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asterdeer · 9 months

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i will be having an actually pretty solid mental health day until approx. 9:45 am when the demon in my brain which carries the memory of the first 30 minutes of hereditary wakes up and goes "remember this on loop you ugly bitch" and it's all over from there

#can't outrun that movie it's been like 5 years and it still follows me #not in a good way to be perfectly clear i lost sleep and brain cells over the first death #and i probably will continue to do so #and then that's the domino pushed over that goes 'oh there are a lot of other little demons carrying memories here too'#'and now they're all awake'#'hi memory of walking to the only white librarian at the checkout desk and feeling Incredibly Racist even tho she said hello first'#'good morning memory of that ishiguro book i read 7 years ago with the animal killing'#'how are you memory of mispronouncing 'jesus' in middle school spanish class and everyone laughed at me'#'hello memory of every embarrassing thing that misophonia ever made me do in a college classroom'#just a carousel of memories that make me ashamed of existing going round and round and round #and now we're back to wishing i was dead lmao #and it's all because of that Fucking Movie #mythtakes

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inkskinned · 2 years

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probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it''#while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good''#to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.)#edit to answer why we had so much vanilla:#my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house.#it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out''#even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter.#my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out)#listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it.#3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months

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Archery Nemesis.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin zixuan #wei wuxian #(Trying to not break my own continuity by showing WWX changing outfits in the middle of a comic...I'm doing my best...)#The original line for the third panel was just 'fuck you' which admittedly is a funnier line.#Wei Wuxian really does call JZX a little pretty boy (not in those words but close enough) and then dramatically one-ups him...#Not only that; he tries to use Lan Wangji's headband as a blindfold. Which I think we need to take a moment to analyze.#It's probably easiest to look at this as ship-tease but I think it's far more in line with how WWX's mask is slipping.#He knows full well how poorly touching LWJ's headband went in the past.#But somehow - in this moment of his anger being targeted at JZX - that crucial information is forgotten.#He's got tunnel vision over something so small...and what do we know about emotions that don't suit the supposed cause?#Why that would be displacement. Something is bothering him and it sure is *not* just Jin Zixuan's fancy ass.#WWX came back but he didn't come back the same. It's rather unsettling how it feels like he's putting on a performance of himself here.

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buniix3 · 29 days

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Pots n Picks week!

Day 1 Prompt: Picnic

#pots n picks week 2024 #artwork #digital art #my art #art #artists on tumblr #digital aritst #digital arwork #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #chilchuck #senshi #I’m busy with school rn so my stuff probably won’t look very polished if I continue doing the prompts #already been seeing people post for the prompts and I love all the art #chilshi #pots n picks #chilchuck is fighting for his life against the wind #also this is supposed to be early morning so it could also be breakfast themed #potsnpicksweek2024

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mmmairon · 8 months

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You happen upon two renowned public figures about to smooch on a bench in the gardens…wyd?

#happy Thursday pass the yuri! 🥂🎉#guys when I say I am so busy #this is the most I’ve drawn in over a month and I had to force myself to do it #life is quite different right now and im just trying to get through the next few months #my inactivity will probably continue #sorry about that #clorivia #Clorinde x navia #clorinde #navia #genshin #my art #genshin impact

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katabay · 6 months

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desmond & friends modern day assassin sequences…..I miss you……..

#specifying ‘and friends’ because I hate William Miles with my whole heart and he is not included in this sentiment #anyway vaguely this is nyc so the cops are probably wasting taxpayer money by fucking around in the subway #komiks tag #assassins creed #shaun hastings #desmond miles #this is almostttttttttttt shaundes #but I didn’t continue the dialogue far enough to make it really flirty. There’s a hint of flirting happening.#someday I’ll have to actually do a longer form fan comic to land my favorite ship AND my favorite narrative elements in the same #go (the horror and dialogues on free will and what we owe each other past/present/future & also what failure means AND-)#this ties into my second favorite relationship dynamic: clay and desmond. obvious. clay might live in my head rent free a little more than #Desmond does because that end of game reveal in AC1 is a top 10 games experience to me and I think about it all the time #ANYWAY IM OFF TOPIC NOW. desmond picks up snacks at a bodega on his way back

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voltaical-art · 7 months

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part twooo!!! less sad on this one :)

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #wyll ravengard #tav #comic #voltaical ocs #bishop #well i kinda ran out of steam on this one #but i still like how it turned out :)#will bishop ever explicitly tell wyll how he feels? probably not he will continue just being affectionate and hope he gets the hint #so wild having ocs that i'm not planning long form comics for so i can literally just make comics for whatever scenario im thinking about #crazy if you want to make comics you actually just have to do it LMAO

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deoidesign · 9 days

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Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

#to be or not to be. that is the question #ty adam for being my model for dramatic vampire moment #musings on the thinkings about:#when to live you are required to hurt others. you must repeatedly ask yourself what the value of your life is #To sleep... perchance to dream...#ah. THERES THE RUB.#ok I actually couldnt come up with too many thoughts. I had a lot more while I was drawing this but I guess I put them in the painting LOL #reading that soliloquy and being like damn this is just like vampires #the reality of course is that the soliloquy is a debate over suicide and ultimately making the choice to live #even if just out of fear of the unknown #and vampires are about dying and then in undeath choosing to continue to live #despite the fear of eternity and loneliness and hurting others #theyre not the same. but like let me thiiink come onnnn I'm allowed to thiiink and have incomplete thoughts #I would have to write like a proper essay about this to organize my thoughts. this is the tags on a tumblr post.#anyways finished episode 79 #working on patreon stickers for this month (and next month soon)#and working on book 4. taking a pause from episodes cause I've got 3 weeks of buffer now... UGH #I'm so mad that they changed it. it would have been 5 weeks before but it's fine it's whatever #anyways yeah taking a break from episodes to make my book now!#its good stuff.#and this painting is good stuff #banger after banger from me tbh #this was a little relaxing giving myself a couple hours to muse #it's necessary for my health and I always forget that til I do a painting...#I loved doing the little landscape in the background too I should do that more! I love how plants are just like whatever shape you want #like you can make up any plant you want and not only does that plant PROBABLY exist somewhere #a weirder plant exists somewhere too. so. literally whatever you want #ok bye again for a few days while I get back to work

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lycoric3 · 2 months

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You know what's so bitter about Yoohyun leaving Yoojin in order to protect him? The fact that he never really understood the social implications of it.

We know that Han Yoohyun doesn't care for social cues, laws and regulations, all mannerisms and behaviour towards people are done simply to please his brother. And so- he doesn't realise that by denouncing Yoojin, as a highly praised and popular S-class, he has condemned him in society. Yoohyun leaves as soon as he can, publicly announces that he's a burden, and the media is having a field day where Yoojin is made a villain.

Unfortunately, it's only made worse by Yoojin's lost desperation to find out why his brother, his child, who he has raised all his life has left him behind. Has spit in his face and is so cold, and that maybe Yoojin has failed him all this time. His desperation in trying to get to talk to Yoohyun at least once, to give him a birthday cake, to awaken so that maybe he can reach him. It only ends up adding to this manic, ungrateful and spiteful image that the world views him as.

Yoojin is condemned by society. Yoohyun gets mad that he's a hunter but Yoojin has no other option. He can't get a regular job because his reputation has been dragged through the mud and because the constant public attention is too burdensome for any employers. Seok Simyeong has constantly berated Yoojin, fucking up his mental state and as the 'spokesperson' of Yoohyun, Yoojin must think its true.

Yoohyun tries to protect him from hunters through this instinctual thought of predators and prey, but society is far too nuanced and he doesn't understand. By trying to leave him out of the dungeons, he left him to the world.

Oh Han Yoohyun, you've doomed him.

#sctir #han yoojin #han yoohyun #han brothers and angst #I actually cannot deal with 'hurt to protect' tropes anymore #be selfish #And you know what #Yoohyun probably never got detailed reports because no one actually cared about Yoojin #We know that the guild (Seok Simyeong particularly) would do anything for their reputation #and so they cast Yoojin down and continued trampling all over to make sure he can't climb out

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sonknuxadow · 1 year

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#sorry i saw someone say sonic and tails dont see eachother as family at all again and it annoyed me #this isnt even all of the times theyve said it this is just a bunch of stuff i remembered off the top of my head #and also sonic has called tails little bro SO many times across different media that it would be impossible to track them all down #but i tried to include stuff from different media to show that this isnt a thing thats exclusive to one continuity or one period of time #because those are arguments i see people use to prove theyre not brothers #but even if it WAS something that is mentioned a lot in earlier sonic media and not so much in recent stuff.#not mentioning something as often anymore doesnt automatically make it non canon?? especially if theres no new info contradicting it #sonic frontiers spoilers #the sage picture probably looks irrelevant to people who havent played frontiers #but she was talking about sonic and tails there which is why i included it #also i put that aosth clip instead of screenshots from it because i didnt think a couple screenshots would do it justice #you really have to see the whole thing

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khattikeri · 2 months

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honestly postcanon i need shen qingqiu to tell yue qingyuan his sincere opinion, that he really likes and respects zhangmen-shixiong as a person and always thought he was cool. because i think it'd completely break yue qi's brain

#keri chats #shen qingqiu #yue qingyuan #shen yuan #svsss #scum villain's self saving system #listen i love 79 but shen jiu is 1) dead 2) a bitter bitch who had multiple chances at a happier life and actively chose to not take them #instead of starting afresh he CHOSE on purpose to continue the cycle of abuse. his victimhood explains his flaws but it doesn't absolve him #as poignant as yqy's tragedy is tbh i do wanna see him move on postcanon & actually eventually be happy fr. sj has been dead for decades #hearing praise from sqq even if sy is a different person (albeit still a thin-faced one) would be so hglakdjsfkd #tl;dr even though qijiu is my tylenol i think in a scenario where sj doesnt exist anymore yqy needs to move on and get some vitamin D #yqy would probably not handle a system reveal well but the idea of him still being an older brother figure to sy warms my heart

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heldenherzchen · 1 year

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"want anything from the shop?" — "cornetto."

#hot fuzz #nicholas angel #my art #did i watch hot fuzz for the last 5 days approx. 20 times?#maybe.#is it still one of my fav movies ever?#definitely.#will i continue watching hot fuzz for the next 5 days?#probably.#do i have a problem?#absolutely.#👀#i just love them so much your honor #😭💖#also: still trying to figure out my ~style~#lmao #thank u for bearing with me 🙏🏼#queue

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roberrtphilip · 3 months

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There's an awkward "first date" silence between them, the kind that suggests there isn't going to be a "second". Giselle tries her best to keep the conversation going.

#giselle philip #king edward #enchanted #disneyedit #enchantededit #enchanted 2007 #enchanted movie #prince edward #amy adams #rucksack*#so much I love about this scene #the way she's awkwardly playing with her hair #edward's confusion when she says “the day AFTER that”#the way they're just not on the same wave length At All #the very unexcited tone in her voice when she says “well I'm very excited about that but...”#followed by the immediate joy she feels when she sees/orders their hotdogs #like she's so excited for that food it's probably the only part of that date she did enjoy #meanwhile edward just wants this shit to end so they can leave #like he's so bored and uninterested in everything she says #also it's not mentioned here but in the script she continues and mentions wanting to open a small business #and possibly do volunteer work too #and edward doesn't understand even a little bit #god. their date is just. so good. they're both so utterly miserable the whole time I love it so much

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months

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Teehee! (Spritesheets your Wangxian)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #pixel art #game dev diary #When you read these tags please imagine it is at my bedside in a candlelit room as I lay in bed shaking with fever.#I weakly hand you an envelope with these spritesheets and you have to lean in to hear my rasping voice.#Because I *know* this is probably really straightforward to a lot of artists.#But this is my first time doing something like this *EVER*. I am so far outside of my comfort zone!#But *who* is pd-mdzs if not that art blog that keeps you all on your toes for what to expect?#For someone who has never done pixel art I think I did okay! I have learned a lot B*)#The more exciting news is that THESE ACUALLY WORK. They can run around and be put into situations!#(Well...the *original* files work; these are screenshots. The real files are microscopically small)#Get ready for a new era of content while I continue to learn more about sprite art and animation.#I have a lot of other assets to practice making so seriously; get ready for some wild MDZS (and Dungeon Meshi) fake game clips.#I want to recreate some scenes in the game engine to practice and experiment! I think that's really fun!#Next up is dialogue window icons and then battle art!

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somegrumpynerd · 3 months

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Uhhhhh...

So it was pretty busy at work the last couple days with delivery and everything so I didn't expect to see the horror bitty anywhere, but when I went out back to get something I saw this

Which... is a different guy, right??

Anyway it seemed like this one was stuck in this plastic so I held the bag open so he could get out (even though he really didn't like me coming over) and he bolted off once he was out.

I assumed he was gone but when I looked back down the hallway he was just kinda watching me

(Zoomed in to make it a lil bit easier to see)

And the one I'm used to seeing was there too!! So... I guess there's two of them now? Or at least this is my first time seeing this little black and white guy, are there cross bitties? That's all I can think of that he looks like. I'll have to keep my eyes peeled and leave out twice as much food now.

Also my fingers are fine after the bite! c:

#UTDR #UTMV #Bitty Boys #Horror bitty #Cross bitty #And probably nobody else #MAN I love making these now #There's something so fun about putting a little guy into my reality #This is like Advanced Imaginary Friends lol #A second bitty has been introduced to the continuity :3c #Also I hope nobody from my work ever catches me doing this because how on earth do I explain #Yeah I'm just taking pictures of the trash for art reasons #Good news is I'm working a bunch next week so plenty of options for pics to put little guys in #Bad news is I'm working a bunch next week so less time to actually put little guys in the pics #My Art

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captainhysunstuff · 5 months

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