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munamania · 10 months

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hi everyone this feels wildly self centered and silly but i made a guide to my dyke drama/lore that i talk about in barely coded but convoluted terms. i love internet safety. doing this at the request of exactly one person and for the rest of u it's under the cut if youre curious and feel so inclined hashtag close friends <3 i highlighted my previous ways of referring to these people and important notes bc otherwise i just rambled soooo bad <3 and as much as im maybe romanticizing in some ways here i do genuinely care for and love (most of) these people outside of my weirdofreak brain and try my best to do well by them in our relationships. and maybe i just wanted to write beautiful things about my friends whatever

lydia: they're on here we met on here and now we're roommates. we met bc we were two of the only bitches posting in the muna tag and she was brave enough to reply to my one naomi video. and i was like um ok... FREAK.. and then yk we were mutuals but i was always paranoid they'd somehow know film girl or my roommates (or just. other ppl) bc i was being insane so that was awk but then i had a mental breakdown a little bit one night on here about my childhood and decorating for holidays and they offered to meet on campus and give me some leaves for my window and i was like aww (and we used them this year to decorate our shared apartment :')) and i remember i was wearing my black and white sweatshirt that i wore to go see dan live that ive since given away i think but it feels like. a sign u know.. or whatever.. and we do have mutual friends in weird circles including one that connects to steve (see later notes) so it's like chances are we couldve met in person but this just made it really special. we beef bad. but with sooo much love. and i do think we're better for knowing each other or whatever...

film girl: this was bad. i have a tag dedicated to anything i remembered to tag as part of the saga but it was so bad and beyond anything words can say... i'd give her another name but she could never be anything but film girl. it's like if u were there u know. if u weren't... let's just say i was crazy insane mentally ill bonkers jeff buckley lover you shouldve come over i know it's over. maroon 5 even about it. bad. but consider she leaned into me like she did her bf for their first kiss, said our night together when we went to our friend's party where she had dressed up as jennifer check (i showed her the movie it was a whole thing) and danced with me and talked right against my neck and grabbed onto me while walking and said she was maybe bi and i deserved someone really nice and im so swaggy etc and then going back to her place and making me food and watching himym on the floor (oct. 21st u will go down in herstory...) made her the 'happiest person in the world,' stayed over at my apartment until the following morning more than once, unwrapped her bruised hand and held it out to me to see/touch (absolute freaks moment like kill me actually. and that was the day i perioded myself. to use pj of bottoms' terms.) was just generally engaging in psychosexual warfare with me all the time. and we didn't even fuck. or kiss. and she had a boyfriend. who looked like a girlfriend (not that i personally had in february of last year but regardless..) i mean come on she was a straight woman she wasnt even allowed to say slay.. i genuinely still think we need to kill each other but it doesn't matter. how is she still linked to my life? well. we had a class this semester with steve and stede and lydia and scully (prof im in love with. this name is hilar), sort of friends with cool artsy queer girl group (hometown friends, one her best friend i almost met up with at muna concert (with her) one who looks a bit like jackie kennedy. ok not really but that's the one my one friend josh (woman) made out with last semester), had a class with steve and sam last semester with dave, our shared prof that steve told details of our first date and etc to.

steve: this is gonna be ex situationship from beginning of this semester - mid october. gets this name bc they're obsessed w that pirate show so like stede but i simply wont name them that and at this point im annoyed enough w their taste in things that steve feels fitting. anyway. was genuinely very kind and sweet but also got clingy soo fast and we were on very different pages. we'd met last fall (when they had a gf) and worked together on sets and in a couple classes, they kind of got caught up in my triangulation of desire for jane at her birthday party.. and i had fun flirting! um and they were genuinely again very very considerate and sweet but like. seemed to struggle to have a personality outside of their ex and maybe their siblings a bit. idk. just very passive. sowwy. also they were not a very good kisser. i do remember back in may being vindicated bc they also commented on film girl and bf

jane: naming her jane in a gay way. a jane austen way. in that i think we should write lifelong love letters to each other. holy shit shut up. so this is always 'friend im in love with' or 'a little in love with' or whatever. she is also girl with cool short hair and piercings and tattoos and a bookbag with tits on it so god forbid my infatuation. and i just love her voice and i think she's brilliant and so good at what she does and all around just like an awesome person she inspires me to be better and whatever. and she always dresses so cool and used to host house shows (i still never made it to one) (film girl did once) and when we first started talking we were at a film event and were supposed to be networking or whatever but instead we stood by the drinks together and talked abt how we both wanted to be friends in our writing class but never said it and thought the other hated each other a little bit but we were both just awkward and so we'd always make eye contact and laugh and banter together in class and i rlly was just in love with her. and this summer was crazyyy we were on steve's set together and i was a little freak just so obviously enamored with her but the thing is she was obnoxious too so i didnt even feel like a loser. she asked me to massage her arms once and said my half assed attempt was lame and we leg wrestled (also w steve. kinda funny. like yeah u would) and exchanged drunk stories and she said i needed better ones and then i beat her at stack cup at her bday and gave her her card and she hugged me and her lips were wet from the beer she just drank from and right on my arm and i was like wow. her kingdom (surrounded by people who she loved and loved her) for a kiss upon my shoulder. if u will. and i had to have a middle school Look Away moment bc she stripped in front of a few of us that night and i was far too intoxicated to not like lose my mind. also she was supposed to give me a book on set once but never did and im still bummed. and one random night she texted asking if id found a place to live and when i answered she never followed up and i still wonder what that was abt. if anything. um but she does have a boyfriend of like 5 or 6 years. from high school. the worst part is hes a semi cool dude but it's just like really. let her fuck a woman! just once even! jk they are both genuinely cool people first and i think it's great they found each other in this life. but also like fuck off ugh. yk. not to romanticize my life and friendships i just think in another life we were soulmates or maybe in a way we are now. but we also only knew each other for a brief time so maybe something else. we could've done backstreets

sam: friend i just mentioned recently who has a crazy name we shant get into it. i do have a different actual friend named sam but i havent seen her in forever. so i met them working on steve's senior film set and thought they were cool and they were one of the only ones to make it out to our post-wrap dinner/drinks and then we had two classes together this semester. and so we became sort of allies we'd meet up to go to the museum together and send each other the attendance and i went to see fnaf when he rented out a theater for a huge group lol and he helped on my film which meant a lot even if it was only for a bit cause of you know. the everything that was going on. with steve and etc. it wasnt easy to get there so like bless their heart. they also came up with the name for my film and we had that moment around the fire and well i do hope i'll continue to see them just as a friend even, and they're genuinely just the coolest they do a lot of drag and character/costume design and are genuinely just one of the funniest most down to earth ppl i know and they always have the coolest fucking outfits and hats and shit and omg they looked so good in their doc. just something abt the posture and the whimsy and the earnestness and look overall. woah. um when we were on steve's set my friend jackie leaned over and said 'i thought they were film girl for a second' so basically i need to redacted. but it's not like that bad of a resemblance. once again has a partner cause im cursed forever to sleep on a twin size mattress maybe or whatever. i havent even listened to that song more than like once but maybe it is real for me. anyway they were also in the class with steve and film girl with dave.

stede: im sorry this is so funny to me bc this person and steve go by the same name irl but spelled differently or whatever. we met and had a very energetic chat in the hallway at the beginning of this semester jim thought we knew each other lol. they're real cute and endearing and like i said kind of give butch. and we had two classes together but i had so much shit going on man i just. yeah. seemed like they were maybe a little into me but whatever. and well i think we should have a fling but who said that

jim: my buddy prof he's my buddy :-) he helped me so much sophomore spring as i was trying rlly hard to produce our class films and insane already over film girl (he didnt know that but it was omnipresent) and so close to dropping out and is just the coolest guy. he's a little bit like a father figure what who said that. i remind him of his youngest daughter a lot and ive lived in the same buildings as his older one. so just funny connections. i go to his office hours and such a lot with the film friends

grace: one of my film friends. (i just realized i do know a girl in film named grace but it's not her so anyway.) i am in awe of the way she commits to stuff and motivates people around her. she is just so game for anything to make the best of a situation. shes studying abroad this semester so ive only seen her on video chats/texted and missed the one day she came back for her bf's bday. well and she was the friend who said 'no he can keep himself busy' when we went to go see x together so she didnt make me hang out w her not even lame bf at first which was so nice. cause then i eventually actually did want to meet him. and theyre the least annoying couple ive ever met. and shes bi <3

jackie: another film friend. also love her dearly another stoner so we'd smoke together before class sometimes and just went on a walk with our other friend one night around the woods and stuff that was fun. i usually refer to grace and jackie collectively as 'the film friends.' we met in that spring of sophomore year (same class as film girl and jim). this one did have steve produce her senior film after they said they wouldn't work on mine bc of the ""situation"" i was a little sour that was an awkward um situation but it's whatever. i sometimes say film friends and mean a larger group of these ppl/a few extended but whatever

frank: ive just called him frank hes frank hes the coolest dude in the world i think everyone would be obsessed with him and i just think like man hes lived such a life. he's my short cool professor whos just so good at what he does. he's met so many people and done so many things. his van is so him he has a suction cup to pull his windows up in the winter and random albums in the front seat. im gonna try to work w him next semester. i was in that van last night feeling like i was in a gta level to go pick up pizza for our final class.

scully: my film comedy and tv analysis professor she is so everything to me... she loves women and evil women and gay people and camp and horror and comedy and tv and sex and just weirdo freak shit and shes so intelligent and quick on her feet and charming and just. an amazing lecturer. she said be gay do violence once. i felt seen. she said she used to pull her friends (favorite characters) out of the tv and carry them around in her pocket and i knew she understood... she saw bottoms and emailed me and lydia right away. and she's seen willow. and ofc so many other things. and she'll go 'this seems like the type of person/film/etc that you would be inspired by..' OK QUEEN I LOVE U. i want to do cocaine with her. huh. im taking gender and film with her next semester :333 im so excited

claire: friend from high school friend group who ended up ditching me and our other friend a lot that one summer and we almost lived together and we're just always kinda weird around each other but we were some of the only ppl the other hung out with fall semester 2020 so like.

drake and josh: i almost always refer to them together they're codependent a little bit roommates and i love them dearly and i met them thru claire sophomore year but ive hung out with them alone and stayed at their place when i got too drunk and that night i fell down the stairs. me and drake act a little homoerotic sometimes for fun. i cried at dinner over film girl once to her it was embarrassing. i miss going hammocking with them <3

dave: i had him last fall he's really cool he got me on a shoot w the mayor (and steve and jane) and was so cool about me not ocming to class a lot bc i kept in touch w him and hes my homie. film girl had a class w him then too and then last semester was the like news class that crew had together. and steve told dave all abt our first date and etc and got date ideas from him and i was like oh wow... ok lol

couch: couch roommate. theyre not relevant in my life enough to make a name but the couch story was stupid as hell and this one also left ground beef in the sink that one time and had a thing for a rugby girl that steve had a little fling with

jean: if i say 'one of my masc gfs' i probably mean them. sort of friends with couch like she was in my apartment once last year but um. yeah. had a crush on them for like a month at one point and we follow each other on insta and talked when we saw each other on campus the first time and thats like it. chances r ill forget abt this fake name and still just throw that in if i ever see her

#well. that said 👍#abby talks

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fipindustries · 3 years

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advice for my younger self

listening to that playlist i shared earlier today really got me in the mindframe of me back in my first years of college when i was barely starting to learn what it was to be an adult. and thinking about that i thought of some thing i would ike to say to that person, some bits of basic wisdom that without getting too specific or too monumental would have made a big difference. things that i know i wouldnt have figured out on my own until it was too late.

this is not about specific mistakes i made but more general attitudes that i should have carried with me back then. most of this is going to be very particular and make sense only to me but if you are interested keep reading.

1) you dont have to complete your carrer in five years, you can take six or seven or ten years to do it, your parents would have assisted you all the same

1.a) as for studying, for christ sake dont just read the textbooks, if you are giving a big test and specifically if its a big oral lesson, write it down before hand, prepare a speech, write a monologue, practisce it, memorize it. prepare specifically what you are going to say when you are in front of the teachers, dont try to just “learn” it and hope that you’ll be able to recall it during the test

1.b) you dont have to take every single course in the semester, you can pick two or three you are really interested in, let the others by the wayside, pick them up later, use the free time to really study properly or get a simple part time job if you can, i know its sounds scary and like its a lot of responsability and like it diverges wildly from the plan you have for your life but trust me, its a lot easier than it sounds

2) dont be afraid of mental illness. is not as scary as it looks form the outside in. you are not gonna go insane, you are not going to get lost in a false world of delusion where you can never know what is real and what isnt. reality asserts itself, things calm down, it goes away. you get through it and you realize is not that bad from the other side. mental illness is a lot more common than you think, a lot more widespread than you think and a lot more manageable that you think. is not the end of the world and is not the end of your world either.

2.a) dont be afraid of the therapist, you will actually enjoy it a lot. it doesnt mean there is something terribly wrong or broken with you. its not shameful. they are smart and trained and they are glad to hear you talk. they are not going to force you into anything you dont want, they are not going to turn you into someone else, they are not going to send you to a mad house. their primary goal is that you be comfortable and at peace with yourself. go to a therapist.

3) keep your eyes open for any boardgame clubs. ask around, i know for a fact there is at least one in every city you’ve lived, maybe not yet at the time of you reading this but there will be. if you find them, join. they are the best thing that has ever happened to you.

4) if you happen to have sexual partners (and im not saying you definetly will) make sure they have a good time. ask what they want and do it for them. make sure they cum, seriously. stay with them. spend time together. cuddle in bed. they are having sex with you so the least you can do is have sex with them as well.

4.a) and by that same token, if you are in a relationship dont doubt to ask for sex too! be open about that, be forthcomming, but do be respectful. and if they say no or that they dont like to do that you should probably end the relationship, you are not going to be happy with them.

4.b) dont be afraid to try on womens clothes, you have my blessing, explore your femmenine side, try on make up. try on the fake boobies. do silly frilly pinky femmenine stuff. i know it’s just a weird fetish for you but if you have a partner be open with them about this and if they are supportive or want to help you explore this take full advantage. and dont worry, its not some dirty disgusting terrible secret that must be hidden from everyone. your friends and family are going to be ok with it if it ever comes out but dont feel is some dark secret that you must confess either, its your bussiness and for you to figure out at your own pace (also, hey, weird tip, i know it will sound absolutely nonesensical to you but did you know there are a lot of trans women who are trans without expiriencing dysphoria, just a fun fact i wanted to share with you :) )

5) dont be afraid of SJWs, they are not going to take away your games, they are not going to ruin cartoons or art or books or movies. masterpieces will still come out, well written, well drawn, well programmed and well animated masterpieces that you will love. you will be amazed at how easy is to ignore those people and how irrelevant they actually are once you stop following them on tumblr and once you stop going to twitter.

5.a) if you think politics is stupid or cancerous now, wait until 2016, ok?

5.b) learn to apologize and own up to your mistakes. if a friend or an acquaintance is telling you that you are being an asshole online dont get defensive, just drop it and move on. dont make a huge deal out of it and dont engage in long protracted discussions online. just dont, you will embitter yourself, this is particularly salient because to this day you are having problems with this one, though not as frequently as you used to.

6) this one is more superficial i think because overall you did well on your own without advice from the future but... trust in your art. you will will amaze yourself with the things you will create. you ARE going to get a LOT better at what you do and you will learn a lot of things you never thought you would be able to master. you are going to become an amazing artist (that doesnt necesarily mean a financially succesful one or a widely known one but you will be good at it and, trust me, that is what matters)

7) i know you’ve heard this one a million times but this one is cheating because i am from the future and i know this for a fact, you will be ok. things will work out, you will, time and again, find the way to fall on your feet, your family and friends will be there to catch you. you have a safety net, you are very lucky in that regard, dont take it for granted but it is there. you are not gonna end up homeless in the streets or raped in a dark alley or expelled on in prison or in a mental hospital, so relax and stop being so scared. you have ten very weird years ahead of you so good luck with that.

ps: you are going to meet a girl named zoe, she’s great, she’s the best. dont go live to hear apartment if you dont have a stable job and able to pay your own rent. and if you do make sure you moved out of it by february of 2020. if fact if at all possible, try not to be in cordoba by 2020. you are going to be fine as long as you are careful, you are not gonna die, i repeat YOU ARE NOT GONNA DIE. but do be extremely careful. thats it, godspeed.

#fip living life

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areallybadwriter · 2 years

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7/12

a long overdue update. to my blog with 0 followers.

I tried poppers & went to a gay bar last night. had a terrific time. not that I had expected any less from those circumstances, but honestly wasnt prepared to get trashed on a sunday night. going out has been a constant this summer, as every one I socialize with goes out most nights and I am not one to rise above fomo.

summer is like limbo for me because I usually lack a normal routine and it makes me feel terrible. I either feel lazy and unmotivated or overworked, depending on my work schedule and my bouts of cleaning or having plans that might actually have positive effects on my brain (swimming, traveling, etc). this summer I've decided to become a gym bro and its actually quite nourishing for my physical and mental health. who would've thought! I think I always had an unhealthy dislike for the gym and dieting and anything in that realm because my dad traumatized me as a child because I was too chubby for an eleven year old. and although he taught me in a very toxic manner that working out and eating healthy was good for you and your body, I still get mad that he was at least right about some things. I think more than anything else its helped to regulate my emotions, which are wildly unpredictable most of the time. I get on the treadmill, raise the incline to like 10, the speed to 3 mph, listen to angry music, and I'm set. I probably look insane because I usually hold all of my emotion in my face and am not good at hiding anything but oh well. I don't think I would ever want to get like buff, BUFF but its kinda fun to watch my body change. I feel healthy and confident which is not something that comes easy. they say it takes 30 days to start a habit and I think I've been going for like 2 months now so I hope that it at least stays with me through school and my adult life.

in regards to my love life, there's not much there at the moment. I still crush on my coworker I f*cked back in February? because we have become really, really close friends but nothing physical has happened since. maybe that's a good thing since he’s moving in like two weeks and that would destroy me just a little more than it already is. I don't know how to say goodbye! and like obviously we’ll still remain friends and stay in contact and ill probably go visit him (its a good excuse to visit the city) but fuck dude. also, who is going to entertain me now? he was a great harmless crush to have and now im losing it. although I've had my bouts of long distance crushes (im looking at you, wyoming), I think I need something. tangible in my love life, at least to keep me entertained. I had a period of weakness in which I fell hard for my ex again right around my birthday because he f*cked me into oblivion - in an almost intentional way I might add. he’s taking the high road and working on himself, which means he’s selfish and standoffish towards me because idk maybe I scare him and it’s really annoying! but also good for him and I support him and all but I need to let go a little. but I don't wanna. I imagine this scenario in which it’d be perfect if we stayed apart during most of our early twenties although keeping in contact and then when we’re like 26 we get back together and settle down and pop out a couple kids and live on a farm in Europe somewhere or something. like he’s the perfect boy to commit to but I don't want to commit just yet, ya know? but I also don't enjoy casual intimacy... so im screwed.

I cannot wait for school to start again. I always get really excited around back to school time because I enjoy buying new art supplies and reinventing myself every semester so that I can meet people in my classes as this new sexy, cool person. it also makes me terribly nervous so idk why I look forward to it so much. im only in three classes this semester because it’s my last semester which is cool and really overwhelming. I hope that I can work a lot and make money at my shitty barista job to support my lifestyle. I need to start saving money. I also am looking into getting my teaching certificate so maybe I can move to somewhere in Europe or South America and teach English or some shit. this semester, I am in a literature class, a relief printmaking class, and a horror movie class. very fitting for my last semester and I am admittedly very excited to start them and consume media on a regular basis again. I think ill be really sad to leave university because like most kids my age, an education is like the only thing I've ever experienced. like what am I doing if im not learning? eeee...

anyways, I forgot how much I enjoy typing shit to no one. I try to write in my journal a good amount because this summer has really thrown me some curveballs but if im not feeling really emotional its hard to write things (physically at least). we’ll see if I keep this up again.

xoxo anon

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.@law @law @laws @harvard_law @lawyercom @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @snowd en @haaretzcom they are g e r m a ns they aeh germancure aeh nervous guts from crapping ocne a day or twice aday after subdue to t r y i n g t o fourtimes a day woopsie if mysteriously the organs die and they gladly kill support for it to resubdue as poi songas every chow irradiate and xraybeam and terror cockroachdrug spoil fi lters it is g e r m a n y its devious bbbbbbbbbbbbbbastardmonsters squared cubed with victimb lame and no why was something you got it d e e d typed //// th e germans usually poisongased arbitraritly that shifted to pathogengasi ng inthe chamber does noone wonder evenabout the co2 specialmix killtri cks inteh values in air vent throughput thatthey isntalled the gas valves intothe freshair channel above window plants because itis fres h throughput a n d a bubble of ionised air this year with minimal e xposure outside to people but rigorous washing after grocerystore and out side including pullover change phone cleaning they got pathogen loads and co2 values and nox values and interoxide exchange murdertricks and ars enide values and such of which use the chance notarstamp it pu blish it it is not just deedtyped itis f a c t u a l i t y deedtyped and as typical intel murder tricks hedged stigmas typical damages on counterfactual basis instead see if temperature (!)because its airflus h through can be nutted on what them gas allalong whcih allknow allalo ng asits daycharged allalong phone replace 1948 during mail is //// #teeth #example checkalso iftgermans were again onthe teeth the lowlef t outest one doesnt addup again its likely facebone teethbonemess ona fo rmerfix they always dothese things andimstuck withthe day damamge the 12tooth isthesame itwas fixed then faceboneteethbonemess february or ap ril redmamged it then it infected on rootcanal toothbase the facebone teethbonemesses were from experiment surgeries 2004 with cheap klammern s on but isntead fixed once remessed re remessed and re re remessed itis healthinsurance charged sothe teethdamamges the a b s c e n c e of oth er problems on teethflesh for tenyears the ring around which teeth were d amaged by their very own assessment their own assessment each front top teeth namely a big ring aroudn it a f t e r this they suddenly dr illed the outerlow ones too whihc were n o t highlighted as damamged in their very own assessment allofthe mess is a big big big fuckup of day damages based on r e a l d e a l harm forinstance verfassungsschutz installs a tooth inthe basis of leftlow in rubbertitts which occasionally injured the toothflesh then overtaped it the teeth scans are an (!)all einstellungsmerkmal they identify people by teeth scans and implant scans a nd such notjust chips the mmwaves are looooong time around inthe real deal the radio spectroscopy knew allalong their own mix as what i broug ht the cops a n d threw intothe mailbox to opcw and embassies //// c hildfoolmess 311 slapemdown squeeze em destroy gasvalves itisnot bigd eal germans shuffle stigmas because itis intel itis whichtrickworksrightn ow decoys that their government+criminal timecontrolsystem is daytimecha rged quells fortune access selfhelp shuffles murder tricks and pedo orgie s tomake guilty if pathologisationsticks its batshitnuts or cook forehead momfool if pervert itspedoorgies if hooker oftheland its hookersmear an dabuse if hatenut hitler terror threat its that if teenieweeenie turnba ckclock trick its taht because itis intel daytimecharged germangovt+ti mecontrolsystem itis which trick works thistime find foot aim catapulte r usually suffocatekilltrickssssuffocate cockroach ondamamgedheart 230 sq ueeze cautionwithsupport chekcifits gaser above only pieceof crap its like cockroaches damage moelst rape and see ifthey can reinterpet sth that youre guilty for t h e i r crimes this is mildsafe while youfight not to die on a hearttrick oftheirs repeated cockroaches ihate em //// bra inwave scissor nanooilantenna ornot readsout every thought realtime. @doc @doctors @redcross @who @harvard why can fools get away with trick fram ing priming fear fears uncontrolledfears p a n i c while the type is bomb out suffocator gaser jailassmolester in a n g e r victimisation how is it not o b v i o u s the criminal german govt with its timecontrol accomplices shuffled harms shuffl ed proxies quelled selfhelp got daytimecharged forthe monstrosities they commit realtime and there on shuffled a n y e v e r ysingle dirty trick th ey had to quell it as immunisation which isnt even new the first thi ng snowden expected was docification the gundeal bureacrat got intothei r realdeal- got docified – rehabilitated in daytime govt tv a miracle o n fresh leadership freshbroom miracle maybe vonderleyen but its not ne w? ******* how do the germans get away with misusing docifica tion for control and quell of their sins their german monstrosities th ey a r e daytime charged they quelledit and corner it to nutting while e fforting h e a r t k i l l and xraybeam and arbitrariy hideousmix trick n ot one unspoiled meal ******* catapult terror is just as spam as int el roofhole gasing deed typed andthefix: to either batshit nutsnesss: pedo orgies pedo sexual assault with minors dozens a day sometimes after daytimecharging it uptothis januar eu humanrights 3781/20 since 2800/10 6ar50/19local in d-74821 //// good doctors dont try to h avebeenright nomatter what the facts are and sure not if setup by a crimi nal system and damnsure not when everything thats happening is f a r f ar f a r m o r e relev ant than any cherrypicked template shitball throw bum lidokain atit or find the cockroach that intel roofhole gases and murder beam radartricks into heart and shutsdown digestive system+stomach and catapults intero xide exchange cellsuffocators into heart wait its deedtyped? and th e typing of it is the nutting? just thatthe heart dies from 69HDL 91LDL an d 91mgdl longtermsugar? 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