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darkkitty1208 · 11 months

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Words are the closest thing to a way I can make sense of my somewhat-of-a-self-identity-crisis-but-in-writing thing, and even then it can only express a mere fraction of whatever it is that I'm feeling. So bear with me as I try to verbalise this in an at least semi-coherent way.

I've been trying out a variety of writing styles and techniques lately. I've been discovering ways to do more of 'showing' and less of 'telling'.

I like the indirectness of it.

Actually, no -- that's not quite it. That's not it at all.

I think I like telling stories obliquely and only providing vague details not only because I'm a lazy arse who has no idea how to describe things in a direct and clear way but also because-- actually, I have no idea how to explain this in a way that isn't incomprehensible.

I can't quite explain it, but I think I like stories that can only be told in a vague way, like providing the puzzle pieces so that you get to piece things together the way you want it. The resulting picture would just be your own interpretation. I just like being subtle and merely imply the meaning of some things so anyone can interpret my stories their own way.

No, no. That doesn't make any sense either, does it?

And that's only one of the many things I'm still trying out and working on!

It's just. There's so much to try! I don't even know what I want. I've said this in my recent fic's A/N and I'll just say it again here: I'm experimenting with different things in writing the way a child would mix soap and shampoo in a bath. Which is a waste of time (and of shampoo and soap, which clearly does not apply in this scenario, but again, really cba to think of a better analogy here) but I can't help it because it's so fun.

Sometimes I think I don't even *have* a style. Sometimes I think I'll never have one. But I dunno.

Just ignore me as I try to mull this over. I'm just 'in my feels' and screaming this out into the abyss that's in the form of my silly little blog. Thank you for indulging me.

#ramblings #writing #tw long tags #tw excessive use of tags to avoid adding things to the body of my post 😛#my writing style is inconsistent at best #i'm only ever consistent in inconsistency #one second i'm a shakespeare wannabe and the next #i'm if douglas addams and terry pratchett had a lovechild #except it's less flattering than you think #three entirely different authors with three entirely different styles that i'm only a poor imitation of as an amateur author #yes i do know that #and the next moment i'm just a whole different person entirely #and i switch to whatever else my style is #but i *am* having fun discovering it all #there's just so much to try and i'm a little overwhelmed with it all you know?#i may speak as if i loathe having an ever-changing writing style #but in truth?#it feels very. freeing? i think #like i feel as if my writing isn't set to stone and i get to express things differently #depending on what i'm feeling at that moment #it's the freedom of self-expression except i'm not really sure who i am and what i want #and i honestly like just staying in this confusing grey area of 'what am i doing?' and 'what do i like?'#but simultaneously i *do* want to find out what style fits me best #i try not to think about it too much though #and just be a carefree little thing and have fun as i play around with words #i just wish i tried my hand in creative writing in a younger age #so i dont feel like a naive little young girl who doesn't really know what she's doing #shout out to my og followers for witnessing my growth from the very beginning of my writing journey #(admittedly i'm a little ashamed of that fact and how different i am from my early writing days now but i try not to hate myself for it)

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