#jenny slate is right... there will always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who i am 😔

[cheekblush]

I really hope you find friends who love you and appreciate you as you are. Friends who challenge you in a respectful and loving way. If you’re constantly arguing for the sake of arguing…it becomes exhausting. You seem so sweet and fun, I need friends like you tbh ♥️

thank you so much 🥹🫶🏻 i sincerely hope so too but unfortunately it seems nearly impossible to make genuine friends in your 20s 😔 it seems like most people already have their circle of friends and are reluctant at making new ones. or maybe i just suck at making friends bc my track record is horrendous 🙃 sometimes i can't help but think that something is inherently wrong with me & that i'm so unlovable/unlikable that people don't want to be with me but that's my insecurities & self-doubt speaking. and i'd love to be friends with you!! feel free to dm me if you're comfortable with it. but a little heads-up: i'm not the best at replying to messages especially now that i have a full-time job 🙈 wishing you a wonderful weekend and a gentle fall 🍁🥮🫖🍂

[fieldsofbone]

in my last session my therapist suggested that many of my current feelings and concerns and anxieties etc. seem to be rooted in a deep-seated loneliness that she thinks stems from childhood and she encouraged me to explore that more and try to connect past experiences especially when i was very young to those feelings i’m describing as an adult and. let me tell you. jenny slate was right. there WILL always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who i am

[firstfullmoon]

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you’re not invisible and you’re certainly not alone in how you feel. my 20s have been plagued by loneliness. I know it sounds dramatic but it’s true.. it’s my biggest struggle right now. I’m trying to put myself out there to meet more people but it feels like everyone has friends and they don’t want to make anymore. I wish I had a friend group :( tbh when I see you on here, I always think that we could potentially be friends. I really like your vibe!!!

don't worry, you don't sound dramatic at all! i feel the exact same way unfortunately 😔 this reminds of that jenny slate quote "i think i've come to terms with the fact that there will always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who i am" - except i haven't come to terms with it and nothing could've prepared me for how lonely my 20s would be.. like i never expected to have a huge friend group but to not even have one genuine friend currently is truly heartbreaking and i just can't help but feel like this a personal failure of mine. but i really admire you for putting yourself out there! that honestly takes so much effort and guts! i'm sorry it hasn't worked in your favor yet but you can still be proud of yourself for trying! and it's just so fucking hard making friends as an adult it really does feel like no one wants to make new friends bc they're fine with the ones they already have and they don't want to put any effort into new friendships. i hope you'll make great friends soon nonetheless! and you can always dm me off anon if you like so we can become friends 🫂💗