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why is substance abuse always the most alluring solution to any problems

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should i go alone tonight to the queer kinky rave the next city over? i know i just wanna dance half naked in a queer space partly bc i want to escape the suffocation of spending so much time at home with my mum AND the sadness of some conflict with a lover (idk what else to call them, we usually settle on friend lol but im using lover to get the vibe across here) but my god i kind of cba with getting to the actual place

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you know what's really disjointing? there can be widespread race riots in your country with people fearing for their lives and almost everyone online from your country has posted something about it in one way or another. but the americans you follow haven't posted anything about it.

meanwhile the slightest thing happens in the US and the whole world has a million things to say about it.

not that i want USAmericans weighing in on issues internationally that they know little about lol. but it just feels weird as hell that people will post like crazy about the latest american injustice but their american followers barely do the same when black and brown people in this country need their voices uplifted just as much.

this is not my frustration at international solidarity and supporting maginalised people in the US and learning about the systems at play there that also have effects or similarities world wide. nor is this a "why is no one talking about this?!?!" post. this is just my frustrations at how centered US issues are online and how disjointed it feels to see your own country's major issues barely acknowledged by US posters (unless they're right wing trying to make a fascist point)

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this close to making a separate horny blog just for some dyke attention

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gonna be real with you guys, ive been having a minor crisis over my gender presentation AND that i seem to have developed some kind of attraction towards a man.

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feels weird to post a real picture i took on here lol, but i like the sign i made for pride

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I was at an action today and some very queer people I'd just met were trying to improvise hanging up a banner. i said "i have a carabiner if that helps?" and one of them laughed and we shared a look that was very much "lol we're GAY." i felt so seen when i wasn't expecting to

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back again to post that i have a little crush on someone for the first time in ages and it feels nice

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*opens google* how to declare whatsapp message bankruptcy

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for reasons i cant be bothered to get into, it's now inevitable that i will have to see my dad again in the next week or two. it'll be only for a day, and hopefully for the last time in my life. but as the days pass closer and closer to it, i feel ready to collapse at the slightest upset. everyday things are very hard when you're living life as tight as a coiled up spring.

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i swear to god, the next person to call me Siobhan...

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ok i did it guys. after my whining on here i actually hooked up with someone from a dyke party finally. it was fun, hot, aaaannnd interesting. they did a line of ket off my stomach, told me about the painting of their ex on their wall that they'd made, found a shirt on the ground for me to blow my nose on. various things that i found endearing despite the absolute messiness of it.

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literally besides my friends and my mum (😭), the only people who compliment my outfits are old ladies and children. there's gotta be a dyke out there who has something nice to say about my style (and wants to make out about it)

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excuse the lonely lesbian hour atm but i just want a dyke to be into me plz

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loser divorced 30-something high sex drive femme with shit job (that she actually loves) and living with her mum seeks loser 30-something butch in similar life position to relate and commiserate with. and get freaky with. is that so much to ask 🥲

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ok so going on a date with my ex -situationship's ex. will report back if this turns out to be a bad idea.