#lollllll these books will be the death of me

[theembergazer]

About meeeeeee

Hiiiiiiii I'm M - preferred pronouns she/her or they/them

I do art It pretty meh - no stealing tho I HAVE TUMBLR NOW LET'S GO TIME TO GET ADDICTED

Also don't send me fundraisers in my ask I don't have money and I'd rather reblog ones that ik aren't scams if you send them in my ask I'm gonna delete them sorryyyyy

More about moi under the cut:

I like hermitcraft the hermits are amazing thank you for being my childhood and being chaotic and chaos is chill

I draw fanart for my friend and for HERMITCRAFT

I read. Lots. It's concerning

I like anything MC?

Okay manga/manhua/anime/donghua I've read/watched (favs in purple): BSD (Bungou stray dogs), Apothecary diaries, One piece, Demon slayer, Spy x family, Your lie in April, LINK CLICK aka 时光代理人 (THE AMAZING LIVE ACTION THO 😭), Double click, The devil is a part timer, Dungeon meshi, Fruits basket, Oshinoko, The weakest tamer began a journey to pick up trash, K-on, Bocchi the rock, Your name, a bit of fullmetal alchemist, a bit of death note, a bit of Natsume's book of friends, and a bit of Cardcaptor Sakura, ORV (Omniscient reader's viewpoint), Insomniacs after school, Frieren

Guys the link click live action is actually my comfort show now and like my motivator not to think about the past otherwise I would be killing myself over how embarrassing some things I did were

I WANT FRIENDS D:

#M art on here is my art so if your want to see the very few pieces of art I actually make then sure go ahead you can actually find them now

#M answers for any asks I happen to receive and I happen to answer

#M writes for the occasional writing this that I actually write - I write mainly oc stuff and sometimes fanfic (if my friend asks me to) but I don't have much time to write (aka I don't write at all basically) so there won't be much on here D:

#M waffles for when I actually decide to be original for once lollllll

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Idk that's it ig

This is so long I'm sorry I keep adding to it

[the100hurtme]

Lol so I finished the second book a couple days ago but here were my thoughts cause I remember them clear as day lollll (this series makes me emo) soooooo A Court of Mist and Fury pt.1:

I KNEW I TAMPON WAS SUS

My autocorrect knew before I did and was trying to warn me 😒

I mean I didn’t like him that much anyway he was so bland and I swore he only communicated in grunts

She’s not a FREAKN toy oh my gosh 🙄

Wait it’s been months and Rhys hasn’t shown up??? How serious is this bargain thing

Wow these Books are🌶🌶

Awww poor Feyre 🥺 can no one here her puking her guts out at night????

Tampon just chillin on the bed can’t even hold her hair 😒

This “protective” stuff is def gonna be a bad shade on him

Who tf is Ianthe

Well Atleast she has a friend even tho sis just popping up out of nowhere

Noooooo Feyre doesn’t seem like herself is no one noticing how this she’s gotten??? Do they not have therapy in Prythian?

Ugh this writing is so good I can actually feel how hurt she was

Damn how do you cope with actually dying and seeing urself and turning into something you once hated???

Where tf is Rhys

Ok like I can cope with them being engaged, but are they really gonna get married???

OH THEYRE GONNA GET MARRIED

SHIT THEYRE GONNA GET MARRIED

SOMEONE SAVE HER NOT ONLY FROM THE MARRIAGE BUT THAT FUGLY DRESS

Awww it hurts reading her cry for help

YES DONT DO IT

FUCK YES FINALLY TAKE HER AWAY RHYS YES YES YES

oh shut up tampon 🙄

Ianthe sus sus for dippin like that

Awww yes rhys take her away from this bitches 🥺

Ok like I know that I want rhys to take her away but seriously tamlin isn’t gonna put up more of a fight?

Ugh yesss Lucien must have been tired for carrying the sass of the book for so long

FINALLY SOMEONE NOTICED SHES BEEN WITHERING AWAY PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY

Wait how deep is this bargain bond (I’m still so confused about how that thing works)

I still stand by the their mates theory but idk how that works either and he hasn’t mentioned it

She’s so broken she can’t even push back at him damn her fire is really gone

Who’s the girl??? Pleaseeee no competition...

Lol Bruno Mars would def love the night court clothes

He’s having her read and put up shields wow. Also why did no one at spring court teach her how to read??? Like it’s not threatening or physically dangerous... lowkey annoyed with Lucien like the dude almost died cause she couldn’t read how come he’s not gonna teach her...

OH SHES HIS COUSIN aight that’s cool

Wow he’s actually giving her space idk I thought he would bug her a ton that’s really nice

LOL OF COURSE HES HAVING HER WRITE THAT

Nooooo don’t make her go back she’s actually eating and sleeping 🥺

DUDE WHAT WHY ARE YOU INTERROGATING HER

Bruh 🖕

Oop you just know something us about to go down at the tithe

Also for someone who said he doesn’t keep slaves the tithe is a bit sus there 😒

Dude that’s so glutinous to just keep taking and taking like that... if you have all that money why can’t you reduce their taxes!!! Also why is the Tithe so frequent tf

Are they not gonna discuss the wedding thing

Yeah what how are they supposed to pay in three days when there’s nothing??? Like most of the kingdom was under a damn spell

Is Feyre just supposed to be decoration???

Yes! There’s the backbone that we hadn’t seen from her in the last 7 chapters!

Damn tam don’t get your panties in a twist

Oh they are def gonna save her ass later

LOL I LOVE HOW SHE GAVE AWAY THE JEWELRY HE GAVE HER

HA

Sis should have given them her engagement ring 😌

Wait how many powers does Feyre have??? I need a catalogue to list which court can do what... like if autumn can do fire how come dawn and day don’t get fire??? Like I’m sure it makes sense but my mind is tired

Lolllll Alis is a whole mood

Yeah you better be saying sorry tampon 🙄

Does the mans not see she hasn’t painted anything in months??? Like read the room omg

Awww she has PTSD badddd someone come save her :(((

WTF YOU CANT JUST DO THAT DUDE WTF

Atleast he shielded her somehow

HE WASNT THE ONE SHIELDING HER

Bruh wtf is Rhys?!? Or even Lucien or Ianthe do they not like Feyre or something

BRUH WHY CANT YOU JUST HOLD HER WTF fIng horndog 😒

Sis you don’t owe him anything, but she’s so nice for trying I would have dipped so fast

YES RHYS YAYYYYYYY

Dang the clothes are even looser than before 😞

bruh these two are just wrapped in trauma aren’t they :(

Well that picture show must have kept him up at night oof

HOW DOES NO ONE CHECK TO SEE IF SHES ALRIGHT LIKE ITS NOT JUST THAT SHES NOT PAINTING THE GIRL IS LITERALLY WASTING AWAY

I expect if from tampon but damn Lucien is on some thin ice

Bro everytime I read “looks at me with worry” it physically hurts like ouch

Is this just gonna be a thing where she only gets checked on and fixed one week a month just for her to wither away again?

Yeah where is Mor? On the map the night court is so big how many Fae are in this court

The whole invading other people minds thing stresses me out.

Bruh Amarantha was bad and controlled all those courts how can something be worse than that

can someone find out what books Feyre is reading??? Like what kind of books would the High Lord of the Night Court give her to read?

Please don’t let her fall apart Rhys

Dang this book is so realistic that going through that shit can actually haunt you for a while. Most books just skip over it I like that she’s actually going through it thoroughly

WTF TAMLIN

Dude why can’t he train her??? Like she’s losing control of it might as well teach her how to wield it on purpose

Yes Lucien talk to him 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

They really don’t let her do anything at all, idk how do you live life when you feel utterly useless

Why can’t he just tell her where they’re going???

Ok Lucien earning some brownie points I guess for trying

HE DID WHAT

Bruh WHAT

RHYS WHERE YOU AT

I knew I liked Alis

How come Mor is the one getting her? Ohhhh some other weird court rules I dont understand

Damn that must have been so traumatizing for Feyre

Lolllll Rhys is about to lose his shit and I’m here for it

YES DONT GO BACK YES

YAYAYAYAY SUCK IT TWMPON

WE’RE GONNA MEET RHYS FRIENDS I think he has friends I hope he does

awwwww city do starlight sounds nice

Lol they must not know about this city if they think Rhys is terrible

HOW DOES SHE WRITE THIS WORLD my imagination isn’t even that big!!!

Aight so since this book is hella long expect multiple parts of your actually following along with this!

[sleepybrowngay]

1-51. Bite me.

damn, aggressive kinky anon

1. Zodiac signLeo sun, Sagittarius moon, Scorpio ascendant 2. Sexual orientationGaaaaaayyyyy3. Relationship statusIn a relationship :)4. Someone you missMy mama! 5. Person who’s arms you’d like to be inKatieeee6. What you find attractive in Men/Women?A love for dogs/all animals, passion for social justice and activism, similar sense of humor, likes to dance, adventurous but chill, and likes to be fuckin weird with me

7. How tall are you?5′4″ I think?8. What you love about yourself?I really like how much I can appreciate the little things, especially in nature. I can watch a little bird hop around or squirrels playing for hours. I also love how much love I have to give to others. 9. What you’re doing tomorrow?Working as always. 10. What are your future plans?Figure out my future plans? lol. I’d like to adopt a dog someday. 11. Your last night out in detailNYE, mango with katie and aryn, drinking + dancing + drinking + dancing, embarrassing myself in front of one of my tumblr crushes lollllll, kissing my girlfriend and immediately getting splashed with champagne, ?????, trying to find aryn after they disappeared, cuddling, recovering at a diner in the morning 12. Your favourite bookOf all time maybe Les Mis even though I have yet to finish it. I really like Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer.13. All of pets you’ve ever hadLots of fish whose names I don’t remember, lots of lizards whose names I don’t remember, Charlie the dog, Love and Joy guinea pigs, Milo the cat, Sapphire the cat, Zooey the dog, Ziggy the dog, Amelia/Chloe/Tasha/Sophie rats, Ringo the bearded dragon, Cleo the bearded dragon....that’s all I can remember but I’m sure there’s more. 14. Something that changed your lifeHmm, interning at Farm Sanctuary. It was the first thing I did for myself that went against what my dad wanted me to do. And it started my activist journey. 15. Do you remember your last dream?Yeah, it was weird. It was about my foster brother and it was kind of a flashback to doing music together but we were our current selves. 16. What your last text message says?“I had a dream you were in a play” 17. Do you respect your government and the way your country is run?Nope. It’s a little (a lot) fucked up. 18. Where you would like to live?Here in the bay area at this point in my life. Not sure where I’d like to settle down though. Or what settling down looks like for me for that matter. 19. Your  favourite flavour of ice creamCooookie dough20. Last thing you ateChipotle chips 

21. Which swear word do you use the most?Probably fuck22. Your plans for summerWorking because I’m a god damn adult now I guess. And hopefully a trip up to Lassen or down to SD or somewhere sunny 23. Any upcoming concerts?Noooo how sad 24. Something that you’re proud ofMy professionalism and ability to juggle a lot of things at once (excluding my mental health but ya knoooowwww)25. Do you still talk to your first crush?I don’t remember my first crush....my first boyfriend nope26. What language do you want to learn?I want to become fluent in Spanish and I also want to learn Portuguese 27. Where you  have lived before?San Diego, San Marcos, Santa Barbara, Orland, Chico28. Eye colorDark brown 29. Favourite style of clothingGay.....lmao30. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?Half an hour 31. Where did you go today?To the city to work32. Where are you right now?Work. Procrastinating actual work 33. How many countries have you visited?Hmm Mexico, Canada, Costa Rica, Africa34. Something oldMy rats Amelia and Tasha :( 35. Something newMy picture of a rat :) 36. Something inheritedUhhh my anxiety and migraines? 37. Is death more scary than life?No except for that voice in the back of my head that whispers “what if hell is real and your dad was right”38. Experience you’ll never forgetStudying abroad in Costa Rica! Ahhhh I miss it. I need to make platanos and gallo pinto soon 39. What’s your favorite part about today so far?I actually made my train this morning so that’s cool40. Who is your hero?My mama! 41. Are you happy with where you live?Yeah. It’s grown on me a lot 42. Do you like your handwriting?It’s alright. Legible at least 43. What do you wear to bed?Either just a shirt or just sweatpants 44. Tea or coffee?Tea usually 45. Chocolate or Vanilla?Chocolate. Unless it’s cake then vanilla 46. Are you excited for anything?Yesssss kinda 47. How late did you stay up last night and why?Until 12 or so because Sam and I accidentally napped for like an hour earlier 48. What’s your ringtone?My phone is pretty much always on silent 49. Did you have a dream last night?Yeah, I only remember the one about my foster brother though 50. What keeps you going each day?Different things. Sometimes the love and encouragement of my partner and my friends, sometimes sheer pride and the fear of letting people down, sometimes memes and dog videos 51. Picture of yourselfI’m lazy so you can look in my tagged/me

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All yo

I didn't know which you wanted sorry Who hurt you the most? Oh lord uh. I mean I'm rlly broken up rn because I guess I hurt me the most by being and asshat. Who have you hurt the most? Too many people. I'm a twat. Who do you miss the most? Mmmmmmmm. Honestly everyone should know by nowWho do you want out of your life the most? The person I hate the most. Who had the biggest positive impact on you? Kristen. Who had the biggest negative impact on you? My cousin. Who do you wish you could be honest with? Fucking. Certain person but. I can't. Who have you harbored (any kind of!) secret feelings towards? Oh boi currently. Like three people but I feel shitty about because I just kinda want to let them use me. Who would the world be better off without? Me!Who do you wish you’d treated differently? I used to be really mean to Rachel. I feel bad about it. What was the worst day of your life? Oh god. Last night was pretty bad. What’s your greatest fear? Being alone. The next two are drowning and my mom dying. What’s your biggest insecurity? definitley just. My looks as a while package. If I have to choose one right now; it's my nose. What’s your biggest regret? Hurting people. Describe your ideal world. Everyone gets along and has the right to be who they are. No one judges them Describe your personal hell. Torment from someone I love. What’s a hopeless dream you’re still holding on to? Getting married lmfao. Or going to college What’s the most embarrassed you’ve ever been? I always tend to embarrass myself in front of the person I like. What’s the angriest you’ve ever been? I really got pissed at eric I don't remember what I said because. I like. Got blackout madWhat’s the saddest you’ve ever been? Trying to kill myself What’s the most scared you’ve ever been? Honestly. With my uncle when I was little What’s the most hopeless you’ve ever felt? Last night. I can't do anything right What’s the most frantic you’ve ever felt? When I wake up from bad dreams What’s the bravest you’ve ever felt? Hhmmmmm. I told off a jock once 😂What’s the best case scenario for your future? Go to college, know what I'm doing, meet someone. Get married. What’s the worst case scenario for you future? I mean death is a viable option, so I guess. Drop out of senior year and become a drug addiction What’s the most physical pain you’ve ever felt? I don't fackin know What’s the most emotional pain you’ve ever felt? MmmmmMMMMMDescribe a time you felt like a hypocrite. Telling people to love themselves. Describe a time you felt like a traitor. Uh. I dunno I've been talking to JA I feel bad about it bc of kristen. I don't like him tho just. Friendly. Describe a time you felt like a hero. I saved my cat!!Describe a time you felt inhuman. I dunno just when I'm really. Mean. To people. Describe a time you felt like a failure. Currently lmfaoWhat’s the worst thing you’ve ever done? The sneaky sneak What are you proudest of? My music or art. What’s your relationship with your family like? We're okay. Strained. What’s your relationship with religion like? LollllllTalk about someone you’ve lost. I haven't really lost anyone I care about Talk about someone who abandoned you. They did it for the right reason Talk about a desire you have that scares you. I'm honestly. So attention deprived I wanna be a lil hoe. What’s something you wish you were capable of? Being normal What’s something you’re afraid that you’re capable of? Breaking someone. Ruining their lifeDescribe the kind of life you wish you’d been born into. Not drug addicts that's for sure. Describe your worst heartbreak. Mmmmmmmm. I deserved it Describe your worst disappointment. My grandmother forgetting me. Have you ever taken a fall for someone? Too hard. Broke a few bones and my heart. Have you ever forced or let someone take a fall for you? Forced? Maybe. People tend to like me and I feel bad about it Have you ever done serious physical harm to someone? No????Have you ever done serious emotional harm to someone? Probably. I'm shit Have you ever self-harmed? EeeeyyyyyyyyHave you ever attempted suicide? EYYYYYYHave you ever stolen something? Only your heart. And a lot of stuff in elementary school. I was a little kleptoHave you ever cheated on someone? Nope. Have you ever been cheated on? Nah. I was the other woman. Hate myself eyHave you ever taken revenge on someone? NahHave you ever seriously considered killing somone? Not seriously Have you ever betrayed someone who trusted you? I guess yeah. Have you ever experienced something supernatural or unexplainable? I dunno I don't want to. I'm freaked by that stuff man. nebula: put your itunes on shuffle, give me the first 5 songs that pop up: glowing eyes, thistles &a weeds, sleep on the floor, young dumb and broke, the Ethan Nestor singing ha. cosmos: what are you like when you’re angry at someone? A piece of shit. I'm literally the worst. shooting star: what are you like when you're sad? An emotional wreck bud it's pathetic. eclipse: what are you like when you're happy? I'm excited as a puppy!!!luna: favorite names? For boys: Fox and Xavier. Girls: Melody and Celeste. space dust: are you happy? Currently? No. Not at allconstellation: have you ever read a book that is worse than the movie? Nah man I love books. black hole: do you have any diagnoses? Depression and anxiety eyyyycomet: do you like the person that you've become? No. I'm scum galaxy: are you a sun, moon or star person? Agh moon or star milky way: do you prefer math or humanities? Humanities definitely. satellite: when was your first kiss? I was thirteen on my couch. betelguise: what's something that calms you down when you're upset? People singing to me. solar system: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Canada, kinda wanna go to minnesota rn. Or Ireland. sunspot: are you a sensitive person? Very andromeda: describe your first best friend Her name was Ariel and we were barely friends lolsaturn: what do you think about before falling asleep? I try to think happy thoughts if I don't. I won't have an okay dream. pulsar: what kind of person do you want to be? I'm trying to be a ray of sunshine at school. Really sweet. cassiopeia: what do you like most about yourself? Uh. I listen well when people are upset. orion: what do you dislike most about yourself? Literally everything else. meteor: do you have a favorite historical figure? Abe Lincoln because of his beard.