#or alternatively alternatively you pine after your best friend who doesn't know you're gay and he falls in love with a girl and she

[hdfjsjkj]

the mortal instruments is a fun book series when you don’t have a bitch in your ear telling you it’s badly written

[kkachi35]

BMC fic recs

I had about 70 BMC fics in my bookmark

I made a list of the ones I enjoyed the most!

Hope you enjoy them as much as I did :)

The order's the day I made the bookmark

New Save File by carefulren (Jeremy/Michael)

"Can I ask you a question, Jer-Bear?"

Jeremy, ignoring the stupid nickname Rich has pegged on him since the two started working together, nods before picking up his Dr. Pepper.

"What's Michael's dick like?"

(Or the one where Jeremy swears he isn't gay, and Michael silently pines after his best friend until he's not so silent about it)

it's an effed up world series by Suspicious_Protagonist (Jeremy/Michael)

theory of reciprocity by crownedcrusader (Jeremy/Michael)

“It’s nothing.” “If it was nothing, you wouldn’t have had a fucking panic attack in my bedroom,” Jeremy said, and then his word choice hit him, and his eyes widened. “Wait, was this a panic attack? What the hell, Michael, you can’t call that nothing!” --

Or, Michael has been a great boyfriend Post-SQUIP. It's just that he's been pretending he doesn't need the same affection and emotional support he's been giving Jeremy. It's a disaster, but damn it all, it's Michael and Jeremy's disaster, and they'll work this thing out if it kills them.

(Given that Michael's in Jeremy's room and is hyperventilating hard enough that he can't breathe, though... there's the chance that it just might.)

I love Jeremy and Michael dealing with the aftermath of SQUIP, both physically and mentally.

Guys Like Us by sparrowpassing (Jeremy/Michael)

The SQUIP was gone. Jeremy apologized. Michael saved him. Everything was supposed to be back to normal.

But it wasn't.

The Misunderstanding by reallydontcare4 (Jeremy/Michael, Rich/Jake)

Michael and Jake vent to each other about their respective crushes, everyone's happy, and it works.

Until it doesn't.

It's a little funny because this fic was the reason I became interested in pins and patches! Jeremy and Rich are very jealous

Overload by everythingsace

There’s always the clang, clang, clang. Why is there always a fucking clang, clang, clang? It should be a fucking knock or a tap, so why is it a goddamn clang?

(Michael Mell deals with sensory overload.)

Not a ship- Michael with sensory overload is one of my HC

Protector by DivineProjectZero (Jeremy/Michael)

With Michael, he feels safe.

(wherein Jeremy Heere is scared of girls and Michael Mell is his last line of defense.)

The amount of heartache I experienced in this single fic is surmountable

I love every fic they wrote but this one is my favorite. I'm also adding a fic by the same author because I absolutely love the feeling it incites in me :

you say you're okay (I'm gonna heal you anyway) by DivineProjectZero (Jeremy/Michael)

The thing is, they're both broken.

Their relationship wrecks me and heals me at the same time- I love it and I can’t even start to describe how much

The second part’s discontinued but it’s mostly one-shots!

goodnight moon by reptilianraven (Jeremy/Michael)

It’s just one of those facts Jeremy found infinitely cool at first until it slowly melted into the rest of what made Michael who he is. Michael likes video games, Michael can whistle really well, Michael is handsome, and Michael has dragon blood in him.

(“How are you feeling?”

“Miserable,” Michael grumbles. “Miserable and moody and cold and hot and exhausted and I wanna go swimming and my back keeps alternating between weird tingling and bad aches. Why’s it doing that, Jer? It’s really weird, why is it doing that?”

“Uh, well, I don’t really know anything about all this,” Jeremy sits by Michael’s side. “But maybe it’s the whole wings thing?”)

-

Wherein Michael is a dragon going through the pains of manifesting and Jeremy puts his pining aside to take care of his best friend. Jeremy had no idea dragons got this clingy.

Bakunawa!Michael AU

The author’s other fics are fantastic too!

Set And Match by chasing_the_sterek

"Christine, duck!" Jeremy orders.

She manages it, and then calls, "Zombie on your left - twelve o'clock - uh, no, two - wait, four -"

"Pick a time!" Jeremy says frantically, managing to move forward and slash two zombies in one hit.

"Christine, on your right!" Rich warns. "Shoot it, shoot it!"

///

Gaming, giggling, and grenades. For once, everyone is happy.

Short, cute one-shot of SQUIP squad :)

I like them being friends and I love Jeremy and Michael being great gaming partners so it was very enjoyable

while my friends were getting high/i was losing my mind by PrinceDrew (Jeremy/Michael)

"Come over to mine after school," Michael told him, practically vibrating as he did. "We can get high in my bedroom together."

"Not basement?" Jeremy asked him, frowning slightly.

"Oh, you know," Michael continued, but he looked away, at his shoes, rubbing the back of his neck, mumbling what he said next. "Parents are on a business trip again."

Jeremy was about to question that, about to ask if Michael's dad had just taken off again, but then he remembered they were in the cafeteria, surround by people he considered friends but Michael didn't, who didn't know what Michael's parents were like, and so he just nodded, and kept his mouth shut.

Oh, Red by strawberrylemonade1225 (Jake/Michael)

Michael, however, Jake knew nothing about, really. The kid was so quiet, and he always had those headphones on, yet he was so lively and talkative. The contrast was drastic and it intrigues Jake, making him want to know more about him.

I love this fic so much it has a special place in my pins and patches heart

you give me miles and miles of mountains (and i'll ask for the sea) by left_uncovered (one-sided Jeremy/Michael)

It scares Jeremy sometimes, the things Michael does for him.

(Michael is in love with Jeremy. Jeremy just wishes loving and being in love were the same thing.)

unrequited love on Michael's side

The description I wrote for this bookmark was "Read this when you want a suffering with no salvation"

I love torturing myself with angst

Sleepsong by hurricanesunny

It’s a snow day and Michael’s pretty sure Jeremy is magic.

Another Bakunawa!Michael AU, with kid Jeremy and Michael (Jeremy/Michael pre-relationship)

Topology by Nymm_at_Night

Jeremy gets a Pacman Tattoo.

This is also Jeremy and Michael trying to mend their friendship after SQUIP- I loved how they wrote Jeremy

The Illustrious Dating History of Michael Mell by FredAndGinger (eventual Jeremy/Michael)

Or, "Five Times Michael Dated the Wrong Guy and the One Time he Dated the Right One"

“I don’t want this to change anything.” Michael said, looking down at the sheets in his hands again. “That’s why… that’s why I never said anything. I’m emotionally compromised.”

I was searching for pins and patches when I came across this one (Jake was very sweet)

Jealous Jeremy :)

Leaves Fall, and so Does Michael by strawberrylemonade1225 (Jake/Michael)

Is Michael gay for fall or Jake Dillinger? Actually, is he more gay for fall or for Jake Dillinger, 'cause let's face it: he's gay for both.

Side Effects series by laugh_a_latte (Jeremy/Michael)

Mountain Dew Red deactivated the Squip, but it didn't get rid of it completely. Jeremy finds that it's still affecting him, messing with his mind and memory, even after it was supposed to be gone. After all, this is untested technology.

I loved the tension between Jeremy and Michael! As I said before, I LOVE fics that deal with post-SQUIP Michael&Jeremy. Refurbish by the same author is a good one too!

Selfless by Castiell (Jake/Michael)

“What I’m wondering is...How can you know? How can you know you’re into guys if you’ve never been with one?”

His dad’s face wasn’t mean spirited, he wasn’t trying to mock Jake’s words and yet Jake was completely thrown off guard. Panic tightened his throat as he struggled to find a way to articulate an answer. A voice that sounded very similar to Angelina Jolie hissed, What if he’s right? What if you’re just making things up again for attention? The words echoed the same ones he had overheard the doctor say to his parents after they conducted a mental exam and everything had turned out to be fine. No, no. The Squip had been real and he wasn’t lying about his sexuality. So how could he convince his dad, who was expectantly waiting for an answer Jake didn’t have?

Jake’s usual smooth words and manner were infuriatingly absent. “It’s not a-a test trial. I do know I’m in-into guys because-because-” “Because what, Jake?” “Because I’m in a relationship with one!” He blurted out, much to the surprise of both himself and his dad.

...

“His name is uh-” Jake’s gaze darted around frantically, landing on a sole figure standing off to the side “-Michael! His name is Michael Mell.”

I think this is the best known pins and patches fic in AO3 lol

I love "fake/pretend relationship becomes real" trope so I really enjoyed reading it! It also contains Jeremy/Michael which I loved

okay, that's something by patchlybadgely (Rich/Michael)

He doesn't remember what day it was when he first noticed Michael Mell. He doesn't remember the date, or the time, or the class, or what period. He only remembers how Michael looked that day. How he made him feel.

So Parties are rad right? by SadWizardJessi (Jeremy/Michael)

Was it just a trend for Michael to get ditched at parties? He was starting to think so.

I like the idea of Connor and Michael being friends

Sleepover Secret by Alistair_Seacaster (Rich/Michael)

It's the middle of the night, and Rich decides to be brave. OR A snippet from an AU I don't know how to write

The cutest Rich/Michael fic that made me draw that one expensive headphones comic of mine

Inevitable by sochill (Jake/Michael)

Jake suddenly notices Michael after he gets beat up by one of Jake's friends. Michael is uninterested in and slightly annoyed by Jake's pity. Romance ensues.

I really love their writings so much!!

Michael being wary of Jake’s attention is one of my favorite HC

you gave me all your love (and all i gave you was goodbye) by coolmasonfilms (Jeremy/Michael)

“I’m glad you let me come over again,” Jeremy says quietly. “It’s really nice, getting to be here after everything that happened.”

Michael’s lips twitch up into a smile. “Dude, it’s no problem,” he says, shrugging a little. “I’m just glad you even wanted to see me.”

Jeremy swallows.

“I’ve been meaning to, uh… talk to you about that, actually.”

A beat.

“Go on,” Michael says expectantly.

Jeremy and Michael have a talk.

I can’t say enough how much I love boyfs dealing with SQUIP aftermath

[stevetonyweekly]

SteveTony Weekly - July 25

Happy Sunday!! Here’s what I’ve been reading this week. As always, leave your fic authors some love if you read and enjoy their stories! 

**Indicates my recent favs 

~*~ 

Waving from such great heights by oopshidaisy (Getting Together/1k) 

Somtimes you're at a gay space wedding and you realize you've forgotten to come out to your best friend (who you're in love with). And other relatable scenarios.

fever, gettin’ higher by RurouniHime  (Getting Together/4k) 

Yeah, okay, Steve Rogers knows what sexual harassment is. Despite his out-of-fashion upbringing, he’s not some backwater Neanderthal, thank you, he gets why it’s bad. He’ll go to bat for anyone who determines they’re the victim of unwelcome advances in the workplace. He’s not devaluing its impact, for god’s sake. 

But the key word here, as he sees it, is ‘unwelcome.’ And that… might not be what this is.

freedoms i wanted by RurouniHime (PWP/6K) 

By the time Tony tips him down onto the bed, Steve has all but lost his mind. (i.e., that missing scene from Fever, gettin' higher)

Adventures in lap sitting by  Annie D (scaramouche) (Getting together/3.6k)

Steve decides that the best way break up Tony and Bruce's argument is to sit on Tony's lap. It works. Other things work, too.

***party girls don’t get hurt by sirona (Alternate Canon/12k) 

Steve never slept under the ice. Howard found him, and got him back, and Steve married Peggy, and Howard married Maria, and then there was Tony. This is the story of Tony growing up with Steve very much present in his life, and everything that changed because of it - and some things that didn't.

Understanding something doesn't mean you can change it (except where you can) by sirona (Pre-Relationship/4k) 

How Howard Stark went from Captain America's Howard Stark to the one Tony grew up with. And a possible explanation for Tony's Mom not taking more of an interest in her son. And Tony coping with the parents he's been saddled with. With bonus appearances from Peggy Carter, Dummy and, eventually, Steve himself.

***i’ll wait in line (always) by frostfall (Getting Together/9k) 

“I think it’s a great idea.”

Steve does a double-take at that. In fact, everyone’s staring at Tony in puzzlement. Except for Natasha but that's hardly surprising. Nothing fazes her.

What's surprising is Tony's reaction. The Tony in front of them can’t be the same Tony who has to be dragged or hauled out of his workshop for meals or gatherings, let alone galas and big parties. For him to willingly agree to be set up on blind dates by his friends is a huge breakthrough.

A breakthrough Steve hates but a breakthrough nonetheless.

(Or the five Avengers who set Tony up on a blind date and the one Avenger who ends up being Tony's blind date.)

***Running through my head by elwenyere (College AU/5K) 

Developing a crush on Steve Rogers is the absolute last problem Tony Stark expected to have when they got thrown together as roommates for their senior year of college. Running into his horrible ex Tiberius Stone, however, was a problem with which Tony was far too familiar.

It’s a College AU! This time featuring mutual pining, Terrible-Ex Tiberius Stone, and something called “Human Flippy Cup.”

The fake prince and the cat by Neverever (medevial AU/6k) 

Steve is sent in place of Prince Brock to marry the libertine Tony Stark. It's better than he thought it would be, plus he makes friends with a cat.

***I’m gonna be true if you let me by picturecat (Established Relationship/1.3k)

Steve and Natasha are getting married. Janet has some strange ideas about their relationship— there's no way Natasha has been in love with him for that long.

Food for the heart by  LagLemon (Getting together AU/14K) 

After being introduced to a gourmet food on a budget blog by Pepper (a gift for her elderly, cheapskate mother) Tony starts cooking again. The recipies are good, but the blog owner is even better. Still, Tony isn't so sure Captain America, the guy who runs the blog, can compete with Hot Bagboy, the gorgeous blond who works at the grocery store.

Some words build houses in your throat by only_more_love (Endgame Fic/7k) 

The night before they travel back in time, Tony says what he needs to say.

Project get him back by Cazio (Fake Dating/49k) 

When photos circulate of Steve Rogers and Tony Stark leaving a party hand-in-hand, rumors explode about America's supercouple getting back together. Except they aren't, and a glass of Asgardian wine is to blame.

Post-CW.

***What we pretend to be by hollyandvice (Fake dating/9k) 

"Oh, good. Look, I saw the ad, and I don't know how serious you are, but I will totally take you up on it."

Steve blinks. "Come again?"

"My dad's a dick, and I'd just as soon set him straight on how not-straight I am this Christmas. He made enough fuss about my ‘tendencies’ at Thanksgiving and I don't want to hear it anymore."

Wherein Steve accidentally signs up to be Tony's fake boyfriend at Christmas, and doesn't realize which Tony he's dealing with until too late.

Same light, in slow motion by @ishipallthings​ (Marvel Noir/2k) 

Drawing Tony Stark as the adventurer who fears nothing and no one, the hero of Marvels, has never been a problem for Steve. But there’s something about Tony in his quieter moments, when he’s standing still just long enough for Steve to try and read him, something that Steve can’t quite decipher.

(Or: Love, and how Steve learns to draw Tony.)

[angellesword]

MAGIC SHOP | JJK (07)

Description: You and Jungkook were best friends who were in love with each other. What would happen when Soojin, your half sister who you’re trying to impress, told you she’s in love with Jungkook too?

Alternatively:

“Would you believe me if I said that I was scared of everything too?”

Genre: childhood best friends to lovers, family drama, angst, fluff, idiots to lovers, pining, slice of life au.

Pairing: Architect!Jungkook x Architect!Reader

Word Count: 2.5k

Warnings: homophobia (Tae’s family is insisting he can’t be gay)

SERIES: CHAPTER 6 | CHAPTER 8

CHAPTER’S OST: Fix You covered by BTS

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

You closed your eyes the moment you heard the first line of the song.

When you get what you want but not what you need

Your heart was thumping, unable to bottle up the emotions that had been eating you for months now.

One year and seven months, to be exact.

You left Seoul, your hometown, nineteen months ago.

"Why can't we just eat at home?" Taehyung groaned, clearly not happy with how things were going right now.

You shrugged because you also didn't know why Yoongi and Jimin decided to have dinner at Per Se, a fine dining restaurant, tonight.

Did they forget that you and your brother were broke? The both of you couldn't live life like you once did in Korea.

Life in the city that never sleeps was different. You still had a job, but you were no longer an architect, deciding that it was best to pursue graphic designing instead.

You worked from eight to five pm in an office now. Gone were the days you visited construction sites. What you created at your current job were images, logos and even diagrams.

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

You loved your job, unfortunately your compensation was not enough to keep you going, making you feel like you were:

Stuck in reverse

Your salary was barely enough to cover your rent and utilities expenses. Jimin, your roommate, knew this so he lent you his car, the same car Taehyung was driving at this moment.

You didn't want to borrow your roommate's car at first, but Jimin insisted, saying that he had a new car and that he didn't know what to do with the old one.

Jimin didn't want to sell it. He was a very sentimental person and the car was actually a gift from his parents.

So he let you use it. You were special to Jimin. He wouldn't mind that you and your brother were using something that he loved.

"Fuck it. I'm going home," Taehyung announced, suddenly turning right.

Your eyes widened, ready to scold him.

But you didn't. Now when—

And the tears come streaming down your face

—he was crying.

You gasped, but you quickly pursed your lips into a thin line. You also looked outside the window of the car, refusing to look at your brother.

You didn't want him to feel like you were prying or that you felt bad for him. No. Taehyung didn't appreciate empathy. For him, it was just the kinder version of pity.

He didn't need you or anyone to feel bad for him as it would only make him feel like his decision was wrong.

When you lose something, you can't replace

When Taehyung moved back here in New York, he lost something that he could never replace: his family in Seoul.

You remembered why your brother lost contact with the Kims. It happened almost two years ago.

"I'll just change," was your excuse so that you could get out of the dining area and also because you knew Jungkook would follow you.

You had to talk to him.

You had to remind him again not to tell anyone in your family that you and him were dating.

You thought it would only be for the meantime; however, you changed your mind after your father explained why he wanted Soojin and Jungkook to get married.

It was for Castle, the company your mother, Taemin, and Jong-in all built together.

How could you let the empire fall?

Apart from this, you saw how Soojin looked at your boyfriend. She loved him. Maybe more than you could ever love Jungkook.

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

You didn't want Jungkook's love to go to waste. You didn't deserve him. He deserved Soojin, someone who could love him dearly.

"Jungkook, as we are saying—" Sin-ae tried to open the conversation again the moment you disappeared from the scene.

Your best friend cut Sin-ae off though. You were right. Jungkook was going to follow you.

"W-Wait! Jungkook! Where are you going?" Sin-ae panicked, getting up so she could follow Jungkook.

Sin-ae could tell that this situation was starting to upset her daughter. Soojin was gritting her teeth, tears filled her eyes.

"Mom. Let Jungkook be." Taehyung said, stopping Sin-ae from running after your best friend. He just knew Jungkook's going to go to you. You and him clearly needed some time alone.

"No. I still have something to say to that boy!"

"It can wait." Taehyung clenched his fist. "I have something to say to you too. It can't wait."

"What is it?"

Taehyung had the undivided attention of his mother now. Admittedly, every member of his family was focused on him, waiting.

Taehyung gulped.

It was now or never.

"I'm gay."

Could it be worse?

Was telling his family about his sexual orientation the worst thing that could happen tonight?

Maybe.

It was the worst because he didn't think this through. It just happened. It was the only way he could think of to stop them from meddling with your relationship with Jungkook.

"You're what?" Taemin's jaw ticked, eyes turning dark as he turned to his third born son.

Lights will guide you home

Taehyung's heart skipped a beat. He was nervous but he didn't regret anything. He was certain that the truth would guide him towards light.

And ignite your bones

He would be free after this night.

"Taehyung..." Sin-ae held onto the head of the chair, grasping for support. She felt like she was going to faint.

This night was stressing her out so much.

"A-Are you sure? I-I..." Sin-ae swallowed hard. She was shaking. Soojin caressed her mother's hand.

"What if you're just confused? Have you dated women before—"

"Yes. I dated seven women. All didn't work out."

"B-But..." Sin-ae tried speaking again, however she trailed off.

Taehyung shrugged upon seeing her mother's expression. He continued eating his food as if nothing happened.

"Sorry it came out of blue. I didn't want to shock you, but seeing how this dinner turned out, I didn't really have a choice but to tell you."

"What do you mean by that?" Namjoon creased his forehead, he obviously didn't like what his younger brother was implying.

"Well, it seems to me that you all know about the engagement party, but you still didn't budge even when it's clear that Jungkook doesn't want to marry Soojin."

Taehyung shrugged before speaking again.

"I don't want to go through the same thing, I guess? I don't want you all to suddenly force me to marry some rich girl. But! If it's a rich guy, I might just agree—"

"Kim Taehyung!" Taemin's voice was like a thunder when he cut off what his third born son was saying.

And I will try to fix you

"Stop your nonsense right now!" Taemin shouted, as if it was going to fix something, as if shouting would suddenly change Taehyung's preference.

"Ouch, dad!" Taehyung pouted, clutching his chest. "Don't be mean. This is not nonsense. This is me telling you the truth about myself..."

The third born son was trying to joke around, thinking that it would at least calm his family.

"I like boys, dad. I let them do me—"

Taemin abruptly stood up. He was holding a table knife, ready to attack Taehyung.

"I said shut up!"

"Yeobo!" Sin-ae hugged her husband.

Seokjin and Namjoon stepped up too, protecting their brother.

"Father, you are overreacting." Seokjin said, hiding Taehyung behind him.

"My son tells me he's a faggot and you're telling me to calm down, huh, Kim Seokjin!?"

"There is nothing wrong with being gay, father. What's wrong is harming people just because of their sexuality." Namjoon said this, touching the hinge of his eyeglasses to stop it from slipping down his nose.

Taehyung's brothers never defied their father, but they would never stand still if Taemin did something to hurt any member of their family, except you. Seokjin and Namjoon didn't care about you.

"It's okay, hyung. You don't have to defend me." Taehyung smiled at his brothers before switching his gaze at Taemin.

"Tell me, father. If I don't 'stop this ‘nonsense,' what would you do to me?"

"I will disown you." Taemin snarled, pushing Sin-ae away from him. "You won't receive anything from me."

"Ah, you will disinherit me. I see..." Taehyung smiled, though his heart was breaking apart. "Okay, then. I will make things easier for you."

"Yah! Kim Taehyung, what are you talking about?" Soojin glared at her brother. She wanted to slap him. He was being stubborn!

"Well, father can't disinherit me, his legitimate heir, just because he wants to. But like what I've said, I'm gonna make it easy for him." Taehyung slightly raised his shoulders. "I'm disclaiming my inheritance. I'd rather be broke than have a homophobic father."

Taemin was about to attack Taehyung, but Sin-ae hugged him once more.

The corner of Taehyung's mouth quirked up as he placed his car keys and card on the table, a proof that he would not take anything from his father anymore.

"Don't worry. I will also pay back everything you spent on me since I was a child." Taehyung bowed down. "Thank you for everything. Goodbye."

And high up above or down below

You blinked back to reality after remembering the reason why Taehyung left his family. The way he told you that story made you feel like you were there when it happened.

But you weren't.

You were busy breaking your own heart.

When you're too in love to let it go

You went straight out of the mansion after mumbling an excuse to your family.

"Hey..." Jungkook followed you, grabbing your wrist.

"I told you not to tell them." You twisted your hand, a not so subtle way of asking him to let you go. His palm was hot, but it was causing you to shiver. You didn't want to be touched by him.

"I didn't—"

"You almost did." You snarled, becoming more frustrated as time passed. "You broke your promise to me."

"Tiger..." Jungkook called softly, trying to hold your hand again.

You walked away, as if you were too scared to stand closer to him. You were. You didn't trust yourself when you were around him. It was like you wanted to just bury your face in his neck. You knew Jungkook felt that way too, but he shouldn't. You shouldn't.

You were in the territory of the Kims. All of them wanted Jungkook to marry Soojin. They would most likely scowl if they saw you being intimate with your 'best friend.'

"I'm sorry..." He said, still following you.

You were headed to the garden of the mansion. No one really went here at night. There were just too many mosquitoes here.

"I won't break my promise again." He said softly. Jungkook was trying to catch your gaze.

You avoided it.

You couldn't look at him as you said "of course it won't happen again. You can't say something that isn't true anymore."

"What do you mean?"

But if you never try, you'll never know

"I'm breaking up with you, Jungkook."

"What?" He was breathless. Your cruel words knocked out the air out of him.

"You heard me." You said simply, still avoiding his gaze. Do not look at him or you'd break, you reminded yourself.

"Y-You're kidding, right?" And he still couldn't believe what was happening.

No. This couldn't be true. He just had you. He was just starting to show you how much he loved you. Why were you pushing him away again?

This wasn't fair.

"You're engaged, Jungkook. To my sister." You gritted your teeth, looking down at your feet. You could see a mosquito sucking your blood there. It hurt.

"You know I don't joke around when my sister's happiness is at stake—"

"What about your happiness?" Jungkook cut you off. And mine?

"I'm happy when Soojin is happy, when my family is happy."

"What about me?" His voice was so small when he asked this, like he was ashamed and hurt. "Am I not your family too?"

Your stomach churned. Your tears fell, you saw your teardrop hitting the mosquito sucking at your foot.

Your foot hurt. Your foot itches.

You were focusing on the wrong things. You complained about the wrong things.

Your heart hurt. But you didn't care.

Your foot. It itched.

Just what you're worth

"You are." You blurted out after a few moments of silence. Would it feel good to scratch your foot?

"That's why I'm ending this. I don't want to hurt you any further..."

You're not hurting me Jungkook was about to say this. You didn't give him a chance to speak though.

"I can't love you, Kook..."

Lights will guide you home

They said lights would guide someone home. Lights helped people see. It helped them so that they wouldn't stumble in the darkness, into something they couldn't possibly fight.

For the longest time, Jungkook believed this. He thought you were his light, guiding him—leading him towards home.

Home was supposed to be safe and it should bring comfort—this was what Jungkook longed. A home.

And ignite your bones

A home full of love, laughter—just things that would ignite his bones, that would make him thank the Maker for giving him life.

"Why not?" Jungkook managed to ask even though he was breaking inside.

All he could think about was your cruel words.

I can't love you, Kook...

I can't love you, Kook...

I can't love you, Kook...

It meant he was hard to love, right? He was hard to love despite the fact that he was trying his best. He was good. So good—too good, but it wasn't enough.

There was no home to come to.

Your foot still itches.

"Because I'm broken." You were stupid to think that you could fill his heart with love.

Love didn't work like that.

Jungkook shook his head violently. He knew you didn't want him to touch you, but he did.

He couldn't stop himself.

He took your face into his hands, feeling your skin. He was touching you like he was making sure you were real.

"And you can't love someone when you're broken."

His response was instant.

"Then let me try to fix you." He said this as if it was easy.

You cackled. This was better than sobbing.

"Too bad..." You finally had the courage to meet his gaze. You looked at him dead in the eyes, saying this: "Because I don't want to be fixed."

Jungkook was right.

You were his light.

You were his light, but you weren't going to guide him home.

You were the light that was going to blind him.

"Goodbye, Jungkook." You smiled.

And then you walked away.

This time Jungkook didn't follow you, but aside from this nothing else changed—well except that you weren't looking down anymore.

You looked up, remembering that when you kissed Jungkook for the first time, the moon and the stars were there to witness it.

The moon and the stars were still here.

This time they witnessed how you broke Jungkook's heart.

Damn. Your foot still itches.