#luna you dont get it YOUVE RUINED ME

[ipegchangbin]

Bestie.

You’re username is I peg Changbin.

I want more peg Changbin thoughts.

And maybe Changbin with oral fixation?

Hm?

Hm?

Hmmmmmm??

sorry for making this ask marinate for a few days but this is the death of me: at the same time, this is the very thing ive been waiting to discuss for about 2 months now. luna you precious soul you have opened a can of worms.

the concept itself of a big buff man suddenly becoming so vulnerable under your frame is honestly attractive. regardless of your build, the contrast of someone supposedly built to be strong and full of capability willingly submitting to you is such a power trip in and of itself. so seeing changbin (a man who could easily break away from restraints with sheer strength, a man who can manhandle you easily whenever he wanted, a man whose loud and raspy voice can command you instead) submit and disregard everything he can do to you out of pleasure??

that’s hot.

changbin wants—no, needs and craves for you to fuck him, fuck everything out of him until he’s dumb and pleading for nothing but more of you. i bet he loves everything about pegging, from the thought that you get to control him to the sparks of pleasure that he simply can’t get from anything and anyone else.

couple that with an oral fixation though? YES ABSOLUTELY.

changbin’s lips are juicy and enticing. full and plump, and everyone knows that his natural smirk has to be one of the prettiest things about him. that’s all good, but it rivals the satisfaction and beauty of seeing that lopsided smile wiped away, plush blushing lips wrapping around your cock instead. at the same time, it’s cute to watch them drool over and beg to be used.

he was probably the one who insisted on trying this in the first place. the pout he gave you while introducing the idea did not help your case at all. he fell in love with the idea of taking you in any way he could. if you owned his ass, you should own his pretty little mouth, too.

if your strap were double ended, you would feel how his head pushes it further into you, pleasuring you both. changbin, ever so obedient, would love to service you like this even if he was the one waiting to get his ass ruined.

no amount of porn compares to watching him have a go at your dick. the tongue that spits rhymes is circling around the tip of the strap. his throat hits it too when he goes deep. he probably even intentionally sucks on the side so that you could see the length poking at his full cheeks. when his cheeks hollow out as he’s sucking you off, you could see his dimples. he even groans lowly before pulling away. the mere sound of his desperation mixed with his wet mouth makes you feel like the most powerful person in the world.

you wonder where he learned all of this from.

“f-from you.” changbin wipes the spit away from his mouth.

you scoff at it and pat his head. “i taught you well?”

“too well,” he pumps the cock with his other puffy hand. “want more of it, want more from you.”

“how cute. ass up for me now, yeah?” and he just obeys immediately like the good boy he is. (or good girl? you should ask what to call him tonight)

he’s beautiful. he’d be looking at you through hooded eyes as you prepare for a long night. he was eyeing your cock as you lined it up to his entrance. you could tell by how hard he was that he was just as excited about this as you.

…definitely not projecting rn ^_^

thank you for sending this im foaming at the mouth. one of these days ill make an even more comprehensive post about pegging changbin and it will be the end of me.

[doubt-is-the-origin-of-wisdom]

This.... is new. I can't make this body... do what i want. And I know Roan is... away as much as they can be. But i feel *awful*. And I think it is theirs... I can always feel what they are but... not like this... not to this degree...

We.. I? Have been worried sbout everything luna said. And the fact that im sure u okayed that. Idk if u okayed the pics. Roan kept staring at them and now i van see them when I shut my eyes.

But... one of the things... right now.. worryed me the most. Was "*Am* i giving up too soon?" And the car that drove by made a sound like a couple notes from hell and you. So thats gonna be the ultimate decision maker ig. Bc they have always meant thise words when they sang that song to you.

I am looking up the lyrics as i write...

"Cause I'd rot in Hell with you

If you'd just ask me to"

Okay so i think the important bits is that it says "with you". Avoiding and pushing me away as much as u can... isnt with me.

And also... if luna is to be believed you are pretty blissed out most of the time so... idek if the In Hell part applies to u rn.

Also... the "Asked me to" bit. I dont think you rlly have? I know you asked us to leave if you hurt us this much. And i dont think... youve ever really done or said any true thing to try to get us to stay. Not since you decided to start cheating on us.

I... realize now that.. we have asked you to stay. And you swore we would have a life together. Since the cheating started. Then kept cheating.

Fuck, this songs one of the ruined ones isnt it?

I.... even if roan changes their mind about love. I am not letting them get so attached that their sorrow will do *this* to *me*.

Im curled up in bed analyzing songs that remind me someone i care about because i cant sleep of move. That is unacceptable.

I dont even like that I'm putting this on this blog... fuck i need to feed this stupid worthless body.

I am better than this. If i weren't attached the the Emotion Intensifier that is Roan, maybe this wouldnt be happening. Heartbreak is just pain like any other.

I wish it were something i could amputate... and i wish it were just felt in the heart. It is everywhere. When chain was awake their *wings* felt like the were burning from the inside. We dont even have wings.

That ratty dog bolted... immediately actually, so i dont know how they are feeling. Roan might, my connection to everything is.. different.

Oh now there is a useable feeling! I feel insane. Not from what i just said, bc i have been staring at the wall for a While after i wrote the word "different".

I still am trapped in Roan's hell, but i can drink that cup of water, that we did get bc we wanted to sing to you today... whatever that song is with the coyotesand rabbits and whatnot... theyhave been learning it becauseyou liked it and they wanted to sing it for you.... water is better than nothing.

Hello, hip pain. Yes we wont be moving go ahead and go numb.

How am i acting like this right now?.....im

Not posting any other... broken version of me.

Oh, worrying about trixter reading this just now gave me an idea.

(Assuming we will be down a partner) if the others survive and whatever, and roan becomes operational again, we obviously will not keep these blogs, because they are private. They are for us, but our "mate" was allowed to see them. But if they make us leave, roan may decide they shouldn't be accessible to trixter, so we will ...

Use notepad. Was? I felt like i had had a clever idea at the beginning of that. And my idea was "use notepad"

Nyquil and melatonin plus major stress and no sleep will do that... to.. me?

Dont like that very much but, okay.

I have been with this fool since rhey can remember. Through ralph. I have never experienced this. I suppose it is because we hated ralph so chain and the ruffians could do their thing. Loving. Is the most....

Fuck i wanna write a poem but i just saw the q where the t was sposed to go. I think if i tried to write it woukd3bs embarrassingly awful.

Im sure if we ever sleep i will be horrifically embarrassed of *this*.

Hopefully we will either sleep or eat before trixter is able to read this so i can come to my senses and delete it.