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asterdeer · 9 months

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i will be having an actually pretty solid mental health day until approx. 9:45 am when the demon in my brain which carries the memory of the first 30 minutes of hereditary wakes up and goes "remember this on loop you ugly bitch" and it's all over from there

#can't outrun that movie it's been like 5 years and it still follows me #not in a good way to be perfectly clear i lost sleep and brain cells over the first death #and i probably will continue to do so #and then that's the domino pushed over that goes 'oh there are a lot of other little demons carrying memories here too'#'and now they're all awake'#'hi memory of walking to the only white librarian at the checkout desk and feeling Incredibly Racist even tho she said hello first'#'good morning memory of that ishiguro book i read 7 years ago with the animal killing'#'how are you memory of mispronouncing 'jesus' in middle school spanish class and everyone laughed at me'#'hello memory of every embarrassing thing that misophonia ever made me do in a college classroom'#just a carousel of memories that make me ashamed of existing going round and round and round #and now we're back to wishing i was dead lmao #and it's all because of that Fucking Movie #mythtakes

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