#no because THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

[ihatebnha]

Speaking of winter costume bakugou and hair in my head during the winter he always keeps his hair shaggy and longer and then in the summer like a WHORE he cuts it off. Yk like a whore

no stop before i cream myself bc i was literally thinking this TOOOOO.

god, makes me tremble tbh... he obviously justifies it by saying it keeps his neck and ears warm, and it probably does but lord jesus have mercy if he doesn't also do it cuz he knows you like it, too.

the only problem is... the first warm say of spring he's coming home with a buzz cut and maybe that's ur thing but eye know for a fact EYE'D be in TEARS.

he's trying to give u a kiss at the front door and you're just rubbing his shorn head while pouting. trying to cook dinner and you're across the room sighing.

imagine going from gripping nice, long, blonde hair in bed to NOTHING. he's still the whore but... crying, sobbing, shaking.

[killemwithky-ness]

I always tend to freeze under pressure .

I literally am beyond sick and tired of being a burden and depending on people .

I’m tired of crying and asking for help.

I’m tired of feeling like shit emotionally and physically .

I’m tired of everything ...... and at this point I don’t want to feel anything anymore .

I am angry for more reasons than one .

I had everything planned for life after undergrad and here I am ... no car ... barely a place to live and I can’t even focus on my craft because I have to work countless hours to make ends meet .

I hate how I use going home as a escape route when I don’t have shit in Fort Worth either .

I’m tired of alllllllll of thisssssssssssssssssss....

I’m starting to feel the darkness creep back up again and I’m starting to allow it .

It’s crazy because the one constant I’ve always had in my life was my sadness 😞.

Honestly , I don’t wanna be here anymore ... I haven’t for awhile ...

[survivorsolomonislands]

Episode 13 “YOU CAN'T TOUCH! THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!” (Mitchell)

YOU TRY TO ICE MITCHELL AKABANFOVTR THE FORCES OF EVIL AGAINST I, THE ONE LONE LIL EGG IIIIIIIIIIIIIII THE LIL EGG I AM A GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD KNEEL BEFORE ME YOU FCKING DEMONIC HELLFIRE RAINS OF BLOOD I AM SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMING YOU DON'T ICE MITCHELL KALABANG MITCHELLV KALABANG IS A FUCKING GOLDEN GOD OF FIREY PASSION AND EUPHORIA YOU CAN'T TOUCH! THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

THAT VOTE LITERALLY COULD NOT HAVE GONE BETTER WHAT THE FUCK! can someone say final 7?

"but logic and reason isn't a strongsuit for this group" - RTP

Okay, holy crap @ the last tribal. I was not expecting that at all. Luca is starting to come into his own in this game and we gotta be careful about letting him get too deep. Same with Allie. I know Mitchell has that Tyson-ish charm but cmon he has to have burned some jury votes by now. My ideal final 3 would be me-Mitchell-LA, but I cant see any path where that outcome might actually happen :\

I FOUND A SECOND IDOL AND I AM FUCKING SCREAMING 0R3IWDFIOVRCHJEDUOFJNCRIUOEDHNUFIJHRCNUDISHDNFGUIJRKLVEFNDSUGIJNVRIJDSKNFUIJCWNEDUISJFNUIWCJHEDNSAUIROJFNUIWODJNMIUOWEJDNMIFUOHRCNWMD WATCH ME GET BLIDSIDED TOMORROW NIGHT BUT WHAT A WAY TO GO NFUREISDNGFIRVENFDSUIGHFNVKRCJSDNFIJKCDNSKXJFZ

(later)

i really fuckin miss zak

Its kinda embarrassing bc I only got like 35 seconds in the challenge, but thats because I didn't get home until 10 when the challenge was due at 10:30 bc I was seeing a movie with my crush. Anyway I'm really tired but I just wanted to get a confessional in before I go to sleep. So I'll write more tomorrow if I remember.

The saga of L.A thinks she is going home at tribal tonight continues. Luca flipping put me into a shit position, I wanted both Allie and Willow gone and now they want me gone which is fair. There is very little chance Mitchell will side with me, he isn't really talking to me about the vote, and I did try to vote him out last round so there is that too. I still think Willow, Allie and Aro have no chance against Mitchell, but they could be waiting til after I'm gone to take him out but who knows. We don't actually know what the flare is, we think its a vote steal but who tells what their item really is? honestly, this is a gaming of lying, if he has an advantage like that why would he tell people? it makes no sense to me, just like idols. I have learned if you REALLY have an idol you don't tell people. If we can get Aro to vote Willow we might be okay but once again, I haven't heard much from him.

I need to write a longer confessional in like an hour but I'm about to re watch an episode of Pearl Islands. Anyway I know Luca is lying to me, I know they're writing my name down, my perfect record of not getting a vote cast against me is about to be ruined lmao.

Tonight should be pretty easy unless an idol is played. Luca thinks the only people who he can beat are me and LA and wants to get to the end with us. He , La and Ryan wants to blindside Willow tonight. I know my chances of winning are pretty low, but I'd rather lose to Willow than Luca tbh

Oh we're voting LA btw

Okay so this vote will probably go 4-3. I just need to hope it goes in my favor. Ryan really wants me out bc he thinks I'm a threat, and he was talking to Mitchell and Aro about voting me out. Ryan told them that he wants to get rid of me and Allie's duo, and he told Mitchell that he sees me as a bigger threat. I don't really see myself as much of a threat, but I do think there are a few people I could maybe beat at FTC if I make it. I know this sounds selfish but I wish they were voting for Allie over me because one of the only things I've had going for me in this game is that no one has ever voted for me throughout this whole game, oh well, I guess I can't avoid it this round. I just have to hope that LA doesn't play an idol and that I can actually trust my alliance as much as I think I can, bc if one of them flips then I'm fucked.

So it's right before tribal and I'm feeling good. RTP and Luca desperately tried to get Aro and myself to flip against Willow; their desperation makes me think that's their true angle for this vote, and it didn't work out. Luca makes some good points but fails to consider that I've got a F3 with Aro and Willow and that Willow is probably my closest ally in the game. Additionally, he's asking me to boot her over LA, who literally does not benefit my game at all ! Like the girl is nice and I like that she likes Kingdom Hearts but she just doesn't do it for me. We can hardly have conversations and we don't talk game, and I know she's not going to the end with me, so she's gotta go. Provided I'm not about to get royally shanked as I typically do every other round since the merge, I'll be at F6 with an idol, an advantage in the game, and two F3 deals with an obvious target in RTP. If I can just finally best RTP in an immunity challenge at F6, I play the idol at F5 and make it to F4 where I'd like to think that my deals made will carry me to the end where I can finally win. I'm nervous because it's all so clear-cut to me - a legitimate winning path to the end. And if it's so obvious to me, others are gonna pick up on it eventually. I'm hella nervous but I think all the pieces are in place for things to go well tonight. And if not... I'll be seeing Dana and Zak a lot sooner than expected!! Mitchell Kalabang might be your next tumblevivor winner. Just fuckin THINK about THAT !

Holy shit, my confessional game has been WEAK this season. Haven't done one in such a long time, but I have been pretty busy playing the actual game and doing IRL shit a lot. Here we go though. I've been on the right side of a few votes here, Lexi and Zakriah. Then I attempted a failed blindside on Willow and I've realised that I just gave up control of the game to Mitchell!! Silly me! But it was the only way to avoid rocks. I'm likely going out soon despite having Ryan with me as Willow/Allie seem to not want to vote out literally the biggest threat here. My hope resides in getting either the two of them or Aro to vote out Mitchell, his flare will hand him auto F4 I swear to God. That's it for today, until next time!

(Let's pretend I sent this after I was voted out) I am not shocked about the vote, I knew there a slim chance Aro or Mitchell would flip. I have enjoyed playing with everyone. There are things I wish I had done differently but its all things to learn from. As of right now, I hope RTP or Mitchell make it to ftc, and I'm just really glad I made it to jury.