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🐰: Do you believe in soul mates?

No. I think love is a numbers game; eventually you will meet someone who you will vibe with enough and like eachother enough that you want to do something more, or you are willing to try something to see if you do vibe with eachother. There’s probably a good 100,000 of these people in the world who you could connect with really well, probably more depending on your personality.

The fact that its a numbers game doesn’t make your connections with other people less valuable though; I just think its kind of discrediting to a person and the human race as a whole to say “You only have one soul mate who is your perfect match somewhere in the world out of 7billion people. Good luck”. When in actuality, humans are such a mindboggliingly social species that we will anthropomorphize *objects and tools* that we use. We are very flexible and saying that you have to find your needle of love in the haystack of people seems pessimistic almost. 

Be kind, talk to your fellow humans, and learn more about them. You’ll never know who you connect with. (plus if you keep searching for “the perfect soul mate” you may lose out on opportunities right in front of you).

Idk. I feel like I could have phrased that stuff better but I’m kinda tired and don’t really care to fix it when its probably just minor turns of phrase that sound weird. 

TL;DR: No, there’s more people you can *really* connect with than just one single person and saying there’s only one both undersells you and humanity’s diversity as a whole.

☕: Coffee or tea?

Tea. Herbal tea usually. Its soothing and tastes better to me. I have nothing against coffee, just prefer tea a lot more.

💘: 3 ways to win your heart?

Be kind/Be understanding; Be passionate about something; Be intelligent/down to earth

Most people I’ve liked a lot fall into those categories.

🔪: Scariest/Creepiest experience?

You know, I’ve had one or two paranormal experiences that were either just a little creepy or kinda pleasant, but my scariest experience wasn’t anything paranormal; it was just a panic attack.

It was a long one though, caused by my medication changing. Lasted for 2 hours and it was by far one of the scariest moments of my life. Like yeah I had adrenaline fueled moments before and after that; but in some way I knew I’d probably be okay. With the panic attack, I just felt like I was dying. Like I could literally keel over any second. And it lasted for two hours. I could feel my legs getting cold and tingly and numb, same for my hands, and everything felt like “Oh God I’m gonna die, I don’t want to die, someone please help me, oh God oh God Oh God oh God, please help me I dON’T WANT TO DIE!”

It was pretty terrifying.

🌸: What is your favourite flower?

Daffodils are nice. So are Vanilla flowers. Though I like anything thats not the typical flower shape and has some sort of cup or vase shape. Bell shaped flowers are cool too but I’m pretty sure the only ones of those I know of are legitimately poisonous :y.

Thanks for asking ^-^

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W

Something I love that starts with the letter .W’.

Man you picked a hard one (at least it’s not ‘Z’ though).

So I thought about this a bit and first thing that came to mind was “Women” but thats kinda general and while I do have many friends who are women and I love them deeply, I feel like its kinda a cop out to just say a gender you’re attracted to. 

The next thing I thought of though is “Who/what/when/where/why”

And I like that, and specifically, I like the word “Why”

Why “why” exactly?

Well. “Why” is the basis to pretty much any scientific question (right next to “how”), and any question regarding trying to figure out how something works. “Why does the sun rise and set?” “why does the grass turn brownish green during the winter?” “Why is the sky blue?” “Why do people have two eyes instead of four?” “why are there thousands of stars in the sky?” “Why do dogs lick people?”, etc. etc. 

I think its important to always ask “Why?” (and “how”) since the answers can lead us to many fascinating answers that teach us about how our world works. Sometimes, in the case of asking about emotions, the answer is just “because thats just the way things are or how you feel right now” and thats okay. Even if the answer isn’t always satisfying, “Why” is a great tool both for self examination and external exploration! (Excuse my alliteration). 

And if thats a bit too long for you and you went “whats the TL;DR?”

TL:DR:

“Why”. Why exactly? Well. Why not?

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🌕half-elf and ⚔️goliath!

⚔️ goliath: Talk about the most dangerous experience you’ve ever had.

That I’ve ever had? And not thought I’ve had through anxiety? Prooobably whitewater rafting. If you fall out of the boat, and float to the wrong part of the river, you can get sucked under and die if you are not paying explicit attention to whats happening. I’ve also gone scubadiving with sharks  (though I was waaaay more afraid of the lionfish around; the sharks could not care LESS about what ever I was to them).

🌕 half-elf: Where would you build your dream home?Probably Rhode island or somewhere similar. Where it rains frequently, there’s lots of life hidden in weird places, and it just oozes atmosphere.

Thanks for the ask!

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From january and from the past week or so. Haven’t changed too much externally- pretty much look just like my same old self! 

(Couldn’t get my picture with my twin to turn on mobile >_>)

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Music Shuffle

tagged by @piefanart !

Rules: put your music on shuffle and post the first ten that you come across!

(I’m gonna use my music on my phone and uh.... I have a lot of soundtracks and some odd music so this will be interesting ^_^;)

also gonna format it Song Name - Artist (Album)

1.) Unexplained Forces - Two Steps From Hell (Archangel)

2.) Ambients - Daniel Licht (Dishonored Original Soundtrack)

3.) Colors pt. II - Halsey (Badlands)

4.) My Demons - Starset (Transmissions)

5.) 07 The Milkman Conspiracy - Peter McConnell (Psychonaughts Original Soundtrack)

6.) You Will Be Perfect - Aperture Science Psychoacoustics Laboratory (Portal 2: Songs to Test By)

7.) Dark Harbor - Two Steps From Hell (Archangel)

8.) Adrenaline - Shinedown (Amaryllis)

9.) Afraid of the Darko - Homestuck/Robert J! Lake (Homestuck Vol. 8)

10.) Omg, What has He Done - Aperture Science Psychoacoustics Laboratory (Portal 2: Songs to Test By)

Yeah uhhhh a lot of game soundtracks.

I tag @basalt-main @piefanart @manafested @moon-milkie @yeens-human and @science-and-video-games !

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1, 5, 9 and 19

1. Song of the year?

Believer by Imagine Dragons is pretty fucking good tbh.

5.TV Show of the year?

Stranger Things 2 was pretty damn good- though out of all the shows I watched this year (rather than ones that have come out this year only) I would say the anime Monster was probably one of the best I’ve watched this year even if it came out quite some time ago.

9. Best Month for you this year?

I want to say January because I know FOR SURE that was a really good month. And it was. And it was probably the best tbh. A lot of good things happened then and I grew a lot around that time and the months before/after. But idk. I’ll stick with January but I definitely had good things happen to me throughout the year too. I definitely grew a lot in the past month, that’s for sure.

19. What are you excited about for next year?

Getting a new job hopefully. Starting/Continuing my DnD campaigns I’m running. Playing the Call of Cthulhu campaign my friend is running. Hopefully getting my own car soon. Uhhh. That’s all I can really think of right now.

Thanks for asking ^_^

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24, 66, 67

22. Comedy or mystery?

Hmmm. Idk really, I prefer comedy if its to my tastes, but mystery is really interesting depending on if it fringes on a secondary genre or what the topic is. Generally will go towards comedy I think though based on 90% of the media I consume.

66. Adventurous or cautious?

Usually cautious! But trying to be more adventurous. 

67. Saver or spender? 

Ehhhh depends on if I have something to save for. If I have an excess of money though I’m more likely to save it, not because I have something to save it for, so much as I don’t have anything to spend it on because even though I have 100+ games on my steam wishlist, I just don’t always have the urge to spend all of it. I always feel the urge to save at least a little, but sometimes thats overwhelmed by “oooooh thats pretty/cool/looks fun” or whatever. It varies a lot and depends on my income at the time and etc. 

GENERALLY THOUGH: I tend towards saving over spending, mostly because I don’t always feel the urge to spend and I mentally have a limit.

Thanks for asking!

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💛?

I am so sorry I am late to responding to this; I keep seeing it in my inbox and saying “I’ll get to that in a bit, once I get on my desktop” and I don’t go on my desktop. I’M HERE NOW THOUGH!

send me  💛 for my honest opinion of you

Sooooo I see you in my notes quite a bit and I have checked out your blog more than a few times and you seem pretty cool! Very nice person from what I’ve seen :3. If you want to talk more I’d be more than happy to!

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Hello. How is your day?

Blech, since I got this yesterday I think: Yesterday went pretty well, worked on a dnd campaign, played Civ 5 with friends, went to get Thai food, and then played Designated driver for three of my friends who can drink since I can’t. Then I just kinda chilled out in the living room while they were playing PUBG since I don’t have it and they were loud and I was tired.

Today just started and I accidentally woke my roommate up because for some reason my sound was playing through both my speakers AND my headphones. Gonna work on more DND stuff today since I have a session later today.

Thanks for asking! ^_^ 

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Hey! 1) You one of those mutuals I always smile when I see in my notes. Thanks for bein' cool. 2) I could go for some song recommendations if you got any! 3) Guess I'll also talk about an "unpopular opinion"? Hm, I'm not a fan of most callouts online. When done right, attention is brought to the person about how they were harmful, and are given space to learn and reflect. Worst case, it's a screed of anger & half-truths being shared by strangers, and only serves to make the person defensive.

Oh! I’m gonna take a guess and say this is for the Anon/Honesty Hour thing. 

1.)Thanks ^_^- same, you seem like a really cool person and I remember you following  me after what was probably the “First internet argument I’ve ever had” which was horrible and exhausting; and you seem like a cool person ^_^

2.) Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... How about “Watercolor” by Pendulum? (good if you like drum and base).

3.) Honestly totally agree- there’s a fine line and sometimes it can be just nasty in how someone is called out.... which tumblr is particularly guilty of admitedly.

Thanks for the ask!

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Sooo it’s tuesday. TMI tuesday anyone?

ask me anything and I have to answer it truthfully, and all that, no restrictions. Or idk, tell me stuff that you want to say on anon that would be too tmi otherwise that you want to tell me or just say in general

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⭐: I am a nonbinary person who has a crush on you

0o0... 

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Hypnos

Hypnos: What was your most recent dream about?

Goddangit I just had a dream last night but I can’t remember it for the life of me.... I just remember it being weird.  I can’t even remember what my dreams were in the past few weeks tbh- I usually am pretty good at remembering dreams but I’m drawing a blank even though I KNOW I’ve had dreams in the past month. Sorry :s

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Dear Past Me,

@aira-the-ancient-star I am so sorry this is late!

Okay I keep saying I’ll answer this but I’ve been really busy so its been hard >_(also holy shit mobile really fucked with the formatting so give me a bit to clean this up- like it removed half the words and all the spacing and I have no idea what the fuck happened. ANYHOW)

Dear past me, 

To me when i was 10,

I know everything seems scary and horrible bad. it feels like whenever you are the only one home that noone will come back. it feels like you are going suffocate in cramped hallway during a tornado siren so you try to breathe air from under door in fear. You feel that at any moment death or injury will come for you. 

It never does. The only real fear you have worry about is Mona- though you already knew that sure. 

To me when I was 12,

These are good friends. At least one of them is- the short kid down the street who you always play outside and inside with.

On another note, while your first crush is awkward and not reciprocated, don’t let that color future endeavours with other people. You will come back to this place many times in your mind as a place of peace. Rocky shores, salty air, and cool damp ground. You had lots of fun here- You’re still friends Jared even after all years. Nate…. not as much. sorry. But you will find people you can relate to who are less cynical and are just as intelligent as you, if not more so in a lot of cases, in the future. These friends are bright shining lights, that give emotions that you barely knew were possible. 

…. I know you keep wanting make sure nothing bad happens- always say “See you later” and hope for a response, or else you think you’ll never see them again. You will. Leaving here is hard, but you’ll be back again-  just don’t look back through rose colored glasses.

To me when I was 14,

Freshman year in high school was hard- But you made a lot of friends in a short time. Unfortunately, that first ‘relationship’ you’re in won’t work out. Though you weren’t into her that much anyway, so it’s probably for the best. Surprisingly, the things you learn in these next couple years stick with you as some of the most useful things you’ve learned in school. Who would have thought school was preparing you for the future? In the mean time, keep following your desire create things. Keep dreaming about building your own games and designing things to do in other games. its something you will  continue to enjoy well into the future. I’m Sorry you had to deal what felt betrayed promises and being mislead on your first ever potential ever date though. I wish I could tell you this would be the last time you experience pain from her- but it will happen again. And it will be much worse.

To me when I was 16/17,

l’m... so sorry. I’m so sorry that you have to go through this. I’m so sorry that you have to juggle crushing amounts of school work and these unrequited feelings that seemed to become something before devolving into a year of pain and suffering. I can’t say it was entirely her fault, because you never followed through with trying to communicate your pain and how you felt. You let it stay inside to fester and you didn’t say anything to her. It’s not your fault though-  you were scared, but you have to change in the future and learn how to SPEAK UP....please... You need to. It’s okay though. It doesn’t last forever. You…You are strong. Just keep walking forward. This will be one of the most painful years in your life, but you have to keep going forward. Keep going through all the pain, even when you beg for something to end it, with your emotional turmoil being so wretched that it feels like your body is being dissolved by acid. There are brief moments happiness from her, but the neglect that followed stained it irreparably. 

She is not without fault- frequently cutting off conversations without warning, not to respond until much much later, the next day or days later with no explanation why- letting your anxiety run rampant. Continue to call you pet names well after you’ve broken up, keeping you hopeful when you should move on. I’m not sure how much of this was intentional and how much was not but this combined with your own lack of communication will cause you  great pain. Her name will forever mark your mind as something that makes you shudder..... even though some part of you still loves her. 

Getting medication was a good choice and getting therapy was a good choice. Ultimately it will take a year of therapy after your breakup for you to realize… you don’t need her. You don’t need to hold on to the hope that you’ll get back together. You can be your own person. You don’t need ‘another half’- you want a relationship that feels equal and balanced. You let go of the idea of soul-mates, because it’s just a numbers game. The day you realize this is so profound on your psyche that you still remember it, clear as day, almost three years later. 

The day you let go of what felt like the weight of the world. The day you realized that you had wants and needs and you deserved better. The day you felt everything got a bit brighter.

To me when I was 18,

 While you still struggle with anxiety and fear of rejection and have to calm yourself down repeatedly, you are doing much better than before. College feels much better than high school ever was and you gain many new friends, some better than others, but many provide a place you feel comfortable with. You pick up new hobby playing cards another playing make-believe and rolling dice. Both stick with you years later. You start a relationship that brings many firsts and great joy. They teach you what a normal relationship feels like. With actual affection, and the feeling of actually being cared for. It brings you so much joy that you cry from happiness. You learn to communicate your feelings in greater detail and speak up when you have a problem. Keep doing this, learn to do it more and to do it better. Unfortunately the relationship doesn’t last terribly long, only a month and a half, but the end couldn’t have been avoided unless you had acted sooner to ask them out. No need to blame yourself, you couldn’t have known and the action is in the past. Be sure you tell them how greater clarity may have helped though. Ensure that they know, that next time they do something like this and another person is involved, that there is absolute clarity. They will learn from this, and try to do better. Following this breakup is the worst you have ever felt in a long time- possibly the worst you have ever felt considering how you needed to go to counseling for it. But regardless, you will recover, and continue to march onward. 

To me 6 months ago,

How quickly things change. Enjoy this relationship while it lasts- it is certainly longer than any relationship you’ve ever had. You will experience even more firsts- with the same person you experienced many of your other firsts with (who knew you’d get back together?). They will help you make peace with your sexual side, and help you begin to understand the importance saying your side of an argument. You will learn the importance of speaking your mind. Keep doing this and remember to get better at it. Unfortunately it does not last forever, but the pain you will experience is bad, it is bearable. it ends for a good reason honestly (mainly for your sake) , and the only way I can see your relationship with them being successful is if this happens.

 If you will return to a familiar face in the future or meet someone new, I do not know. If you will stay close to your current home or leave to parts unknown, I do not know.

One thing certain is that there will financial troubles aplenty, and you must focus on your needs, and fulfilling those needs with or without a partner. Emphasize actualizing verbalizing them. Always put verbalizing and saying your needs at the forefront of your priorities.

But stay kind. Stay empathetic. You will gain more friends who you have not met properly yet, or haven’t spoken to. Your goal is to try to be happy in a years time- regardless of if you have a partner or not. Fulfill your needs as best possible using as many sources as possible. Recognize that one source cannot fulfill them all. Recognize that you won’t always know what’s best for people and sometimes you have to take a “hands-off” approach and support from afar, as much as it pains you. Remember to listen to your own needs and verbalize them, loudly if need be. (But do so when it’s appropriate)

Hopefully any future letters to myself now confirm that I’m doing things right. Or at least heading in the right direction. (Though I guess I won’t know until I get to the future huh?)

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⭐- I’m a nonbinary person with a crush on youTm- you’re a cinnamon roll✌- you’re awesome

!!!! Thanks! 0o0.

(I am very confused now though because I have no idea who keeps sending me these things…. But they are nice)

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sails

sails: describe your ideal partner

Sooooo this is going to sound a bit like a cop out, but I’ve learned to not have an idealized version of a partner in my head and instead stick to general traits that I find really appealing and if they are all there then thats fantastic. The traits would be:

Caring, kindhearted, considerate, compassionate, understanding, willing to listen even when my anxiety gets upset over really small things, intelligent, curious, enthusiastic and passionate about things, someone understands the necesity of a partner being two wholes that make something fantastic and better, not two halves that make a whole, someone who wants to foster my personal growth or is proud of it, someone who shares a few of my hobbies and interests, someone who can help me explore new things and also wants me to understand what it means to be an individual, not just a partner. 

(I may have forgotten some things but those are what immediately comes to mind right now)

(and obviously some physical traits are nice but not necessary)

And geuss what? I have a partner right now who’s all of the above and more ^_^