body-transformation-inspiration

[dazyxi]

;; RYWD WRITING (REMEMBER YOU WILL DIE) — content warnings: very brief mention of sh (digging nails in skin), derealization (slightly), and smoking. other warning: not lore accurate. i wrote it for fun, and it's very short becauseeee... i didn't know how to continue it from that point ibr 😭😭i don't write shit like this sooo it's very fast-paced and sloppy!!

The air is thin in Ivy's lungs. The breaths she's expelling are heavy, heaved, and drawn out. She's struggling to inhale and exhale. To breathe. To function. Her room is too tight, the walls too closed-in. In short, she feels like she's being choked. Strangled. Not just by this apartment room, suffocated by life. And she doesn't know what to do. There's no out. She's stuck. Stuck in this endless loop. Stuck in a role. A rabid dog on a tight chain. A vicious animal waiting to be set loose. A psychotic murderer who shouldn't be trusted. Stuck proving them right.

She's mad. Not at Orla. Not at the people who labeled her. At herself. She put herself in this situation. How could people think differently when all she does is fit into their title? Whenever she's given the choice to do the right thing- be better- she does the opposite. Maybe she got comfortable with the low-held expectations. Got used to being held in poor regard. I mean, you can't disappoint someone who never had hope, right?

Her skin is crawling with discomfort, and her posture is rigid as she sits against a wall. A lazily bandaged hand lays against her exposed collarbones. An attempt to ground herself. Flesh against flesh. Warm flesh. Not cold.

She's disoriented. Alienated. As lines of reality turn fuzzy, and she starts to get distant, she mentally wrangles with herself. Nails start to press carelessly into olive skin while her mind ripples with static. This feeling, the sickening nauseation of being trapped, is clawing through her. Seeping into her bone marrow. Sticking itself to her permanently.

Strands of her black hair are stuck to her face by sweat. The sweat that beads from her hairline and trails down her cheeks, joining tears she was unaware of. She feels pathetic. Helpless. She wants to give in. Let herself melt away. Instead, she lets her hands fall to her side in a clumsy action, leaving crescent-shaped indents at her collarbones. They're laced with a left-over stinging sensation but no blood. She starts to count her fingers. Starting with her index finger. . . then middle finger. . . ring finger. . . pinky finger. Index. . . middle. . . ring. . . pinky. She repeats it over and over and over until she's sick of it. Sick of calloused fingerpads scraping together in a strange anchoring method. Blearily, she mocks herself through the disorderment, This is all so stupid. Get over yourself.

She stares at the ground. Exhausted. Her gaze flits around the rays of neon light cast from the windows and onto the floor. Squints at the cracked wood. Scrutinizes the fractures. She drags her eyes upward to the window, the presence of Vapolis leaking through the glass. It's taunting in a way. Slowly, she regains her thoughts, the repeated buzz being replaced. Her mind scrambles to catch up with her emotions, and a moment later, she's frantically digging into her pockets. Her fingers catch onto the cigarettes and lighter, messily dragging them out of her jacket like she's on borrowed time. She flips the lighter on after she's stuck a cigarette in her chapped lips. Briefly, she watches the flame dance. Observes as it spins and whirls around like a dandelion in the wind, only less innocent.

She places the fire underneath the cig, and soon after, tendrils of smoke billow into the atmosphere. She sighs out clouds of mist while the familiar rush of pleasure pangs through her. Easing slightly, she lets her body slump, head tipping upward and hitting the wall. Her sore eyes flutter shut, her shoulder still tension-filled and clamped up at her sides, but the looming factor of dread has settled. Somewhat. It's still at the forefront, lingering in her mind. She takes another drag, and her mind begins to haze over.

One hand still holding her cigarette to her lips, the other struggles to help herself up on wobbly legs. They feel like jelly underneath her weight. "Fuck," she mutters, her voice strained. Wrecked.

It's whatever, she thinks. She'll adjust. Conform to fit the mold. Easier than trying to break it or reform it. She always does what's easier for her. Less work. At the end of the day, she did this. What's that saying? Nobody to blame but yourself?

[heroesathxart]

RACHEL PALMER TAG DROP + INFO

Eu disse que ia adicionar mais alguns muses voltados pra dc, então essa aqui é a primeira ;) Então segue ai algumas coisinhas sobre ela:

Rachel Laurel Palmer é filha de Felicity Smoak / Overwatch e Ray Palmer / Átomo. 

Tem 21 anos

Apesar de ser muito inteligente, ela não é uma gênio como seus pais e também não se interessa muito por ficar dentro de um laboratório criando coisas ou atras de uma tela de computador ajudando os outros.

Ela gosta mais de ação, então acabou treinando com Oliver e os Queen desde muito cedo.

Por causa disso, ela é uma arqueira também.

Se tornou uma vigilante / heroína com 17 anos de idade, quando começou a fazer pequenas missões em Ivy Town ( sua cidade natal ) e Star City ( as vezes ao lado de seu melhor amigo, que é filho do Oliver e da Dinah, um outro oc meu mas pode mudar de acordo com os plots ).

Já tentou fazer parte de uma equipe antes ( foi chamada para algumas missões dos Legends ) mas descobriu ali que não se dava muito em trabalhando em equipe. Então ela prefere agir sozinha, ou no máximo em dupla com outra pessoa. 

Seu nome de heroína é Quincy, porque ela adora animes em especial Bleach. 

Ela é descontraída, e do tipo que gosta de fazer piadas e zoar todo mundo o tempo todo. Ela também é do tipo que fala a coisa errada na hora errada, e acaba arrumando mais problemas para si.

E logo, vou adicionando mais coisas pra ela :D

[dazyxi]

;; RYWD WRITING (REMEMBER YOU WILL DIE) @vapolis — content warnings: very brief mention of sh (digging nails in skin), derealization (slightly), and smoking. notes: not lore accurate. i wrote it for fun, and it's very short becauseeee... i didn't know how to continue it from that point ibr 😭😭i don't write shit like this sooo it's very fast-paced and sloppy!! — you're not seeing double! this is a post with added content because people started liking it and the author saw it (thank you so much for the sweet words!! it made me so happy to see that you enjoyed it!!💕) and i was like ohmg!!!! so i wanted to tweak it a little. there's an extra 300+ words, but i didn't really edit the content beforehand, so if it's confusing, sorry!!

The air is thin in Ivy's lungs. The breaths she's expelling are heavy, heaved, and drawn out. She's struggling to inhale and exhale. To breathe. To function. Her room is too tight, the walls too closed-in. In short, she feels like she's being choked. Strangled. Not just by this apartment room, suffocated by life. And she doesn't know what to do. There's no out. She's stuck. Stuck in this endless loop. Stuck in a role. A rabid dog on a tight chain. A vicious animal waiting to be set loose. A psychotic murderer who shouldn't be trusted. Stuck proving them right.

She's mad. Not at Orla. Not at the people who labeled her. At herself. She put herself in this situation. How could people think differently when all she does is fit into their title? Whenever she's given the choice to do the right thing- be better- she does the opposite. Maybe she got comfortable with the low-held expectations. Got used to being held in poor regard. I mean, you can't disappoint someone who never had hope, right?

Her skin is crawling with discomfort, and her posture is rigid as she sits against a wall. A lazily bandaged hand lays against her exposed collarbones. An attempt to ground herself. Flesh against flesh. Warm flesh. Not cold.

She's disoriented. Alienated. As lines of reality turn fuzzy, and she starts to get distant, she mentally wrangles with herself. Nails start to press carelessly into olive skin while her mind ripples with static. This feeling, the sickening nauseation of being trapped, is clawing through her. Seeping into her bone marrow. Sticking itself to her permanently.

Strands of her black hair are stuck to her face by sweat. The sweat that beads from her hairline and trails down her cheeks, joining tears she was unaware of. She feels pathetic. Helpless. She wants to give in. Let herself melt away. Instead, she lets her hands fall to her side in a clumsy action, leaving crescent-shaped indents at her collarbones. They're laced with a left-over stinging sensation but no blood. She starts to count her fingers. Starting with her index finger. . . then middle finger. . . ring finger. . . pinky finger. Index. . . middle. . . ring. . . pinky. She repeats it over and over and over until she's sick of it. Sick of calloused fingerpads scraping together in a strange anchoring method. Blearily, she mocks herself through the disorderment, This is all so stupid. Get over yourself.

She stares at the ground. Exhausted. Her gaze flits around the rays of neon light cast from the windows and onto the floor. Squints at the cracked wood. Scrutinizes the fractures. She drags her eyes upward to the window, the presence of Vapolis leaking through the glass. It's taunting in a way. Slowly, she regains her thoughts, the repeated buzz being replaced. Her mind scrambles to catch up with her emotions, and a moment later, she's frantically digging into her pockets. Her fingers catch onto the cigarettes and lighter, messily dragging them out of her jacket like she's on borrowed time. She flips the lighter on after she's stuck a cigarette in her chapped lips. Briefly, she eyes the dancing flame. Observes as it spins and whirls around like a dandelion in the wind, only less innocent.

She places the fire underneath the cig, and soon after, tendrils of smoke billow into the atmosphere. She sighs out clouds of mist while the familiar rush of pleasure pangs through her. Easing slightly, she lets her body slump, head tipping upward and hitting the wall. Her sore eyes flutter shut, her shoulder still tension-filled and clamped up at her sides, but the looming factor of dread has settled. Somewhat. It's still at the forefront, lingering in her mind. She takes another drag, and it begins to haze over.

One hand still holding her cigarette to her lips, the other struggles to help herself up on wobbly legs. They feel like jelly underneath her weight. "Fuck," she mutters, her voice strained. Wrecked. She stumbles toward the bathroom, and on the way, her feet nearly catch on the mass of random objects lazing on her floor. 

She nudges the door open with her arm, blinks as it creaks open to reveal the cluttered state of the room. She mumbles. Something dumb, trying to be funny, like, What’s that about your house being a reflection of your mind? A rasped scoff escapes her mouth, and she doesn’t like how it sounds when it rings in her ears. It’s dull, devoid of the usual mirth. Not that the mirth is ever really real. It’s fine. Pretending is something she’s good at, comfortable with. She enjoys it. She’ll eventually learn how to do the same being a puppet– or maybe hound is a more fitting word.

She staggers in, immediately supporting herself with her hand on the dirtied tile of the sink. Frowning at the reflection in the spotted mirror, she scans it. Black hair sticks up, tangled and mused, with dried blood at the tips. A split lip and a bruised face with swollen eyes. Red-lined scleras, violet irises glowing in the yellow hue of the light. She doesn’t recognize the woman she sees. She's trapped in skin that’s not her own.

She watches the woman pluck the lit cigarette from her mouth. Hold it between her crooked index and middle. Watches her pull the corners of her dry lips upwards. It’s too toothy, the smile. There’s crimson-red itching underneath it. She doesn’t know if it belongs to her or someone else. The unsettling grin fades as quickly as it rose, and smoke leaks from her lungs and into the air. A deadpan settles on her expression, eyes half-lidded, and it looks strange on her features.

Her mind wanders, thoughts messy and daunting, growing anger festering. It wraps around her bones, causing her to shake. She welcomes it, the feeling comforting. More comfortable than whatever she was feeling earlier. It's whatever. She'll adjust. Conform to fit the mold. Easier than trying to break it or reform it. She always does what's easier for her. Less work. At the end of the day, she did this. What's that saying? Nobody to blame but yourself?

[pxrokinesis]

KILLISFORTEKILLA | Apesar de tu já teres feito esse meme (e eu ainda o ter guardado você sabe aonde), mas eu quero receber amor teu ❤

Sᴇɴᴅ ᴍᴇ ᴀ ᴜʀʟ ᴀɴᴅ I'ʟʟ ᴀɴsᴡᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴏʟʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ;; ┆ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛɪɴɢ

Opinion on;

Character in general: De todos os seus filhos, esse é o que eu tenho uma tara maior. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) Brincadeiras a parte, você nunca decepciona com seus personagens e com ele não é diferente. Eu não teenho muito o que dizer pq ainda não interagi com ele o suficiente e- SACOU A INDIRETA? SACOU NEHow they play them: Dá uma vontadezinha de bater, dizer wtf e beijar ele, ao mesmo tempo. É, eu fico bugada tambem. Ele é único, não consigo relacionar ele ao seus outros OCs e isso é o mais incrivel.The Mun: Bru… Caralho Bru. Acho que você é uma das melhores partners que alguém pode ter aqui. Sua paciencia com o outro mun, suas respostas, seu envolvimento na thread, sua desenvoltura com os personagens. Tudo sobre você é on point. Não me arrependo nem um segundo de ter começado aquela thread aleatoria com o Lucio em que ele tinha que esquentar os pés da Ivy. Cê lembra? Acho que foi nossa primeira thread. E eu fico tão, tão feliz de ver como você melhorou e cresceu, de lá pra cá, dentor e fora do rp. Obrigada por me deixar acompanhar essa evolução de perto.

Do I:

RP with them: desde que eu voltei, não. bisurdo isso.²Want to RP with them: ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°) ² Não me vejo turnando aqui ssem você. Namoralzinha.

What is my;

Overall Opinion: Você é, de longe, uma das melhores pessoas que eu conheci aqui. PQP, eu não ganhei só uma partner, eu ganhei uma amiga. E você não faz ideia do quão grata eu sou por ter te conhecido. Sinto que nada do que eu falar aqui será o suficiente pra demonstrrar o quanto você é importante pra mim, mana. Mas nunca duvide dessas palavras, sim? Não importa quanto tempo fiquemos sem nos falar, sem turnar, meu carinho por você vai continuar sendo sincero. Pode me chamar de g0y, não nego hahaha Pode contar comigo sempre que precisar, para qualquer coisa. Você tem uma irmã aqui pra você. Eu te amo guria.

**Note: Mun’s answer are all to be completely honest. Don’t send url if you don’t want brutal honesty