#my reactions arent always the most mature either

[ganondoodle]

I'm 14 years old and a huge Zelda fan, even I think totk wasted a lot of it's potential after playing EVERYTHING in the game which is really unfortunate. I really thought Ganondorf (and Link/Zelda) were such an interesting trio and to see them truly reunited in a sense had so much potential that wasn't used because Ganondorf was a one dimensional "oOoOoOo mR eViL mAn" villain and had his character butchered. I could go on for hours about this but I'll stop-

finally, a good opinion for once uwu

but to be real, the 14 year olds opinion post (meme? is it one?) i dont mean literally either, theres lots of adults with dogshit opinions too (and way .. way too many at that), that one commentary was the first time i actively noticed it which is why i thought of that post

i hope you didnt feel made fun of or anything, its just kinda ... you cant really get as much annoyed at teens having dumb takes as with adults, and to be fair the vast majority of dumbassery i have received is in fact from people my age or even older, my point is that theres always gonna be annoying people not matter their age but its more dissmissable when its younger ones?

[inosukeslefttoe]

SO i just finished wonder egg priority and i think that with confidence i can say it has been one of my favorite animes like... ever ?? and not even from hyperfixation or obsession over it just... its so fucking real yet so simple in a way that i havent rlly seen shown in any other shows you feel ??

but first i wanna talk about how sexy the art and animation is real quick... HOMIE ITS SO GOOD LIKE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT JUST... serotonin... the characters are all so unique and iconic and fun but not over the top in their designs yknow ??? they seem like regular every day girls but they stand out and theyre all sO CUTE !!!! also i love how the style is like this soft bubbly slice of life lookin stuff with bright happy colors and the most beautiful scenes you could find but they also have the SICKEST fight scenes complete with whimsical animal helpers and terrifying villains and crazy weapons unique to each character. and the animation. god DAMN shawty i am obsessed with everything in this show. i might make a post solely about the art later lol bc i wanna get into the other stuff.

so the themes in the show right ?? it starts just as this cute lil magical girl kinda deal but within the first episode we see that like.. oh damn... thats kinda heavy... tbh i was a little shocked and thought about stopping bc yknow bad mental health BUT i was so intrigued that i had to keep going and i am SO GLAD that i did. because this show just so beautifully discusses all these heavy topics in such an eloquent and artistically expressive way. and also like, , the juxtaposition of the charming childlike vibe with bright colors and 14 yr old girl protagonists against the dark themes of suicide and so much else,, i think is just perfect. bc a lot of heavy animes are more of the seinen genre and have some middle aged dude as a protag or make the entire color palette dim or offer little relief to the pain of these heavy themes right ?? but NO not wonder egg bitches B) because these problems arent just things that ppl face later in life or just problems that need to be talked about among adults or the edgy seinen watching squad,, these are REAL problems that face people of every age, gender etc and i think its awesome that wonder egg addresses that. some may cringe at the thought of their high schooler watching animes that discuss sexual harassment, suicide, abuse, self harm, eating disorders etc,, but in reality it is the most comforting thing i have ever come across and is basically jsut free anime therapy. because not only does wonder egg present these themes to the viewers as something real that happens to all kinds of people (making said people feel heard in a way that maybe they hadnt before), but it also makes sure to vanquish all of these forms of trauma. and the way the trauma is vanquished isnt always beautiful and it isnt always just magically gone with a poof. the struggles of overcoming or living with that sort of thing are shown in such a real and relatable way that addresses every hardship trauma survivors have to go through. and i just. god i cry bro. 

oh m y GOD and the lgbtq+ rep in this show ?? like shawty... as soon as i saw episode one i was picking up on some gay/lesbian themes but then again im sapphic and project that a lot so i tend to see that sort of stuff like... everywhere... but NE WAYS... episode ten made me FUKCING CRY BRO LIke i cant believe there was a whole trans character with a whole trans pride hoodie like LKGHKDGH my heart is just so.. so fucking full thinking about him. bc like yeah i know there are trans characters in anime but i feel like theyre always very ambiguous about actually being trans or not or erased or portrayed as a harmful stereotype or theyre constantly misgendered and still refered to as their assigned gender at birth and i hate it. HOWEVEr... Kaoru.. *chefs kiss* it was so amazing to see a character straight up say “yeah im trans” in such a casual yet powerful way bc i personally have never seen that before. and i love love loved how he went into his backstory and talked to momoe about gender bc i think thats what she rlly needed and that it helped her find herself and it makes me so happy oh my god,, and the way they talked about it never seemed forced or like it was the focal point of his existence yknow ?? like yeah he existed to help momoe overcome some of her trauma but he also just existed to be HIM yknow ?? also... personally, i headcanon momoe as a trans girl even though i dont remember it being explicitly stated plus the school scenes of her and stuff would seem like they suggest otherwise ??but,,, SHAWTY THE AMOUNT OF SUBTEXT and her complicated relationship w gender is... something i feel like a cis girl would not go through so harshly yknow ?? with all of the questioning and feeling detached from femininity or feeling like ppl dont see her as an actual girl and only like her as a guy or for her masculine traits,,, but dont take my word on this bc i myself am a cis girl but that was just my take on it as someone in the lgbtq+ community trying to educate myself on the transgender community :) either way,, wonder eggs portrayal of momoe and kaoru and the way that momoe becomes so passionate about expressing herself the way she wants to as a girl is just... good lord im gonna cry its so perfect,,,.so ... i just love this show way too much. i also am honestly super lost about the relationship btwn acca and ura-acca ?? bc i was gonna mention ura-acca as a canonically gay guy bc when i was watching i interpreted ep 11 as him being in love with acca and being jealous of Azusa (bc i mean,, they lived together (i swear to god there was only one bed in that apartment) and had a daughter together and def loved each other and also when Frill said they were husbands and then when ura-acca said he wasnt attracted to azusa but he was def jealous of their relationship ??) but then i saw somewhere that theyre brothers ?? which would make sense ig since they look kinda similar and accas daughter called ura-acca “uncle”.. but at the same time its ANIME SO THEY ALL LOOK SIMILAR and referring to gay couples as siblings is an EXTREMELY common euphemism soooo... IM JUST LOST HERE... but yeah i tried doing research and found different things so i cant say anything for sure >:( however,,, if they are canonically a lil fruity for each other... when frill refered to acca as ura-accas husband i imploded dude you never hear that sort of wording in anime.. but if theyre related i am so sorry. 

god this is so much longer than i planned it to be oops but i also love the theme about like.. relying on friends to help carry your weight but at the same time not becoming completely dependent on those friends and using their support to learn how to love yourself and rely on yourself yknow ?? bc that is exactly what healthy friendships look like. bc i think ai sort of had a codependency thing goin on with koito maybe ?? but now she has a whole squad of funky friends that are so so different but all struggle with different kinds of trauma and although they fight over it, they always get through it with each other together. and they push each other no matter what to be the best versions of themselves and they teach other that getting hurt is okay because theyre always gonna be there to pick up the pieces no matter what happens. they can give each other space when they need and adapt to meet each others needs but theyre always able to balance it out with their own needs and thats such a beautiful thing in friendships especially at their age like damn i wish i had that maturity when i was 14 but no all i had was depression. another thing is that through these friendships you get to see all the different sides of each girl; you get to see them being strong or a shining light to their friends when theyre hurting but you also get to see them being hurt and weak and allowing themselves to be on the receiving end of the comfort. their friendships allows them to have weaknesses but it also allows them to highlight their strengths and thrive off of each others. I LOVE FRIENDSHIP DUDE

next i wanna briefly mention some of the themes connected to suicide that ive noticed. a big one is the survivors guilt that ai feels once koito is dead. several times she screams that she wishes she couldve gone with koito and she dreams of a “perfect world” where they committed a double suicide. one of the main reasons for her troubles is that she blames herself for koitos death and feels like it should be her thats dead... but at the same time she feels like too much of a coward to do anything now that koito is gone. she just has all these complex and contradicting feelings that wear away at her in ways that ppl that havent gone through the suicide of a loved one could never imagine. a lot of the times when things like this are portrayed in media i feel like its more in a way thats meant to guilt trip those that have taken their own lives and paint suicide as this selfish sin thats unforgivable but... not only does wonder egg reject that idea and instead portray it as a heartbreaking tragedy with,,, so so many terrible reasons, but it focuses on the feelings of ai separate from koito without blaming her in any way. not once did i feel like the show antagonized koito or that ai blamed koito for doing any of this, but they simply mourned her loss and touched on ais reaction towards the event but separate from koito herself if that makes sense. and i think that discussing survivors guilt without painting koito as the bad guy is something so beautifully done in wonder egg that can really resonate with those that have lost a loved one to suicide and have struggled with these same things.

okay i think this is the last thing ill mention,,, but HOMIE THE PARALLEL UNIVERSE BIT AT THE END. I AM. OBSESSED. i am such a whore for anything about the multiverse okay n e ways...,, not only did this make a super epic trippy ending of season one and add a little bit more magical girl whimsy to the show,, but it had such a powerful message. from the perspective of og ai,, finding out that you killed yourself in another world is... i mean its definitely not a surprise but at the same time it rlly makes you think how close og ai herself couldve been to that point and what decisions led her out of that dark place in her life. if i were in her shoes i would be terrified and id cry bc the thought of going back to such a dark place and actually going through with something like that is my worst fear and probably something that ai fears too. but at the same time,,, think from the perspective of ai two !!! like yeah its true that theres this awful terrible version of ai that dies but theres also a whole version of ai that is a superhero magical girl fighting off monsters to save countless ppls lives !! and she has a badass lizard and a gang of awesome friends !!! at first i was worried that ai two would be jealous of og ai and compare herself to her and feel inferior but like.. THEYRE LITERALLY THE SAME PERSON AND CAPABLE OF THE SAME THINGS !!! and ai two realized that !! just within the span of one episode, she went from the version of ai who took her life,, to the version of ai jumping in front of a friend to take a bullet for them and save their life. and that just inspired THE SHIT OUT OF ME. i think that ai was sent another version of herself to sort of beat her own worst enemy yknow ?? those doubts and fears that shes no good or that shes that same bystander from episode one and that she hasnt changed at all. but getting to interact with her parallel self and see her grow was just what she needed to realize that while yeah sometimes the worst thing can happen and things can be terrible but on the other hand sometimes the most wonderful thing imaginable can happen because she has the power to do either. 

so im gonna go ahead and stop rambling bc i got all my thoughts out that i wanted to for this post :D but yeah lol i might make another if i feel like it sometime. long story short: this show is perfect and it is going on my favorite of all times.

[wonglix]

➺ ᴀᴛᴇᴇᴢ: ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴇxᴘᴏsᴇᴅ

⤷ fluff, lil‘ angst

*•.¸♡ hongjoong ♡¸.•*

he was incredibly upset and mad, hating the fact that you were just outed like that - his main concern being you and how it would affect you. the main reason you weren't already in a public relationship were the fans that had some sort of entitlement to them; an obsession that made them feel like they deserved to decide what was going on in their lives. the fact that it's precisely those people that caught onto you made him feel sick to his stomach; he'd love to be sincere, and he'd love to think that people would be accepting, but he knows that that really won't be the case - so he tries his best to cover it up until he can't anymore and is forced to come out with the truth. once hongjoong couldn't cover it up anymore, he'd write a letter; expressing how much he loves and cherishes you as well as his wish for them to just let you be. he won't flaunt the relationship around in hopes of everyone just settling down and accepting it one way or another.

*•.¸♡ seonghwa ♡¸.•*

his initial reaction is confusion - there's no way they caught onto you, absolutely no way. imagine the anger that boils in his veins when he realises that someone indeed did out the two of you, compromising pictures being posted along with the accusations; he knew that there was no way he'd ever get out of this - he had to be honest. seonghwa would try his best to be genuine and convey just how much not only he but also the other members loved and treasured you. he's hoping to appeal to sensible fans which hopefully will be able to make the angry fans realise that's it's neither of your faults for falling in love. he'd avoid talking about you much after that, hoping that it'd become just another fact about him rather than a topic of discussion.

*•.¸♡ yunho ♡¸.•*

yunho hates it, he's mad and boiling inside, but my god does the idea of doing little live streams with you or being able to talk about you openly excite him. whether he'd be able to pursue his fantasies is up to you and the company, yunho secretly loving the idea of going public. would he have preferred to be the one to break the news instead of some obsessive, delusional fan doing it? yes, of course. did he still somewhat enjoy the prospect of introducing you to his fans? yes, absolutely. his next actions would 100% depend on your opinion on the matter, as well as the company (since he can't decide something like that without their permission). if you ask him to keep your relationship under wraps, he absolutely would, but if you choose to give in to him and go public, you better make yourself ready for some cutesy lives he's going to (lovingly) force you to take part in.

*•.¸♡ yeosang ♡¸.•*

yeosang was one of the more angry ones, the idea of ill-tempered fans taking their frustrations out on you making a cold shiver run down his spine. he always made sure the two of you were cautious whenever you met, so this was a punch in the guts for him. yeosang contemplated whether an excuse would work in your guys' favour or not; if people would believe it if the company released a statement that denies your alleged relationship. depending on the way the relationship was outed, if there was definitive proof or not, he'd either own up to it (but still keep it lowkey) or would beg the company to cover it up. yeosang didn't want to apologise because he felt like there was nothing he did wrong - he fell in love, and that shouldn't be anyone's business. he would probably end up writing a small apology if the situation does turn out to be against you two, hoping to ease the worked-up fans and ensuring that they won't take it out on you.

*•.¸♡ san ♡¸.•*

as mad as he was at the saesangs that outed your relationship, there still was this small part of him that was somewhat thankful. don't get me wrong; he was still incredibly angry and upset that saesangs took away his choice whether you guys wanted to go public or not - but san didn't like keeping you a secret. he wanted to be able to talk about you openly since you're such a big part of his life; you're the one that keeps him sane when things get stressful again, and he wants his fans to know that. san would probably want to be honest and admit that the rumours were true, though he'd never act without you agreeing - he wanted to be open about your relationship, of course, but not at your expense. should you agree to be in the public eye with him, he'd essentially do summersaults and jump around, the excitement of showing you off getting to him. san would make it a rule not to bring you up unprovoked though, realising that the news of him dating could be painful to some fans.

*•.¸♡ mingi ♡¸.•*

the panic that spread through him made him feel like he was about to explode. his hands were sweaty, he was pacing around the dorm, and none of the other members were able to calm him down. mingi doesn't know what to do; should he just own up to it and put you on the spot for toxic fans to threaten and send hate to or should he just lie in hopes of people eating it up? he always thought that you were careful, that there was no way someone would figure it out - he didn't account for a salty staff member that decided to take out their anger not only on mingi but also on you, though. he could've taken a rumour about him, but now that you were thrown into the mess he didn't know what to do. it makes him so angry that someone would go this far, especially when it's a well-known fact that partners of idols arent particularly liked - he's mad that it had to come that far, but he's also sad because now he's scared. scared because now you didn't only have to accept that he barely has time, that work always will be a priority, but also that there are thousands of people that have an unreasonable hatred towards you for merely loving him. mingi will talk to you about the options you had and would agree to whatever you decide on - desperate to do even better as your boyfriend now that people would hate you for it.

*•.¸♡ wooyoung ♡¸.•*

the news couldn't have been spread at a worse moment; wooyoung was doing a live when the comments all of a sudden were asking him about his relationship, who he was dating, if it was another idol, how he met them. to say he was confused and maybe a little scared would be an understatement. wooyoung would try his best to play it off, joking about it and denouncing the pictures without hesitation. in the end, he might've made the problem a lot worse than it had been to begin with, clips of him trying to desperately come up with a joke being spread along with the initial pictures. at that point the news had spread to you, the other members, the higher-ups at the company - it was too late to release a statement denying the rumours now, the majority of people already having bought into the news. wooyoung would leave it up to you if you'd like to step into the spotlight with him, or if you'd prefer to be the mysterious y/n wooyoung was dating, which no one really knew anything about.

*•.¸♡ jongho ♡¸.•*

this would probably be one of the most stressful events of his life, to be honest. jongho was convinced that the two of you always were thoughtful of when and where you met, not daring to take many risks - which made the fact that someone outed you ever the more surprising to him. he'd try to figure out when you slipped up, or if it may have been something neither of you could've foreseen. as mature as jongho is, and this would definitely catch him off guard; he'd probably depend a lot on you and his members while trying to figure out if this situation was fixable, and if so, how exactly you two could get out of this. if you guys somehow manage to get out of this, you'd probably be quite lowkey for a while; avoiding dates outside and preferably staying inside, spending a lot of time on face time rather than meeting up in person. should all efforts of covering it up go to waste jongho'd try his best to be mature about it, deciding to be the one to take all the heat and hate comments. he'd definitely be taking the time to write a letter as well as doing a live stream to explain the situation. he'd try to keep you out of the spotlight though, not wanting the negative comments to get to you as well.

[the-eve-of-lies]

Lee Know as A Boyfriend For Hire

It was stressful. You were stressed. And you haven't gone out in like forever.

Work now felt like a chore and although you love your work, sometimes, you needed a break from it.

But no one would take you out on a date.

Why was that? Oh right, you were too immersed in your work to even notice the guys all around you and even if you did notice handsome interns and co-workers with great personalities, they didn't notice you.

Which is why you came to a website which apparently enables you to hire boyfriends?

Desperation got to you and you filled up the form, paid the designated amount of money, and waited.

And you received an email before the day of the scheduled date.

When you read your bf-for-hire's info and stared drooled at his picture, you knew you were either going to embarrass yourself...or WORSE.

You didn't want to dwell on it too much so you buried yourself in your work before the date.

• He'll meet you in a petshop or in a cat cafe.

• At first you will find him cute and childish for playing with cats which was a complete ??? for you.

• You were 99% sure you checked the boxes which included mature and sexy—not innocent! He's even babying the cats. But one thing's certain, he sure is handsome.

• After recognizing you; his cute aura shifted into a mature and sexy one. Oh, so this was duality...

•Calm your frantic heartbeat and shaky knees, friend!

• You were taken back when he started to leave the cats then approached you with confident strides. He looked like he could pull off as a model. That predatory gaze made you unable to move.

• He introduced himself as the bf you hired and showed a list of rules in a phone.

• But he forgot the rules anyway as soon as the date starts. Funny thing, isnt it? You arent the one who broke the rules in the first place so you are not one to blame.

•Moooving on...

• He would take you to places where couples always hang out making the date as memorable as possible.

• You are actually on a diet but he ignored that and fed you a lot. Like a lot, a lot. You were stuffed. Is he really the mature guy you thought he was?

• You both passed a street dance and to your surprise he was called by random dancers.

• He was suddenly so shy but he danced anyway to impress you and gave his all. Damn, he is sexy and hot but cool and powerful.

•King of duality, indeed.

•You complimented him after the dance and he brushed it off.

•A second later, he murmured a thanks.

•"Sorry, what was that?" you asked.

•He repeated the phrase a little louder but you were a tease so you asked him to repeat it again only to uave the words shoved back into your throat.

•He GAVE you a kiss?! On the forehead?!?!

•Apparently, you were a little oblivious to the hesrt eyes behind his usually cold demeanour.

•But what?! Was a kiss allowed? You didnt remember reading anything about kisses... How do you deal with that? Is that too much if a big deal? Were you just freaking out?

•"Dont make that face. You're going to miss the majority of our date id you space out."

•You could only nod, still speechless.

•Believe me, you'll freak out even more when he clutched your hand and led you to the plaves you wanted to visit the most but didn't have time to.

•It was a wholesome date.

•It ended in front of the petshop.

•And you found yourself feeling sad as the contract expired.

•He called your name just as you stared at your very interesting feet.

•Only to freeze when you felt his cold hands cupping your face and leaning close to press your lips together.

•Now, you were sure that wasn't part of the contract.

•When he pulled away to gauge your reaction, you told him just that and he shook his head.

•"The contract may have expired but it can't stop my feelings for you, can it? You made this day very memorable. I'd like to ask you out again. For real."

•As a response, you'd just kiss him with passion, holding unto each other as the night approached.

•When you bith finally got your fill, he'd take you to a local diner for dinner.

•The animals inside the petshop love you and probably ship you both, too.

-Admin Ri 🌹

[askthetriokzt]

How would Kodo react if Zack and Tachi died/were killed?

I’ve honestly been having a problem with this ask for a long while, not because I dont know the answer, I do, but because of what the answer is. I honestly dont like how Kodo would react, mainly because of how worrying it is, but the worst thing is, that its 100% in character for her to act like that and THATS the concerning part.

I honestly see Kodo reacting in 1 of 2 ways, both arent good but one is FAR better than the other. I will further explain why this makes sense for her character but again, just because it makes sense for her character, doesnt mean that I like it or that I’m trying to make light of this. There is honestly no real easy way to talk about this sort of stuff, or at least not for me.

To put it very bluntly, if Zack and Tachi died or were killed, Kodo would honestly go after them. Not right away, she’d first try to keep moving on and living but in the end, it would all be too much and she’d just kill herself.

The other reaction is that she does end up staying alive but she quits being a hero. Not sure what she’d do with her life but she wouldnt kill herself.

Yeah, I think its pretty obvious what I meant when I said that I didnt like like how she’d react. Now, I think I should explain WHY she’d react like that.

So for starters, we need to come to an understanding on how KODO views her roles and what they mean to her. The main reason is that many people can view the same kind of role in many different ways and hold many different values and responsibilities to it. Its the same role at the end of the day but means something different for each person. Now, to Kodo, her two main roles are being a Leader and a friend but there’s also two more roles that she takes on. Being a hero, or at least hero-in-training, and being a caretaker, kind of like a big sister or even a mother figure (disclaimer, its that last and first one that causes the most issues because of how young Kodo still is. She is taking way too much responsibility for someone her age when she isnt even emotionally or mentally fully mature yet. I dont care how mature or old you say you act or feel, a child is still a child).

Lets start with the first one, a Leader. Now I’ve talked about this before but basically how most people would view a Leader is someone who can take charge and give out orders to others, lead them to a common goal. And yes, that is important for a Leader but to Kodo, its much more than that. To her, a Leader is someone who also cares about the growth and well-being of their charges, the people they lead. They want them to grow, to become a better and stronger person, to be able to take charge for themselves when needed as well, since one Leader cant ALWAYS be right or ALWAYS know whats best. Someone who has given them the options and opportunities to grow and get better and stronger so that when the time comes that the Leader cant be there for them, they can still step up to the challenge and take charge, have the skills and knowledge to make it out alive and to complete a goal. To inspire growth, a change from within, to lift others up and never discourage them or put them down. To get others to understand that the task isnt impossible, just challenging.

So for Kodo, while failure would be a terrible option, its one that she can live with. Failure is, usually, just another chance to learn and grow even more. Winning is great, sure, but if you are really going to do something in life, the secret is learning how to lose. Nobody goes undefeated all the time. If you can pick up after a crushing defeat, and go on to win again, you are going to be a champion someday.

But death? There’s no coming back from that. Once someone is dead, thats it, they’re gone, they’re not coming back and its not something that anyone can just easily get over. There is no trying again another day, there is no learning or growing, its just an end, a bitter and abrupt end. She’s supposed to keep them safe and get them back home alive but instead, its just the worst kind of failing, failing without a chance to get or do better the next time because there will never be a next time, and worst of all, she’s not the one paying the price.

Now as a friend, Kodo tries her best to be supportive and to be there for them, pick them up when they’re down, be the shoulder that they cry on or to give an ear and listen to whatever it might be thats on their mind.

As a hero, she’s supposed to be there and save others, to say that everything will be alright and have them believe it, to smile and keep pushing forward.

To Kodo, she would have failed every single role and job that she’s supposed to do and lose what little ground she was standing on, everything around her would just feel like its crumbling and falling apart and there’s nothing she can do to stop it.

She’s still rather young and still grieving over a loss already, so to lose her two friends, two people she considers her family, probably the closest people to her, it would be nearly impossible for her to bounce back from that. When she lost her Grampa, she at least had support, people to fall back on but without Zack and Tachi, Kodo doesnt really have anyone she can go to.

Granted now she’s at UA, there’s plenty of adults that are there to help, but for Kodo, she honestly feels as though she would be alone in this. Surrounded by so many people and yet she still feels alone. Its hard to explain why, mainly because she doesnt fully understand it either.

I think I got the point across… and honestly talking about this isnt exactly easy. I already mentioned this but I tend to act out and try to feel what my muses are feeling, so to get into Kodo’s head to really understand all of this, kind of heavy for me and probably not something I should be doing anyway.