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#mostly because my other dog would be relentless with him and he needs peace right now
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My dog, Mellow, had surgery today. Only has 3 teeth left now. It took 4 hours for the surgery. He's home now but he's definitely scared and confused. It seems like, as of now, that he'll recover fine
But for any Christians who may be reading this, a simple prayer for him would be very appreciated
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Survey #235
“the monster you made is wearing the crown; i’ll be the king and you be the clown.”
What is your favorite move franchise? The Lion King. What was the last fast food you ate? I had a hot dog from Sonic and one of those pretzel twists things. What is the saddest book you’ve ever read? Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo. Do you prefer heroes or villains? Villains. Duh. They're like, always more interesting. What is something you think is overrated? Uhhh coffee, for one. But like what you like. What political cause are you most passionate about? Gay rights. What country would you most like to visit? South Africa. Have you ever considered having children? Literally the only period where I wanted kids was later into Jason's and my relationship. Hell, I wanted three while he was always like "onLY TWO." Now, I don't want a single one, ever. I would be an awful mother for many reasons. If you ever took field trips as a child, which was your favorite? The zoo with Dad, my then-best friend, and her mom. One and only time I've seen meerkats. I was so excited I almost cried. Do you have any weird family traditions? It's not like, a tradition, I think, but we have a unique thing where saying "I love you mostest period" is something Mom, Dad, and my sisters have used for all my life. It's a way of saying "I love you more than you could ever love me, no arguments." Now Sara's been dragged into it lmao. Have you ever considered acting? Nope. Who was the last person you slept next to? Sara. Do you think you can be in love and still cheat on your S.O.? You can't "be in love" with a person and fucking cheat on them, no. Do you subscribe to any streaming services? We have Netflix. Idk about anything else. Have you ever been in a physical fight? No. What is the most embarrassing thing anyone has on video of you? I don't even wanna know. Did you ever get lost as a child? Yep, in a Wal-Mart lmao. This old lady helped me find my fam. What is your favorite condiment? Honey mustard. Or ketchup. Depends. Have you ever had an existential crisis? Very surprisingly, not really. Do you like country music? Begone, demon. It's still so weird to me that I loved it as a kid, but I really just grew up with it. What color are the eyes of the person you love? Brown. What is your favorite kind of flower? I looooove orchids. What town were you born in? Not the best thing to share on the Internet, eh? Do you know how to play any card games? I only vaguely understood/understand Magic: The Gathering. It's honestly really fun, but very complex in rules. It was Jason's thing so he got me into it. I miss my PS3 working because I used to have the "Duels of the Planeswalkers" on there, and doing it digitally is much easier and helpful. I loved it mostly because the art is fucking incredible. It was an old little aspiration to wind up designing the art some day and I don't think I ever saw Jason more excited. What is something about your childhood that you miss? Being more into video games than I am now alskdjf;awe. I'm more of a viewer of let's plays now than an active gamer; meanwhile, as a kid, video games were my favorite things in the world. Did you ever have MySpace? Do you miss those days? Yeah, I had one. Honestly though I can barely remember it (other than the song on my page was "Pocketful of Sunshime" lmaooooo as well meerkat-flooded), so it doesn't matter. What is the best television show you’ve ever watched? Meerkat Manor is my favorite show of all time, but as a proper show could have been better. AP made up their own shit and deviated from the KMP facts A LOT (guess what: Mozart killed a competitor's litter before; not exactly MM's her, right?), and not only was that confusing, but just annoying. Give me the real shit; don't just tweak stuff for dramatic effect. I could list a novel of lies in the series. Now, what I feel is the best show without a meerkat bias and just has an overall good plot. I kinda wanna say Supernatural, but the boys dying five million times got old. Possibly Fullmetal Alchemist. Are there any songs you can’t listen to because they bring back memories? I 110% refuse to hear "Stairway to Heaven." Have you ever saved someone’s life? Funny this is brought up after recent events. My sweetheart online bud had a cerebral aneurysm while having an extremely difficult time talking to me, and no one was home quite yet. Her final message was concerning and she didn't reply to me for a while, so I wound up messaging her again after a bit, and her boyfriend heard the b.net notification sound. Saw it was me and asked what was up. Told him, and he figured out she wasn't sleeping on the couch, she was passed out. He told me he never would have known if I hadn't said something. So does that count, even though I didn't like, physically save her? Have you ever broken any major bones? No. Are there any websites you’ve used for over 10 years? Good question? Idk. WAIT HOLD THE FUCK UP, KM's 10th birthday is coming up real soon. Wow. I know YouTube has been much longer. Idr when I joined deviantART. Maybe there's more, I dunno. Do you have any siblings? If so, what are their ages? My two immediate are 22 (ew) and 26 (double ew). Anything exciting taking place today? No, today was A N X I E T Y !! ! ! !! !! What are you craving? Okay so I have been MEGA in "the mood" lately and it's frustrating especially because I don't masturbate so I have like nO OUTLET. Who did you last hit? Nobody saving for when I was a kid repeatedly slapped my sister's arm for doing something I don't remember. How do you do in school? It depends on the subject, but in anything, I am a MASSIVE procrastinator, and I need to fix that. Schoolwork, good good, homework in the library, good good, but when I'm at home, I cannot seem to convince myself to work. As Sara puts it, home is like my "safe" place, and I don't want to bring school into it. Adjusting to school life again after like... two whole years or so of doing NOTHING at all, almost every day all day, is very difficult. I'm SO glad I picked school again, it's just a lot for a person who was so isolated and void of responsibilities to get used to. What’s your biggest goal? Right now, continue to improve my mental health. Fight social anxiety and AvPD. Who have you texted today? Just Sara. Who do you aspire to be like when you grow up? In most ways, especially in kindness, wisdom, relentless determination, passion, creativity, etc. etc. etc. etc., Mark. I think it's obvious he's Role-Model #1. I would loooove to be like Jane Goddall and Steve Irwin, too, feeling with such ferocious potency for animals and how they should be respected and loved. UM AND ALSO, EUGENIA COONEY IS THE SWEETEST PERSON ON THE ENTIRE GODDAMN EARTH AND I WOULD LOVE TO BE AS FRIENDLY AND PRECIOUS AS SHE IS. Oh, and then there's Shane Dawson. I relate to him SO much. He is the most selfless angel that seems SO down-to-earth and relatable as hell. I feel like he could be like, my best friend. Ahhhhhhh there are so many more, I love talking about my inspirations, but I'll chill here. Do you know if you want to go to college or not? I'm in college right now, and I desperately want it to stay that way. I'm fucking going somewhere in my life, and the education it provides will bring me closer to that. College is far from mandatory for everyone, but I feel it is beneficial for me. Do you like grapefruits? I haven't had one in a LONG time, so I don't really remember how they taste. I just know sour. What do you think of guys who wear eyeliner? *drools in Darkiplier* the fuck do you think Do you like online games? Only World of Warcraft, really. Who’s one person you care about more than yourself? Okay, real talk, and I hope this is everybody's answer. No one. I'm putting my goddamn self and my mental peace first for the rest of my life. Are there any pets you’re wishing for? I want another ball python. When’s the last time you used hand sanitizer? Two days ago when Mom and I stopped somewhere to eat. Wearing anything that isn’t yours? No. What type of bread did you use on the last sandwich you made? White. How many doors are in your house? Uhhh six. What was the last compliment you received, that made you smile? Sara said she was really proud of me, and to me, that's one of the biggest compliments you CAN give me. Think you need to lose weight? How much? ugh When was the last time you watched a VHS movie? I don't have a clue. We kept our VHS longer than most, though. We had too many movies on it. What event would you go back in time to see, if you could? Ummmm I dunno. Do you remember the last thing you said you wanted? To hug Sara. Who was the last friend you hung out with&what’d you do together? Sara stayed for a week. We did a lot. Who is the person, other than a spouse, that you are closest to? Sara. If you watched it, who was your favorite Hey Arnold! character? Oh my god, I hated that stupid show, but one of my sisters liked it. Have any good school pictures? or do they all just suck? There is literally ONE picture from elementary school where I think I looked pretty. Do you like trying on clothes or not? & Why? NO. I try to avoid it if I can. It's just annoying to change clothes for like five seconds. What are your thoughts on marriage? It's sweet, but I've come to find it... kinda needless for the most part? Like I know it has financial pluses and the symbolism is beautiful, but it's just that: symbolism originating from fantasies (imo, don't scream at me). It only adds pressure to stay in a dying relationship and makes splitting much more complicated. BUT, even with all that said, I personally want to get married someday, but only if I am *sure* about this person. It's the symbolism I like. That and it's so ingrained into my head that that's the "end goal" of relationships, so I'm pretty much just conditioned to want it. How long have you lived in the current place you’re living? Two years. Do you plan on moving anytime soon, if so where? I want to, but I am not in the financial position or at a level of independence where I'm ready for that. Are you more of a follower, or a leader? Be honest. This may alter with the situation, but mostly, I'm definitely a follower. Are your dreams/nightmares in black&white or color? I've heard of this condition before and it really intrigues me. I dream in color. Have you ever wanted to be some sort of hero outside of video games? I mean, define "hero." Like an action superhero in a literal way, nooooo. I'd die on Day #1, lmao. As a hero/inspiration as a person, of course; who doesn't? Will you admit that you’re at least somewhat superficial? I mean, probably in some places? How often do you go to the mall closest to you? Almost never ever. Our mall sucks and has experienced too many shootings. Do you still count with your fingers, even if only every so often? Yep. Like, always. Have you ever gone on a road trip with just friends? No. Well, I went to the beach with my friend and her mom, but just for a day or two because my separation anxiety from Mom got too bad oof. Without trying, do you act differently around different friends? Depends on the friend. I don't "fake it," just how reserved I am can move around. What was the last thing you drew/wrote on your own or someone else's skin? Probably a butterfly on my wrists when I was actively part of the Butterfly Project community. The last time you spent money, what was it on & how much did you spend? $1.25 for a drink at school. What’s the most money you’ve ever spent on one piece of clothing? Idk, but definitely not a lot. In elementary school, were you more of the bully or the bullied? Thankfully, neither. Do you like when a spouse is clingy, or can you not stand that? I'm sure to a certain degree it would be annoying, but for the most part, hell, I think it's attractive. Especially since I NEED validation you like me. How much do you say you walk in a week outside of school &/or work? Just around my house if you exclude school. Is there anything you wish your parents did differently in raising you? I wish they'd given us chores. Wish Mom didn't spank us. What would you do if the last person you texted asked you out? Lol yo we JUST broke up like an hour ago. We're not ready to get back together yet, obviously. Don't worry a bit, we're both cool. Still best friends, even. To compress a long story, needed personal growth and distance have brought us to returning to just friends. For now, at least. Have you ever received a scholarship? I think so... but not like a huge one, I believe. Who was the last person who got frustrated with you? Most likely Mom. When was the last time you mopped your kitchen floor? I myself have never mopped it. Or maybe once. What is your favorite work of art? I mentioned the Denialism painting in my last survey. What was the last appointment or plan you had to cancel? Plan, my next one with my psychiatrist. What spur-of-the-moment decision that you’ve made has had the biggest impact on your life? I don't know if any have truly changed my life. The ones that did (that I remember) were pondered over. Do you know anyone who is (or has been) a refugee? I don't think so, What is your best friend’s worst habit? She doesn't have faith in herself for ANYTHING lj;ljalwie Do you like spinach and artichoke dip? alksd;fjwei no Have you ever felt like you were about to pass out, but didn’t? Yep, a couple times. What was the name of one of your childhood imaginary friends? I didn't have any. What’s your favorite phase of the moon? Full. Do you wish you were richer? I physically refuse to be anything less than stable, hopefully even above that, once I'm independent. We've been poor all my life and it is fuck-ing HARD. It's stressful as a motherfucker and I am done with it. Very. What’s a middle name you like? Quinn. Fits a lot. I planned on giving that middle name to my hypothetical daughter. Are you scared of spiders? y e a h Do you weigh the same as your mom? No. Were you a Mary-Kate and Ashley fan? Like the average 90s/early 2000s kid. Coffee mugs, teacups, or water bottles? Uh, aesthetically? Teacups, probably. Bubblegum or cotton candy? Gum. I like the taste and texture of cotton candy, it is just RIDICULOUSLY sweet. It bothers my sensitive teeth sometimes. Do you prefer to drink soda from cans, bottles or cups? Cans. They get the coldest. Game you were best at in P.E./gym? Idk, I didn't excel at any. What do you have for breakfast on an average day? I'll typically just have a meal replacement shake or a Pop-Tart. Favorite non-chocolate candy? Sour Punch Straws (gotta be red). Favorite book you had to read for school? The Outsiders. Most frequently worn pair of shoes? My flip-flops, 'cuz they're easy to just slip on. Ideal weather? Cool but not windy (a light breeze is fine) with a partly-cloudy sky. Obsession from childhood? Webkinz. Favorite crystal? Dragon's breath opal. Favorite activity to do in warm weather? Swim or stay the fuck inside. Favorite activity to do in cold weather? Taking pictures in the snow. Five songs to describe you? "Get Up" by Mother Mother, "That's What You Get" by Paramore, uhhh... I don't feel like thinking over this any longer. My iPod isn't near me to scan through what I have, so yeah. Best way for someone to bond with you? Let's have deep philosophical talks about like the meaning of life 'n shit. Top 5 favorite Vines? Oh my god, this is impossible. To name some that come to mind first, in no order: "It's Wednesday, m'dudes *insert mating call*", "I cOUld'vE dROPPED My croiSSANt," "this is why mom doesn't FUCKING LOVE YOU," that one at a club where a girl is doing smoke tricks and the dude just goes "check that out" (or "wow," idr) or something similar (I couldn't find it), and omfg I adore that Snoop Dogg one with the little boy just semi-dancing to that iconic song???? I LOVE IT??????? Man, there are so so many more. Very honorable mention: "a d a m". Ads you have stuck in your head? None, thankfully. What is the first meme you remember seeing? Uhhh maybe Happy Bunny? Idk. Sci-fi, fantasy, or superheroes? Fantasy. Favorite type of cheese? American. What saying or quote do you live by? There's a lot I've picked up on and cling to. #1 is perhaps "Deal with life, or life deals with you." What are you currently stressed about? Some... things I realized about myself that disgust me. Favorite fairy tale? Shrek is a goddamn fairy tale and I will fight to the death against anyone who claims otherwise. Favorite tradition? I don't really have one anymore, but I remember as a kid, I would NEVER let Mom forget to throw some "reindeer food" outside for them lol. Talent you’re proud of having? One that warrants pride, exactly? Not just random talents? Well, uhhh. I suppose writing. I mean it modestly, I really do, but as a kid, my teachers all the way through high school always thought I was cheating or a parent did my papers at home. Some were only convinced by me writing in the classroom. I don't feel as good about my writing as I did in high school, but I am sill proud of excelling in it and taking writing anywhere seriously. If you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be? I mean, name the game and genre here. Probably like "what the fuck" at like, everything, because I already do that. If you were an anime character, what genre of anime would it be? Like, based on my current life? I dunno. A sad and repetitive one with some bright days to it. Ohhh, and the color scheme and lighting vary with my mental state. Yo that would be dope. Character you relate to? lmao THRALL from WoW for being like "can y'all bastards just chill tf out" until he goes off to an isolated land away from civilization bc he's seen enough shit. Also compelled to help. Any good luck charms? I don't believe in those. Least favorite flavor of food or drink? As far as consistent flavors go, normally cherry or grape. Left or right handed? I'm a righty. Favorite potato food? Fries, when I wish they weren't. Earth tones or jewel tones? Jewel. How many phone numbers do you have memorized? Literally just Mom's. Not even mine.
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He is happiest, be he king or peasant, who finds peace in his home.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Peace
Home
King
All men are by nature equal, made all of the same earth by one Workman; and however we deceive ourselves, as dear unto God is the poor peasant as the mighty prince.
Plato
Nature
God
Men
Every marriage tends to consist of an aristocrat and a peasant. Of a teacher and a learner.
John Updike
Teacher
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A peasant becomes fond of his pig and is glad to salt away its pork. What is significant, and is so difficult for the urban stranger to understand, is that the two statements are connected by an and not by a but.
John Berger
Difficult
Stranger
Pig
I want there to be no peasant in my kingdom so poor that he cannot have a chicken in his pot every Sunday.
Henry IV
Chicken
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Scratch a Russian, and you'll find a peasant.
Milla Jovovich
Find
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They're thinking of turning the peasant into an educated man. Why, first of all they should make him a good and prosperous farmer and then he'll learn all that is necessary for him to know.
Nikolai Gogol
Good
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I mean, my people were very, very simple. They were peasant people, you know?
James Earl Jones
Simple
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I believe in reincarnation. In my last life I was a peasant. Next time around, I'd like to be an eagle. Who hasn't dreamed they could fly? They're a protected species, too.
Lee Trevino
Life
Time
Fly
The peasant must always be helped technically, economically, morally and culturally. The guerrilla fighter will be a sort of guiding angel who has fallen into the zone, helping the poor always and bothering the rich as little as possible in the first phases of the war.
Che Guevara
War
Angel
Rich
My wife was the first art collector in the family, and I didn't become interested until around 1973. The first important artwork we bought was a Van Gogh drawing of two peasant houses in Saintes-Maries-de-la-Mer.
Eli Broad
Family
Art
Wife
They eat the dainty food of famous chefs with the same pleasure with which they devour gross peasant dishes, mostly composed of garlic and tomatoes, or fisherman's octopus and shrimps, fried in heavily scented olive oil on a little deserted beach.
Luigi Barzini
Food
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What motivated me? My mother. My mother was an immigrant woman, a peasant woman, struggled all her life, worked in the garment center.
Al Lewis
Life
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Me
I cook a little bit. I make a Hungarian dish called chicken paprikash that's out of this world. I'll give a heads-up to all of your readers that it doesn't have to be between Thai and Mexican every night. Toss some Hungarian in every once in a while. You will not be sorry. Good, solid peasant food.
Adam Carolla
Good
Food
Night
You know most of the food that Americans hold so dear - things like hamburgers and hot dogs - were road food, but even before they were road food, they were peasant food.
Alton Brown
Food
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We must always remember that the Chinese revolution was not a peasant's revolution, but one of the extreme Right.
Salvador Dali
Remember
Always
Revolution
We want to overthrow the imperial power not because it is Manchurian but because we want republicanism... We republican revolutionaries can never have the notion of becoming emperors after the revolution, like all the peasant rebels did in the past.
Sun Yat-sen
Power
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Never
There is but one stage for the peasant and the actor.
Henry David Thoreau
Stage
Actor
I don't ever want to be like a peasant. I want to always be all right. But motivation is fans - not your kids, your mum, none of that. All of that matters, but number one is your fans.
Young Thug
Fans
Always
Right
That a peasant may become king does not render the kingdom democratic.
Woodrow Wilson
King
Kingdom
Become
I am an African-American woman of dark skin tone, and there are very specific roles that are usually given to African-American women of a darker hue. Let's start with 'Once on This Island': peasant girl. Let's go to 'The Color Purple': young girl, beaten. Let's go to 'Ragtime': Her baby's taken.
LaChanze
Women
I Am
Skin
The earth is the earth as a peasant sees it, the world is the world as a duchess sees it, and anyway a duchess would be nothing if the earth was not there as the peasant sees it.
Gertrude Stein
World
Earth
Nothing
For an Italian peasant a telegram from anywhere is a wondrous thing; and a cable from the terrestrial paradise of America is not lightly to be disregarded.
Howard K. Smith
Paradise
America
Anywhere
I come from a long line of below-stairs maids and gardeners. Good ol' peasant stock. My mother and her sister made a quantum leap out of that life. Then I made another quantum leap.
Julie Andrews
Life
Good
Long
Remember the valiant Iraqi peasant and how he shot down an American Apache with an old weapon.
Saddam Hussein
Remember
American
Down
I am a peasant from the Auvergne. I want to keep my farm, and I want to keep France. Nothing else matters now.
Pierre Laval
I Am
Nothing
Want
The poor peasant here hives under conditions quite different from those of Russia. Though often terrible, they are not as appalling as they were there.
Herman Gorter
Poor
Russia
Terrible
If ever there was a slamming of the door in the face of constructive investigation, it is the word miracle. To a medieval peasant, a radio would have seemed like a miracle.
Richard Dawkins
Face
Door
Radio
I like army boots, I like peasant skirts - sometimes together! So I do know that I have odd taste.
Mayim Bialik
Together
Sometimes
Know
I like Sicilian food. It's real peasant food.
Raymond Kelly
Food
Real
Like
I do not have voice for Russian music; I cannot be cute little peasant like in operas of Glinka or Rimsky-Korsakov. I am now never in Russia; I am Austrian citizen. But definitely I am Latin!
Anna Netrebko
Music
I Am
Cute
There aren't many great passages written about food, but I love one by George Millar, who worked for the SOE in the second world war and wrote a book called 'Horned Pigeon.' He had been on the run and hadn't eaten for a week, and his description of the cheese fondue he smells in the peasant kitchen of a house in eastern France is unbelievable.
Sebastian Faulks
Love
War
Food
I am for poetry that is admired by peasant and aristocrat alike.
F. Sionil Jose
Poetry
I Am
Aristocrat
To me, the most critical thing in agriculture is investing in the peasant agriculture, transforming peasant agriculture.
Jakaya Kikwete
Me
Agriculture
Critical
The whole world feels that it knows Francis, not so much because he follows Francis of Assisi but because he is always himself. We have seen him pay his own hotel bill and heard that Francis called Buenos Aires for a pair of ordinary black shoes, like John XXIII, who preferred stout peasant shoes to the traditional papal footwear.
Eugene Kennedy
Black
World
Shoes
The Breton peasant is said to have a hard head. He is obstinate and resists outside pressure to alter his creed or his customs.
Sabine Baring-Gould
Pressure
Hard
Outside
I remember I once went to a nutritionist who said I come from good Russian-Jewish peasant stock, which means I can hold a potato in my body for a week, if need be.
Jennifer Jason Leigh
Good
Remember
Body
Border collies predate the British Kennel Club. They've been bred consistently for 100 years. They're the last working dogs in the world, with some minor exceptions. Bench shows, dog shows have ruined the other breeds, like the hunting dogs. Border collies are peasant dogs, and that's protected them.
Donald McCaig
World
Dog
Bench
The knish is a classic example of peasant food evolving into comfort food and even sophisticated fare.
Gil Marks
Food
Comfort
Comfort Food
You go to Europe, and they have their very wealthy elites, and then everybody else is, you know, a couple of steps above a peasant, basically.
Ann Coulter
Know
Go
Europe
There are two classes of women in Soviet Russia. There is the professional class, which has taken the place of the nobility and includes government officials, artists, doctors, composers and writers as well as former members of the old nobility whose sympathy is with the Soviets, and also the peasant class.
Elsa Schiaparelli
Women
Government
Sympathy
Tolstoy didn't know about steampunk or cyborgs, but he did know about the nightmarishness of steam power, unruly machines, and the creepy half-human status of the Russian peasant classes. In 'Anna Karenina,' nineteenth-century life itself is a relentless, relentlessly modern machine, flattening those who oppose it.
Elif Batuman
Life
Power
Know
Most people, throughout history, haven't learned one language to the exclusion of another. You learn to speak differently to a peasant and to a shoemaker. You speak differently to your mother, who comes from Burgundy, and to your father, who comes from Swabia.
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So Sandor doesn't care about kings and mighty lords and stuff like that, but is possible that there's some kind of begrudging respect in him for Sansa's powerful family? Ned, Young Wolf, Blackfish and Jon, too (hopefully, they'll meet in the future) - all those guys are awesome and I'd like to think that Sandor agrees with that.
Hey sorry it took so long to get back to you.  I’ve been a bit overwhelmed and it took more time than I thought.  
Respect?  Errrrr, don’t hate me, but… no, not yet if we’re talking about what’s published so far, but we have reason to hope in the future.  The major block to recognizing traits worth respecting in individuals, let alone a whole family, is that deeply ingrained cynicism dancing up to the edge of nihilism.  The world is shit, the system is shit, and people are divided into either butchers or meat.  Most of the time he sounds like a smug, know-it-all teenager that stands on the sidelines pointing out everything that confirms his bias.  Yes, he has some buried idealism wayyyyyyyyy down in there, but it’s not as if they were equally-matched forces duking it out inside him for every word and deed.  It’s a worldview that has served him by making him feel strong and invulnerable.  There’s just no good reason at the start to dredge up those dreams of childhood, which he associates with vulnerability and helplessness.  It’s a security blanket.  Think of how hard it is to change someone’s mind about politics or religion.  The only way that usually happens is if someone has a lived experience that challenges their current beliefs.  Even then it can be a long process of wrestling with the new idea while it competes for brain real estate with the old idea.        
For him to even entertain the idea that someone could actually walk the walk of a real hero, a true knight, or lady, he needs to see what they’re made of with his own eyes.  His goal post is so far down the field, he actually makes it near impossible for anyone to live up to, which only confirms his bias.  Robb and Ned are definitely not the ones who make a dent in that.  Maybe he’ll reflect back on them in future books with fairer assessments, but not in the books so far.  He’s not impressed with a righteous cause or reputation anymore than wealth or titles.  
 Specifics under the cut.  
The WF training yard is his first interaction with Robb.  Not that Sandor respects Joffrey’s boasting and jackass calls for live steel, but he’s not impressed by Robb’s “courage” with this nerf bat training in an adult supervised safe zone either.  He even takes a swing himself, just because Robb is so very easily goaded.
The burned man looked at Robb. “How old are you, boy?”
“Fourteen,” Robb said.  
“I killed a man at twelve. You can be sure it was not with a blunt sword.”
Arya could see Robb bristle. His pride was wounded. He turned on Ser Rodrik. “Let me do it. I can beat him.”   
At this point, Sandor probably thinks Robb and the Starks are just more of the same self-congratulatory nobility that he’s used to.  Maybe not as dysfunctional and ruthless as the Lannisters, but still part of the same system.  Like Sansa, he probably thought Ned was a bit of a naive fool that got in way over his head. He believes what passes for honor and righteousness are just fancy clothes people dress themselves in or it’s a fool’s tin armor.  It would be inevitable that the latter would get themselves eaten alive.  Only people like him that have The Truth™️ figured out survive.  It takes Sansa’s lived example right in front of his face to take a chip out of those ideas.    
She has it in her to be a real deal true lady, despite his first impression that she’s just empty-headed and superficial.  After Ned’s execution and Sansa is forced to look at her father’s tarred head, she’s determined to look without seeing.  She shows enormous strength of will to not give Joffrey one iota of the reaction he desires.  When he taunts her some more, she bites back:  “Maybe my brother will give me your head.”  I won’t glamorize her murder-suicide thoughts, but I think witnessing this scene shows Sandor that innocence, compassion, and vulnerability can go hand in hand with real strength and courage.  Just because awful people hurt her does not mean she is weak.  It just might move that goal post a tiny bit closer in that even a sometimes superficial, imperfect, childish young girl can still conduct herself in such a way.  It’s still a long way from reconciling what he’s just seen with near a whole lifetime of cynicism.  It’s a start though!      
When he smiled, she knew he was mocking her. “Your brother is a traitor too, you know.” He turned Septa Mordane’s head back around. “I remember your brother from Winterfell. My dog called him the lord of the wooden sword. Didn’t you, dog?”
“Did I?” the Hound replied. “I don’t recall.”
Sandor probably did say that back in early AGOT when he didn’t gaf and would crack jokes like that to amuse himself as much as Joffrey; however, it seems as though he’s regretting and distancing himself from that bit of immature ridicule for her sake, not so much Robb’s.  But let’s be real.  He’s not always respectful toward Sansa from this point forward, but he’s staying in the conversation.  He’s still fighting the ideas she’s challenging him with.  It’s only by his actions, not words, that we see him starting to test those waters by making different choices.  He wants to be proven wrong deep down, but he’s going kicking and screaming the whole way.  
The other Stark he’s spent a significant amount of time with is Arya.
“I’m not a boy! But Mycah was. He was a butcher’s boy and you killed him. Jory said you cut him near in half, and he never even had a sword.” She could feel them looking at her now, the women and the children and the men who called themselves the knights of the hollow hill. “Who’s this now?” someone asked.
The Hound answered. “Seven hells. The little sister. The brat who tossed Joff’s pretty sword in the river.” He gave a bark of laughter. “Don’t you know you’re dead?”
“No, you’re dead,” she threw back at him.
Against all odds, Arya is alive.  The little girl that bested Joffrey with a “wooden sword” no less and made a mockery “Lion’s Tooth,” a tale that probably amused him as much as it did Renly.  He’s not meaning “brat” in a truly insulting way here, but that he’s genuinely surprised she’s survived this long and that she must really be tough as nails.  The Wolf Bitch nickname he gives her follows that same line.   And he seems to appreciate it when she’s bluntly honest.  I think he does respect aspects of Arya because he can certainly relate to being an angry, scrappy kid.  This is up to a point, because he’s very annoyed that she is relentless in reminding him about his accountability in Mycah’s death.  Through their journey, he is mostly focused on how helping her serves his needs.          
If this Young Wolf has the wits the gods gave a toad, he’ll make me a lordling and beg me to enter his service. He needs me, though he may not know it yet. Maybe I’ll even kill Gregor for him, he’d like that.“
“He’ll never take you,” she spat back. “Not you.”
“Then I’ll take as much gold as I can carry, laugh in his face, and ride off. If he doesn’t take me, he’d be wise to kill me, but he won’t. Too much his father’s son, from what I hear. Fine with me. Either way I win. And so do you, she-wolf.
Eh, I’m not seeing respect for Robb or Ned here, grudging or otherwise.  Sandor is still not getting it yet, though his intentions are to find a way to get back to KL and rescue Sansa.  All this wishful thinking aside, he wants to look like a big hero, but do so by cynically playing on Robb’s sense of honor as a wedge in the door.  He wants it both ways.  To be a true knight in Sansa’s eyes, while keeping his security blanket right where it is.  
It’s really at his death scene where Sandor confesses to the point of overly taking responsibility and feeling remorse for even the things he didn’t do, that he really connects with his best self.  No more bullshit.  He’s thoroughly stripped down and vulnerable and finally open to someone like the Elder Brother coming along.  If we’re judging by the gravedigger’s humility and quiet, humble service, Sandor has learned quite a bit about respect for others.  Respect for people he would have one considered weak for their pious, peaceful life.  Stranger’s refusal to be turned into a plow horse or be gelded means he’s not meant to remain there nor will he abandon all of his personality.  He will return to the story, but I think directing his anger and biting criticism to individuals that truly deserve it.              
So I do have a lot of hope for the future though, because he does seem like a displaced Northerner and that can’t be for nothing.  I would be neat if he gets to meet some remaining members of Sansa’s family and hopefully they won’t try to kill him on sight.  There’s still the Saltpans matter to clear up.  I lean toward that Sandor will actually become part of this family one day, so I think at that point there’d be some honest to goodness mutual respect, not just grudging.  :)      
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They’re Mad as Hell – The New York Times
Among older women, anger is trending. In the time of #MeToo, their indignation is long overdue.
Photographs by Celeste Sloman
Jul 30, 2019
Toni Tunney had been at her job at a small employment agency for no more than a week, cold-calling prospective clients, when, as she tells it, her boss sidled up, demanding, in the argot of the day, that she put out or get out.
Ms. Tunney, a retired clinical psychologist in her 70s, was 23 at the time, and panicky. “We were in a recession,” she recalled. “Jobs were hard to come by. In those days I had to scramble to buy groceries.” No matter. She left.
“Stuff like that stays with you,” she said. “Even today it scares me to think of it.”
As for her boss: “I’ll never forget him,” she said. Then, in a burst of long suppressed rage, she named him.
The question remains: What took her so long?
“At a certain age — psychologically, biogenetically, I don’t know — you get to the place when a switch flips,” Ms. Tunney said. “You tell yourself, ‘I’m done.’”
Amen to that, her peers would say. She is, after all, but one in a chorus of like-minded contemporaries, many of them well-educated, outspoken professionals in their 60s, 70s and beyond, who are only now uncorking long-bottled-up grievances, their ire having reached a tipping point.
Some, it would seem, have taken a page from E. Jean Carroll, who — was it just a month ago?— published “What Do We Need Men For?,” a chronicle of abuses she suffered at the hands of predators, including Donald Trump, who, as she writes, assaulted her in the lingerie department of Bergdorf Goodman. (She prefers not to use the word “rape.”)
Ms. Carroll waited more than two decades to tell the tale. Was there something self-serving or opportunistic in her late-life disclosure? Well, no. “I am a member of the Silent Generation,” she writes. “We do not flap our gums. We laugh it off and get on with life.”
Many readers will relate, their fuses lit by a catalog of past and current ills: mingy salaries, thwarted ambitions, waning sex lives and — gasp! — impending mortality.
Paramount among those ills are the relentless predations of men, the kinds of aggression that have given rise in younger generations to #MeToo.
“#MeToo has lent some older women permission to speak out in a way that they hadn’t before,” said Cathi Hanauer, a writer and editor whose anthologies, “The Bitch in the House” and its 2016 sequel, “The Bitch Is Back,” examine the sources of women’s anger in midlife and beyond. (Her husband, Daniel Jones, edits the Modern Love column for The New York Times.)
Some of those women are just now playing catch-up with their vociferously outspoken daughters, nieces and granddaughters — and with their younger selves. The movement is infectious. “They can release the hurts they’ve lived with all these years in ways that are vindicating,” Ms. Hanauer said.
And strikingly in tune with changing times. “Online, younger women feel they are instantly heard,” Ms. Hanauer said. “That gives them a feeling of power. Older women didn’t have that release. Now they do. They’re finally finding a place to vent.”
Wrath begets wrath. “Outrage is very media friendly,” the writer Meghan Daum said, somewhat caustically, in a conversation in the Los Angeles Review of Books. “You get clicks and followers by expressing super-indignant versions of the indignant opinions people already have.”
Still, for a generation brought up to smile in the face of almost any affront or risk being tarred as a harridan, older women’s indignation seems ripe for reassessment. Small wonder, then, that with careers, social constraints and family obligations mostly behind them, some have seen fit to go rogue.
“What’s being loosed,” Ms. Tunney said, “is the tendency to let her rip.”
No need to remind Karla Wright, 76, a retired lawyer living in Greece, “When I was younger, I needed people to like me even though I didn’t particularly like them,” Ms. Wright recalled in an interview. “Now if they like me or not, who gives a damn?”
Early in her career, Ms. Wright learned in the courtroom that women cannot be confrontational in the same way as men. “If you are,” she said, “you’re going to be seen as shrill.”
“Over the years, I’ve evolved a professional style that sort of works for me, which is to be flippant,” she said. At home she is often brutally direct: “I argue with my husband more. When we disagree, we will get into it. My feeling is, ‘What have I got to lose?’”
Conventional wisdom may dictate that a woman past 60 ought to be settled in her metaphoric rocker, basking in her sunset years. But there can be rewards in sorting out old grievances, which seem, in any case, to have no expiration date.
As Sarah Manguso observed, writing about postmenopausal rage in The New Yorker in June: “Life’s transitions don’t confer perfect amnesia. Like anyone, I drag my previous selves behind me.”
Marian Rivman, 73, a semiretired public relations consultant, still smarts when she looks back at early impediments to her youthful ambition. As a Peace Corps volunteer in the Philippines, she instructed local denizens in how to teach science.
“I had 20 volunteers working for me,” Ms. Rivman said. “But when I returned to the States and went on job interviews, all anyone ever asked me was, ‘How fast can you type?’ I’m still furious, still dealing with that residual rage.”
The roots of women’s fury can be diffuse. Some rail against being made to feel less desirable than disposable. “There comes a time in life when you look in the mirror and what you want more than anything else in the world is to remember when you were beautiful,” said Nancy Weber, a 77-year-old writer.
Ms. Weber was chilled by Ms. Carroll’s tales of sexual assault. But she also sensed a perhaps unintended subtext: The author was saying, “‘‘Look at me, look how they all wanted me,’” Ms. Weber suggested. “If I’m noticing that, it’s because I feel it myself.”
She hasn’t entirely cast off the docility that once hobbled her, and she still tends to freeze in the face of a leering taunt. During a trip to the post office earlier this year, a mild-seeming clerk locked eyes with her. “Suddenly he was saying to me: ‘I know how women like it. They want it hard and thick.’”
“You would think I would have raised my fist to punch him in the chin,” she said. “Instead I was paralyzed. I couldn’t tell my husband about it for two days. I was so distressed, not just by the ugliness of that moment but my inability to do anything useful about it.”
“There aren’t enough hours in the day to suffer through these kinds of particular awfulness,” Ms. Weber said.
A sense of shrinking horizons can promote a sense of urgency. “There is less future in which to accomplish our goals, and less tolerance for injustice,” said Laura L. Carstensen, a professor of psychology at Stanford University and director of the Stanford Center on Longevity. “Women are telling themselves: ‘Not on my watch is this thing going to happen. This time I’m going to get things right.’”
In “The Bitch Is Back,” Pam Houston, a writer, confided that she finds herself withdrawing on occasion from friends and loved ones. “That may sound misanthropic,” she writes, “but mild misanthropy may simply be a thing intelligent women of a certain age grow into because most intelligent women of a certain age have spent a huge percentage of their lives taking care of other people.
As the eldest daughter in an Italian-American family, Paula Liscio, an opera singer and former member of the New York City Opera, can relate. Ms. Liscio, 71, was reared with the expectation that, as a single woman, she would stay at home to care for her aging parents and four younger siblings.
“Looking back on those years,” she said, “I think, ‘Oh, we swallowed such a pile of garbage.’”
Eventually her parents separated, relieving her of the expectations that had dogged her until then. “I woke up one day and thought, ‘I’ve gone through menopause, I’m not in a relationship, it’s time to claim my space,’” she said.
Others strive to claim a voice and a sense of agency. For much of her career, Ms. Rivman sacrificed her needs and opinions to those of her clients: “If a client told me to jump, my reaction was, ‘How high?’ By the time you get into your 70s, you are wearing the war wounds of that.”
Still, anger has an upside. In her youth, Dale Burg, who has written extensively on topics including menopause, women’s finances and procrastination, shied away from confrontation. Now, at 77, Ms. Burg has had enough experience to think that her judgment or criticism has a certain validity, “so why not just get it out?” she said. “Sometimes criticism comes less from rage than from increasing confidence.”
Self-assurance, however, is no bulwark against the depredations of age. For some the culprit is nature itself. “I’m an angrier person than ever,” Ms. Weber said. “I can’t blame it on Trump. I blame it on chemistry, on my rheumatoid arthritis, on the stark reminders of mortality.”
Ms. Tunney, who has worked with the mentally ill, specializing in anger management, noted that as the years advance, our psychological defenses erode. “Denial, one of my favorite fallback defenses, is less functional these days,” she said. “I’m fully aware that there are days when I have three extra drinks just to get it kicking in.”
There are those who have speculated that Ms. Carroll, who certainly vents in her memoir but has yet to state outright that she is mad as hell, is to some degree in denial.
Still, it’s hard to overlook the lingering rage implicit in her confession that after her encounter with Trump, she never had sex again. “Maybe all this just killed my desire for desire,” she said in an interview with The Times.
Or maybe she had what Ms. Houston refers to as a hormonal assist. “For so much more of my life than I would care to admit, I thought I might die if some man or another didn’t love me,” she writes in “The Bitch Is Back.” With age, and after years of therapy, those obsessions subsided.
Up to then, she said, “not one of those therapists ever told me, ‘Just hang in there, Pam, and make it to the other side of 50, and those feelings will turn off like a switch.’”
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They’re Mad as Hell – The New York Times
Among older women, anger is trending. In the time of #MeToo, their indignation is long overdue.
Photographs by Celeste Sloman
Jul 30, 2019
Toni Tunney had been at her job at a small employment agency for no more than a week, cold-calling prospective clients, when, as she tells it, her boss sidled up, demanding, in the argot of the day, that she put out or get out.
Ms. Tunney, a retired clinical psychologist in her 70s, was 23 at the time, and panicky. “We were in a recession,” she recalled. “Jobs were hard to come by. In those days I had to scramble to buy groceries.” No matter. She left.
“Stuff like that stays with you,” she said. “Even today it scares me to think of it.”
As for her boss: “I’ll never forget him,” she said. Then, in a burst of long suppressed rage, she named him.
The question remains: What took her so long?
“At a certain age — psychologically, biogenetically, I don’t know — you get to the place when a switch flips,” Ms. Tunney said. “You tell yourself, ‘I’m done.’”
Amen to that, her peers would say. She is, after all, but one in a chorus of like-minded contemporaries, many of them well-educated, outspoken professionals in their 60s, 70s and beyond, who are only now uncorking long-bottled-up grievances, their ire having reached a tipping point.
Some, it would seem, have taken a page from E. Jean Carroll, who — was it just a month ago?— published “What Do We Need Men For?,” a chronicle of abuses she suffered at the hands of predators, including Donald Trump, who, as she writes, assaulted her in the lingerie department of Bergdorf Goodman. (She prefers not to use the word “rape.”)
Ms. Carroll waited more than two decades to tell the tale. Was there something self-serving or opportunistic in her late-life disclosure? Well, no. “I am a member of the Silent Generation,” she writes. “We do not flap our gums. We laugh it off and get on with life.”
Many readers will relate, their fuses lit by a catalog of past and current ills: mingy salaries, thwarted ambitions, waning sex lives and — gasp! — impending mortality.
Paramount among those ills are the relentless predations of men, the kinds of aggression that have given rise in younger generations to #MeToo.
“#MeToo has lent some older women permission to speak out in a way that they hadn’t before,” said Cathi Hanauer, a writer and editor whose anthologies, “The Bitch in the House” and its 2016 sequel, “The Bitch Is Back,” examine the sources of women’s anger in midlife and beyond. (Her husband, Daniel Jones, edits the Modern Love column for The New York Times.)
Some of those women are just now playing catch-up with their vociferously outspoken daughters, nieces and granddaughters — and with their younger selves. The movement is infectious. “They can release the hurts they’ve lived with all these years in ways that are vindicating,” Ms. Hanauer said.
And strikingly in tune with changing times. “Online, younger women feel they are instantly heard,” Ms. Hanauer said. “That gives them a feeling of power. Older women didn’t have that release. Now they do. They’re finally finding a place to vent.”
Wrath begets wrath. “Outrage is very media friendly,” the writer Meghan Daum said, somewhat caustically, in a conversation in the Los Angeles Review of Books. “You get clicks and followers by expressing super-indignant versions of the indignant opinions people already have.”
Still, for a generation brought up to smile in the face of almost any affront or risk being tarred as a harridan, older women’s indignation seems ripe for reassessment. Small wonder, then, that with careers, social constraints and family obligations mostly behind them, some have seen fit to go rogue.
“What’s being loosed,” Ms. Tunney said, “is the tendency to let her rip.”
No need to remind Karla Wright, 76, a retired lawyer living in Greece, “When I was younger, I needed people to like me even though I didn’t particularly like them,” Ms. Wright recalled in an interview. “Now if they like me or not, who gives a damn?”
Early in her career, Ms. Wright learned in the courtroom that women cannot be confrontational in the same way as men. “If you are,” she said, “you’re going to be seen as shrill.”
“Over the years, I’ve evolved a professional style that sort of works for me, which is to be flippant,” she said. At home she is often brutally direct: “I argue with my husband more. When we disagree, we will get into it. My feeling is, ‘What have I got to lose?’”
Conventional wisdom may dictate that a woman past 60 ought to be settled in her metaphoric rocker, basking in her sunset years. But there can be rewards in sorting out old grievances, which seem, in any case, to have no expiration date.
As Sarah Manguso observed, writing about postmenopausal rage in The New Yorker in June: “Life’s transitions don’t confer perfect amnesia. Like anyone, I drag my previous selves behind me.”
Marian Rivman, 73, a semiretired public relations consultant, still smarts when she looks back at early impediments to her youthful ambition. As a Peace Corps volunteer in the Philippines, she instructed local denizens in how to teach science.
“I had 20 volunteers working for me,” Ms. Rivman said. “But when I returned to the States and went on job interviews, all anyone ever asked me was, ‘How fast can you type?’ I’m still furious, still dealing with that residual rage.”
The roots of women’s fury can be diffuse. Some rail against being made to feel less desirable than disposable. “There comes a time in life when you look in the mirror and what you want more than anything else in the world is to remember when you were beautiful,” said Nancy Weber, a 77-year-old writer.
Ms. Weber was chilled by Ms. Carroll’s tales of sexual assault. But she also sensed a perhaps unintended subtext: The author was saying, “‘‘Look at me, look how they all wanted me,’” Ms. Weber suggested. “If I’m noticing that, it’s because I feel it myself.”
She hasn’t entirely cast off the docility that once hobbled her, and she still tends to freeze in the face of a leering taunt. During a trip to the post office earlier this year, a mild-seeming clerk locked eyes with her. “Suddenly he was saying to me: ‘I know how women like it. They want it hard and thick.’”
“You would think I would have raised my fist to punch him in the chin,” she said. “Instead I was paralyzed. I couldn’t tell my husband about it for two days. I was so distressed, not just by the ugliness of that moment but my inability to do anything useful about it.”
“There aren’t enough hours in the day to suffer through these kinds of particular awfulness,” Ms. Weber said.
A sense of shrinking horizons can promote a sense of urgency. “There is less future in which to accomplish our goals, and less tolerance for injustice,” said Laura L. Carstensen, a professor of psychology at Stanford University and director of the Stanford Center on Longevity. “Women are telling themselves: ‘Not on my watch is this thing going to happen. This time I’m going to get things right.’”
In “The Bitch Is Back,” Pam Houston, a writer, confided that she finds herself withdrawing on occasion from friends and loved ones. “That may sound misanthropic,” she writes, “but mild misanthropy may simply be a thing intelligent women of a certain age grow into because most intelligent women of a certain age have spent a huge percentage of their lives taking care of other people.
As the eldest daughter in an Italian-American family, Paula Liscio, an opera singer and former member of the New York City Opera, can relate. Ms. Liscio, 71, was reared with the expectation that, as a single woman, she would stay at home to care for her aging parents and four younger siblings.
“Looking back on those years,” she said, “I think, ‘Oh, we swallowed such a pile of garbage.’”
Eventually her parents separated, relieving her of the expectations that had dogged her until then. “I woke up one day and thought, ‘I’ve gone through menopause, I’m not in a relationship, it’s time to claim my space,’” she said.
Others strive to claim a voice and a sense of agency. For much of her career, Ms. Rivman sacrificed her needs and opinions to those of her clients: “If a client told me to jump, my reaction was, ‘How high?’ By the time you get into your 70s, you are wearing the war wounds of that.”
Still, anger has an upside. In her youth, Dale Burg, who has written extensively on topics including menopause, women’s finances and procrastination, shied away from confrontation. Now, at 77, Ms. Burg has had enough experience to think that her judgment or criticism has a certain validity, “so why not just get it out?” she said. “Sometimes criticism comes less from rage than from increasing confidence.”
Self-assurance, however, is no bulwark against the depredations of age. For some the culprit is nature itself. “I’m an angrier person than ever,” Ms. Weber said. “I can’t blame it on Trump. I blame it on chemistry, on my rheumatoid arthritis, on the stark reminders of mortality.”
Ms. Tunney, who has worked with the mentally ill, specializing in anger management, noted that as the years advance, our psychological defenses erode. “Denial, one of my favorite fallback defenses, is less functional these days,” she said. “I’m fully aware that there are days when I have three extra drinks just to get it kicking in.”
There are those who have speculated that Ms. Carroll, who certainly vents in her memoir but has yet to state outright that she is mad as hell, is to some degree in denial.
Still, it’s hard to overlook the lingering rage implicit in her confession that after her encounter with Trump, she never had sex again. “Maybe all this just killed my desire for desire,” she said in an interview with The Times.
Or maybe she had what Ms. Houston refers to as a hormonal assist. “For so much more of my life than I would care to admit, I thought I might die if some man or another didn’t love me,” she writes in “The Bitch Is Back.” With age, and after years of therapy, those obsessions subsided.
Up to then, she said, “not one of those therapists ever told me, ‘Just hang in there, Pam, and make it to the other side of 50, and those feelings will turn off like a switch.’”
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