#like i’m being so foreal rn

[alicecheninspace]

no but can we seriously talk abt why does everybody hate kids animation or animation in general it’s like why do u do that… because like in reality animation ESPECIALLY kids ones are much more mature when it comes to its topics

[neuvistar]

poly jingren x reader has been on my mind 4 so longgg.. ITS SO BADD. please give me more thirsts or thoughts abt poly!jingren x reader i’m lovin them rn | hint of fluff, mostly nsfw

short lil thirst ! jing yuan + blade x fem!reader (use of she/her pronouns), big dick jing yuan + blade foreal, reader implied 2 be shorter in height, degrading terms (whore, slut, etc), mentions of squirting, mating press + full nelson, SIZE KINK!! SIZE KINK!!, blade’s a lil mean but it’s ok bc it’s blade!, cum cum lots of cum (sounds funny but it’s okay </3) | overall suggestive content minors do not interact

poly!jingren who would have different tolerance of your brattiness. jing yuan having the highest patience for u n blade having the least! you always run to jing yuan whenever blade talks abt punishing u n he thinks it’s soso cute :(( he’s always protecting you, nuzzling against his chest with your arms wrapped around his huge body, ur so cute! a darling you are..

jing yuan always tried dodging the idea of you wearing short skirts in public, why? you would make his dick hard, easy. but, you decided it was a good idea to wear the shortest skirt known 2 mankind one day, paying him a visit at his office. imagine this, jing yuan would be at his office doing work at his desk n all of the sudden you walk in looking all slutty, a short skirt that just barely covers your plushy thighs and ass, he would brush it off at first up until you purposely drop the pen on his desk bending down to pick it up. once you stood up, you would already be bent over his desk. that’s what you wanted, after all. “are you trying to tempt me, dove? because it sure is working.” jing yuan has zero patience whenever you’re acting like a whore in public, he would plant kisses all over your back and pound into you like there’s no tomorrow, his big dick stretching you out :(( choked moans would leave your throat, rambling on about how rough he was being with you, and that people might hear you and walk in, but he didn’t care, infact that was the last of his worries. he savoured the feeling of your tight walls pulsing around his cock, cumming inside and cumming on your panties too! i hope u’ll enjoy the stickiness between your thighs <3 (he’ll snitch to blade too abt it, what a bitch)

poly!jingren would be protective over you, even though they’re a pain to be with sometimes due to their constant arguments and disagreements, dating them does have its benefits. they would stand on either side of you, one on your left and one on your right. geez, you look so cute compared to them, it’s like you were walking around with two dogs on your leash, reading to pounce at anyone who dares speak ill of you or touches you. speaking of size.. i feel like they’d both have a size kink, you’re just so short compared to them they can’t help but fantasize about bending you over and fucking you in different positions, i feel like they both each have their favourites on that.

jing yuan loves putting you in a mating press, he likes it becuz it makes him cum quicker! not even a few thrusts and he’s already cumming inside, loving how you squirt all over his cock. he would press your knees against your chest, folding you in half almost. he would gently draw circles on your knee while the tip of his dick kisses your cervix, he’s so sweet to you though.. whispering praises in your ear. he would catch you off guard sometimes due to how sweet he was with you, not noticing how much he came, staring down at the mess he made in your cunt w cum seeping out </3

blade would absolutely love folding you in a full nelson, bro has sm strength it scares you sometimes. he would hook his arms under your knees, thrusting his hips into you. “sucha’ whore for my cock, aren’t you? you like it when i fuck you hard like this, don’t you?” mmm also also maybe if he’s feeling it, i bet bro would let jing yuan would join too, but he wouldn’t impale you with his dick like blade is, no.. he would rub his cock against your slit, placing kisses on your legs. honestly, jing yuan is your saviour atp. cuz everytime blade folds you in a full nelson, he’s always concerned that he’ll break you, so he tries telling him to ease it up a bit with you <3

poly!jingren would have god like stamina and strength, great speed n strength comes w great consequences! whether it is in a non sexual way or not, i feel like their stamina n strength would be useful in your relationship, its a lil cute since ur kinda shorter in height n they would always tower over u n help i get things from the high shelf or cabinet, it’s so cute! <33 but yet.. it’s a lil scary in bed cuz they can last so long w u and fuck you until you forget your own name, but it’ll be fine!! you can handle them!

poly!jingren both probably didn’t realize they had a size kink until they got intimate with you, it was probably the last of their worries up until one night. blade would probably notice a cute little bump on your stomach, noticing just how small you rlly are compared to them, jing yuan would too! honestly they both just love how their huge cocks slide in and out of your pussy, the bulge on your stomach going down, up, down up, over and over again! you’re just so.. cute they can’t help but stretch your little pussy out a bit.

“cmon sweetheart, you got this. you’re so cute, mhm.. you can handle more right?“

“sure she can, she’s strong girl. if shes— mmp.. squeezing around us like that, i’m sure she can handle more.”

“mm.. mhm. i can see that.” jing yuan leaned down, bringing his voice down to a whisper, “do you like it when we stretch you out with our cocks like this, baby?”

“fuck yeah she does, look at her. she’s creaming on our cocks already. s’ messy.”

poly!jingren who would both try their best to be gentle to you, sometimes it backfires but you don’t seem to mind! what’s very true about them is they both don’t want to hurt you in anyway, sure they fuck you hard enough and punish you but their intentions r never to hurt u, they would always ask you if you’re okay, even if they see the slightest hint of discomfort or pain in your face. especially jing yuan, he’s rlly rlly sweet n same goes to blade but he shows it in his own way. u know that blade doesn’t mean half of the things he says (he knows ur a slut for their cock tho but that’s besides the point) n sometimes he can get carried away but he would apologize with a simple “sorry.” and ask you if he was too rough on you, both r sweethearts yk

[lqfiles]

TROLL KINGS OHFBDBDJJDJD GAG THEM AGAIN. Like guys april fools is over say sike rn..😂 honestly i can see fireflies getting litty like WE GON LIGHT IT UP LIGHT IT UPPPPP😭🔥 but omfg i didnt know yall fw her like that??? Now bring hrvy on tour and sing DNYL 🌝🌝🌝🌝

Omfg i get u so bad sis.. i didnt manage to go last year and i was depressed af and when i tell u AF i mean ASFFFFFF like we was here at home watching tds fancams or even music show performances to fill the void ✌️ like not me pulling up concert vlogs just to know what the experience would be like omo we were going thru it and thugging it outttt BUT I HOPE U GET TO GO SO BAD AUUUGHHHH WE NEED THAT LQDREAM COLLAB 🙈

Yassss moving to privtwt is like the best decision i made foreals (insert that klaus tvd 🤫 gif) someone: whos lqfiles? Me: THATS OOMF😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ok srsly tho ugh i hope one day we can link up on the bird app ur too fun to not be in my pokemon oomfie collection 😪

DONTTTT EVEN BRING UP RENJUN I GET TEARY EYED THINKING ABOUT IT. BBOSONGSEEEE YOU WILL COUGH IN 3 DAYS. SM YOU WILL D##. LEE CHAEMIN YOU WILL FLOP. RENJUNIE WE WILL AVENGE YOU.

- 🍮

you know what you’re right let me optimistic, i’m sure they can make fireflies lit like i’m imagining fireworks and confetti, WE GETTJNG LITTY AS HELL REGARDLESS TRUSTTT and hsjdhsk imagine they actually get hrvy and perform DNYL that would be fun idk..

YOU GWT ME SO WELL i was attached to that screen like i was part of the team, i was ready to die for this dream shit LIKE WHY DID I BECOME ELITE DREAMZEN FOR A FEW MINUTES 🌝…. was screaming along with the crowd like i really thought i was there it was crazyyyy, WE WERE BOOKMARKING EVERY CLIP ON TWITTWR TOO LIKE IT WAS SERIOUS BUSINESS i was tweaking baaaddd if i don’t go this year i will just have to end it.. LQDREAM HDHSJSDK THANK YOU BES hopefully the link up will happen, we need you there too it’s gonna be lit asf 🤫🤫🤫

one day.. i been thinking about making a new main account for a while anyways, i like being nugu on twitter so i can say whatever i want 😅 anywaysss trustt i’ll give you my @ if i ever do and that lqfiles pudding anon link up is gonna be real michin THEYRE NOT READY FOR US SIS

THE CHAEMIN COMMENT HSJDHSKSK 😭😭😭😭 no but real sorry renjunnie idc if that’s your friend.. we still don’t fw him for that 😑 AND WHILE WE’RE AT GET THOSE FEARNOTS TOO WHO WERE INVOLVING THEMSELVES talking about “you mess with chaemin, you mess with fearnots” ???? 😭 i chuckled icl, they act like the guy is apart of the group all because he mcs with ec. it’s crazyyyy like no one scared of you guys i promise… BUT YEAH BBONGSONGEEE YOU HAVE 5 DAYS LEFT, PANNCHOA YOURE GETTING SUED SO 😂😂 #RENJUNKARMA

[maddies-french-blog]

the kids love sports: an analysis of international connections

if you are not in an online french class i would kindly suggest that you leave my poor, poor, tumblr blog alone. however, i will not say that outright, so do whatever you want! disclaimer its… yknow… my final assignment…. yeahhh…

let’s walk you through my thought process shall we

in the beginning…

i used to hate sports with a burning passion. that was for a myriad of reasons, one of which being that i have the grace of a newly born giraffe. i now ride horses, and within that i play a very interesting sport called polocrosse! think of it as a cross between horse and lacrosse to the uneducated folks reading this. i also dabble in formula 1, where cars go very fast. (i hope you can tell by the header of the blog that i find it humorous at times. that man makes 34 million dollars a year.) i think that polocrosse is sooo cool because it’s so niche, meaning that everyone knows everyone in a sense. there are lots of opportunities to meet players from other countries and such. in my course we were encouraged to speak on something that connects different countries, since it is a language class after all. so, after all that yapping…. welcome and enjoy the ride

this has been the forward

allons-y! je suis prêt :)

polocrosse

polocrosse est un sport

il est joué dans le monde entier (états-unis, zimbabwe, australie, etc)

c'est très petit, mais les joueurs doivent avoir de l'esprit

les joueurs voyagent plus de 7 heures pour se rendre à chaque tournoi

j'ai participé à 7 tournois

mes entraîneurs sont des joueurs de coupe du monde (not to break character but i’m being SO foreal rn, i frickin love my coaches, i will brag about them all day everyday for the rest of time. it’s really wonderful how much the community pitches in to help newbies learn to play)

quelques photos:

ma famille <3

En quoi est-ce international ?

les tournées pour les jeunes joueurs connectent les étudiants partout dans le monde

une équipe va jouer en australie cet été

formule 1

je ne connais pas les pilotes de F1 comme je connais les joueurs de polocrosse :(

F1 existe depuis les années 1950, et a beaucoup d’histoire

les voitures de F1 peuvent atteindre 300 km/h

trop d'éléments pour être expliqués… (please google it… it is very interesting i promise it’s just SO MUCH)

parce que les titres sont diffusés dans le monde entier, les fans le sont aussi

photos

au revoir pookie bears

-maddie

[nofeelingsandallthefeelings]

I guess I have to journal to do some shadow work. I tried calling like 5 centers today and none of them worked out then I went and got some so I’ll just cut back and hide it. I know that’s terrible but I don’t really feel that guilty if I’m being honest.

So yeah I haven’t been putting myself first to be honest. I’m working on taking my power back. Bringing love back to myself, it got lost in the sauce but that’s okay. It’s never too late for it to come back.

I watched patritizia and shit was too real. She mentioned capricorns a few times. I do miss bae jack, we had so much fun together and it just ended so suddenly. Definitely for the best and I truss we will get together when he comes back but I’m also anxious we won’t. I just have to get over it, not sure how regarding how triggering it is and considering my own addictions. I promise myself it will be the last time every time but there I go and I feel fine but I know better. I wish I wasn’t like this and sometimes I wish I never tried drugs.

I think ab bae jack everyday but I know it will get better over time and he’ll b a better human in general over time. I just hadn’t cliqued off with someone like that in a long time. I had no clue he had addiction issues. It’s okay, hope that man’s okay but I will miss all the scooter rides, Ubers, going over his house and having sex w him. The last time was kind of crazy, felt like making love the way we moved w each other during. Ugh fuck me. I just have to have faith and accept that if it doesn’t work it was fun while it lasted. But it must’ve been bad if he feels like he has to go away. LA’d out is what it sounded like, but I am too, leaving for nyc this week. I hank the lord. He was so sad, I feel like I took on a lot of his energy. I did play myself tho because I was giving and caving every time he called or texted so. I can’t take it like that if he comes back, my standards are so high and I let my guard down. He’s so closed off it’s annoying af, I don’t want to fix him at all. But I do feel empathy towards his situation and I want to support but I have to understand that’s only if he lets me. My thoughts towards him are a reflection of myself and I understand that now.

Ugh I’m supposed to go to therapy before I go to nyc but I just got my meds so I should be good. I feel so apathetic towards my breakup like literally no feelings, I feel like I suppressed them all and that’s maybe why I liked bae jack so much idk, I may have just been hella taken aback because he gave me the attention I wanted when we were together, but I can’t take the no texting when apart. Whatever I can’t control it and I’m wise enough to understand that. I sent him a sweet message w videos of us but obviously no reply per the usual. He does everything right when together but everything wrong when we’re apart. It was a whirlwind and we both needed to take a step back. I think that was my wake up call as far as going out and usage goes. The theme is so dark. I don’t want to talk about it

I have no clue what’s going on with me, the the drugs just fog me up. I admitted to Jac yesterday after I experienced psychosis for the first time in my life. It was bad and I really hope she doesn’t share with anybody what I said. I blocked my mom because she triggers me. I have to go to mf therapy but have been so reckless with my money lately. Let’s manifest working.

I love you Sharon

I love you Sharon

I love you Sharon

I love you Sharon

Ugh want the pipe rn but whatever idk what to even think so sad and last minute/shocking, I don’t know what the right word for it would be but again, it’s a sign I need to ground myself to be a better version or myself. Elevate.

Omg I’ve been listening to Brent faiyez on replay for like 5 days now.

Okay tomorrow nothing in the morning like foreal resist the urge. It’s so mf psychological, it’s fucked. But I got this just focus one day at a time and stay busy. I don’t want anyone to find out about this at all, the guilt is there but I am repressing it like I am everything else. I am trying to describe it all but there’s almost no words that come to mind at all, like Everything is okay or something when I know I’m not really.

I don’t know. Thank you universe for everything I have, thank you for my amazing friends and family and my life! I am grateful

[thrufiyah]

October 18, 2021

While I have some time to myself...

Might as well write down my thoughts! Omg babygirl in my tummy you are moving so much. I want to make a digital planner that seems so cool! Also want to make an infographic for n’s diabetes and for a.m’s diet and exercise tips!

What else... want to make a spreadsheet of mad actual orders that n was paid for to keep track

What else... Kinda want more space for the four of us as in a house but I know we’re gonna continue to work on it. I would make some phone calls but n is snoring hella loud haha.

What else... realize I have too much sweets? need to cut down foreal

What else... dr appt on wednesday kind of apprehensive if that means hesitant about if this midwife is best for me? but kinda dont wanna look anywhere else. also need to research new zealand contraceptions shots pills etc.. cause i know pills wont work for ,e. shit hold on!

Sorry the trash was finna fall and the wind from the door keeps opening it eh

What else any serious concerns? Just babygirl in my tummy if shes growing ok doing ok healthy and strong? hoping not to give her any unhealthy things but know that ive already done that...

Im on my phone a lot? i read, research, shop (more like window shopping lol), and what else... save photos so my phone doesnt keep fkn up lol

I wish we could go out shopping? like to the asian store or just for clothes and household items... 

my belly is getting way big ! I love it though and i can’t believe ill be giving birth again for the SECOND time in a row!

I think I would want a tattoo to represent little baby that was growing in November... to me you’ll be in the trees and my butterfly and more

What else... I’m slowly starting to get used to this new way of life. It’s cool to be around n’s family - sometimes the drama can be a bit much but it’s much less than what I expected but let me not speak too soon

What else... I love the scenery when we go out, to drive around - the hills remind me of home so that’s cool

wish i cooked more? that i knew how or took the initiative? feel really lazy and useles atp

omg never used that acronym lol but cool to see me use it.

eh im just rambling right now but its more calming than doing naything else? i want to shop rn, i want to do laundry and go for a walk and grocery shop.

bruh. GROCERY SHOPPING IS EXPENSIVE af over here. n didnt lie when he said things dont last a day here but its a lot of mouths to feed so shrug just something to get used to

i wouldnt mind moving w the rest of the family bc i know it can work if we make it work? but also wouldnt mind us having our own space too and being able to decorate it too - wish i had my own style like l si does womp her apt and style be so diff and i love it fr  goals for life haha

[dr4g00nick]

Watching the early seasons of criminal minds it’s been a long time.

Kinda having a bad mental health day so like....

It’s just hard dealing with alone.

I’m strong. And I am loved, I’ll get through this like I get through every day

Not gonna lie tho. I’m lonely af.

And I know people care about me.. I just wish the people around me new how much it ment to me when they would go out of they’re way to make sure I’m doing okay 👍🏻

I know I’m a grown ass man and it’s my job to make me okay. I got this. But support helps build the positivity I need...and every successful person always has a support team around them.

Officially announcing that I am not okay 😂

I see asshats all around me with there girl and supportive friends all acting happy and shit. Boy those fools be stealing from they friends and cheating on they girl.

Like fuuuuuck that and you lol

Nice guys always finish last 🤷‍♂️

That may be what it is rn.

But ima have to start being ruthless foreal

I’m venting so I don’t worry the idiots around me. I consider this my personal thoughts and feelings

The only ways I got rn to get this out is here or when I’m writing lyrics and

I don’t think the world ready for me yet 🤷‍♂️ 🤷‍♂️

Might just cause the world to burn 🔥

Because the lyrics I would spit rn would be too hard. Too damn honest, brutal. And would most definitely show some severe mental health issues

Anxiety, depression, adhd, and ptsd in combination is a bitch.

I need some mind release 🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄

[pleasetrytoforget]

High me reminder #1.)

STAND UP FOR YOURSELF HOE "Trouble will follow you wherever you go" Things weed does to me:: -L A Z Y. af -over dramatic -over explanatory -bad -maybe maladaptive ;) -thinking myself out of the high because weed is good for my brain right? -don't apologize -you are not a bad person for wanting to remember things and wanting to keep things straight for yourself -sick -nauseous -doesn't read shit because she's lazy af when she's high -really not that high though -THIS IS EXACTLY WHY -exactly -stop -do not apologize for you or for kyra or for Juliette or for anyone in this world because you don't need nobody and NO STOP SERIOUSLY DO NOT APOLOGIZE FOR ANYTHING JUST BECAUSE YOURE HIGH OH MY GOD IM REALLY SETTING MYSELF UP FOR FAILURE HERE WITH ALL THESE CRYPTIC MESSAGES ABOUT MEDICATION AND MALADAPTIVE {editorial} SHIT -I can't get noooooo.... 🎵 -MOTIVATION -*drum and symbol sound* -just stop being a dick and go to sleep now your phones about to die just put it on airplane mode and go to sleep and STOP TRYNA CONFUSE YOURSELF MAN -wow I am literally trash of a human being but that's not true because you really aren't trash and you know that you're just high and stupid right now so don't be fucking stupid anymore okay like seriously I'm gonna give up on you if you really see this tomorrow on precisely January 21st which you just checked on the calendar so you're really not high rn BC YOURE NOT BEING LAZY AT ALL and you're brain is powerful and YOURE STILL FUCKIN DOIN IT RIGHT NOW SO IF YOU HAVENT NOTICED THAT SOMETHING IS WRONG YET AND YOURE READING THIS ON JANUARY 21ST DURING THE DAY TIME (all bases covered and disaster is on the home plate) ((but not really because it's good to stand up for yourself even when disaster may be inevitable but nothing is inevitable because you're strong and powerful and really trippin yourself out rn and really trying to make sure that you know you're not high rn and still fuckin doin it so like Jesus fucking Christ Alyssa Patrice Thielemann if you're reading this tomorrow and you don't stand up for yourself still then honestly was any of it even worth it at all??? -ha! -vague and over dramatic ;) -fighting fire with fire huh? -seriously you need to stop just STAND UP FOR YOURSELF FOR FUCKING ONCE IN YOUR LIFE DUDE OK??? -similar tactics -last one -foreal this time -you're an idiot -goodnight -Jesus fuckin Christ -KFC: "Kant" fuckin concentratever -just a reminder asshole -okay seriously pls go to sleep -what the fuck -is wrong -with -you -dude -eat something why don't ya -that's not like you -BUT YOU CAN BE CONFIDENT IN YOURSELF WHILE ALSO BEING UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF MARIJUANA AND THATS NOT AN ISSUE JUST STOP TRYING TO LIE TO YOURSELF WITH THE BLANKETS AND THE REALLY FUCKIN LONG AND EXCESSIVE TEXTS EARIWR EVERYTHING THAT MADE YOU SO "SICK" EARLIER YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE JUST STOP -why'd you say it like that -like what -LIKE THAT YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE -okay but really tho like pls stand up for yourself no matter what dawg like Jesus loves you WWJD -totally unominous -and that ain't "unanimous" said with a fancy British accent -look at you not being lazy -no sarcasm -but I shouldn't have to say that -WE GET IT ASSHOLE YOU WERE MAD ALL DAY AND YOURE STILL SETTING YOURSELF UP FOR FAILURE RN AND ITS BECAUSE YOURE LYING TO YOURSELF IF YOU THINK HES GOOD FOR YOU IM TELLING YOU PLS JUST STAND UP FOR YOURSELF AT THE VERY LEAST OKAY??? -stop it doesn't matter if you're high or not just go the fuck to sleep dude for your own fucking sake just let the phone die and go to sleep PLEASE -last ditch efforts -remembering and implanting is cool -train ya brain

[thrufiyah]

nine months

Wednesdays, January 27, 2021

Ohmylanta! Lol. So much time has passed since I last posted here. You are now NINE whole months old! 3 months away from a year around the sun! 

I can’t believe how much you have grown! Now you are saying “mama, mymama, ama, & slowly saying something like “baba”” lol. You can pull yourself up to stand when you are positioned right and when you are by your hand or on your push walker thing. You have plenty of clothes wearing 2T-3T and size 6 shoe at 28.4 lbs and 28 inches. You love to blow raspberries (saying dada) and you still have a strong love with Cocomelon. In fact, at this moment you are currently taking a nap in your Cocomelon shirt. I should attach photos of you with each post. You are my whole world! You love a whole lot of toys that are your favorite. You love signing videos and its hard to get you to watch a movie. You love Olaf, JJ, the piggy, and the daddy on Cocomelon. You are getting a better grasp of your pincer grasp? Your pointing and thumb finger. Right now I’m on hold waiting for a while so they better answerrrrrrr. Anyway. You still love your daddy and playing with him. Just yesterday you were tryna make out with him hahahahaha. You love to try to stand on your own and you love to sit up. You love cuddles and being warm rn. What else... Your feet still have a mind of their own and everyone here notices how you love to cross your feet. Grandma noticed that you love to shake your foot when you’re comfortable. You’re getting better at moving and using your hands and fingers and thumbs. You are getting better at smiling at play and peekaboo and one potato two potato. 

big thing! you have four showing teeth and two small ones on the top sides and you got gaps for days girl lol but everything abou tyou is oh so cute. oh and ive been doing your baths for some time now and i love it and its still every other day and i gotta get into the routine of aquaphor for you eczema and dry spots

You’re so much fun and so cute and funny! You’re starting to cry a little more but you’re really not a crybaby. But we love you oh so much - foreal.

I hope everything we are doing is really the best thing for you. I’m sorry that I don’t have everything together. But I will keep doing whatever it takes to provide and protect you. I’ll write you again soon! <3.