#like what the fuxk. you all are the most wonderful and beautiful people in on this earth

[nightswithkookmin]

I have watched the photo booth photos coming out this week. And JK and Tae first. I wondered if Jimin and Suga would be next. But it is Hobi and Jin. So perhaps Suga and Jimin tomorrow. Is it just me or does Bighit seem to be Really pushing Suga and Jimin? I do honestly believe Suga and Jimin are close but not romantic. Jimin has never looked thirsty for Suga and he certainly has for JK. Thoughts on wtf is up with Bighit and Ship Agenda?

Please don't get me started on this cos I'm afraid I won't be able to stop myself 😭😭😭

For now I'm busy fighting the stigma

But this too is a weight sitting on my chest!

WHAT THE FUCK AT ALL IS A MANLY MAN!I stand with Harry Styles, Zac Efron and all these men who have come out to speak out against unrealistic male body standards and the toxic masculinity in the entertainment industry as well as everywhere.

What about this look is a "submissive gay man" look. 😒

Straight men and Women get butt stimulated, take fingers and dicks up their asses and ARE SUBMISSIVES TOO. IT'S CALLED SEX. Why do you stigmatize some men for their sexual preference and applaud others for theirs?!

If straight men can be submissives, gay men can be submissives. And if being soft looking makes you look gay then EVERYONE IS GAY.

Just look how ANDROGYNOUS AND BEAUTIFUL AND MANLY Jimin looks even without make up!!!!!!!

Jungkook have said he resembles his father and yet he calls him pretty and charming and sexy! You think Jk is confused by his looks?

Do y'all know how much Tae weighs!!!!!!!

That don't look life a soft weak man to me and he is not buffed up crazy!

And the tuktukker's on the bird app and Yt comments claiming he wants to be Tae...

I can I assure you he does NOT!!!!!!!!!!

This is the most absurd thing I ever heard in all my shipping life!!!!!! Y'all are a piece of work!

I'm gonna have to take this over to Kofi from now because some people out here just lack the range and depth to have nuanced conversations about these things and it makes it so hard to talk about some things.

What makes you think I can't talk about the good bad and complicated aspect of life and culture and beliefs or ships? Why do I have to hate BTS to point out if they say something misogynistic or homophobic or racist or exude toxic masculinity?

Have they themselves not said they have learned the most from Armies who've called them out on certain things like the misogynistic song lyrics, cultural insensitivity and all these other things?

Y'all don't confuse me with the fake woke wannabes and edgy folks out here who just want to make themselves palatable to yall. Y'all do them a disservice when you don't stay honest and real.

Expressing concern over POSSIBLE toxic work environment having a negative impact on a member does not mean I am afraid that member would lose their sexuality or sexual orientation. Jk looks nothing like Jimin but I still think HE IS GAY.

And it's presumptuous to assume that if any member had been in Jimin's position that I wouldn't have expressed the same sentiments.

How many times do we hear women celebrities complain about unrealistic body standards and the pressure to look a certain way in the industry? How many times have Male celebrities complain of the same pressures they feel in conforming to the looks yall praise as 'manly?' How many times have RM not looked at Tae or JK and talked about how he's own body isn't up to par and that he needs to pick up or work harder? How many times have Jk talked about fasting and dieting to lose weight? How many times have he called himself 'fat' and that he needs to do this or that?

Forget that Jimin has talked about eating disorders and nearly working himself to death to look a certain way? Why do y'all do that? Why do yall make it hard for us to dialogue about these things and bond over shared concerns or hold diverse views and bond over that and yet even learn from those diverse views?Why does someone you disagree with gotta be evil, and crazy and anti?

There's nothing wrong if you prefer a buff Jimin. There's nothing wrong if HE prefers that himself. But leave room for us to discuss the whys of it all. Leave room. If you think his work environment does not impact his choices that's fine. But don't come for me for also believing it might be impacting him or he might be succumbing to the pressures of the work place.

You think if JK started saying he wants to lose his body muscles or if Jin or RM said that I won't wonder what is motivating that decision too? It's absurd if the only reason y'all think I have is a nefarious gay agenda.

As for BigHit and the Ships

It's like WHY!!!!!! WHY CAN'T WE HAVE ALL THE SHIPS SAILING AT THE SAME TIME!

Y'all do this ridiculous scheduling and pairing as if they are night nurses running shifts! Why the fuxk can't we have all these ships coexisting wholesomely side by side AT THE SAME DAMN TIME!

This is how the conspiracy theories begin- of Tae kook finally getting back together and putting Jimin in his place. No one is putting no one in no damn place! Tae kook is not real.

I can't. I really can't!

Someone beam me up. I just can't anymore.

I might as well delete my Tumblr and move to Jupiter with BTS.

Signed,

GOLDY

[formula-what]

why are your fav drivers your fav drivers? just feel free to say anything about them and make this as long as you want to :)

okay first hurdle with this is making me pick,, because????? I love all of them???????

Ofc number one. My pretty boy. Lewis fucking Hamilton. I refuse to believe that you have ever seen a man so beautiful. Because frankly I don’t think it’s possible. But this guy. He’s why I like f1.

I think I’ve told this story before but, when I was a kid I picked my favourite drivers based on the three letters their name made on the live timings, particularly ones that made words so HAM, BUT(T), VET etc. and it’s not my fault that they also ended up being the best drivers ever.

Oh f2 tangent: first race I saw, actually f3 probably and there’s like a million drivers in that but I kept my eye on the timings to see if any names stood out and there’s an ARM? Which I think is funny so I followed him for that race. And no joke he made it up from like genuinely the back of the grid up to top ten and that just. Through me. So I said “okay this kid u are my new favourite I will plant this seed and watch it grow” and then that ended up being marcus Armstrong and y’all know how ridiculous he is so YEAH. My instincts in picking stupid drivers >>>>>>>

But yeah, I stuck with Lewis and jense because I’m British and mcalren tooned was my favourite cartoon growing up what can you expect.

I grew up with Vettel’s supremacy playing in the background and I fell in love with f1 after the chaos that was 2016 and watching seb and Lewis’s fights. The ones that had you at then edge of your seat, genuinely not knowing who would win. And I have to say because of course I do, turkey last year hit me so hard because those last few laps were *exactly the same* and I miss it so much. And I love how they can be so bitchy to each other on track but there’s still so much respect off of it, they genuinely want each other to do well and that’s just. Its so good.

Okay so. Lewis. Because he’s just. He’s so not f1, and I mean that in the nicest way possible because!!! guess what!!!!! He is f1!!!!! He’s the most successful driver ever, everyone knows his name. You say f1 and people think of Lewis hamilton. And that’s the best thing ever because he’s what f1 should be! F1 has the exact opposite morals to him but he’s doing so well in changing that. Just. The respect I have for that guy.

And then I genuinely can’t pick a second driver, okay no wait it’s seb. I can’t pick a third driver, I think the rest of the grid are all crammed into my top 10.

Of course there’s Lando. Who I followed purely because of his stupid name, and all the stars aligned with this guy. He’s such a piece of shit, he’s stupid, and he’s silly and he’s mean and I love him so much because like. When I see this guy it’s just that ‘omg same hat’ meme. Because yeah. I’m also all of these things. I’m snarky and bitey and I say something as a joke but it comes off as serious. And he chews on his necklace okay I just I fucking dfghhjjh I’m NOT writing a Lando essay because then I will cry but. This guy has seriously helped me overcome a lot of personal issues I’ve had. Like it’s only been two years but my self love has 📈📈📈 which is why no matter how stupid and ridiculous he gets, I don’t think I could ever lose him. I mean, I fuxking hate the guy. but (affectionately)

And there’s lance. Who’s kind of in the same boat I guess. He’s quiet and shy and sarcastic and funny as fuck and confident in himself and his abilities. And maybe it’s a ‘Lando is who I’m probably going to be, Lance is who I want to be’ thing. But. Idk they’re my boys and I love them.

Daniels a fucking idiot. I say that with my whole heart. I absolutely hate this man. Pretty boy (derogatory).

I guess he’s the first driver that I got to like off of the track, (thank you red bull for on the sofa, literally the only good thing you’ve ever done) with Lewis and seb I fell in love with their driving. With Daniel I guess it was his personality that caught my eye. Surprise surprise, it’s always the same when it comes to him huh. But he’s a phenomenal driver, and I can’t help but wonder where he would be if he didn’t come to f1 during sebs rein, and then Lewis’ rein. Tough look kid but that��s how the cookie crumbles.

And he’s like, so good at the whole mental health awareness, advocating for basic human rights thing. So.

And I could ramble on about the whole grid but I have to stop myself. I do have some self restraint, crazy I know

[nosrednaeiramaivilo]

TEXT | LAP WARMER

Liv: And having fun?

Frannie: so mcuh

Liv: Good! Whiskey?

Frannie: yeha

Liv: would it be super lame to meet you if you’re downtown?

Frannie: no! Comrn in

Liv: Okay. Can you ping me your location?

Frannie: k

Liv: So much green beer!

Frannie: guiness is besttet

Liv: totally!! Smell weed yet? It’s so busy outside tonight

Frannie: so many

Liv: no on the weed then?

Frannie: dunno

Liv: says I’m here. I’ll come find you!

Frannie: k

Liv: You and Arin feeling okay? :joy_cat:

Liv: Green beer is the devil I think

Frannie: We're still alive?

Frannie: Green beer is cheap beer, it's definitely the devil

Liv: Cheap beer is like the way to go out though. To me anyways

Liv: nothing feels better than waking up from a night of 2 dollar beer :slight_smile:

Liv: feels like a big fuxk you to the man

Frannie: Personally I hate cheap beer

Frannie: But uh, you do you

Liv: I just really like doing things in spite of the the bubble I feel forced in sometimes

Liv: cheap beer makes me feel powerful LOL

Liv: and brains are weird

Liv: You were very cute last night

Liv: thanks for letting me third wheel

Frannie: Cheap beer and I get along about as well as wine and I do, which is to say, we don't

Frannie: But I don't mind Guinness, and I rather like craft beers.

Frannie: I'm glad someone thought my drunk ass was nice

Frannie: Thanks for coming along

Liv: Bad hangovers ?

Frannie: Makes me physically ill

Liv: Yeah, staying away is a good idea then!

Frannie: Mmhmm

Liv: I thought you were awesome! I was sad when we parted ways

Liv: I wanted to take you home and snug

Frannie: You did?

Liv: I did!

Liv: would have been really nice to hold you

Frannie: Why's that?

Liv: you’re holdable and I like being near you because I like you a lot

Frannie: You do?

Liv: I do!

Frannie: I like you a lot too

Liv: That’s really nice to hear

Frannie: I like that you're safe to be around

Liv: I really try to be

Liv: I’m glad I’m safe for you

Frannie: I like having someone else who is safe

Liv: It is really nice to find people you can let in

Frannie: It was just Arin for a really long time. I lost a lot of people at once. She was the only one who believed me.

Liv: I’m so thankful you have her. I’m thankful I have her. She’s really good. But so are you

Liv: I’m sorry you had to lose

Frannie: She saved my life.

Frannie: It was so bad, but it taught me a lot about people.

Liv: Most bad things do

Frannie: I suppose

Liv: In my experience bad things have always shown me bad people or people worth keeping

Frannie: I just wasn't expecting to lose basically everyone.

Liv: It sucks. It’s better to have no one though then have bad

Frannie: Yeah, I guess so but it makes it hard to open up, y'know?

Liv: I know

Frannie: Sometimes I feel more like Medusa than Athena

Liv: I don’t really know what that means but I don’t think Arin would call you Athena if you weren’t Athena, you know?

Frannie: She was calling me Athena long before what happened.

Liv: Right. Good to know.

Frannie: Yeah

Liv: I’m sorry I probably didn’t response properly

Liv: but like you’re Athena

Frannie: I don't feel like it

Liv: Maybe one day you will

Liv: you’ll feel beautiful the way others see you

Frannie: I always wondered how people got over stuff like that. You don't.

Liv: I can’t put myself in your shoes. I can’t. You’re probably right but I don’t want you to believe that you’re just like hardened forever. I don’t want to believe that

Frannie: I don't know how to move on from it. From what he did.

Liv: I wish I knew the answer

Frannie: I mean, I know I'm getting there, the tattoo is part of that, but... I don't know what my next step is.

Liv: Step by step I think

Frannie: I'm not good if I'm not a few steps ahead of where I am now

Liv: I want to help

Frannie: I don't know how you can, that's the hard part. You're already doing so much anyway

Liv: I want to know you forever

Liv: It’s all I know for sure

Frannie: You do?

Liv: Yeah, totally

Liv: I like you a lot

Frannie: Yeah?

Liv: Yes

Frannie: Why?

Liv: I like your face and your voice and your hands and your weight in my lap and I don’t know you make me feel like I’m on fire but instead of it being angry and overwhelming it feels warm and comforting

Frannie: Really?

Liv: omg frannie

Liv: yes

Liv: I’ll scream it from the tallest mountain if you want me too. I like you so much it makes me wanna twirl around

Frannie: OH

Frannie: I'm dumb

Liv: all humans are dumb

Frannie: But I'm like REALLY dumb

Liv: I’m not following

Frannie: You like-like me and I didn't think you did

Liv: I feel like I have said this before am I making this up?

Frannie: I don't know! I'm dumb!

Liv: :sweat_smile::sweat_smile:

Frannie: I've never been into someone before, much less thought someone would be into me

Liv: Self worth And perception of self and trauma responses are weird

Frannie: You're telling me

Liv: are you gonna come over

Frannie: I can

Liv: please

Frannie: Then yes, I am.

Liv: Thank you

[nightswithkookmin]

MONDAY, JANUARY 18TH: GOLDY'S LOG

I miss Suga. Scratch that. I miss Agust D. My spirit animal.

I've been thinking about him a lot lately, wondering if his injury isn't an exemption to military service. I wonder if he qualifies, in light of his injury, as an able body. I wonder what their law defines as able body.

I wonder if he passed the legal physical exam and health assessment test when he turned 19, since he's had that injury way before debut. Or if BTS have undergone that mandatory military service assessment since they are all past 19 and what their results are.

Jimin has chronic back pain too. That should qualify him for an exemption to military duty. He can still do desk work if it's that serious.

I should talk to ***** and look into South Korea's law on exemptions to military service.

Moon values the arts and culture industry. There's already been an extension for conscription for the benefit of BTS. Their success and longevity in the spot light perhaps influenced this decision. Should BTS maintain this momentum, an exemption would be inevitable I feel.

I miss them. They've been gone for too long. I'm worried about the impact this is going to have on their popularity if they disconnect from fans for so long or be mechanical about the way they connect with their fans.

I hate the limited access to them. But Scarcity increases the value of a product and it's not surprising if this is the approach BigHit is adopting in the wake of the pandemic.

Limited access not only raises value, it creates demand. Bang PD is a bigbrain marketing genius- I hate it.

They are taking a huge risk with this new marketing strategy. Personally, I'd stick to what works but then I am no marketing guru. Just a consumer who likes to play it safe. I guess I won't be getting hired anytime soon. Fuck.

It's all very fascinating.

What's equally fascinating is the shippers out here on these streets. The Jokers.

I... they confuse the hell out of me sometimes.

How are they going to question my rationality when I talk about moments I feel Jikook are having issues in their relationship or had broken up etc but then have no problem with and even applaud that same rationality when I talk about moments that has led me to believe there is lack of depth in Tae Kook's dynamics or that they are not real by any standard or that another ship in BTS isn't real.

Do I have two minds? Or are they more inclined to be selective in their beliefs based on their biases towards Jikook and against other ships? It's weird.

By the same lens I define Jikook as real, I define Tae Kook or any other ship that includes JK and Jimin as not real. And by that same lens if I feel Jikook aren't together then I'm wrong and irrational?

It really confounds me.

Not sure if they expect me to apply double standards to Jikook in those instances.

I don't think there is right and wrong opinions or perspective when it comes to shipping, but I think if they are right about me being wrong about my perspective on Jikook then I must be wrong about my perspective on any other ship in BTS as well.

I can't be right about one and wrong about another. I'm either right about all or wrong about all.

I can't be 'right' about Tae Kook having 'issues' in their bond in such a way I think it often bars them from fully nurturing their bond and developing depth to it but then be 'wrong' about Jikook also having issues that mess with their bond from time to time when it's the same measurement I use in accessing the depth of bond of both ships.

I really don't understand their way of thinking.

What is right and what is wrong and who decides on that?

I think we ought to substitute right and wrong with 'believe and believable.' The approach to such discourse should be about what one is willing to believe or not believe about certain discussions: I believe this. I don't believe that. Because believes stem from our personal biases towards a subject.

And the people that come running to me with 'look, Jikook smiled at each other in On era so change your mind'

I would except I hear this debate all the time. I wonder if they realize they sound exactly like the Tuktukkers in my DMs trying to convince me Tae Kook is real.

'Look Tae sat on JK's laps! How can you say there is no depth to Tae kook' ' He squished JK's cheeks' 'Jk said he wants to ride with Tae, if there was no depth why did he say he wanted to ride with him'

I have a feeling Soft Koo is back. The days of Terminator JK might be over. Too bad, I liked terminator JK. He was a bad ass.

I like that he is experimenting with his looks. But I'm glad his Ravi-esque phase is over. I wonder who he is drawing inspiration from this time. He reminds me of Jimin though. There is something peaceful and serene about his looks.

Can't really tell much because Bighit is sitting on tons of footages. I think I need to send a truck to Bang PD HQ.

I don't like that Jimin posted a Vhopemin photo for Tae's birthday. It was cute and all but I don't like it. That shit felt passive aggressive as fuxk. Lmho. What, he didn't have a V or Vmin photo in his gallery? Sounds like someone didn't put much effort in their VMin agenda for this post.

I wonder if he will keep the same energy come JK's birthday. I mean both him and Tae didn't post for him💀

May be I'm reaching on this one. But a single post where V was not even the focus of the post... I think his birthday means a lot to him and he enjoys when people shower him with love and attention and I don't think his birthday is an exception.

And he kept reiterating after such said birthday how he recently discovered he loves to be loved and how he does most of the things he does in order to be loved by his fans, friends and family.

And it breaks my heart that, the headlines read BTS shower X, Y with love on his birthday but the two people close to him were missing from that list this time. The media talks about BTS posting for eachother as them showering eachother with love. Certainly they all know this.

And the fact Jin posted for Tae after Tae's birthday says a lot about Tae and JK. Tae had no intention of posting perhaps because he left JM a message on the packages. With Jin I feel he was overcompensating for not posting for him on his birthday...

JK gets a pass. If JM wasn't happy about him not posting for his birthday, he would have pulled a Jin.

Jimin talking about coming to the realization he loves to be loved makes me think JK withholding his affections openly made him come to the realization he loves to be loved. Just a hunch. And the only reason JK would withhold his affections is if Jimin himself estopps him. Those two give me headaches.

I think I got the closure I needed from this.

LESSON: dont get on JM's bad side and bloody post for his birthday 💀

Tae been releasing photos of Jimin and Jhope a lot lately. Not sure how that makes me feel either. I think it's beautiful. But when I think about all these beautiful photos he has of Jimin on his phone and how generous he is with them- I think they would have been more meaningful had he released it on JM's birthday. The snow photo he posted still sits in my Vmin heart somewhere.

I really don't like this not posting for each other's birthday business. It's 2021. They need to cut it out.

I feel JK set a bad precedent but personal happiness first so good for him.

This moment haunts me for some reason.

What was going through V's head. I want to know. RM looks done. Lol.

Jimin is really beautiful. I love his eyes when he smiles and the thing he does with his shoulders.

Some people complain I write a lot. Some say I don't write enough. Ayayayai!!!!!!

What to do.

I think I accidentally deleted a post.

I'm looking forward to JKK1. Stay Gold, Still with you, Your eyes tell... I hope he hasn't given his best away cos those were bops.

PJM1... oh God I'm nervous. I'm excited for it but nervous. I think Serendipity is a classic. The Christmas song was equally great and frankly the only good Christmas Ive heard so far and I don't even like Christmas- nothing against Baby Jesus I just think it sucks. That bridge in Dis-ease is something.

I want to read his thoughts. His spotify playlist is insightful but I want to confirm if he really sees himself as a mess who is always causing his lover grief.

I mean he did say he has realized he needs to be considerate towards those that love him. Not sure yet the connection there.

I want to read his thoughts.

PJM1....

I love JHOPE. I think his ship with Jimin is beautiful and healing. They make my insides warm. Not sure if their shippers think they are real. Do they? That would be awkward.

I think RM and Jimin need to spend time together... it would be good for them.

Jimin and Sungwoon shippers are alleging Jimin has been staying with Sungwoon all this while. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

But the bit about him living with Sungwoon before the start of Bon V 4 has me🤔

Around that period, I don't believe JM was at the dorms and Jikook were not together then too. He must have been staying somewhere...

I'll let them have that.

But around November 2019 when he was having issues with JK he was staying with Tae too so no I don't think that means Sungwoon is queer or that Jimin is sleeping with him💀

They need to get out of their imaginations.

I think Jikook will drive me crazy one day.

I can feel my cranium swelling.

JiRose shippers need to pack it up. They really think Jimin is straight? 💀

It's the bad editing for me.

That doesn't look like a straight face to me. Unless his butt was on fire and he was uncomfortable looking at that black interviewer, I think that's his flirting face.

Lately I've been thinking about what ifs.

What if Jikook is not real?

I wish I believed that.