#ive never felt pms this way before 😭😭😭😭

[seiwas]

i’m terrible omfg my bf was an angel today even tho i was so snappy fr 😭

[osarina]

I’m just going to say that I literally fell in love with Dazai because of the way you wrote him 😭. Your writing is so beautiful and incredibly in depth, especially the wykyk series.

Here’s a song I felt may be fitting to wykyk (specifically from PM!reader’s POV after Dazai’s defection): https://open.spotify.com/track/2bF7cD1yNGOjBRx50DYQS4?si=ZeI6sIavQCCxzeTF2MrJtA

AHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH, U HAVE ME CACKLING LIKE AN EVIL WITCH EVERY TIME SOMEONE SAYS THEY FELL IN LOVE W DAZAI CUZ OF MY WRITING IT LITERALLY MAKES ME SO HAPPY, but TRULY thank you so much, you're so sweet you have my heart all warm and fuzzy right now

BUT OH MY GODDDDD IVE NEVER HEARD THIS SONG BEFORE AND ITS LITERALLY PERFECT FOR HER IM ACTUALLY GOING TO CRY, I KNEW AS SOON AS I HEARD THE FIRST FEW LYRICS IT WAS GOING TO DESTROY ME BUT LITERALLY FROM START TO FINISH I WAS SO :(((

[ifidiedinadream]

1, 12,34💕

hello sweetheart!! thank you 🥰💕

1. from one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (no downplaying yourself!)

language barrier aside i actually like my writing, id say 3.5 out of 5 stars

12. tell us about a wip you're excited about.

i don't have any wips at the moment 😭 i know, it's depressing. ive been very busy at work lately, hopefully ill find a new writing schedule soon

34. copy and paste an excerpt you're particularly fond of.

i think make me into anything, but just love me is my best fic so far so its gonna be an excerpt from it 🥰 (if you haven't read it, its a college au where olli and aleksi are fake dating. ollis goal is to draw tommi's attention. aleksi is actually crushing on olli and it's a bit of a problem. also aleksi is reading a book called "invisible monsters" by chuck palahniuk and finds it a bit too relatable).

"Aleksi couldn't stop thinking about what happened at band practice for the rest of the day. He thought about it during his lecture afterwards, in the lab room, at dinner. The way it felt so damn right and incredibly wrong at the same time, how soft Olli's lips had been on his neck, his breath gently hitting the tender skin. And that kiss… god, that kiss. It made Aleksi forget about everything - the plan, their friends watching them, the stale stench of the rehearsal room. Tommi. Everything was like it was always supposed to be. That is, until Olli's side left Aleksi's and the spell broke.

Why can't he be Tommi, the object of Olli's desire? Olli deserves so much more than someone who seems so indifferent. Sure, Aleksi doesn't hate Tommi, he's a good friend and he definitely sees why Olli lost his mind over him. Still…

It's so unfair.

It's around 10.30 pm now, and Aleksi is reading his book on his bed, listening to the sound of the shower behind the closed bathroom door. He's trying to forget about today's events at least for a moment, at least before he falls asleep so that they don't appear in his dreams. But he just can't; everything keeps reminding him of them.

"I hate how I don't feel real enough unless people are watching."

One of the invisible monsters says. And Aleksi can't help letting his thoughts wander. Just like his relationship with Olli, which is only real when Tommi is watching. Like the character, Aleksi feels like he disappears whenever the act is not on.

Aleksi closes the book. He's going insane.

When Olli comes out of the bathroom he only has the towel on him and Aleksi should be used to it but he's not. Before he can conceal his stupid dazed expression, Olli is sitting by his side, like he's done before.

"You're always reading this book," Olli remarks. "Is it, like, a novel?"

Aleksi shrugs, trying not to stare at the wet hair on his chest. "Yeah."

Olli opens it to a random page, a drop of water falling from his curls onto the paper. Luckily the ink doesn't smear - Aleksi might've gotten it from the thrift store for three euros, but he still cares about his books. He had underlined a sentence on that page.

(He's had this dumb habit since high school. He uses a pencil so he won't ruin the book.)

"The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person."

Olli stares at the page for a moment, then closes the book and carefully puts it behind him on Aleksi's bed. When he's turned, Aleksi takes the chance to observe the drops sliding down the naked skin of his arm, leaving wet lines in their wake."