#just hanging around in ghe dungeon

[thebongomediaempire]

Ah, thhe days of being a disaffected youth... Sitting alone in my basement, reading stories of fantasy and adventure that, in real life, would kill all involved from Cholera or Tetanus in the ffirst chapter..!

[kittycowboy]

UGH i have like zero friends offline. not even "like" I just Do Not have friends offline. I think im just unapproachable and even when I do get an aquaintence idk when we're close enough to hang out outside of school or whatever. Or what to even do. what to talk about. And there arent even chances to get closer because theyre already hanging out with other people who they're close to right. so if I'm with them the day after then it'll be like how when ur on a duet you get the low carb bread or smth. and if ur onky having that stuff then its fine because you getbused ti the tatse but the second you taste normal bread again ur like why am I havjng this low carb version when the regulsr one is like way way better. whatever that didnt make sense

UGH and its hard too bcs like. I go to the baking club to make friends but then when I make a friend there they get annoyed when outside of the club i talk about the new csm chapter or how great dungeon meshi is right. And when I go to the anime club I meet a bunch of rlly weird ppl who I just dont enjoy in general. And if I dont talk abt animanga n everything my convos become really repetative and boring. And actually I dont talk about it modt of ghe time bcs it weird ppl out !! blehhhh. And like obviously I can talk about other things that they enojoy its not like im stuck only talking abt myself, but its still like. whatever

UGH and I had one group I was in since elementary but then one of them wasnt around for lunches bcs she had a weird schedule, and one was in a bunch of theater shows so she was never there bcs of practice, and the only one left was this girl I find kinda annoying but shes been with us since fourth grade and everyone else likes her so its better for me to read in the library every day than to try to kick her out because i dont want to be around her.

ughhh I want to join a club but its so hard finding out which ones actually have stuff to do and which are really just abother room for ppl to hang out at during lunch. or like the drama club which is technically open to anyone but its really more of an invitation-only event.

The gardening club seems cool idk. or the languages club. I went to a few native american student union meetings last year but i didnt feel like I could rlly connect- most of the ppl there were from Oregon tribes bcs. we're in Oregon so it felt a little weird coming in there with hashtag arizona pride. lol

whatever. maybe ill study nueroscience so I can figure out how to not be autistic