#not when it couldve gotten back to george.

[fellhellion]

fjkdfdjsl did gabriel ever find out miguel spent his teenage years dodging some of the worst bullying ever. god.

[the-record]

FOREVER

SUMMARY: nell’s gone to find a surgeon and you hate the idea of it

PAIRING: nell jackson x reader

WARNINGS: george being injured :(( shes just a baby

A/N: i love this outfit sm the cape is so cute

‘FOREVER WAS A SENTENCE, A SENTENCE TO DEATH’

“i’m not staying back here nell! i’m serious.” you yelled as you rushed after her. “you can’t keep leaving me behind!” 

she groaned and stopped, turning to face you. “it’s dangerous.” you shrugged at her, an exasperated look on your face. “i am not leading you head first into trouble. i won’t!” she started off again but stopped when she heard your footsteps follow. she bent over, hands on her knees. “go back and look after george.”

you couldve screamed. “she’s got roxy, she’s fine.” 

nell steps forward and takes your hands in hers. you shy at the way she stares, trying to understand. “why can’t you just stay here,  where its safe. that’s all i ask.” her fingers tangle with yours.

you take a minute to really look at her, take her in. her messy curls tamed and pulled up. freckles littering her cheeks, a small sunburn under them. the nicest dress you’ve ever seen her wear covered by a cape. her hands are calloused, dry, and covered in dirt around yours, a tight grip.

“i hate to know youre alone.” you whisper.

she shakes her head and smiles sweetly, “i’m not. i promise you.” nell pulls you close, arms wrapping around your shoulders and tucking your head into her neck. “you don’t have to worry about me, i can handle myself.” you nod, breathing her in and holding her as close as you can. “besides, i’ve got rasselas.”

you watch her and rasselas leave, standing till you can no longer see the carraige before heading back. the door slams behind you as you walk in and you wince, scared you’ve woken george. only roxy looks up, an apologetic face. 

“no such luck?” you shake your head and walk over to the younger girl. she leans against you as you both watch george sleep. “i hate to see her like this.” roxy says quietly. “can’t get her to stop talking and playing normally.”

your arms wrap around her and squeeze. “she’ll be back to her old self in no time. nell’s gonna find a surgeon to fix her up.” you press your lips to the top of the girls head before turning to sit at the window.

the three of you sit at george’s side that night, she’s fast asleep and so is roxy.

you comb your fingers through nell’s hair, pulling the knots undone. she’s tired, head falling forward every so often. 

“been a while since someone’s taken care of me.” her voice is quiet and laced with sleep. she stops your hands with one of hers, reaching back and holding them while she turns to see you. 

you stand, laughing softly when she takes your hand to stop you. you pull away gently, a promise in your eyes to come back. she watches you search for a clean cloth and dip it in a bit of water, wring out the excess.

you wipe at her face when you return, taking extra care around the small cuts still healing. her hands are wiped carefully and gently by you.

“i can feel your eyes.” you tease, flickering your own up to look at her. she smiles, caught red handed. “d’you think she’s gonna be alright?” you ask quietly, something stuck in the back of your throat.

nell turns to look at george, her face soft with love for the young girl. she nods, “she’s strong, stronger than me.” she leans back and opens her arms. “c’mere.”

you fall into her, tired from the day. her arms pull you close, staying after you’ve gotten situated. “she’s so little.” nell looks down and follows your eyes over to george. “and roxy, she’s still young even if she doesn’t think she is.” 

she pushes the hair out of your face and moves your head to look at her. “they’re gonna be okay. we’ll get ‘em both to my uncle then me and you,” she says, smiling, “we’ll go to america. make somethin’ of ourselves.” you nod when she does. 

“seems like you thought a lot about this.” you tease. “i hate to leave the girls though.” nell nods in agreement.

“it’s for the best through, hm?” she relaxes back against the side of the bed with a sigh. “the surgeon,” she says, “he’s got a brother. a magistrate.” you look up at her in disbelief. “said i should go see him, ‘parently he can help us.” 

you take a moment, trying to force words out of your mouth. “you’re serious?” 

nell nods and presses a kiss to your temple. “now sleep, im not going nowhere.” 

‘I’M GLAD I GET FOREVER TO SEE WHERE YOU END’

[strawberryezpls]

Oh god has my life been a Rollercoaster

I really didnt mean for any of this to happen tbh

Oh its November 5th its 2am. Im here to rant and update on what my lige has been since july 31st. (I can't believe its been that long). Also im doing this on a phone instead of my school laptop so bare with me.

Lets do by month

AUGUST

"august slipped away into a moment of time, cuz it was never mine"

August was starting off great. I dont have covid, im moving and my work besties moved away. But dont worry(one comes back later). Anyways i only remember like 3 specfic days in august tbh(oops) but the first is tge day of the seventeen concert. It was magical i had the time of my life 10/10 would go again. However i cane home at like 11:50, which is a big yikes but didnt get caught. Then theres the day where this guy at my work asked me to cover his shift and then we started talking like all the time. And ppl were suspecting something was going on with us. And there was not in august tho. So it was a cute 2 weeks of flirting acting like we were gonna date. But we didnt :(

September

"You know its not the same as it was"

September, this is the month where we moved to our new place. I share a room only with my sister exciting right? Im pretty sure prince and i had our first kiss in sept or it couldve been august idk. But after the first kiss he told me that were gonna stay friends but i wanted more and that was the first of many times where ill be sad or crying over him(lame ik) but then one day he was like can we hnag after work and i was like ok sure, so i thought he wanted to talk for some odd reason. But we started kissing(and when i tell u my face was like huhhhhhhhhh so this is what its like) and then i lost my v card less than a week later. And hung out with friends a day later :) then we started doing it again afterwe said we wouldnt(well him more than me)

October

"Theres things i want to say to you, but ill just let you live"

I start finding dignity in myself and trying to get over him. I went to a haunted house tho which was fun. Also didn't get caught either. I went to the movies by myself too. I also started to lose a lot of interest in peanut butter. I also missed my period which is crazy bc I still haven't gotten it(we're in November). OOh, and I went to dave busters for the first time which was fun. I also met a new guy his nickname will be bill

Okay now we're in November and I saw him on the first day of November and I'm about to see him again tomorrow.

22.3.23

Things went left SO FAST. 0/10 WOULDNT RECCOMMEND ON GEORGE EASHINGTN GRAVE

[fireflier]

the most important bits from it u need to understand this are ranboo, me, and maybe tommy? maybe george & sap but a lot of this isnt stuff thats stated to be canon or anything lol

uhhh i was always on the hard roster, like tommy was always on the easy roster - me and toms had a little rivalry bc of it! he was kinda jealous that i was always on the hard roster when he was on the easy one, and i made fun of that a lot but it was 100% shits and giggles

i met ranboo in his makeshift house once. i think i glared at him (helmet made a confused/angry face) and went "...who are you?" djsjsj

no one else had met him yet, but eventually he became semi-common knowledge bc i introduced him to racing and he started doing it on his own - no one knew i introduced him to it of course but eh

thats when i learned he couldnt race . i learned that bc i think i did a practice race with him? to teach him. he almost finished the race, but i got frozen in the starting spot bc it wasnt supposed to happen and he only circled back when he realized i wasnt coming after him

we were friends before phil stepped down, and when i took up leadership i finally got a grip on the damage he was doing to the races. until then i'd been ignoring it bc i mean . i also wasnt supposed to be there so it would be kind of dickish to give him shit for it lol. we were close, so i didnt hate him, but he was still a threat so i tried to stop him from racing and he was upset by that so we stopped being friends

for context on why exactly he was a threat:

i was from a different game: manhunt. i moved to sugar rush when it was shut down and took george & sap with me. manhunt was made by the same company and gogy & sap had very similar characters in sugar rush as an "easter egg". all i had to do was combine them and make sure they still remembered me

i dont think they remembered manhunt, but they did remember me so it waaaaassss,,,, fine i guess

i really didn't want to do anything harmful or mess up the game . it was very important to me that i didnt lose another game and set of friends and i especially didnt want it to be because i got found out which is why i was so worried about ranboo . if he messed up the game, then all three of us could be thrown out or the game couldve gotten shutdown, ya know?

thats basically it

dw i was skimming the page while you were writing this out so i think i got the necessary bg info now !!

but ahhh man !!!! well it’s nice that you were friends with ranboo for a bit even if you had to stop :( and your dynamic with tommy seems nice !! that’s super interesting that you were originally from a whole nother game and managed to take people with you when it shut down !! and it’s completely understandable to be scared of your game getting shut down again :’) honestly i just hope that everyone works out in the canon comic haH

(also my bad reading comprehension esp with long blocks of text thanks you for the colored text LMAOO)

[secretlyatargaryen]

Do you have any links to where Sansa was discussed as a 'good victim' or anything? Cause I don't remember when people were problematic about her.

http://asoiafuniversity.tumblr.com/post/50059110048/theongreyjoy-the-reason-why-sansa-stark-is-an

the reason why sansa stark is an amazing character to me isn’t because she endures or because she is smart or capable, but because 99% of the characters in the story have gone through horribly traumatic things and almost all of them end up becoming huge dicks because of it while sansa, despite experiencing trauma during such a formative stage in her life, has only gotten more kind/understanding.

http://asoiafuniversity.tumblr.com/post/88052382413/queencersei-people-who-think-sansa-is-cersei

the whole point of the cersei vs. sansa dynamic is that they are the literal proof of how character makes sure people react differently to similar events. cersei was never kind, sansa was always almost too kind. they are thrown into the game and realize, to their utter resentment, that it’s not what they expected and they react in totally different ways. cersei becomes ruthless and hard and angry, she is always so angry, and sad too. while sansa, sweet sansa, who has an even worse wake up call than cersei, reacts by keeping her kindness intact.

[…]

sansa is literally not that at all oh my goddddd literally why would anyone want sansa to become like cersei when cersei is the most unhappy, bitter, saddest person in the fucking world

http://asoiafuniversity.tumblr.com/post/101106158395/goteamsarcasm-unicornempire-snip-actually-i

I think she’s kind because these horrible things could have made her bitter and horrible, and instead she chose to remember her mother and her family and make herself a better person after the veil was pulled from her eyes, and that is a truly remarkable feat.

https://www.thefandomentals.com/sansa-stark-cinderella-abuse-empowerment/

Sansa has started down the dark road that could turn her into Cersei Lannister. Yet she chooses to hold on to hope that things might become better. Neither Joffrey’s physical violence nor Cersei’s cruel words can make Sansa violate her principles. Though she may allow herself uncharitable thoughts, she never seeks to hurt anyone, and she even tries to help people whenever she can, saving the life of a drunken knight that she did not know and risking the wrath of Joffrey because it was the right thing to do, or helping an injured Lancel Lannister—an enemy. It is beautiful and poetic that in a world so cold and violent a young girl can hold on to hope that things might get better.

http://secretlyatargaryen.tumblr.com/post/110436177802/purple-serpents-secretlyatargaryen

Blame Arya for being so impulsive. If Arya could be patient just for a moment; Joffrey would let Mycah go with a scar. Joffrey was just showing off. But she attacked him without thinking the consequences. And then her direwolf attacked him. In the end:  they were Lady and Mycah who suffered.

https://www.bitchmedia.org/post/dont-hate-on-sansa-starks-powerful-femininity

I think the strong thing about Sansa is the fact that she doesn’t fight. Fighting alone can be seen as a very strong thing to do, but the fact that she doesn’t fight and she doesn’t strike back is probably her best trait.

[…]

Sansa stands out by being a survivor. In her own way, she is perhaps more of a parallel to the strong women of the real world than the other women on Game of Thrones. Most women in the real world don’t pick up swords. More commonly, hardship forces us into survival mode. In a world of abusive relationships, everyday sexism, and misogyny, we can’t just lop off peoples’ heads like Prince Joffrey does. Arya Starks of the world certainly exist, but there are many more Sansas quietly wearing their pretty dresses and pushing teacakes around on their plates as they maintain a façade, refusing to break character and betray themselves.

https://massivehassle.com/2013/06/28/an-ode-to-sansa-stark/

Sansa has a talent that completely evades her sister, often evades Catelyn, and even evades Cersei from time to time. Sansa Stark knows when to keep her mouth shut. For most of Season Two, she is trapped and surrounded by truly despicable people, people who murdered her father and fully intend to murder the rest of her family, and almost certainly her as well as soon as she stops being useful. She has been betrayed, abused, beaten and humiliated, and what does Sansa Stark do? She smiles sweetly and speaks prettily and keeps her mouth shut.

http://www.assemblyofgeeks.com/blog/category/sansa-starkThe truth is, Sansa’s superpower has always been her unparalleled survival instinct. She’s sat down across the table from monsters, and made herself smile blankly into the middle distance over her food as they insulted her family and threatened her life. Yes, Arya probably would have stabbed Joffrey in the face at dinner one night if she were stuck in Kings Landing instead of her sister.  That might have been super satisfying to watch, but Arya would most likely have ended up dead as a result of doing so.

http://asoiafuniversity.tumblr.com/post/148915544385/as-much-as-i-agree-george-couldve-done-better

[Sansa’s] frustration with Arya’s tomboyishness is easily read as petty, mean, and otherwise negative despite the fact that Arya actually could have endangered the entire family due to her reckless disregard of courtesy.

http://secretlyatargaryen.tumblr.com/post/145581906827/arya-stark-is-important-for-feminism-and-not

When are people going to stop constantly defending everything about Arya as if she’s some delicate, untouchable Mary Sue who can do no wrong? When are Sansa fans allowed to just enjoy the incredibly rare pleasure of having a heroine who for one does NOT rely on punching, swords, has a sassy mouth or is “one of the boys”?

http://decider.com/2016/05/02/game-of-thrones-arya-stark-sucks/

Surviving in the wilds of Westeros by learning where to stick your sword is one thing. Surviving King’s landing while betrothed to a maniac, lorded over by a future mother-in-law who hates you, having to learn who to trust when every wrong decision can have dire consequences. Arya’s storyline now has her becoming a nameless, faceless assassin, while Sansa’s storyline is all about her finding her strength and claiming her name.

http://winteriscoming.net/2017/03/15/sxsw-roundup-missed-game-thrones-panel/

I think Sansa’s had to face harder choices. With Arya there’s always a pretty clear path of: What’s the cool, badass thing to do? Sansa’s choices, in a way, feel more real, and resonate more with not black and white, but gray experiences. 

[04091657]

02/15/17

someone killed themselves at dundas station today, trains between bloor-yonge and union stopped running due to “personal injury”, reminds me of the time you told me about cherrie (was it her?) complaining about how someone’s suicide made her commute weird. i ended up having to go to bloor-yonge, then st george, then back home. on the train from st george some girl across me had a perfume on that smelled very familiar to your tom ford velvet orchid, which made me miss you.

i thought about writing this on paper instead, but you know typing is much easier aka i can get easily get more stuff down, i dont know, i’m still deciding whether or not to send you this link now or after i come back. i think i will send you this now along with your playlist. 

i know i told you i didnt think my therapy sessions were very helpful, but today it was pretty helpful, i feel like ive come to a conclusion, i want to talk to you about this tomorrow when im on the flight. seoji is driving me to the airport and sunny is coming along as well. i wish instead we could take the pearson express together and hold hands. but saying goodbye would be so so so so so difficult.

i got mcdonald’s at st clair. its all cold now. i got two sweet and sour sauces. i wish i couldve gotten one sweet and sour and one barbeque because that means im sharing it with you. i love eating with you.

really have to be honest my heart jumped when you followed this blog i want to tell you to start a blog i can read as well but i feel like that’d be cheating cus we’d just be responding to each other. maybe if we have enough self control to only write down thoughts that came to us naturally (and not through these posts) we can do that. it’s up to you, im FUCKING CHEATING RN CUS ITS LIKE IM TALKING TO U but if you do decide to do so, send me a link.

reminder for you to use my netflix account so you can save money on yours.

not talking to you is so fucking painful, i dont know how i went by two weeks like this, maybe its cus now i know you’re there and i can just talk to you. but you’re right we have to have some resolve. i ate 10 chicken nuggets and have a little bit of fries i cant finish but i already know you’re proud of me. i think i am proud of myself too, im not sure, im really only proud of myself when you are and i know thats something i’ll have to work on. you too.

sleepy i am always so sleepy i hate being sleepy i miss you cant stop looking at our tumblrs i want us to be happy i want to do cute stuff with you and treat you like an soft baby angel but i also want to do dirty stuff and treat you like a whore lol i keep fantasizing about peeing on you i cant believe im fantasizing about PISS like wtf lol but everything is so so hot with you, i could give my entire body to you whenever you want so you can use it however you want, sometimes when i think dirty thoughts about you i get so wet, idk why im like sexting myself rn but god youre so hot the way you moan in my ear the way your body moves and how you bite my lips and when our tongues intertwine its honestly the best feeling in the world. i want to taste you so so bad right now fuck studying i want to tie you up and punish you for not loving yourself enough i want to piss all over your body while you look up at me seductively and beg for more i want to masturbate in front of you i want to put on a show for you baby oh god i am so fucking horny right now i just want to spank you and dry hump you and youll tear the skin on my back because even though our genitals arent even being touched our bodies are connected in every single way, oh god im so wet right now when did this post that was supposed to be my thoughts turn into such a dirty fucking post but i guess this is part of my thoughts. i want to taste you so badly. i really fucking want to pee on you. i want to masturbate right now to that video of you where your wrists are tied up and my fingers are deep down your throat and you call me daddy and i pleasure you. i’d come so hard but im going to be so sad after so i dont know if i should wank haha 

love fuckin hurts

i wonder what youre doing what youre thinking rn i hope you are somewhat happy or content i really want to hear from you but i know youre being strong so i will try to be strong too.

i almost called you just now. almost

i want to have phone sex with you and hear you cum

i still cant believe rhydonmyhardon sent you nudes i really thought he was gay and though i know they mean nothing to you i really cant help but feel loads jealous but i dont want you to keep burning bridges for me, but i dont want him to be talking to you for the wrongs reasons either like you said, i dont want him to use you i hope he’ll see the value in your personality instead of seeing you as someone he can send nudes to and possibly get one back even though i know you wouldnt bc of me but if you want to i dont want to stop you

i wonder what itd feel like if i had a dick and i could cum inside you Lmaooooooooo what a weirdo(me)

lmao ive just been stalking his tumblr cus thats how bad my jealousy is Fuck