#neurodiverse!kotlc

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Intro

You can call me Zen!

I use they/them pronouns:)

I’m a very sleepy, very busy stem double major just trying to talk about their interests.

I’m also audhd!

Current Status: grumpy and still recovering

Current predominant interest: kotlc

Request a frog (🐸) in my asks to receive a frog sticker

My url is bc my previous blogs (readingdreamingscheming and cozywordz) broke :( Probably bc tumblr hates vpns. This was gonna be my last attempt at a tumblr blog, and I couldn’t think of other names at the time. Now I fear ppl won’t recognize me if I change it.

Things I may post about with varied ratios and intervals (ie: my interests):

Books/other media

Kotlc, riordanverse, toh, gravity falls, svtfoe, atla, heartstopper?, tuc, tlc, dropout?, tmbs (the mysterious Benedict society), thg and tbosas, Holly black novels, 36 Questions the Podcast Musical, The Great Comet of 1812, TIG, The Naturals, and probably more.

Honestly, this is mostly a book blog

STEM

mostly neuroscience, psychology, data science, plant stuff, and maybe some physics—also maybe academia

Neurodivergence and neurodiversity

primarily neurodevelopmental disorders, personal experience, and curious musings

Other

You also may get random thoughts, shit posts, ramblings, deep thoughts, and the product of curiosity-driven web searches

animal facts

Sometimes I add ids to posts without ids (I do it when I have time and can confidently describe them)

I also may occasionally post about world events.

What there will and won’t be:

There will be no p*rn or anything close to it. That stuff makes me uncomfortable, so please respect that boundary.

There will be swear words.

There will be no bigotry.

There will be liberal usage of the block button.

There will probably be a lot of Bippy frog stickers.

There will be spoilers which I’ll try to be better about tagging (I just don’t remember when things happen😭)

I probably won’t tag you in things unless I am tagged in something first!

Tags:

favorite/favorites: some of my favorite posts

vent: me trying to let off steam by talking about my problems

onemoreattempt op: original posts by me

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Other:

If I post ab something you don’t want to see on your dash, please lmk a tag I can use, so I can avoid making you uncomfortable in the future!

I’ll try to add tone indicators when I think it might be unclear, but feel free to request I add a tone indicator or clarify my tone! Here is a list of tone indicators I may use (most common in bold) (working on making the post now!)

It has been drawn to my attention that ppl shipping me could become a thing. Please don’t :)

Disclaimer: I also have no obligation to respond to everyone and everything. I mean, yeah, I’ll try, and, yeah, I’ll get most, but, if you refer to the top of this post, you will see that I am 1) double majoring in two different STEM disciplines, 2) disabled, and 3) very tired. If you stick around here for a bit, you will realize there are more numbers and things I have going on, so I will not pressure myself to respond to everything, especially things that stress me out more than I already am.

[bookwyrminspiration]

Listen, Tam Song has adhd. No, no I don’t have evidence for this. I just know it in my soul- trust me he does.

I trust your soul, nonsie. I am putting all my faith in you and following you blindly into this headcanon/theory/whatever you'd like to call it.

but also I never shut up so you'll be subjected to my thoughts the entire time you're leading me down this path.

I'm feeling he's more inattentive in his presentation of adhd, even though I do often talk about how he's very aware (they're different in a way). He feels like the kind of person to either know exactly where things are at all times or he couldn't tell you where he put something crucial like his imparter.

but he'd fidget quietly all the time. constantly. His leg will not stop bouncing and he's messing with his fingers and the hems of his clothes and rolling his neck and he has so much energy all the time that he never knows what to do with

let me tell you the executive dysfunction he has is off the charts. he cannot start a task to save his life. When he was young I imagine his parents would see him doing "nothing" (read: internally panicking because he can't get himself to do anything but outwardly chilling) and tell him off for being lazy and he'd just be sitting there like!! I physically!! cannot do anything right now and i am Stuck Here waiting and I hate it.

he still does it, but now he hides it under indifference and distrusts, pretending he doesn't complete tasks like homework and cleaning because he doesn't care about school and doesn't want to; he won't admit he doesn't know how to start them and often can't until that deadline comes up. and if the thing doesn't have a deadline? well he's fucked, then

Losing things. all the time, I swear he has to loose things. maybe no one noticed some of his struggles when he was younger/at exillium because he didn't have a lot of possessions to lose. But now that he's back in the lost cities and actually owns things he can never find them. That candle he was holding in his hand five seconds ago? He set it down and it takes ten minutes before he figures out where.

He opens a drawer and finds something he put in there two months ago and its not until he sees it that he remembers it exists.

Piles!! he does the piles thing with his clothes because putting them away is too many steps and he'll forget about them if they're in the closet. So things end up in heaps in random places around his room until Tiergan notices and gets him baskets so that at the very least they're not on the floor. But the whole object permanence thing really went out the window there.

perception of the passage of time? nope! he doesn't have it! three months ago was actually just last week to him. three days in the future is the same as next year. He's here for the right now and his brain refuses to process anything else.

He's going through life struggling with no idea what's causing it. I imagine there's a lot of frustration and confusion that he channels outwards, trying to hide all of these issues because he doesn't understand them.

these were just a few of the first thoughts I had when you said adhd Tam but there is so much potential in this!! I love the concept so if you (or anyone else) had any thoughts/projections I'd love to hear them. Making kotlc neurodiverse is sexy and something we should do more often, actually (the sexy part is a joke but the rest is serious)