#just confessing my love for hapo lol

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A Draw This In Your Style!

Characters: Calgary/Calvin McCall & Edmonton/Edward Murphy Belong to @acetechne/@battle-of-alberta

This took so long. I had my vaccine recently (June 5th) and drew for 3 days straight while my arm was sore. However it was so worth it!!!

More versions under the cut!

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Alberta

Yeah-eah Al-ber-ta  Yeah-eah Al-ber-ta~

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late night rant..

OK. So recently I've found the panels for Day Job part 19 & 20

of Battle of Alberta. (If you have no clue you can find it here: @battle-of-alberta

(I don't recall seeing them before due them being so far back on Hapo's feed + they weren't posted on tapas lol)

I just need to get these thoughts out of my head...

(Warning Long rant + personal issues ig)

So I'm a avid lover of hurt and comfort so when I saw this. Cal's hurt becoming visible (By choice) and Ed's realization of taking the thing too far and consoling him, I loved it. I just wanted to hug them and feeling the euphoria of them hugging. I loved it so much. So much that I cried. At first I was like "Omg, this so touching!" and crying was an response to that. However I kept crying, I cried for awhile. I have no idea for how long I cried, couldn't be for more than 30 minutes. I'm still figuring out why I cried the way I did and why I had such an emotional response to this. Right now I'm just really confused. Recently I lie in bed listening to the faint tick of time in my head. Stuck in a place where I know what I want yet at the same time don't know at all. All the while is clueless how to even get there. Questioning things and questioning to as of why I'm questioning things. That feeling of knowing more than a beginner but nowhere near someone of experience. Knowing that you have experience but it isn't deemed enough. You start questioning everything but the fear and uncertainty you feel once you learn. Maybe the reason I cried was because I felt a connection with Cal in a sense in which we both wondered why we weren't enough by certain group and longing to do something to prove our worth or fill that void. Or maybe I cried because I wanted that sense of comfort, safety, love and consolation from someone that Cal had from Ed. Perhaps I'm looking to into this but there's no denying that this was touching.