#ngl this fic came out of nowhere i was supposed to write a different mcmattyass fic

[professor-abeloved]

terrible, wonderful thing (i don’t want to keep secrets just to keep you) [ilw mc character study]

Fandom: It Lives Within (visual novel) @itlivesproject 💜

Summary: [ILW SPOILERS FOR CH14 AND ONWARDS]

you've always let love be your guide, juan capili.

love is what compels you to fix amalia’s college records. it’s what makes you stare jocelyn square in the eye and urge her to make amends. it’s what steels your courage against the screams of the undead that torment abel everyday.

it’s the reason you couldn’t help but fall into matthias’ arms; and why you can’t tell lincoln the truth.

(but maybe there is another person who could understand you.)

Characters | Ships: Abel Flint & Main Character | Matthias McQuoid/Main Character (Juan "Wan” Capili)

Notes: this is a character study-ish for my sarcastic mc, juan "wan" capili (he/they), who is besties with lincoln but is dating his father 🤷 gotta love exploring that messy tangle of feelings that comes with that! can be read together with my other wan piece, A Shadow's Lament CW for Allusions to A Homophobic Background and Visceral Metaphorical Descriptions

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love is a terrible, wonderful thing.

it has driven you into the wilds, taking down a myriad of monsters to avenge your family — or so you thought. (you still couldn’t bring yourself to take out that picture of annie and your parents from your wallet).

it’s what drives you to pick yourself back up again and again, all in an effort to keep your loved ones safe — or so you thought. (you still couldn’t bring yourself to look lia in the eye when her scars stood out to you, plain as day).

it’s what causes you to risk the lives of innocents, prioritizing your friends above all else. you picked them in a heartbeat, and you’d choose them a thousand times over. (after all, what’s loyalty without a fault?)

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