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mallowstep · 10 months

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Is stolag going to Ba Finished?

Hypothetically yeah. I’ve been working on Jay’s piece, which is the climax, and then Alder’s will just finish up with resolution.

Practically? I mean — yeah, it is. If you were asking about [if you know you know], I wouldn’t have such a certain answer, but yeah, stolag is something I’m pretty proud of.

I know it’s been a LONG while. What can I say. Today I spent approximately two hours being talked into calmness about my inability to eat food in the same room as another person at present.

That said — I wasn’t kidding when I said I have something coming for warriors. It’s pretty close to done, actually, I just haven’t had time to settle down and properly edit it. Tomorrow, perhaps. I need to get some real sleep before I try that.

Anyway, rambling aside, yeah, I have every intention of finishing STOLAG. It will probably be slow. I’ve fought very hard for my mental stability and creativity is only now back “on the table.” It actually scares me at times, when I start running on inspiration. So it’s slow going, because it has to be. But saw3b is in the works, and will be finished, and then I’ll work on the final piece.

#mine #ask #noonthemoon #practically it might be a while if I wasn’t sufficiently clear about that #last time I had a big writing weekend I literally like #I was arguing with my therapist if it was a relapse/episode #so like #yeah I’m a lil fucky #not to mention the guys!! in my head!!!#s’a balancing act #y’all I started writing when I was beginning my descent #*writing Warriors #it’s not like I have an association w it or anything #mostly if I had one it would be that it brought me and the beloved to one another #and god they are so much to me #but anyway #I’m very scared of losing the progress I worked so hard for #and I mean forcing it biting and kicking and screaming #staring at wolves and reminding myself today has value today has value today has value #hiding on my bed because nowhere else was safe #attacking punching bags #forcing myself to make my bed #waking up and going to work even when the thought disgusted me #so I’m very anxious about anything that threatens that balance

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