#jts ok. we will persevere.

[nomaishuttle]

just realized ice never shown you guys angel... Isnt she the prettiest girl youve ever seen.

[arcanewebs]

(hi this is still me callizinc) Literally crumpling to the floor with you . bro... bro..... like i don't want to sound ungrateful or pissy or like a dumbass but like. 😭 youuu get me . I wanted things to go so bad both cause i like horror and because i cannot stress enough how devastated i am we didn't even get 1v1 riz vs baron. or just the second phase in general. We could've had it all......

STILL LOVED IT. ICONIC AMAZING SHOWSTOPPING. BUT HERE'S THE THING. The aromantic community exchanges pondering glances. 😭😭FDJGOIHUSU BUT YOU AND ME WE MUST JOPE TOGETHER!! IT'S NOT JOEVER!!!!! I MEAN THE BRIEFCASE LITERALLY. OPENED. AND BARON DIDN'T DIE (THANK GOD). THEY'RE PROBABLY OUT THERE NOW. Basically PLease it doesn't have to be big i just want the word aromantic to be said in a popular show Ok

YEAH Y YES THE FIRST PART. I LOVED IT TRULY IT BLEW MY SOCKS OFF but like. YKNOWWWWWWWW WE'RE ON THE SAME PAGE HERE..... dont worry. we will PERSEVERE. alrhough i am kind of like

about it at the Moment

GOD A 1v1 WOULD HAVE TRULY BEEN SO GOOD .a girl can only dream.!!😭😭

i was really satisfied immeidiately after finishing the ep but then i thought about jt for a little too much and now im. URHGKK. ITS OJKAY. IN HIGH ANTICIPATION FOR NEXT WEEK THOUGH

[iadoreyourears]

Sunday Currently | Vol 5

I wrote this entry particularly for this weekend even though I know I haven't been doing a weekly entry as of recently.

After three years, I'm back in this tiny town. so long, already, huh? Oh well, I'm a keeper, which actually says a lot about who I am. Hello, Mati!

Currently staying at waxsurf as I'm typing this entry and so here it goes..

Currently

Reading

Before the Coffee gets Cold by Toshikazu Kawaguchi. Very Interesting. Kahilakon ko... 🥺😢

Writing

Well this entry and some work stuff.. yes, I'm working and not doing a vacation lol

Listening

I miss you.. I'll always have that 1 person on my mind everytime I listen to this song.. how long has it been 3 years huh!? really that long..

Thinking

As to why I haven't been able to move forward even a bit from a person whom I have been loving for years and years. WHY SHEY?

Wishing

to be a little kind to myself.

Hoping

to be loved and appreciated as completely as who I am and not for anything else.

Wearing

my usual sleepware— Get Some Sleep shirt, black shorts

Loving

waxsurf and JT

Wanting

Honestly? I think I really want to see you.

Needing

a hug will do I guess, it's heavy and tiring recently

Feeling

Definitely I'm sad. It is depressing to finally realize that distance was never a concern. Simple because I'm not what you want.

Why does this entry feels so depressing hahaha well maybe it is... I'm sad right this very moment and funny how I still think of you, more and more of you.

So anyways, in other things.. I have been working and drinking for 2 days here... heavy drinking.. I'm not even trying to get drunk pero diosko.. na scam gyud ko sa cocktails ni Blossom... Really Good BUT deadly.. I'll be back on the 27th of Aug to settle the 16 Drinks Challenge!! Ni walkout ko on my 3rd glass! HAHAH Long Island drink! MYGHAD😂 whut a booze! karun pako naka splurge og 4k worth na drinks unya kutob rako 3 ka baso!LOL

Interestingly, Blossom and I share a LOT of similarities (we even found out that we went to the Coldplay concert at the same time) but the takeaway that night is how musch I admiredher journey in discovering her passion and living the dream... I just can't wrap my head around it.. it moved me in ways that I just want to CRY and persevere more.. discern more and just do more everyday.

I needed this trip but even so I was not able to see you, it's ok.

love, april.

[triple-crown-org]

Rites of Passage! [JURY EDITION]

Connor - i’m sure you’re a swell person Dana - You are so nice! I’m so sorry you were a Tumblr victim. Nicholas - ok robbed king hello, sorry that i had 2 flip and get u out to save jared that one round. Sorry if i gave u any false hope Rafael - Second most favorite person in this game of the non-Tumblrs. You were an extremely loyal ally and genuinely nice person to talk to. I'm sorry that you had to go, but I had no intention of seeing you go in that tribal. I wish I could have talked to you more, and actually work with you. Those Tumblr lines, however, were alive and well.

Connor - THE skinny legend. i only PMd you once, but i heard you were an icon to be reckoned with. Dana - SKINNY LEGEND. Honestly popping off and fighting you was fun af and i’m glad it kind of made us friends??? Honestly you are too iconic for me and I’ll die if I don’t see you in more games in the future. Stay legendary king! Nicholas - THE skinny legend we never worked together so sand i hope the jury is skinny and has no carbs Rafael - Skinny legend! You may not like me (as your PMs to others reveal), but you will always be a king and legend!

Connor - “branDAN” Dana - From hosting you to now playing with you, I’m so glad we got to reconnect! Nicholas - LOL i thought we were cool on that tribe where u tried to vote me out and blindside me. I think it was really smart to target a sole tumblr while you could & you almost pulled it off so gj Rafael - Literally we are always robbed of working together and I'm just sad things worked out the way they did. You are an amazing person, and I hope, one day, we get the oppurtunity to truly work together.

Connor - see sean’s Dana - Sorry we never got to talk, but you’re a Nutt so i like you, and I’m sorry Tumblr murdered you. Nicholas - Idk i think ur really funny and i wanted to work w u in this game. I tried to always fuck w the tumblr plans whenever u were supposed to go home but it obvs didnt work the round u went home [picture hyperlinked] Rafael - You don't like me. But I think you are a cool person. I never felt any animosity towards you, but it seems like you do have some towards me. I'm sorry that I screwed you over in this game and hope to you have a nice life.

Connor - YOU ARE REALLY CUTE?? you also seemed sweet. and going out with two idols? jt who? james who? Dana - You’re such a nice guy and I’m so sorry that you HAD to be blindsided. Your idols were too threatening, and your social game and ability to infiltrate Tumblr too strong. Hope we get to play again together soon! Nicholas - ok king of idols!! I’d be a fool if i didnt try to get u out when u had such immense power in the game holding those 2 wild idols and unfortunately it had 2 be a blindside so im sorry that u left in such an ugly way Rafael - KING! TWO IDOLS! I WAS SHOOK! You are my favorite person from the non-Tumblrs and I love you with every inch of my soul. Should have used those idols, but I'm happy to have met you. Maybe the Saphire so we were both safe? sdfjhjsdfh But I do love you a ton and felt mild depression when you were robbed. King!

Connor - the last non tumblr. you were very nice and put up a good fight, unfortunately the queens stay queens. also even prayed for your kidneys but if you get got after 7 shots, there’s a different problem. Dana - The final Tumblr victim. I admire your perseverance even in the face of 7 Tumblr strong and honestly? You were pretty convincing. Nicholas - idk we didn’t talk all that much but i was still kinda sad 2 see u go bc when i was on the tribe alone away from the other tribes i felt the same way u did at the live night thingy so i get where u were coming from. U put up a really good fight to the end so thats really cool. I hope u didnt die from alcohol poisoning Rafael - you were a fighter til the end. You left kicking and screaming so I can admire and respect that sort of fortitude. I’m sorry that the cards were stacked against you, but that’s the works. I hope you win a game because you are a great player that deserves it.

Connor - SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SWEET HEART!!!! i’m so glad i met you through this game. keep in touch! keep the streak! ily 💖💖💖💖 Dana - You are the queen I hope to be one day. A game that Emily doesn’t win? Shook. Nicholas - thank u sm for giving me ur legacy advantage! I genuinely lav u and am glad we got to “play” another game 2gether Rafael - 7th place queen! You know how I feel about you and you are always a queen in my heart <3 you better win HOS!

Connor - king. end of story. Dana - My thot queen. I’m glad you went out on one vote this time instead of me. Things have finally come full circle xoxo Nicholas - king of splitting the vote b/w me and dana,,,,sarry that my 1 vote sent u home that’s lowkey kinda ugly so yikes um hope ur enjoying reuniting w skinny leg Rafael - I absolutely adore you! Supreme did you so dirty, but I’m glad to have played with you because I get to see the many facets of Isaac. I love and adore you king! Keep slaying!

Connor - you were super fun on call and super nice. i didn’t pm you until today but hey, we didn’t need to. again, i’m so glad i met you and all the other tumblrs i didn’t know before this game. see you soon ❤️ Dana - You know I love you so much. Though our first time playing together and trying to work together didn’t pan out as anticipated, I’m glad we got to reconnect in this game. From hosting you to now, you’ve become so much more strategic and threatening in my eyes and that was so hard to compete with. Nicholas - ok we have played literally so many games together and never worked together until now so it was nice! Im actually sorry u went home last round. I thought dana’s rat ass was gonna keep u but i thought wrong. I cant believe i outplaced you FINALLY but all jokes aside i hope that things are going well and that ponderosa life is good 4 u. Rafael - I love you. One of the only straight people I implicitly trust. Absolute joy to play with and i hope you enjoy your break from ORG hell!

YOUR NEXT CHALLENGE WILL BE POSTED SHORTLY! PLEASE REFER TO THE TRIBE CHAT FOR MORE DETAILS ASAP!