#man. him and conny loved each other so much. i'll explode

[goldiipond]

idont think i've shown any of my art w don's little bunny patch showing before that one but it's one of my most dearest headcanons <3 the younger kids had gillian help them make it for him and he always wears it right over his heart <3

[xocalliexo]

Hiii! Could you do a friends/colleagues to lovers kind of thing with Mr. Peña? 😍😍😍

Like Javier finally revealing his feelings for you. I don't really care if it's smut or not, I'll leave it up to you :)

Thank youuu

Good god I am so sorry I'm late on this! I really hope you enjoy it. I didn't include smut, but I am kind of proud! Please let me know what you think!

Pairing: Javier x gn!Reader

Word Count: 981

Warnings: Mentions of death and gunshots. Takes place shortly after season 2 episode 4 "The Good, The Bad, and The Dead"

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You and Javier have worked in Colombia together for a long time now. Before Steve arrived, even. With that came a certain kind of… friendship with him. You two would go out to bars together, you’d help him pick a chick up, he’d help you pick someone up. And the cycle repeated.

As the years went on, you found yourself falling for the agent. The more he opened up to you, the more you felt yourself falling in love. Watching him sleep with informants and other women hurt, but you never said a word because you didn’t want to ruin what you had.

Sometimes you worried that you were too obvious, but maybe you weren’t. Or maybe Javier was oblivious. Steve realized your feelings for Javi about 3 months after he arrived in Colombia.

“What?” You flustered, scattering papers on the floor. “I do not have any kind of feelings for Javier. I have no idea what you’re even talking about.” You knew that you were flushed, and if anyone else looked at you they would’ve thought you’d seen a ghost.

Steve just chuckled and shook his head. “Whatever you say.”

It wasn’t until a few months later you admitted your feelings to Connie and Steve one night. You just couldn’t hold it in anymore, no one knew and if you didn’t tell someone you thought you might explode.

Once you told them (the two of them were very supportive), you felt a little better.

And life went on. Until it didn’t.

The first shift happened after Carrillo shot a kid. You were with him and Javi and you had a hard time believing what you had just seen. As soon as Carrillo had put the gun to the kid’s head, you grabbed Javier’s hand. You weren’t even thinking, but you needed something to ground you. He didn’t push you away, just held onto your hand like you were the only lifeboat in a tumultuous sea.

The final straw was the night Carrillo was murdered. Hearing Javier yelling over the radio, the panic in his voice so evident, very nearly broke you. You went home that night and just sat on your couch and stared at the wall. Finally, you decided to get up and check on Javi. You weren’t even sure if he was home, you figured he would go to one of the brothels and try to forget it all.

To your surprise you opened your apartment door and jumped when you saw Javier with his fist poised to knock.

“I was just coming to see if you were okay,” you said softly, letting him in.

Javier let out a heavy, tired sigh and dropped onto your couch. “I appreciate that,” he said. He wanted to light up a smoke, but he knew that you’d kill him if he did it in your apartment. “I wanted to make sure you were okay.” “I think I’m okay as I can be,” you said, sitting beside him. You took a risk and left no room between the two of you. Your thighs were pressed against each other and you wanted to melt into him.

He was quiet for a few minutes. It was a comfortable silence, like it always was with him. Being with Javier was second nature by this point.

Finally, he spoke. His voice sounding more real than it ever had. “Life really can end at any moment, can’t it?”

You smiled sadly and nodded. “Especially down here.”

Javier whispered your name and you turned to see him looking at you intently. “I need to be truthful with you. I’ve been holding this in for way too long, worried about the consequences. But after the last few weeks I don’t care anymore.”

You tried to say something, but he placed his hand on your knee and you knew to be quiet until he was finished.

“I’m in love with you. I have been for a long time, but it just took me forever to accept it. You know the things I’ve done, what I’ve been through. I’m not usually a man to settle down, but I want that with you and it scares the shit out of me. I haven’t even slept with someone else in six months because I can’t stop thinking about you. I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable, and if you want I will be happy to leave and we can both act like I never told you any of this.” Javier didn’t want that, but he knew that he would do anything to keep you in his life, even if it meant pushing away his feelings.

You were stunned. You had no idea that he could feel the same way that you do. You thought that maybe you were dreaming and that you should pinch yourself. Finally, right before Javier stood up to leave, you threw your arms around him.

He grunted, catching you easily and burying his face in your neck. “Javier, you have no idea how happy I am to hear that you love me.” You pulled away to look at him, your eyes starting to tear up a little. “I’ve loved you from the moment I met you. Yes you are stubborn as fuck, and we may argue, but there is no one else I’d rather go through life with than you. You know me and you understand it all. I love you so much, Javi.”

Javier grinned, a big genuine smile that you only get to see once in a while. “You wanna go through the rest of life with me?” He asked. There was a tone of hinting in his voice, but you could tell it was a serious question.

“I want nothing more,” you said.

And years later, when you got married on his father’s ranch, you both were glad you finally opened up completely to each other.