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#kudos to them ig for cutting back on it after but goddess help the next person they try it on and give them the same patience/fortitude
trashycosmos · 10 months
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can we talk about the funniest thing of the whole experience was someome who sb me for almost 10 months straight saying they were upset i wasn't nice/distant/cold and didn't apologize for it and when i called out their behavior there was no apology from them they just didn't want to talk anymore lol
#literally laughed out loud reading the message#like one of us wanted was trying to be a murderer without getting blood on their hands (literally) and i'm the asshole bc i had the normal#HUMAN response to their bullshit#honestly they ought to consider themselves lucky i'm much more stable than they are or will ever be#the hilarious cherry on top of the whole fuck sundae is i wasn't even in therapy for at least the last 3 months of it all and they were#which is incredible#also a stark reminder that if (some) people can't be honest with their therapist then why are even you going roflmao#granted ig if you tell them you were actively trying to harm or threaten someone i think they're legally obligated to hold you in a ward#the level of narcissism was u n r e a l#it's not like i pretended to have been a perfect example of how to handle things but! there's! no! rulebook! on handling a sb piece of shit!#the truth shut them down & up so quick it was almost cathartic#kudos to them ig for cutting back on it after but goddess help the next person they try it on and give them the same patience/fortitude#moral of the story (for me) don't lie to your therapist (or another person's) or hide things from them#1) you aren't going to get any better 2) they have spent years learning to read people and they can see you for who you are and 3) you won't#even get the proper medication(s) (if you need it which goddess they need a significant number) for your illness(es)#honestly might explain quite of a bit of their spiral tbh and listen to your therapist when they tell you smoking weed exacerbates paranoia#i'm not saying don't smoke i'm saying smoke intelligently and safely. there's no shame in taking a break to better your mental health first#i've certainly done it#they could always start with why they were yelling about someone oddly specific on different occasions bc you know#it didn't present as suspicious in the least or why they couldn't pay others certain compliments like you're not subtle and again#not to be a broken record but that's what your therapist should be there for!#Falling Apart And Coming Together#i should come up with a label for it for me and when they potentially wanna snoop on my blog again rofl#but to anyone who('s) goes/going through similar i'm so sorry and i hope you refuse to give them the power to influence or control you#it usually comes from a place of them feeling like they have no control over themselves and it shows#i will say the closest i ever got to snapping (meaning yelling) was when they whispered to Nettle they hoped she'd die and manhandled her#several times#accidentally killing a stranger's cat might have awakened something in them but i sure as fuck wouldn't them try intentionally harming mine#or the one's they own#i think they even collected payment still after the incident which is actually sickening
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rocky-alex · 7 years
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Motels Won’t Cut It Anymore
Word count: 1034
Warnings: Nothing this time
Pairing: Reader x Sam
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Chapter twenty eight: Daddy’s Twisted Nerve
Your dad had told you everything about the rising. He’d told you exactly what you had to do, exactly what you had to give. You’d be hanging onto life by a fingertip if things went south, which they very well could. He didn’t even seem to care much, which, granted, didn’t surprise you, but made you question whether he ever really cared about you or your sister. How long had he been planning this? Was having kids just another step in his plan? Everything just kept running through your head over the next two weeks while he made preparations. In your short time back with your family, you’d already seen that he had become damn near paranoid. He didn’t trust many people, and only you, your parents, uncle Bill and Arnie would be there for the rising.
The first night in the mansion you heard sounds coming from the woods around you. When you asked your father he said the energy surrounding this place right now was drawing the attention of every monster close by. They could feel the ground moving in a way humans couldn’t.
“And you’re totally cool with that?” you asked with raised eyebrows.
“The area has been sufficiently warded against any and all monsters.”
“Again, this is totally fine?”
“Yes, it is. They can’t even come close to us.”
“They’re close enough to be heard from the house.”
“Y/N, would you just trust me on this?” He looked frustrated.
“Dad, there are monsters literally surrounding us, probably waiting for the first opportunity to rip us to shreds.”
“I know! But it’s almost time, and the wards will hold.” He seemed very sure of this. You took a deep breath.
“Okay. I’ll trust you on this.” Not likely.
You’d expected your father to start the ritual as soon as he had you in his clutches, but that wasn’t the case. After spending a night at the mansion you were taken to the nearby town. You parked outside a tall apartment building. You’d told your dad that he’d have to kill you to get you to leave your bike behind, and he relented. As long as you stayed close to his cars.
In the downtime, between your arrival and the rising, your father did his best to introduce you to his organisation. Your stay there was precarious as best, and the best you dared to hope for was that he needed you alive for the ritual, so you listened intently, trying to appear as if you were taking in his every word. After a few days, it started getting to you, and you actually got invested in what your father was doing. The first thing he did was go over the basics of the operation, giving you insight to something that had been in motion long before you were even born. You learned that the business was mainly located in Europe and North America. Thin branches stretched to other continents, but the Ritchies had realised long ago that their biggest advantages lay close to home. Going global hadn’t been an option way back when, and the family had, before your father took the reins, decided to stick where there was history.
The family made it’s profit from buying and selling rare artefacts, providing safe-from-human-law hunting grounds for monsters, and running a black market on human organs that were definitely not intended for illegal transplants. Shudder… Another part of the operation was lining the pockets of other criminal families, with interest of course. Families that just happened to consist entirely of monsters. You remembered hearing the brothers mentioning Chicago, and a few days after reuniting with your family they confirmed what Sam and Dean had said about the monster mob.
“Our biggest alliance lies with the Chicago Families. They hold great power among the monsters and have, for the most part, been accepted as intermediaries between us and bigger, more widespread, monster communities.” “For the most part?”
“In some cases, it’s not possible to efficiently gather monsters, or organise them into a working society. Chicago, in a way, is a rarity.”
“What cases?”
“Take, for example, rugarus-”
“What’s a rugaru?”
“That’s part of the explanation. See, they start out human. Some of them have no idea what they are, but they can mate with humans and pass on the gene. They grow up normal, but around 30 years old, they start changing. The biggest change is their hunger, it grows until the inevitably take a bite of the biggest prize.” “Which is…?”
“Long pig.” Okay, ew. “Once they have a taste, they change fast. They become inhumanly strong, their flesh rots, and they can’t go back. They’re uncontrollable and not always self-aware.”
“Does that harm you business in any way?” All part of the charade? Right? Shit. Your dad tried to hide his smug grin.
“Well, keeping monsters a secret is necessary for this all to work. That’s why hunters exist. If all monsters could be controlled we would have no need for hunters. Hell, they’d probably be extinct by now…”
You thought about Sam and Dean, getting to live a normal life… Selfishly, you immediately discarded that thought. You’d never have met them if they had lived a normal life. And your own family would still be as twisted as it was today. You hated to admit it, but you were intrigued by how this family conducted it’s business, despite the organ dealings. It made you sick to think that, if it hadn’t been for Leah’s death, you might have eventually joined your father of your own free will. However, despite already knowing one of his biggest secrets, you were still positive he was hiding things, and you hated to think what it could be. Interest in the business aside, your goal was still clear; stop your father from resurrecting the goddess, preferably without dying in the process. You didn’t see how you could do it, though, with so many guards around. The only thing you could think was that it would have to happen during the ritual, and you’d just have to play along until then.
“So back to your alliance with Chicago…”
“Ah, yes. You see…”
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