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quietwingsinthesky · 6 months

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the doctor also wouldn’t call even autistic simply because he doesn’t think about neurodivergence that way, a way that’s all human and categorized down into neat boxes. he references how others label him, like clara saying he’s adhd, with a sort of acknowledgement of it fitting but also a waving away of it as real explanation or an accurate view. even wouldn’t call themself autistic because they don’t know what autism is. (and the master also wouldn’t for the same reasons.) BUT. multiple of the doctor’s companions would pick it up. clara certainly would, clara would say it to even’s face (<- woman who has been masking so hard her whole life and literally doesn’t know how to stop anymore and Needs to point out when someone else isn’t Doing It Too.) donna would notice, too, mention it off-handedly to the doctor at some point like she’s not sure if he’s noticed even having difficulty when he’s already so weird himself.

#miss clara internalized ableism girl i love her so much <3 get better soon <3 #thats how she reads to me anyway. she’s Very much autistic she’s also incredibly good at masking and cannot let go of that control for a #minute. sometimes when she gets snappy with the doctor it really does feel like someone who has masked so well for so long getting upset #that someone else isn’t bothering to and can get away with it in a way clara feels like she never could #anyway. add even to that equation when they’re already drifting towards antagonism and. they are biting each other like cats again yeah.#autism on autism violence fr.#oh you know who else would pick up on it? bill. immediately. she wouldn’t say it as directly as clara would but she would sort of say it #like she assumes even already knows this about themself. (which. they do technically know its a thing? but not really what that thing is or #how it applies to them or why they should care.) bill goes ‘look you’re autistic and im adhd and between us im sure we’ve got at least one #brain cell to use right?’ and even goes ‘…………..sure.’ after a.#very long moment. they would still never describe themself as autistic but if bill does. then bill is correct. because they like bill.#dw oc

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