#okay I'm being weird now probably but whatever I have a migraine and feel super fucking weird today so like. deal with me or unfollow idgac

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Seeing gay people in public <3

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in regards to what you pointed out a few posts ago, ngl one of my least favorite fandom things is when they make Kaminari the Har Har Stupid Joking ADHD Bi Playboy Who Is Never Serious Trope. like, he's very smart, 'worst in ___ area of a UA course' is very impressive and I don't remember if it even said that or just that he was studying with some other students, worried about his grades overall, calls himself stupid with implied insecurities about it, and didn't think he was very smart compared to the other people in the course. quirk overuse makes him loopy, incoherent, and think everything's funny. and yeah, he's a bit of a flirt and made a few perverted comments and actions that he clearly didn't think through that well. I'm pretty sure he's not ever stated to be bi in the manga because it was written by a coward, so I think people should think more about why they're associating and pairing together the idea of "hot flirty playboy who if legally able would sleep with everyone he meets" with emphasis or joke in the captions of whatever the content is on him being bi. I don't think this is inherently bad, even put together, but the execution feels kind of :/ and shallow. and I mainly just wish they'd pause to consider if there's any reason (subconscious or intentional) why one of those makes them think about the other, and at the very least lean back to see if they're blatantly making those traits centric around each other and tweak how they're showing them a little. Part of this is also because it's basically his fanon sexuality, but then they stick together "oh he's bi and everyone thinks that" and "he's made flirty or perverted comments and actions in canon at some point" and then mentally exaggerate and have this Canon Image of him as *waves hand at above* and I don't think that's happening consciously in most cases but. again. Cookiecutter Bi Party Playboy Who's Made a Date Offer to Everyone In The Building. not a flirty Person or a Playboy who is bi and flirts with more than one genders

I myself headcanon him as adhd and while the exact sexuality depends on my mood I think of/have him as bi in a lot of my content, but it's the same thing with why non adhd people see how he acts and label "adhd!" Especially about comprehension speed and derpy acting and intelligence and attention span jokes/tropes. Again, not bad in and of itself, but the specific parts of his behavior that make them think he's adhd, or that they start making jokes about or Ha Ha ADHD'ing, or that they think is why we project ADHD on him, (which they aren't necessarily wrong about, but like right in a really disrespectful look at how funny this is oh look squirrel way that's only funny when adhd people are doing it and it isn't all mocking like that) when they see other people calling him adhd, are the wrong ones, I think, and it shows in their characterization of him.

I'm not saying that any of those traits are bad in a character, but as a queer adhd girl with very high annual test scores and Gifted Kid Intelligence but extremely poor grades, focus, and brain damage (admittedly nothing like his, it was a longterm passive thing that mainly just made me have a Lot of Really Bad headaches, and closest thing it did to me was make me sluggish and emotional on bad days and also techincally have the potential kill my language bit if left untreated or the surgery messed up, which it didn't, and it won't be a problem again. but even after explaining that it wasn't cancer or any sort of tumor, and after seeing it do very little at all to affect my behavior outside of irritability and performance, because y'know, constant migraines, gone after the surgery but this was before that, Certain People I Was Vaguely Kind Of Acquaintances With started to treat my like I was a fragile glass thing going to to drop dead and revive myself speaking like a comic relief cartoon crazy person at any moment which was. patronizing.) I've since had surgery for, the way the fandom combines them into stereotypes and portrays them really just rubs me the wrong way- "Flirty Bi(tm) Playboy" "Har Har ADHD Can't Focus Or Get Things After They're Explained To Him, He's Still Confused And An Idiot" "Stupid Person With Brain Damage Who Can't Take Care Of Or Think For Themself And Acts Stupid And Funny For People To Laugh At" which tbh is super ableist even and especially when people irl do fit that description, and also reminds me of the Autistic Person Freaking Out And Being Dramatic sense of humor. And I know it's not helped by canon, because it done for comic relief and to limit his powers, but explored more I think it as a limitation could have been used way more interestingly than canon did and also call me biased but that quirk induced brain frying sounds at least as concerning as Izuku's quirk's backlash.

And it's a shame!! Because he's so much more interesting than that! Instead, the fandom gives me the Cookicutter Funny Bi ADHD Flirt Who's An Idiot and I am sad about it.

tbh it reminds me of what happened to percy jackson, esp with the ADHD Idiot Trope thing. which sucks because apparently it originated in the author making up stories around characters like his adhd and dyslexic kid inspired by Greek myths to tell him after running out of actual myths because it was his special interest and he wanted more. and then the series got kind of all over the place and the fandom processed that the adhd and dyslexic main character who does dumb things sometimes but is very combat smart and great at strategizing and leading gets bad grades and has trouble focusing and has, y'know, adhd, and made him the ADHD Idiot and erased his Gifted Kid girl friend's traits and ADHD and dyslexia into No Nonsense Calls Him an Idiot And Thinks He's Stupid And Has To Tell Him What To Do And Manage His Life For Him and honestly that just kind of sucks and it reminds me of what happened to fandom Kaminari. and now that I think of it people have jirou like that around him a lot too.

im fine with you answering this publicly if you want or have something to add but probably tag as ableism and maybe a biphobia mention content warning for people who don't have the energy to deal with thinking about those kinds of negative things rn because I kind of Went Off About It

I love this! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences 💚(and double thank you for tag suggestions)💚

I couldn’t agree more that a lot of fandom has messed up Kami’s character, which is why I’ve kinda been posting more about him cause he’s just stuck in my head.

I think a lot of fandoms have trouble with characters like this, people have a hard time with duality in characters and fast/fun posts are easier to make if you flatten a character down.

The did it to Kami, they did it to Percy, they did it to Ron Weasley, they do it to Thor, the list goes on. If being the Smart One ™️ isn’t your thing and you can be goofy than you get pigeonholed into the idiot trope.

I feel for Kami a lot(probably because I have adhd/brain damage too)

It sucks when you’re smart but it’s not the traditional, measurable kind of smart(even if by national comparison Kami technically is).

I got terrible grades growing up, and I pretty much got the absolute lowest gpa you can get and still graduate. But absolutely no one would have known if I didn’t tell them, because I’m not dumb.

(It’s okay if you are “dumb”, I love me a head empty just vibes friend. You’re 100% valid, stil worthy of joining discussions, and should be listened to and taken seriously. This just isn’t about that tho)

I joke sometimes that I’m clever and witty but not smart, because that’s exactly what it feels like.

I have lots of thoughts and ideas that I think I articulate pretty well, I am excellent at finding the humor in things and expressing it in a way that’s funny to others too, and there is almost zero problems I can’t find a work around. And the people in my life love it, and they love to use it.

But eventually everyone in my life finds out that I’m not smart. They see the way I have to pause to Google how to calculate a tip, that I don’t know the name of all 50 states or even where to find them on a map, or I legitimately just can not spell (if you ever see a post where it looks like I used a weird word choice it’s probably because I tried 4 times and autocorrect+Google couldn’t help me and voice to text wasn’t an option)

No one ever questions my intelligence until they find out about my adhd and/or catch me struggling with it. After the mask comes off it’s like they can’t even hear me anymore, nothing I say could be true or matter because I’m now just the goofy accident prone spacy girl. My family literally calls me Spacy

And ya know what sometimes I just let people think that because it’s easier, it’s easier than explaining that I’m dyslexic and that I didn’t have a single geography/history clas until 10th grade and shocker the capital of Iowa doesn’t come up much by then. And it’s easier for me to laugh off losing my keys again than dwell on the fact that sometimes it feels like I’m losing my marbles.

And I wouldn’t be at all surprised if after this post I get a lot more “fact checkers” and push back on anything else I post.(not talking about people who want to genuinely engage,y’all are always welcome, I’m talking those people who don’t wanna look it up themselves but no longer trust me to know what I’m talking about)

Kami is a sweet brilliant boy. He’s in a nationally high ranking school, he loves the weather channel, he’s careful about his quirk that could easily hurt his friends in combat, he has a very high emotional intelligence level, he wears dorky shirts with electricity puns on them, and he pays attention to his friends and remembers a lot of little things about them.

He wants to be a hero and he takes that seriously, and the series has tried time and time again to tell y’all that smiling and laughter are an important part of that. Kami excels at this part! So what if his history grades don’t rival the top of the class, the top 5 students would struggle hard to do what Kami does.

Iida can’t relax, Momos rather shy, Todo struggles with social cues, Midoriya is canonically not funny, and jfc where to even begin with Katsuki. I’m certain they’ll all grow up to be excellent heros in their own right, but none of them are going to bring the level of joy and camaraderie that Denki can. You can’t test that into someone.

Kami also just notices people differently and has any easy way of joining in with them, he doesn’t struggle approaching Katsuki or Shinso. Sure he doesn’t hit the the nail on the head the same way Deku does but he’s the only one who has the guts and skills to try. Also he’s not that kinda friend, he’s not looking to a save these guys but pal around with them

I think Kami 100% realizes what a special case and tough nut to crack Bakugo is, I don’t think he’s just careless or too dumb realize his life’s at stake or whatever.

I think he’s purposely testing Bakugos boundaries all while trying to not be a threat to Katsukis actual ego and calling Bakugo out when he needs it in a way that not to serious. Kami knows how to be just goofy enough that he’s approachable. He’s also keyed in that the way to Bakugo is through Deku, meanwhile everyone else is stuck believing the opposite.

Kami also realized how important music is to Jiro and saw an opportunity to let her display her skills and combin the two worlds she lives, and he wasn’t afraid to get some back lash from her for it.

Like Deku Kami isn’t afraid to be uncomfortable. You really can’t teach that level of social ease, you can teach the posture and feed people a couple of lines but it’ll never hit the same. Funny approachable people have spent a lifetime learning the craft, usually out of necessity.

It’s actually what gives me the biggest adhd vibes from him, because adhd is (speculated to be) a dopamine deficiency disorder. People with adhd are constantly trying to raise their dopamine levels, and that means looking for praise and reward and nothing makes the human brain light up faster than postative human connections.

Adhd children struggle a lot with connecting with peers and often find making people laugh a fast way into people’s circles and makes it more likely people will overlook being interrupted or spaced out on.

Also adhd people are pretty much forced by their own brain structures to be genuine in all they do, low dopamine levels make it very hard to do things you don’t enjoy because there no promise of dopamine from the activity and you don’t have enough to spare, plus impulsiveness makes it really hard to not show when you do or don’t enjoy something.

I agree that Kami is also painted as overly perverted at times, he’s a little flirty but in a fun casual way but it’s not the foundation of his personality and it’s really mellowed out over the course of the series.

And while I subscribe to the bi hc from his interactions with Jiro and Shinso, we should all be very mindful that we don’t lump these characteristics together. The are separate facets of his personality that are not dependent on each other in anyway.

Kami deserves all the respect and love, I can’t wait to see our electric king again 🖤⚡️🖤

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Stop Callin Me Valid You Fucks I'm Here To Die | Holly | Trial 4.01

God, Holly felt weird. All she had wanted to do for the last, whatever, week or so? Was sleep. Just lay around and text. To be fair, everyone else was being super weird too, so it wasn't really concerning to her. What was concerning was that stupid rabbit waking her up in the middle of an incredible nap - one that felt like she was floating in heaven - to go investigate some random fucks she didn't really care about.

But you know what? She didn't say anything. Just narrowed her eyes, popped a bubble she’d blown from the stale ass gum she’d found in her bag, and turned away on her heel. This wasn't her problem. So people had died. So what? People died every day. It was the circle of life, or some other pseudo-miraculous bullshit like that. Like, okay, someone wasn't going to be bothering her anymore. Big whoop. It wasn't like death was all that big a deal anyways.

She ignored the physical pains in her chest as she walked off to file her nails in the lobby. Ugh. Probably heartburn from the second class garbage that passed for food around here.

Time flew by until it came time to go to the trial, and Holly got up with a LOT of moaning and groaning about being too important to deal with this shit. Like, honestly. She was the LEADER. The most valuable person around here! She didn't DO, she DELEGATED. except…:she didn't really feel like it. They had it under control, anyways. Really, she was doing them a favor, letting them prove themselves and whatnot. She had better things to do. Like nap.

But what she was coerced into doing was going to the trial. Solely because she would be damned if she would let her good looks be wasted on lazing about, no matter how tempting it was. So she trudged in, scowled half heartedly at her classmates, and proceeded to stare dully in bile fascination at the absolute monstrosity of bizarre and inane actions that made up their fourth trial. In fact, the only thing she said at the beginning of the trial was a calm, snobby snipe at a few people….but considering she hadn't opened her mouth since before the fever started, her words might be a little surprising.

The drawl that comes from the podium that belongs to the water polo player isn't a familiar one. It sounds as if someone’s taken cheerful, friendly, energetic Holly and replaced her with a long lost twin who had spent the last 17 years as a spoiled, upper class snob. The look on her face (perfectly lined with makeup, in direct contrast to Michiko) made it very clear that she was more disgusted and bored by the goings on of the trial than bothered. It was the expression of someone who was upset with the fact that a local coffeeshop had caught on fire, not because a person’s livelihood had been destroyed, but because it really put a dent in her sacred cappuccino morning routine. Her hair was back to its normal blue and blonde highlights, and for someone sick with fever who'd been poor for nearly her entire life, she made a convincing socialite Barbie.

“I have truly never seen such an egregious display of pure buffoonery in my life,” she sniffed, tossing her hair over her shoulder. It was getting longer. She wondered exactly how long they’d been here. “Mimi, please do get a hold of yourself immediately. You're being embarrassing.”

Someone voted for Sugoi immediately - as if -, Michiko was apparently determined to give her a migraine with all this shouting, Durarara had up and joined a damned gang, Yuka was wearing God knows what, Sugoi thought he was the king of England, Durarara got knighted by said alleged king after accidentally assaulting him, Durarara then ACTUALLY assaulting him while shrieking like some unholy death monster, Sugoi became a burrito of germs and blanket, and then- oh, God was dead? Lovely. For that particular comment, Holly glared in distaste at a now very sick Chou, apparently more upset by their insult to her religion than she was by the possibility they killed someone. When Masashi piped up, she waved a hand at him as if to say “it isn't worth it, don't get yourself involved with these people”. It was boring, but complaining about it wouldn't make it more interesting.

“Chou, I have to say, I am HIGHLY disappointed.”

She really sounds more irritated than anything, but okay.

“I mean, for goodness sake. Look at you. You've really done it now, haven't you! And doing away with the captain of all people. If you had the ability to get rid of someone as strong as he and I are, I only wish you would have chosen me so that I could be spared this absurdity and any further suffering. I mean, really. I know we don't get along well, but -”

And it's at this point that her annoyance seems to come to a boil, as she suddenly whips her head around to glare daggers at Michiko, while at the same time walking from her own podium to where Chou is.

“Ugh! FINE! I’LL help her, because God knows I'm the only person here who knows what to do! I swear, this entire court is just - so out of control! There's King Fuckface McMoist over there who's just, bleeding, which by the way PLEASE STEM THAT before I - never mind. I'll be over in a moment. Okay? And - Kagome-chan, what the hell are you wearing, you look sloppy. This is no kind of due to the dead. And - Look, Durarara, I am ALL about the wild hair, but like, otherwise, please do try to calm yourself. If my girlfriend were a murderer, I can only hope that I could find the wherewithal to conduct myself with some semblance of decorum.”

And thank god this week hadn't been the week her girlfriend was a murderer, she thought with a suppressed shudder. Wouldn't that have been just mortifying? And in front of all of these people….the horror!

“And, Chou, I don't know what this worthless talk is,” Holly started, looking completely indifferent to the raving going on a foot or two away from her. She was, however, briefly startled by the rather sudden violent action the big bug person inflicted on themself, but instead of taking a step back, she took a step forward. Finally, something akin to concern was on her face.

“W-wait….hey, seriously! You….Jesus, you can't just….let me see that, alright? Whether you felt it or not, I did. And whether or not I have any sense in being worried for your wellbeing, you are still my classmate. For better or for worse. And here I thought that ankle injury of yours was silly-”

Okay, well. At least she's being more of a grumbly but vaguely helpful bitch now instead of just the garden variety. And she's too distracted by trying to convince Chou to let her take care of the injury and reduce any poisoning damage to go on tangents about other people, so it's really a win win.

Thanks for nothing this entire trial, you useless reptile.