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love drought

pairing: tae x f.reader

genre: angst

warnings: established relationship, toxic tae, mentions of infidelity, y/n gets treated like shit and she’s okay with it, kinda? not proofread sry!

inspiration: love drought by beyoncé

word count: 475

“ten times out of nine, i know you’re lying.”

it’s a never ending cycle with taehyung. he cheats, swears up and down that it didn’t mean anything, i cry and forgive him. no matter how bad he treats me he’s the one i want to come home to.

“but nine times out of ten i know you’re trying”

“baby listen” taehyung starts with a hint of frustration in his voice.

"i’ve already told you, I'm making an effort to be better about this whole cheating thing."

i look at him, my heart heavy with doubt and hurt. “tae, i know you’re trying but can you try a little harder for me?."

he rolls his eyes, clearly irritated. "y/n, you're always so demanding. can’t you see I'm trying? you’re just so clingy and controlling. ease up, and maybe i won't be so tempted."

“all the loving i’ve been giving goes unnoticed”

"i’m simply loving you the way a girlfriend, should. where's the harm in that? how does that make me clingy?" i question him

“i’ve given you all my love, poured my heart and soul into our relationship, only to find that it goes unnoticed, leaving me questioning where I stand in your life.” i say

"that’s entirely on you, isn't it? just give me my damn space. how can you be this dense, unable to comprehend that you're suffocating me with how controlling you are and your neediness?" he sneers, venom in his tone.

"neediness? controlling? i’m simply seeking attention from my boyfriend, just like any normal girlfriend would. you label me as controlling, but I'm only asking you not to cheat – that's the bare fucking minimum in a relationship." i retort, frustration and hurt evident in my words.

“nine times out of ten, i’m in my feelings”

“just calm the fuck down y/n. she meant nothing and you know that.” taehyung utters bitterly.

“i would understand more if it was a different girl but this is the same girl. taehyung you’ve done it with her three times now. THREE.” i say back as tears fall down my cheeks.

“tell me, what did i do wrong?”

“why tae? just, just why?” he begins ascending the stairs, with me closely following, demanding answers.

“stop trying to avoid the question.”

“you want to know so bad? it’s because she actually has self-respect for herself, she carrys herself better than you ever will.” he retorts bitterly.

you knew he thought that way but you never thought he’d say it. damn that hurt.

“y/n can’t you see how you are? get it together, i treat you like shit and you take it. i can’t be with someone who doesn’t respect herself.”

“i can’t leave you, i love you too much tae, and you know that.” i can barely get words out. it feels like the room is closing around me. i start panicking and looking around the room.

“am i not thirsty enough?”

“i’ll do anything tae, just tell me. what do i have to do for you to love me, for you to stop?” i plead, my emotions pouring out.

taehyung reclines on the bed, nonchalantly scrolling through instagram ,seemingly unfazed by my heartfelt words.

“please tae, i want to be better. please i just need you to-“ i begin, but he interrupts me.

“listen baby, i just need you to let me do me” he sighs and makes eye contact with me.

“i love you y/n. i don’t ever mean to hurt you.”

i offer a hopeful smile, then crawl into bed to cuddle with him. this is a recurring pattern but i wouldn’t trade it for anything else because we’re made for each other.

“you and me could stop this love drought”

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unraveling insecurities

pairing: jungkook x f.reader

genre: angst

warnings: insecurities, jungkook is kinda shitty, y/n needs to get it together ngl, not proofread sry!

word count: 311

it’s finally caught up to you. the heart-wrenching moment when you realize that your insecurities are pushing jungkook away, and you're desperately holding onto something that no longer exists between you.

it’s all your fault, your lack of confidence and needing for reassurance drains him. why are you like this?

you’re not good enough and you’ll never be good enough for him. you feel like a worthless piece of shit and that’s exactly what you are. you ruined everything.

your mind is racing with thoughts, and your vision blurs as tears stream down your face.

"pull yourself together, y/n," he murmurs softly, his words causing more tears to fall.

the realization hits you like a tidal wave – how could you have been so blind? all this time, he was growing distant, and it was because of you. the painful truth settles in: no one wants to be with a girl who can never find satisfaction within herself. you’re not woman enough.

"listen , y/n," he sighs, running his hand down his face as he speaks, "i don't understand why you're so upset. you should've seen this coming." his words cut deep, adding to the emotional turmoil.

in that moment, you can only offer your silence. the weight of your insecurities and the acknowledgment that you've played a significant role in the situation leaves you feeling powerless and unable to find the right words.

"you can't even bring yourself to ask what you could've done better, because deep down, you already know," jungkook says, frustration evident in his voice as he gathers the last of his things. with that, he walks out the door, leaving you in silence. just like that, he's gone, and there's nothing you can do but sit in the emptiness and darkness.

the weight of your insecurities feels suffocating, and you realize that it's time to confront them, not just for the sake of any future relationship but for your own well-being. it’s a painful moment of self-reflection and the beginning of a challenging journey to rebuild and heal.

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Shattered

pairing: jimin x f.reader

genre: angst

word count: 290

warnings: mentions of drugs, overdose, suicide. um i’m kinda fucked up for writing this. not proofread sry! DO NOT READ IF YOURE IN A BAD MENTAL SPACE.

you and jimin had been inseparable for years, meeting during your college days and forming an unbreakable bond. you both knew each other inside out—or so you thought.

three years ago, the weight of college and the pressures of adulthood pushed jimin to turn to drugs, eventually leading to addiction. he confided in you, and although he was embarrassed, you offered understanding and support. with your help, he realized that drugs only increased his problems. jimin reached a breaking point and made a heartfelt promise to leave that life behind, starting anew.

one saturday night, you were extremely concerned, jimin remained unresponsive to your calls. anxiety overtook you, which made you pay a visit to his apartment. you unlocked the door with the spare key he had given you, stepping into the dimly lit space.

"jimin!" your voice echoed through the apartment as you searched for him. the bathroom door led you to a grim discovery. jimin lay there, surrounded by white powder. panic surged as you rushed to his lifeless form, desperately trying to wake him up.

"jimin! jimin!" your voice trembled as you lightly tapped his face. trembling hands fumbled for your phone, dialing 911 in a frantic haste. paramedics arrived quickly, but it was too late. you were left alone with your overwhelming grief and anger. your world had shattered.

weeks passed, yet the haunting memories of that day refused to fade. you questioned yourself relentlessly. how had you not seen the signs? his habitual lateness for work, the surge in health problems, his waning interest in hobbies, it all felt like missed warnings. guilt consumed you. you believed you could have saved him, and you blamed yourself entirely.

as your thoughts swirled and tears flowed, you believed you had found the only way out. In the depths of despair, you made a fateful decision, one you believed would reunite you with jimin. you pulled the trigger.

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