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bunch-of-bellarkey · 7 years

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do u ever feel pretty ok after a few days or weeks of depression and u feel like ‘oh , ok wow this is what it feels like to be ok with being alive’ and then a liiiiitle tiny voice in the back of ur heads like ‘but r u really ok with being alive rn or r u just so used to feeling like shit that u think ur ok?’ and im like ‘bitch!!! let me live!’

#depression #idk like i had to get up at 5 to work at 6 and it was miserable but im not like depressed like ive been revently #like twoish days ago i remember lying on the couch just feeling so black and empty and everythig just sucked #i was really depressed and i knew i was and then today like it sucked but iwasnt really depressed?? i wasnt happy like i got 5 hours of #sleep and was waitressing all day lmao but i wasnt depressed #and i was playing with my dogs and i got some beauty supplies in the mail and i was feeling good and productive and #then i lied on my bed happy and comfy and i was like 'hey i feel p good like i did stuff today and made money and talked and laughed and now #im resting and everythings ok i feel ok' and then a little part of me was like 'but r u really ok like is this what everyone elses' okay #is or r ur standards just so low u accept this as happiness' and i just likke stared at my fan #and was like 'i cant do this rn not today bitch '#and then i went on tumbler.com #now i need food bc ive barely eaten today and want a salad

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