#ntbennyle

[ntbennyle]

I'm sick of pretending that I'm fine, I'm not okay

[ntbennyle]

They don't understand

you’ll find another

they said

but I don’t want another

I thought 

[notthebestlegend]

Sorry. I just thought i could talk to you when i needed you. I was wrong.

ntbennyle

[ntbennyle]

Heads falling apart

[ntbennyle]

I try so hard, but I know it's never good enough

[ntbennyle]

What if you have no one to communicate it to?

[ntbennyle]

Hey Dad,

Hey Dad, I'm working in a corporate IT Job

Hey Dad, I'm currently driving my dream car

Hey Dad, I'm thinking of travelling overseas for a holiday this year

Hey Dad, I'm dating this girl who makes me really happy and understands me

Hey Dad, the family is doing well

Hey Dad, it's been 14 years since you have left this world

Hey Dad, I love you and I miss you everyday

[ntbennyle]

I don't think I've felt okay for the longest time

[ntbennyle]

What's the fking point in all this

[ntbennyle]

I'm fken losing my mind

[ntbennyle]

And like that, I'm spiralling again

[ntbennyle]

Thought I would dread today, but my friends and family made it worthwhile. Happy Birthday to me

[ntbennyle]

I just want to fit in for once

[ntbennyle]

One step at a time

[ntbennyle]

One step at a time

[ntbennyle]

I need to accept the fact that no one will ever understand the pain I've experienced