#may God grant your the courage and strenght to overcome these doubt

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You don't have to answer this, its just theres so little advice anywhere on the internet for it and you seem like you might give some. I'm bisexual, but I'm really fucking tired of it and want to be heterosexual. I'm like 99% I made myself bi, I remember as a kid thinking being gay is cool (because it was in so much media I was watching) and I remember forcing myself to have a crush on this girl just because she was nice to me. I have been praying about this, but idk, I've always just struggled with faith and so far I've had no results. I know God wants to help buts its so frustrating and hard to have to wait.

Hi anon

I'm really touched you thought about me to share such sensitive topics, and it truly makes me happy that my blog feels like a safe space for my non-straight (Christian?) followers to inquire to me about their struggle.

I'm gonna be honest: I'm a tad confused by your wording. Why do you "want" to be heterosexual? How did you "make yourself bi"?

Assuming you are Christian (you praying over it) I truly think you really should focus on working on your holiness as an "all around" process. God won't magically make yourself straight. Your same sex attraction isn't a sin by itself as the Bible condemns ACTING over these sinful sexual urge :

Leviticus 18:22 states "Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination."

and Romans 1:27 "And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompense of their error which was meet."

Temptation isn't a sin by itself for Jesus himself has been tempted 3 times by satan, yet he never sinned.

Being straight won't make you a better Christian. Most Christians are straight yet are full of sin and in a bad flavor for God. A sinful straight Christian will most likely end up in hell rather than a Christian having struggled with same sex attraction all their life yet never acted on those urges. IDK why this generation is so obsessive about sexual sins it fails being on the lookout for all the many other ones.

Does you struggling with your sexuality have anything to with you struggling with your faith? It's okay to have doubt, anon. John the Baptist doubted as well about Jesus at some point when he was in prison. As seen in Luke 7:17-22

John’s disciples told him about all these things. Calling two of them, he sent them to the Lord to ask, “Are you the one who is to come, or should we expect someone else?”

When the men came to Jesus, they said, “John the Baptist sent us to you to ask, ‘Are you the one who is to come, or should we expect someone else?’”

At that very time Jesus cured many who had diseases, sicknesses and evil spirits, and gave sight to many who were blind. So he replied to the messengers, “Go back and report to John what you have seen and heard: The blind receive sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is proclaimed to the poor.

What did Jesus do when He heard of John losing faith? He SHOWCASED miracles before the disciples. God did miracles to GIVE us faith. Faith in His almightiness.

Anon, think about all the things God achieved in your life (beside your sexuality). List all of them. I can't possibly think of a true child of God you hasn't VISIBLY witnessed God's miracles in their life. Godliness is an ever going process. Just because God didn't "fix" your sexuality (yet?) means He's not here and that He's done with you. You are totally allowed to have doubt. But if you humbly ask God to reassure you of being on the right path (as John did), He will show you the way.