anyway. Like let’s say Gwen is calling him and she’s crying but sounds very detached. Hobie’s gonna do a quick mental checklist like this: (Injured? -> Alone? -> Aware? -> Show up -> distract as hiding weapons -> calm her -> check speech -> move location? -> check for injury) and it gets more complex as need be. He’d do this with all his friends and the people he helps in general, and it’s a quick and barely noticeable process unless he tells you he’s even doing that, which he usually doesn’t. I also like to think he was kind of doing this when he was talking to Miles on the way to meet Miguel, just very toned down (for him).

[rainbow-femme]

I love playing a Just Some Guy Tav

No tragic backstory, no magic powers, absolutely just out buying groceries or taking a walk when they got captured

And now just forced not only to be on this adventure but somehow ended up as the leader, bumbling around in circles and making dumbass decisions, hearing the sudden pack of new friends discuss their years of abuse and just being like

“Oh jeez, bud, that’s awful.”

“I didn’t know people could get so many things shoved in their chests, I kinda thought hearts were mandatory and there wasn’t a lot of room in there for extra bits.”

“I don’t know what a Druid is and by this point it feels offensive so ask.”

[winterwrxter]

Me making slightly angsty Suitcase art cus i was bored?

(It's more likely than you think!!1!)

Lyrics are from The Contortionist by Melanie Martinez

(LISTEN, I STAN MELANIE AND I'M ACTUALLY HYPERVENTILATING AT THE THOUGHT OF ME POSSIBILY GOING TO HER CONCERT)

[33max]

I think often people that have high functioning mental illnesses are perceived as attention seeking because you don’t see their daily struggle. So when someone with a high functioning mental health problem tries to be emotionally open, or speak to people about their feelings, people don’t properly understand what is going on.

It’s just sad to me that someone with what can be a fatal illness could be overlooked as “they just want attention” when actually they’re probably trying to receive some support. It’s also very likely that support is not directly offered to them without them asking for it because they don’t LOOK or sometimes ACT unwell.

I just wish people could talk openly about how they feel and ask for support from their friends without others crying attention seeker! because that is just reinforcing the mental health stigma.

[ahalliance]

accurate representation of the tenth doctor’s emotional arc over his seasons

[studentbyday]

the gif explains it all.

stuff done today (i'm too tired to categorize things okay?? and it makes me feel more productive):

physio exercises ✅

physio appt ✅

guided meditation ✅ (the one tiny moment of my day in which i felt sane 🙃)

mol bio section 3 ✅ (2 slides left but i don't understand it, idk why it's sometimes just really hard for me to understand "sophisticated"/"clever" experiments sometimes??? [not surprised if it has to do with my lack of personal experience working in a lab 😔])

paper task #2 ✅ (i wrote more stuff, everything i had planned, but am i satisfied with it? not really... there are still some holes to fill and then i've gotta figure out if there's more i need to talk about or if "more" would be veering off topic 🤦🏻‍♀️ ALSO I NEED TO DO THE CITATIONS I SHOULD'VE DONE THEM EARLIER - @zzzzzestforlife recommended i use latex next time i need to write and use citation formats like AMA...at some point in the future, i'll read up on how to use it...)

biochem section 1 (barely started, just made an outline)

psyc ch 1/3 + overview (barely started the ch)

i have had to coax myself into doing every single little thing i've done today and it works better than bullying myself into doing them but there was still sm resistance and i sometimes wonder if i'm babying myself and then it's downhill from there 🙃 sometimes often, my greatest enemy is myself 😤

🎶 bridge over troubled water - yebba x jacob collier (many songs were stuck in my head today [as usually happens when i feel like a mess], including bohemian rhapsody and chopin's ballade no. 1 [the first frantic hurdle... you'll know it when you hear it], but i wanted to end with this one because the lyrics were already so comforting but the soul/gospel take just increases the comfort level and inspires the idea that you're strong enough to deal with whatever you're facing.)

[pallanophblargh]

As part of my ADHD diagnosis intake process (or whatever you call this), there’s a massive quiz I have to take. I THOUGHT I was prepared. I was not.

Aside from leaving it to almost the last minute (I have a week to complete), I just... these questions... what. WHAT. I mean, some of them are super easy, but a good chunk of them have caused a level of internal anguish I normally assign to tax returns, math, or social interactions with strangers.

I don’t know if this proves anything. I’m only half way through and part of me wants to cry.

I think a good chunk of the anxiety stems from the hard dichotomy of a simple “true or false” answer system. I am in hell.

[gallalctyka]

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[shirefantasies]

Howdy y'all!

I just want to thank everyone for sticking around this past 2 months of utter whirlwind from surgery to ER to all the matchup stuff to now! I also want to thank ALL FIVE HUNDRED AND FIFTY THREE of you like what? That's crazy and I really appreciate that over half a thousand people decided to tune in! Mostly I want to thank you guys for being patient right now. Currently I have about forty things in my inbox and twenty drafts, so ya girl is BUSY! This past two weeks I was feeling really overwhelmed, depressed, and even relapsed into my harming behaviors, so I admit I haven't had much will or mental energy to write during that time. I've tried to complete things or post from my buffer, but A that's running out and B I do want to get some requests out and luckily that's been coming back, so I just want to say I promise I'm not ignoring any requests, they just may take a while! I try to balance respecting request age with also what I call 'inspiration order' where sometimes for the life of me an old request sparks nothing but one a few more forward just gets writing going, thanks ADHD 😔 and also balancing finally working on personal things I've just wanted to make! So yeah, all this to say thank you for your patience, I promise I see what you're sending and you're in the sexy sixty 😉 not sure if I'll be ready for an update this friday, but if I'm not you'll see me back soon, likely monday and with some more request work chipped away at if not finished! Sorry if the buffer posts that are just mine, not yours, are frustrating, they were just sitting waiting ready or finally had the last push done before I was getting more depressed lol!

Thank you all, I love you 💝