#its not perfect but i tried. i’m just tired 👍

[aroace-poly-show]

it’s painting time

[uniquezombiedestiny]

🔊 + owen, but also + vera

for owen:

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out of sorts i’m lost in a lie / kinda funny how everything good seems to die

i’m so tired, burdened by choice / ever bound to speak in someone else’s voice - hes pretty much trying to follow the others choices but he is So Tired

less than none, i’ve already won / ‘til the job is done by no one - he just. disappears. but comes back bc he has a whole ass job and also lives with people ('when do i get to go home and see my family?' 'thats the neat part! you dont')

let’s fade to black and disappear / finally at peace with a revere

falling apart your plastic heart

ah, what a mess, you’re second best

build it up and drown it out / and look at what has happened now - pretty much the same as the 'less than none' lyric

turn away what can’t be accepted / all of my imperfections - continuing from the last line (lyric? line? idk). his explanation for why he just. leaves

it’s getting hard to see / maybe i should let things be

holding on and ripe for rejection / ah, what a warped perception

it’s quite the shameful deed / i’ll let you take the lead - just disappearing and coming back is shameful so hes just like. im gonna be in the background. everyone elses got this 👍

out of chances to make things right / kinda funny, i tried with all my might - out of chances to fix things/himself?

oh, i’m so weak, i’m immature / ever bound to seek and never know for sure - hes trying to find a purpose (probably) but like. the rest of this/the above line exist so its hard

“keep it moving! you can’t stop now” / how i’ve made this far, i don’t know how

ah, always forward, never turn back / the past will move and then start to unpack

stutter and stop / these mangled memories of mine - could be regular memories becoming warped to him, or if he gets to know hes in a timeloop and get all those memories hed just. lose it for a while

keep splitting apart / you’re drowning in the wine - continuing from/same thing as the above line

fake it ‘til you make it / try a little harder - kinda like advice from his friends or his observations of how theyre so okay (they arent but yknow they act like they are)

grinding to a halt / you’re nothing but a martyr - both in general and about day 50 as a like. realization that maybe this (living to d50 [unlike everyone else]) was his purpose

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hes just. depressed as hell. tbh that explains like all of this lol

also i didnt consider this being owen much until now and wow it actually fits pretty good

aaand for vera:

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“ah, i’ll try a different viewpoint!” / another fallacy

despite all my best intentions, i still played make-believe - about the 'turn back now' line. in relation to the 'vacant places' line, she could be looking in the wrong places

i’m scouring the vacant spaces / to find an awful sight - trying to find the truth of the timeloops and how to stop them

despite the dread i still move forward

turn back now, you can make this right - about the above + going down the wrong path/having the wrong solution or intention (saving everyone by just obliterating the loops + their problems. live in a fantasy :))

none of that matters anyway / surely you can live your life another day? - vera @ everyone lol

waste away, always dreaming / again, confused! it’s so deceiving

so we live a lie seldom would detest / close your eyes and breathe a sigh, who would have guessed - theyre at l corp, a. wing thing idk. wing of the world?? its a good job on the outside 👍

and still, to say that this is best...?

every photo triggers recollection of what’s gone / caught the perfect angle, begging to be lead on

so, dance along! tell me i’m everything and more / still ignored, how deplorable!

i can’t be what you want

in this empty city, the shadows run our lives - the city + the head running it both suck. everybodys sad etc etc

just outside the stillness, i’ll wait in the moonlight - in l corp shell wait to save the people there

there’s no need to cry! tell me, were you hoping for more? - either mv @ vera or vera @ like everyone once she straight up becomes the light/her own hopes and dreams (thief of hope moment)

make a mess, fake a happiness / my vision starts to blur - continuing the last line, 'fake a happiness' being about how her light-y like. state makes people stuck in one place in time, never able to feel negatively. but if its about mv @ vera then instead she just gets happy out of like. absurdity ("isn't it funny???????????" <- losing their mind)

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i like vera :) i always thought this song fit her. also kinda fits manager vera too, and like. all the veras really

also i see bleach as like this songs brother song (and it fits gem whose pretty related to vera [in a story way lol])