#literally tried to kill himself because he couldnt handle the pain anymore

[bastardlybonkers]

titans had one of my favorite characterizations of bruce. they also had my favorite 'what would happen if bruce Did kill the joker after jason died' ive ever seen

[evanstanimagines]

Accidental Confessions

Imagine accidentally admitting you were in love with your best friend

Angst with Fluff not my gif

Sebastian had been your best friend since college and you’d been room mates since graduation. You had both just clicked right away and an amazing friendship had begun. You were inseperable even when you had dated you both wanted to rush home and tell eachother all about it. He was amazing simple as that by far the best man you knew, kind caring funny and devilishly handsome but he was just your friend, that you’d figured out after your 10 year friendship, just friends. It killed you on the inside you were so in love with him it hurt, but you’d never tell him. You’d never risk losing him if he didn’t feel the same so you we’re just his friend. It was better than nothing at all you figured. But the more dates you went on the more you realised he was the one you wanted to be with and you’d decided to tell him when he’d come back from his vacation. He had a girlfriend but he made it sound like it was nothing serious and as wrong as you knew it was you just had to tell him how you felt you couldn’t keep it bottled up anymore it was destroying you. Decision made, you’d tell him tonight when he came home.

It was 10pm and Sebastian was due home any moniute, you’d had a few glasses of wine to calm your nerves while you waited for him to come home and when you heard the front door open your heart skipped a beat

“Y/N I’m home, where are you?” he shouted as he dropped his bag in the hallway

“Kitchen” you shouted back, taking a few deep breaths steadying yourself before he peeked his head round the door

“Hey i missed you bud, I’m so happy to be home” he said as he pulled you in for one of his bear hugs you loved so much

“missed you too, how was your vacation? You want a beer?”

“Amazing and yes i’d love one, I have huge news Y/N you might wanna take a seat” he told you pulling out a stool from the breakfast bar. You couldn’t help but notice how excitable he was acting. You shot him a questioning look as you took the seat

“Okay, what is it Seb whats got you so jumpy” you aksed

“ right here goes, well the thing is, um…”

“spit it out” you almost shouted growing impatient at his stuttering

“I PROPOSED…..She said yes”

He propsed, what? you could almost feel your world come tumbling down around you. Why would he propose they’re not that serious are they. The tears began to prick in your eyes, blinking a few times to hide them you shook your head

“Oh my god Seb, C-congratulations” you tried to hide the utter devastation in your voice “t-thats fan-fantastic”

“really Y/N you don’t sound too happy about it?” he quizzed studying your obviously shocked and slightly broken expression

“of course I’m happy for you you dork, it’s just unexpected i didn’t know you were marriage serious about this girl, I’m just shocked is all.” you lied “ excuse me I’m a little tired I’m gonna head up to bed its, its good to have you home” it was getting alot harder to hold back the tears threatening to spill out

“Y/N I’ve just got home and you’re leaving me already?” he asked clearly a little upset

“I’m not the one leaving” you muttered as you turned away from him and walked out of the kitchen

He shouted after you asking what you’d said but you waved him off and ran for the stairs holding on to the handrail like it was only thing stopping you from sinking into a sobbing puddle on the floor. You made it to your bedroom slammed your door shut and leaned against letting the tears flow, heart wrenching sobs shaking your entire body, struggling to catch your breath clutching your chest scared that if you let go your heart would literally shatter.

Seb stood leaning against the island confused as all hell about what had just happened, he’d told you the biggest news ever and you practically ran away from him he couldn’t understand why. After about 20 minutes of trying to figure it out for himself he decided he couldnt and you’d just have to answer his questions for him. As he reached for the handle of your bedroom door he paused he could hear your hushed voice coming from inside it was clear you’d been crying from the sniffles he kept hearing between sentences he figured you were on the phone. He wanted to turn around and wait for you to finish but his feet wouldn’t let him leave. He knew he shouldn’t eavesdrop but he wanted answers maybe he’d get some here.

“Mom he asked her to marry him he’s fucking engaged” you sobbed down the phone “what am i going to do now, i’m gonna lose him mom, i can’t lose him”

He couldn’t hear what your mom was saying back to you and he wondered why you were so upset and why on earth you’d think you’d lose him you were his best friend he wasn’t going anywhere. Not really. He kept listening

“but i will mom, I’ll lose him if i tell him how i really feel and I sure as hell can not watch him marry someone else, i think it would actually break me”

Wait what? How you really felt, what did that mean?

“I’m in love with him mom I can’t just be happy for him, i’ve been pretending to do that for years now i can’t do it anymore. I know I’m being selfish and I’m not gonna ask him to choose, I’m making this decision on my own, I’m done i can’t anymore” you started sobbing again repeating yourself over and over again “I can’t, I can’t”

Sebastian stood utterly shocked outside your bedroom, torn, he wanted to come in and comfort you like he always would when you were upset but he didn’t understand what the fuck was happening. You were in love with him? Since when? You guys had been friends for almost half your lives how did he not know. What the hell was he supposed to do now? He decided he couldn’t hear anymore and crept back downstairs to the kitchen to try and process the confession he wasn’t supposed to hear.

After you ended the call to your mom you opted for sleep it was the only thing you thought would stop your heart from hurting even for a little while.  You didn’t change from your clothes, just lay in the same position until sleep took you. Sebastian stood from the stool he’d been sitting on for well over an hour now stretching out his tired limbs he decided he would come talk to you, he wasn’t exactly sure what he was going to say he just knew he needed to be near you for reasons he wasn’t sure of, guilt maybe, you were hurting because of him, although it wasn’t exactly his fault he still felt awful so he made his way back to your bedroom.

As he opened the door he spotted you laying on top of your duvet still in your clothes, you looked broken, defeated, his heart ached for you. He was so confused. He stood in the doorway for a little while listening to your breathing it sounded like you were crying but he could tell you were asleep. He made his way over to your bed and crouched down next to you tucking a piece of hair behind your ear brushing his thumb across your cheek to wipe away the tears, he could feel his own tears well in his eyes. You were shaking, crying in your sleep. He didn’t know what he was feeling in that moment but all he wanted to do was cradle you in his arms and make the pain go away.

He loved you, ofcourse he did you were his best friend in the world, he loved you but was he in love with you. He’d never thought of you in that way but in this moment looking at his beautiful best friend so broken and sad he couldn’t help but question his feelings for you. How he would feel if you weren’t in his life anymore would he be okay if you weren’t around to help pick him back up when he fell to help him but his pieces back together. No the answer was no he couldn’t survive without you, was he in love with you, is this what real actual love feels like. His heart hurt at the thought at losing you it hurt at how in pain you were right in this moment it hurt because he didn’t know what to do.

After what like an eternity battling with himself and his feelings for you he made the scariest decision he’d ever made, JUMP, just JUMP if he couldn’t survive without you then he knew he loved you he just knew it somewhere inside him he knew he was IN love with you he wasnt sure how he’d come to this realisation but it felt right. First he would tell you then he would call of his engagement.

“Y/N, sweety wake up” he gently shook your shoulder rubbing his fingers through your hair as he watched you stir and peek up at him through your teary lashes

“What is it” you asked, your voice hoarse from all the crying, he was smiling at you looking at you in a way he never had before

“Do you love me?” he asked

“your my best fr..”

“no” he cut you off “ I mean are you in love with me” he was still smiling

“w-what, I don’t understand” you pulled away from him rubbing your eyes and sitting up

“are you in love with me Y/N, I need you to answer me” he sounded impatient “I need to hear you say it so I know i didn’t mistake what i heard before”

“H-heard before w-when” you were fidgeting now heart thundering in your chest

“Your phone call to your mom, I heard you Y/N you said you we’re in love with me. Is it true?”

You couldn’t look at him just sat fidgeting with the comforter trying to figure out your next move, you didn’t want to lie but you didn’t want to piss him off either. He was growing even more impatient now his own fingers fidgeting as he waited for your answer. You nodded slowly eyes closed lips pursed as you waited for his rejection his anger his frustration. You were definitely not expecting the reaction you got. He tilted your head up to look at you as you met his eyes, full of confusion but adoration and lust and he slowly tenderly pressed his lips to yours. The earth stopped spinning you swear it did, you felt light headed and shocked and happy and scared all at the same time. As he pulled away from you your mouth hung open and you just stared at him blinking opening and closing your mouth like you had words there that refused to come out

“I’m in love with you too Y/N…I didn’t know it until tonight but the thought of not having you in my life made me realise, I love you, like i really love you and I’m sorry it took me this long to figure out and I hope you can forgive me for making you wait so long but I-I’m in love with you too” he was rambling nervously as you sat watching him still in shock mouth still agape you didn’t know what to say how to act the only thing you were sure of was that you loved him and that you wanted to kiss him again. So you did even if it was to just get him to stop talking.