#no but i'm genuinely pissed and sad because it feels TO ME like they're stuck

[tojikai]

I am so sorry for all this rambling. I'm genuinely just so pissed off. Like I'm scrolling thinking oh yes I'm almost at the end it couldn't possibly get any worse. Boy was I wrong. Make sure you're drinking enough water and getting enough rest. You deserve it after all this hard work you've been putting into this story. I think those sentences are the only positive things I've typed in this whole thing lol.

What does she want? I know that there's something that she wants out of this. "Not even your girlfriend." Lemme at her. Just one hit. Can I hit her just once? She's been fake from the very beginning. How'd Gojo fall for this girl? She seems like such a white lotus to me. Like, this girl seems so manipulative. Ain't no way she's no after anything. That seatbelt wasn't stuck and we all know it.

5 YEARS. I don't remember if it was mentioned before or not because my memory is garbage but 5 YEARS Gojo really? You're telling me that a crush from high school was stronger than a fully developed adult relationship that had been on for 5 YEARS? If that's what you're saying doesn't that mean that Rie was always at the back of his mind throughout his relationship with y/n? Did he ever give his while heart to y/n? I'm done with him. IDEC what happens to him anymore. I'm so sorry but where is Nanami? Y/N I beg please don't go back to him. It's not worth it. Also you're solution to not breaking y/n's heart was literally lying and hiding the fact that you cheated. Okie dokie. You deserve everything that's coming for you.

To make matters worse it wasn't even just the one kiss. They were like really going at it with each other they couldn't even breathe when they were done. I really thought it would've been just the one kiss but NOPE. Once again i hold no expectations for these hoes and yet I'm still disappointed. Their brains sure aren't working but we all know what is. I'm having an even harder time seeing them as in love with each other especially with how they got together. Rie honey you were horny. You literally said you hadn't had a man in years. Gojo was still feeling that flame from his youth when he had a crush on her.

I have to keep reminding myself that they're grown adults because everything they do is just so ridiculous. I'm about to give myself a neck injury from the number of times I've shaken my head. You "forgot" that you were in a hospital? Uh huh sure. You were so overcome by your emotions as usual. Just like you were on that night when you kissed a taken man.

Leave. Why do both of you insist on inserting yourselves in this? It's none of your business at this point. Rie you definitely have no connection to y/n when you literally went and stole her man. I've never seen a girl so shameless in all of my life. Gojo if you really want to help then go. That'll fix everything. Leave and never come back. No one will be mad. Why are you borderline stalking her. Let them be. (Is that a potential spark of love I'm seeing from Suguru 👀)

"Her surprise appearance was a reminder that no matter how much Satoru cares for you, she would still be the one inside his heart." Ma'am it's illegal to make my heart hurt this much with one line. Once again y/n baby please move on from this man. You deserve everything good thing in this world and Gojo just isn't one of them.

Whew. That was my rant....for now. Eagerly sitting here waiting for someone to physically hurt Gojo. Also Nanami sir are you available? And most importantly are you single looking to mingle? (We can't be having a 2nd Rie now)

it's really sad when you think about it...5 years. yn must've been planning her whole life and future with satoru already and then one day he comes home and decides that she's not the one for him anymore :(((

[atomic-rena]

8, 27 & 40!

> do you have any grails (figures you want more than anything)?

Yes!! My Rei and Asuka nurse figures specifically the 2006 ones!! I got them from Amazon so for months I was stressing out about if they where gonna be bootleg or not, but nope they are genuine!! ^_^

My other grails are pretty modest I guess, they're mostly nendoroids which I know is kinda silly but I love them so much :,3 Here's a MFC link to my list of obtained grails and a link to my list of not ever (probably) obtained grails :,)))

Although it's funny I don't usually set out to buy specific figures hah- most of my collection is second :P

> what is your favourite character out of all the figures you own?

Hrmmm??? That's tricky! I would love all the jjba characters I have but also I have the most Mikus, quite a few Reis as well hmrmrm- I'm gonna say Miku because she has fun outfits but rei is a close second tho ^_^

(if you're curious list of all my Miku and Rei figures and merch!!)

> do you have any controversial figure opinions?

Other than explicit or suggestive loli/shota figures are bad and Funko pops suck I do!

So I fucking hate online shopping and it kinda pisses me off because everyone assumes I get my shit online but I don't!!! I rarely do!! I understand that if you live in an area with no stores, online shopping is sadly your only option if you want stuff. I'm not trying to say that it's explicitly bad but just personally I really hate it and I'm fortunate enough to live in a area with good stores.

So adding to that opinion is I loooooove to buy second hand figures because 1. It's a lot cheaper 2. I can find a lot of older and more niche ones that I would never know exist if I didn't shop second hand (my Prier fig is a great example!!) and finally 3. I just genuinely enjoy the cleaning process.

Nothing brings me more joy than dissembling a figure that has dust all over it and some smudges and just going in and making it look the best I can. Bonus points if it's broken in any way!!! This is why I love the demon squeezer figure I was gifted cuz she had like broken parts n shit and I got to fix her! That's so cool I love it so much!! I have my hot glue technique where I just put a shit ton of hot glue on a stuck peg and stick a hot glue stick on it then wait for it too cool off and yank it out, so much fun!!!! Do it with my old nendoroids whenever their parts snap (which I'm sad that they do but I like to yank the stuff it's fun)

I think I'm just really crafty and feel like I always need to be making something but I don't always have the ideas or motivation to draw so this is a nice outlet. That and Kandi bracelet making that's fun too.

But yeah tldr; old second hand figures with broken parts are fun to fix

[vicsdeangelis]

i can't wait for someone to upload their performance so i can watch it but good lord i know i sound like a broken record, but stop. making. them. play. beggin'!

they just retweeted something from the snl account and one of the comments was "are they famous because of a cover?" and i'm furious! not with this guy, who i assume doesn't know who måneskin is, but with american television and their american label for not letting beggin' rest for good, because this is what happens. people start genuinely thinking they're only famous for a cover when in reality they have achieved so much since 2017. i don't blame the general public for not being interested in looking them up if all they know about them is a fucking cover, because that's all they're being exposed to. the general public isn't going to look up videos of their concerts where they play their own songs or interviews with them. all they know about them is what they're exposed to by jimmy fallon, ellen degeneres, and now snl

like, fuck, man, let them grow and move on! let beggin' die! this shit is not funny anymore and it's not gonna make them grow in america. and i want that for them, i want them to grow in every single corner of the planet, but this is not the way to fucking do it

i don't know who's making these decisions, but fire them fucking immediately

[katierosefun]

Hi! Love your works on Ao3! I have a question - should I watch school 2013? I heard that there's a lot of bullying there, and it's sometimes personally triggering, and the ending is not a total HE.. One the other hand, bromance! .. 😣I don't know.. What do you think? What kind of feelings do you have after finishing it?

hello hello anon! you came to the right place--and omg yes, i love school 2013. to be honest, i didn't think i would like it bc it was airing around 2012/2013 and as such, the camera work isn't the best, and the first 3 eps are kinda on the slower side, but i was so glad i persisted.

the bullying is pretty intense, and i personally winced quite a bit--but also, it tapers off + again, after the first 3 eps, it's no longer quite as disruptive as it once has been (+ it also isn't quite as bad as other kdramas . . . like boys over flowers, which is notorious for its intense bullying/harassment or the penthouse, which . . . if you've watched/heard of it, the bullying in that show is very intense). with school 2013, there's quite a lot of punching/kicking/yelling, but that all slowly settles down as the show progresses.

but anyways, my overall feelings after finishing the show: i loved it, and i wish i was watching it when it was first airing back in 2012/2013, because i feel like 12/13 year old caroline (+ also in general, high school caroline) would have massively benefited from the overall themes and messages of the show. it's like. there's some tv shows/books/movies that i firmly believe you can't really appreciate/understand until you get older, but school 2013 was one of those shows where i was like "man . . . i wish i'd dropped some other shows to watch this instead".

but that said, i was incredibly happy to be watching the show when i first did. i was studying for the lsat when i first watched this show, y'see, and so i was already pretty stressed out/feeling relatively burnt out and sad pretty often. this show made me feel...a lot of good things. (+ i listed to the ost for like . . . the entire summer while studying. a lot of distinct memories of me listening to the lyrics "dream whatever you wanna dream / go wherever you wanna go"...i can't tell you enough how much this ost felt like someone very gently patting me on the head and telling me that things will be okay eventually.)

the teacher characters (jung in jae and kang se chan) brought me so much comfort--and even though there's not an explicit romance between them, i really do adore them together. something about teachers with differing teaching methods but eventually grow to respect and admire one another + also see each other through their most vulnerable moments . . . peak romance. also, i think we all need teachers like jung in jae and kang se chan--teachers who tell you that you don't have to be the best at studying, you just need to make sure you have a dream. that's the most important and teachers who tell you to straighten up and fly right and just . . . god. i love them.

(also, look at these fuckign nerds. they're so fuckign cute.)

you're also right that the bromance (or, as i like to call it, just straight up romance) in this show is off-the-charts. lee jong suk and kim woo bin, who play the troubled teens go nam soon and park heung soo, actually brought him a Best Couples Award because of this show because they were just That Good. (also worth noting that jang na ra, the queen herself who played the fantastic jung in jae, said, "i think nam soon and heung soo genuinely love each other.")

but all that aside, yes. they're fantastic. if you've ever been super close to someone, only to fall out rather miserably with them + then be forced to see each other again, their dynamic will get you in all the feelings. they're the typical "we were best friends but then you left why did you leave and now i'm angry and pissed off as all hell at you and you hurt me but i also hurt you and now we're stuck together so what the hell do we do now" kind of storyline, and they're just . . . so endearing. they cry a lot together too. so genuine and so open. true boys will be boys behavior bc they go through so many ups and downs and yet remain loyal to each other + i do think they really invented the template of a solid companionship dynamic between boys, whether it be romantic or incredibly, deeply platonic.

(again: look at them.)

this answer has become ridiculously long, so i'm sorry for the long answer anon, but as you can tell: i really do adore this show and yes, i highly recommend it. it is pretty dramatic, esp. in the first few episodes--and yet, i think this show is one of the most comforting shows i've ever watched, mostly bc of its running themes of what it means to have a dream / what it means to be close with someone / how the school system can leave people with so many awful problems . . . and yet how we can all learn to become better, because we can get better.

anyways. it truly is a lovely show. mayhaps a bit dramatic, but i sometimes feel as though i really, truly knew and understood the characters--and they all feel rather real to me, whether they were on screen for only a few minutes or if they were on screen for hours. the characters will make you feel comforted in the end, and i promise that you'll want to spend more time in that classroom, if only to hear the students joke around or the teachers tell you to not yet give up.

[littlebaht]

Hello! This is my first post, and before you read the actual story here's some brief clarification. This story is my dream, and "---" stands in for my name I can't hear.

Ps @mangospams I hope you enjoy 🥺🥺 from your🖋️🦇 anon

A group of wayward heroes rush across a field to get to a tower, fighting countless foes as they go. At the top is a friend of theirs, for one it's a lover. The friend is chained at the top of the tower, head up towards the dreary, stormy sky, tears rolling down her cheeks softly, but she refuses to let any sound of weakness out. Ominous chanting surrounds her, a ritual being performed to summon an ancient being of great power.

The group gets closer to the tower, growing more desperate as time slowly slips away from them. They all know they won't make it in time, but they can't bring themselves to not even try. "HOLD ON, I SWEAR I'M COMING FOR YOU!" her lover cries up towards the looming tower, doing his best to keep the hope burning in her soul. A soft smile graces her features as she whispers. "I know you are."

The chanting suddenly stops and the entire world temporarily loses any sound as the rain drops stall in the air. Then the loud crack of lightning that strikes her is all that is heard, her last words leaving her faded and breathless. "I love you..." She then screams in pain as her body burns under the harsh electricity of the lightning, her body morphing with the energy to transform into a more suitable body for the being to come. Though inside of her soul it is quiet, she can feel her grasp upon the world fading as she sinks into a dark abyss.

Within her soul she is greeted by an imposing form, shrouded in shadows that move like smoke off of his body. "Who are you?" She asks, hearing her voice echo in the empty space. "I am———" I introduce myself in such a soft tone despite my voice being deep and intimidating. "Oh, so you're the one that they want." I can see the sadness in her eyes, and I can't help but feel guilty. "Sadly I am, I take it you did not wish for your body to be my new vessel?" She shakes her head as she curls in on her self, a last ditch effort to comfort herself. "I am sorry... I regrettably do not have any control over this, but is there anything you wish for me to do when I awaken? " She looks up at me, my blank white eyes oddly genuine in my mourning of her situation. " Protect the people I love for me, they're sadly fools that will try and avenge me by themselves." She laughs, but it's hollow and tears pour down her face as the sound soon turns into sobs.

And as the last bit of her soul fades from existence I can see her entire life flash before my eyes, I can feel tears rolling down my own cheeks as I softly frown. Then I open my eyes and see the world around me. Humans in deep red robes rejoicing around me, some cackling like madmen. I keep my expression devoid of any emotion as I pull myself up from the ground where I presume the girl had fallen over when she was struck with lightning. It's then that the group makes it to the top of the tower, I can see the face of the man she loved drop with defeat. He was too late to save her.

I brush myself off as I explore my new vessel temporarily, my upper half of my face is pitch black, looking like it was dusted with ash yet the rest of my skin is an almond brown, my eyes still a blank white with a soft glow to them, my ears black and shaped like thin sharp dog ears. My slender and short frame slightly imposing, but the intimidating part was the black whip like tail that lashed out behind me angrily. I glance over at the robed humans, they look startled to see the group of heroes, who all look royally pissed off. "——— I COMMAND YOU TO KILL THEM!" shouts one of the robed humans in such a cocky tone. "Command?" I briefly pause as I practically scowl. "You command me?" I cock my head to the side and narrow my eyes further. My tail splits into seven more thin whips before extending out at a rapid speed, piercing the skulls of the robed humans.

The slick sound of brain matter squishing out regrettably entering everyone's ears, before I pull my tails back to myself, letting the bodies drop with a dull thud. The heroes flinch back at such a swift attack and stare with brief horror before gearing up to fight me. "Well, this is a problem if they can't control you, then what do you plan on doing?" One of them asks, the lover just staring angrily at my form, the form of his once beloved woman now looking nothing like it once did. "I plan on keeping the promise I made to her."

I say blankly as I walk forward with no fear and no hostility. Walking straight past the group of heroes and looking over the edge of the tower, staring down at the thousands of robed humans and beasts that form an army. "And... What promise is that, and to who?" The man from before asks another question. I briefly look back at the group with a sullen smile." The woman who's body I stole, I promised her I'd protect you all." I see her lover flinch and cry at his words " of course she fucking did." He sobs out angrily.

With that I jump off the tower, falling down several feet and fast. Collecting the residual energy from my summoning between my hands, my whole body buzzing to life and giving off a yellowish glow before I release it upon the army beneath me with no remorse. I land with a heavy thud upon the scorched ground and look out at the remaining soldiers and releasing a pained, intimidating roar while bearing my fangs. I see the look of realization in their eyes as they figure out that I am not the god they were hoping for, I am not on their side. How dare they make me cause such suffering to a woman who had so much time left to live, who wished to see a life with her lover after this meaningless war.

Time passes and I'm left in a blood red field, corpses surrounding me. I pant heavily trying to catch my breath from the brutal massacre I had caused. My body buzzing in pain as my mortality starts to sink in. I feel tears slip from my eyes again, I truly didn't want this, I didn't want to be brought back, I had died for a reason. So why was I being punished, why didn't they stop my revival. I look to the sky and scream out "YOU BASTARDS I DIDN'T WANT THIS! WHY NOW? WHY THIS BODY? I WANTED TO BE EXILED YOU DAMN FOOLS!" I let my arms hang lazily from my sides and I keep my head tilted up and close my eyes. I just wanted to rest, was that really so much to ask for?

My tail hangs low in defeat as I hear the squelching of their footsteps come towards me. I recognize the scent of the heroes by now so I make no effort to move or to look at them. "If you didn't want this then bring her back." I hear her lovers pained voice and I shut my mouth to keep from growling in frustration. "I would if I could, I don't particularly like having to walk this earth while having her memories stuck with me, a constant reminder that I stole this body from her."

I look over and see one of his companions holding his shoulder and shaking their head sadly. "maybe we can revive her?" I hear another companion say, her soft and timid voice trembling as she holds back tears. " It's not possible." I interrupt as I start to wipe off the blood and grime from my body and face. Damn, I had really gone overboard if I was drenched this badly, I thought. " Why not?" Her lover seethes out, his anger being misplaced upon me, but I can not blame him. "because her soul is part of the ritual to bring me here, once I entered her body my energy destroyed her soul to bind me to this plane." I eventually give up on trying to clean myself of the blood I was caked in and just shoved my hands in my pockets, I turn to walk away, wanting to find a way to go back to my peaceful exile. "And where are you going?" I hear the calm tone of the lovers companion, his voice sullen, but kind towards me. "Away." That is all I say as I leave the group and the blood-soaked field.

[sweetescapeastrid]

August 22, 2021

Just when I thought I can handle my stress, I am having a mental breakdown again. Not sure if it is considered as a mental breakdown or I'm just exaggerating stuff. I've been in denial of my mental state just because I grew up in an environment where mental health is not a priority and it's just an exaggeration for them. So I am not sure if my feelings are valid and I always have doubts.

Mama Pesing and I got into an argument yesterday. She was so mad at me because of the house renovation. The house got flood two nights ago because of the poor construction of the first worker. And also Tito Paul's messed up perspective. Both factors did a great impact that's why the flood was terrible that night. I was so annoyed and disappointed on how can they be dumb and not do the right thing. This is why I don't also trust Tito Paul in doing these kind of stuff even though madalas sya magmarunong. Si Mama Pesing din sobrang mangialam. Kulang na lang sya na din ang mag construction.

It's so hard to make a renovation because both of them always have something to say even they are not the ones paying for it. Which pisses me off big time! They're giving their own opinions which are opposites most of the time. And I don't trust them when it comes to renovations!

Mama Pesing is old. I get it. But damn, she's so mad at me for the renovation? If it's her favorite nephew and nieces, she won't say a thing for sure!! She'll tell me that I always contradict her but in reality I think it is her who's contradicting me. Just because I am not her favorite!

I shouldn't have continued that renovation on the first place. I knew this is gonna happen. This is not even my house. I promise to my self, this is the last thing I will renovate. I won't spend any dime to renovate this goddamn house anymore!

I just want this house to be better. Is it that hard? It's not just for my own good! And they're the ones mad at me? For doing this shit? Really? Tama nga. I should've invest and save for myself.

Having this instance, I feel like I am never enough. Even though I want the best for this fucking family, I will never be enough. And THEY WILL NEVER BE THANKFUL.

I am the one almost spending so much on this household. I pay our bills and I am the one buying groceries. And this is what I get? Not a single fucking appreciation! Not even a single support!

I spent all of my money for this goddamn family and this is still what I get? Okay? This is the sign to STOP.

Sad to be in the environment where my own family is the one who are causing me stress. I feel like it's best for me to go somewhere and live alone. Or even just end my life?

No one's gonna be affected anyways! I am not enough, not the favorite, not appreciated, not loved and not the priority.

I don't know. Suicide is passing through my mind ever since I got so stressed. I hate to do it because Mommy Lai, Mama Tin, and Inay Fely fought for their lives. But I'm gonna throw my life away? I told myself not to do it. But it just becomes heavy day after day.

I feel like I'm stuck and not moving forward. I am achieving things but I am not genuinely happy.

Is this stress? Mental breakdowns? Or I am just overreacting?

Today, I don't feel like doing anything. I want to cry but I'm still holding back. I have heavy breathing.

I'm so tired of this.