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searchingwardrobes · 5 years

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Of Earth and Sea: 3/9

In celebration of the one year anniversary of my first @cssns fic, I’m reposting a chapter a day until my 2019 drop date, especially since each chapter has never been posted to tumblr before. Amazing art above done by the talented @shipsxahoy.

Summary: Five years after their wedding, Emma and Killian are ready to start a family. But Emma discovers that raising a family isn't that simple when your husband is a Dunedin (half-elf) and your mother-in-law is neither dead nor alive.

Rating: T

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Chapter Two

Whenever The Essex made port, Killian always felt a pull deep inside of himself. There was, of course, the energy pulsing from everyone on board, as well as the cacophony of sounds. Docking a ship this size was no easy feat, and all hands were needed. The creaking of wood, splashing of waves, and the slapping of sails were all magnified as the large vessel was maneuvered into port. Added to that were the sights, sounds, and smells of whatever portside town they were approaching.

But for Killian, it was more than that. He loved the sea, the same as his brother and his father. Salt water was in his veins, as the old expression said, and there was something calming about the moon reflected on the glassy surface of a calm sea. Something invigorating when an entire crew battled the crashing waves.

And yet . . . there was another part of him that yearned for the feel of soil and grass between his toes. A part of him that missed the sight of sunlight filtering through tree branches and the cool feel of bark beneath his palm. He sometimes felt torn in two.

On this particular day, Killian felt a tug towards the forest that hugged the tiny village where they had docked. His bare feet slapped against the wet wood of the deck as he surged forward when the gangplank was lowered. But before he could descend, a gnarled hand grabbed him across the chest and pulled him back.

“And where do ya think ya be goin, lad?” snarled the Captain.

“Shore leave,” Killian answered, tilting his head back to look up at the wizened old man. He glanced over at Liam, who shook his head wearily. His brother clearly had a look of frustration on his face.

“And risk ya runnin’ off like last time? You belong to me, boy.”

“I didn’t run off!” Killian argued, his eyes darting between the captain and his brother. “I just wanted to go to the woods, that’s all. To play.”

Liam stepped forward then and wrapped an arm around Killian’s shoulder. “See, sir? He’s only nine. He just wants to run and play.”

“Run is the part that worries me,” the man scowled. “You both are my property, so the answer is no.” He stooped and fished a dirty rag from a bucket near the railing, then tossed it at the boys. “And there’s plenty to do while she’s docked. So get to it.”

Killian tried to be brave; he really did. He knew every tear he shed only made his brother’s own pain worse. But he couldn’t hold back the sniffles as he bent to swab the deck on his hands and knees.

“Don’t worry, little brother,” Liam whispered, giving his shoulder a light squeeze, “we’ll get these chores out of the way, and then the captain will have a change of heart. You’ll see.”

But it didn’t work out that way. There was always another chore to be done, and waiting for the captain to have a change of heart was like waiting for the sea to run dry. The most Killian was allowed to do was run up and down the docks and play in the tide pools beneath the pilings. Even then, the captain was there shouting for him to come back aboard before he had much chance to get a good game going or make a friend with a village child.

He also never got a chance to see her. He got a glimpse one afternoon as he played in the dirty sand, trying to catch a crab on the end of a stick. The little crustacean scuttled into the water, and as Killian watched it swim away . . . there she was. She normally wore green, but here in the surf she wore a dress of filmy white.

“Killian,” she smiled, her green eyes sparkling. But just as he straightened and went to run into her outstretched arms, he heard his name again. This time shouted from the docks overhead. He hesitated for a moment.

“Killian!! You good-for-nothing little rat! Where’ve you run off to?”

“Go on,” she told him softly, “it’s okay. I’ll see you tonight, remember?”

Killian grinned at her promise and then took off. It wasn’t as much time as they had when he’d managed to get away to the forest, but for now, it would have to do. They were setting sail this very morning.

He dashed as fast as he could down the boardwalk and up the gangplank to the ship. He was surprised when he got on board to find most of the crew gathered against the far railing, leaning over, jostling, and shouting.

“I saw her, I swear I did!” shouted the boatswain, pointing down the beach.

“What?” Killian asked, hopping up and down trying to see over the men. He ducked beneath legs to try and get closer to the railing, but he kept getting shoved back. “What did he see?”

“The ghost,” the third mate finally answered him. He was one of the few on board who treated Killian and Liam with kindness, and he hunched down to look the nine year old in the eye. “Sailors tend to be superstition. Don’t let it worry you, lad.”

“Ain’t no superstition!” the boatswain argued. When he grinned down at Killian, there was a wicked twinkle in his eye. “I seen her many times. Every port we come to, there she be, haunting the docks. One minute she be there, the next, she’s vanished into thin air!”

The third mate shook his head. “Sea foam and fog, nothing more.”

“With pretty red hair and a haunting song?”

Killian gasped at the boatswain’s description. Liam was suddenly behind him, grabbing him by the shoulder and clapping a hand to his mouth. Killian squirmed in his brother’s grip, scowling up at him.

“He gets scared real easy,” Liam explained to the crew, “so can we not talk about this?”

The boatswain chuckled and leaned towards the boys. “She’s a heartbroken window, haunting the docks for her long-lost husband. And any sailor she fancies, she grabs him and yanks him down to Davy Jones’ locker.”

The man clenched his hand in a fist right in Killian’s face to emphasize his point, and the entire crew laughed uproariously. Killian wrenched free from his brother’s grasp.

“That’s not true! She wouldn’t hurt anyone!”

The crew exchanged confused looks, and Liam rushed forward.

“My brother has a vivid imagination,” he chuckled as he pulled Killian towards the hatch that led below deck. Killian kept fighting him, even as he hauled him down the ladder.

“It’s mum, Liam! They’re talking about mum!”

“Shut up!” Liam shouted, shoving Killian so hard that he fell with a crash into the barrels of rations lining the far wall. Killian bit his lip, trying to keep back his tears as he gazed up at his brother in shock. Liam’s eyes widened, and his face went pale. “I’m so sorry, little brother, I didn’t mean to . . .”

Killian jerked away from his brother’s extended arms, turning and curling in on himself. He buried his face in the circle of his arms as the tears could no longer be held at bay. Liam reached out hesitantly and put an arm around him.

“I just can’t talk about her anymore,” Liam whispered. “You’re all I’ve got, and I can’t . . . I don’t . . . She only comes to you, and I guess I know why, but it . . . it makes me so angry!”

Killian turned towards Liam and threw his skinny arms around him. Liam was right. They were all each other hand.

Tauriel still “haunted” every port; still visited Killian in the night. But that was the last day he ever spoke of her. To Liam or to anyone else.

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Storybrooke had become a sleepy little town in the five years since Emma and Killian’s wedding. So sleepy that patrolling was often a boring chore of traffic violations and warnings about jaywalking. Occasionally there was a truant teenager or a disorderly drunk. Emma constantly made Mayberry jokes. Which she of course had to explain to her husband.

Emma was relieved on this particular morning that the town was so peaceful. Her eyes were scanning the alleyways and sidewalks of main street as her yellow bug rolled slowly along, but her mind was elsewhere. Mainly on her husband. His hurt and sadness was completely understandable to her. In many ways his situation with his mother reminded her of those early years with her own parents. Her mind had understood why they had sent her away, but all her heart understood was the abandonment. As Killian himself had once said, the wounds of childhood lingered.

“Hello there, love.”

Emma grinned as Killian’s voice came through the static of the walkie talkie. She snatched it from the passenger’s seat and pressed the button.

“Still not using talkie code, Deputy. Over.”

His responding chuckle sounded odd through the static. “A deputy must wax eloquent when his sheriff is exquisitely beautiful. Over.”

Emma rolled her eyes although he couldn’t see her.

“And I know you’re rolling your eyes at me, Swan.”

Emma laughed at that. The way he read her was even more uncanny five years into marriage. “That’s Sheriff Jones, Deputy Jones. And I’m heading back into the station. Over and out.”

Emma set the walkie talkie down on the dashboard as she rolled slowly to a stop at the traffic light right beside the park. Out of the corner of her eye, she caught a glimpse of red hair. There, along the tree line, stood Tauriel Jones. Her mother-in-law. The woman fixed her gaze on Emma. Emma pressed her lips together in a firm line as she pulled the bug over and parallel parked. It was eerie the way the woman could communicate with a look, and it was clear she wanted to chat with her daughter-in-law.

Actually, everything about Tauriel was eerie. The fact that she wasn’t really alive, for one. Emma was constantly calling her a ghost, and Killian was constantly correcting her. But the last time Emma checked, “not fully alive” meant a ghost. The whole “not fully dead” thing was still confusing.

Tauriel had shown up in Storybrooke about five years ago when Emma and Killian were engaged. Killian said he hadn’t seen her since right before Regina cast the curse. Emma could see in his eyes that the timing bothered him for some reason, but she hadn’t pressed him about it. At any rate, his mom showing up had thrown them both for a loop. Killian had issues with the woman, that was certain. And then there was the bomb dropped on Emma that her husband was a Dunedin.

In other words, not fully human. As in, half elf. As in, he was blessed with unnaturally long life. Neverland aside, he most likely would have lived to 200 or so and aged only slightly.

It had been a lot to take in, for sure, but nothing could shake Emma’s love for this man. She would march to the Underworld all over again if she had to. So she was marrying a man who was half-elf, so what? As Killian would tease, it was better than a flying monkey.

In all seriousness, Killian was her true love, no matter what, and she would do just about anything for him. Hence why she was walking across the park to talk to his “mostly dead” mother. She actually chuckled at her own Princess Bride joke.

“Are you laughing at me?” Tauriel asked placidly.

Killian had explained to her once that elves had little, if any, sense of humor. That was definitely an understatement.

“No,” Emma said with a wave of her hand, “I was just thinking about . . . never mind. What’s up?”

Emma crossed her arms over her chest. It wasn’t as if Tauriel had a lot of time to shoot the breeze. Elves were immortal, Killian had explained, though they could be killed in battle, or . . .

Or they could waste away of a broken heart. And Brennan Jones had been many things, but faithful sure wasn’t one of them.

“You know because of my broken heart, I am cursed to wander the realms.”

Emma nodded, circling with her hand for the elf to get to the point. “Yeah, and I also know you’re gonna get all fuzzy soon and disappear on me, so . . .”

Tauriel gave that tinkling sound that Emma had come to learn was an elf’s laugh. “Aye.” She scratched behind her pointed ear, looking so much like Killian, that it made Emma’s heart ache. He always seemed to think he was like his drunken, dead beat father, but Emma saw so much of him in his mother. “My son is hurting, Emma. And I wish to help him.”

Emma bit her bottom lip. “I know, but I just don’t know how you can fix it.”

Tauriel reached forward and grasped Emma’s shoulders. “Yes, he is still angry with me. But that isn’t what I speak of.”

Emma gasped as the hands resting at her shoulders became lighter. She could now see the red leather through the outline of Tauriel’s hand. The woman’s face fell as she realized her time was ending.

“Ask him to give you a child, Emma.”

“I can’t!” Emma cried, surprised that those panicked words were the first ones from her mouth.

“You must. You wonder why you aren’t with child yet. I can see it on you, Emma, the desire to have a child with the man you love. He must will it.”

Emma shook her head as Tauriel faded almost completely away. “What do you mean?”

“An elf must will a child into existence.”

Those were Tauriel’s final words as she disappeared completely. Emma swore under her breath and stomped her foot in frustration.

“What the bloody hell does that mean?”

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“Tauriel wants me to tell her son to knock me up.”

Emma dropped the bomb on her mother causally at lunch right before cramming an onion ring in her mouth. Just as she had anticipated, Snow’s mouth dropped slightly and her fork hovered over her lasagna.

“Um . . . she said that?”

Emma laughed as she dragged another onion ring through ketchup. “Well, not in those exact words.”

Snow took a bite and chewed thoughtfully. She swallowed and dabbed her napkin against her lips before responding. “Well, what was your reaction?”

Emma smiled at her mother as she took a sip of coke. She should have known her mother would respond diplomatically. She was a queen, after all. But then Emma’s face grew serious as she thought about Tauriel’s request.

“It scared me.”

Snow’s brow furrowed. “So you don’t want to have a baby with Killian?”

Emma shook her head, frustrated when tears welled in her eyes. “No, actually, I do.” Emma glanced around nervously, then leaned closer to her mother, “That’s why I went off my birth control pills.”

Snow clasped her hands under her chin. “So you’ve been trying.”

“Not . . . exactly,” Emma hedged as she carefully broke her grilled cheese into two pieces. When she glanced back up at her mother, those identical green eyes were wide.

“Emma,” her mother admonished under her breath, leaning in closer and lowering her voice to a whisper, “do you mean to tell me you went off your birth control pills without talking to him first?”

Like a child caught in a lie, Emma took a huge bite of her sandwich to avoid answering for a moment. When she swallowed, she quickly attempted to explain. “I meant to! It just . . . every time I started to bring it up, I don’t know. I got scared, okay?”

“Oh honey,” Snow replied softly, taking her daughter’s hands in hers, “you must know he wants the same thing.”

“How?” Emma asked, her eyes darting nervously, “How do you know that?”

“Because,” Snow said simply, “I have eyes. I saw how he was with Henry. I see him with the children of Storybrooke. Every kid in this town adores him because he’s putty in their hands. He’s even good with the lost boys at the convent.”

Snow took a few more bites of her lasagna, and Emma did the same with her grilled cheese and onion rings.

“He is good with kids,” Emma finally conceded, “but that doesn’t mean he wants one of his own. Besides Henry, I mean.”

Her mother shrugged one shoulder and gave Emma a teasing smile, “Well, there’s only one way to know for sure, honey. And can I be honest?”

Emma laughed nervously as she gnawed on her lower lip. “Do I have a say?”

Snow laughed too and squeezed her hand. Not letting go, she said, “Emma, sweetheart, it’s a conversation that’s about five years overdue.”

Emma sighed and squeezed her mother’s hand in return. She knew she was right.

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Later that night, Emma exited the bathroom of their master suite, rubbing lotion into her hands as she approached the bed. Killian was sitting up against several throw pillows reading a book, but he eagerly tossed the volume aside when he saw her standing there in nothing but one of his old pirate shirts. He reached his arms out as she drew near, circling her waist. His hand slipped up the back of the shirt to rub her bare skin and his stump rested at her hip. He tilted his face up to hers, and Emma pressed a kiss to his nose. He pulled her down into bed with him, gathering her close to his chest. When they were first married, every touch went from tender to passionate in sixty seconds flat. But as the years waxed on, they had learned to cherish the moments of simple intimacy. The kind that built slowly to a deep molten heat. Not that fast and frenzied wasn’t still fun at times. But they had time to cherish now, and they luxuriated in it.

Emma enjoyed the feel of being in his arms for a moment. Then with a sigh, she sat up next to him, running her fingers through his hair as she spoke.

“I talked to your mother today.”

Killian’s brow furrowed. “Aye?”

Emma nodded. “She . . . just wanted to make sure you were happy.” She bit her lip, knowing she was dancing around the subject. “Are you? Happy, I mean?”

He sat up a little higher in the bed, seeming vexed about the question. “Of course I am, my love. You doubt it?”

Emma attempted to soothe him by running her thumb along his cheek and then his jaw line. “No, of course not. I just . . . I mean, it does get boring around here.”

Killian laughed and cupped her face. He brushed a kiss against her lips. “After all we’ve suffered, I’m okay with boring. Besides, I prefer to think of it as contentment with family by my side.” He searched her eyes for a moment before adding, “A family, that . . . hopefully, continues to grow?”

She swallowed. It seemed the perfect segue to the topic that, as her mother had said, was five years overdue. But what if he was only referring to Henry giving them grandkids? She decided to test the waters. Emma traced Killian’s ears with her fingertips. Biting her lip and swallowing the nervous lump in her throat, she spoke with what she hoped was nonchalance.

“You know, when – if �� we have a baby, I hope he has your ears.”

Killian blinked and his jaw fell open. “You . . . are you saying you want to, I mean, that you’d like . . . a baby? With me?”

Emma chuckled nervously, “Who else would I have it with?”

The silence that stretched between them had Emma so nervous, she slid down and snuggled next to him, wrapping her arms around his waist and resting her cheek against his heart. Was it her imagination, or was it pounding in his chest?

“I have a confession to make,” she whispered against his skin, “I stopped taking my birth control pills.”

“You did?” she couldn’t read his voice at all, yet she was too nervous to lift her head and look him in the eye.

“Mhm.”

“How long?”

Emma let out a shuddering breath as she answered, “Two years.”

Killian’s arms tightened around her. “And you’re probably wondering why you still aren’t with child.”

Emma sat up abruptly, her turn to gape at him in shock. “That’s your response? What about the fact that I went off birth control without even discussing it with you?”

“Getting a woman pregnant has never been something I have to worry about,” Killian explained, his eyes darting about the room. “Not that I’m telling you it isn’t possible, it’s just – “

Emma sighed. “Killian, I know. Your mother explained it to me. Sort of.”

“What?” he exclaimed, his eyes finally settling on Emma’s. “That’s what she wanted to talk to you about?”

Emma shrugged. “She said she could tell that I . . . longed to be a mother of your child. Her words.” Emma suddenly found her hands twisting in her lap suddenly fascinating. “And she’s right. But she also said that it would never happen if I didn’t talk to you, which for some reason, I’ve been terrified to do.” She finally looked up, struggling to keep the tears that were rising at bay. “Do you not want kids? Because I thought when you picked out this big house, that it was sort of implied, but then time went on, and you never brought it up, then your mother tells me –“

Killian cut off her words with a swift kiss, pulling her onto his lap. When he broke the kiss, he pressed his forehead to hers. “I want a child with you, Emma, more than anything. I guess I was waiting for you to bring it up. I’ve never wanted to push you into anything, including this.”

Emma rolled her eyes as she slipped her arms around his neck. “How do we still suck this bad at communication?”

He laughed as he thumbed her chin, “Long years of loneliness does that to a person, I suppose. But we keep making progress, don’t you think?”

Emma nuzzled against his shoulder. “So, this whole elf conception thing . . . “

Killian’s groan reverberated against her cheek. “An elf – or in my case Dunedin – has to will a child into conception. It’s why you have no need to worry about dozens of my illegitimate children running about the realms.”

Emma’s brow furrowed. “So, you do . . . what exactly? To conceive a child, that is?”

Killian shifted beneath her. “I don’t know the biology exactly. All I know is that I have to sort of let a part of myself go when I make love to you. It’s sort of like . . . giving a piece of myself away, if you were.”

“And only male elves have to do this?”

“No, a female does as well. Or both, if it’s two elves,” Killian explained, rubbing her upper arm absent-mindedly.

Emma tilted her head to smile up at him. “Which means your mother wanted you from the start, Killian. She willed you into existence. That’s pretty cool.”

He smiled softly, his gaze a bit distant. “Aye, I suppose you’re right. I never thought of that.”

Emma sat up and shifted, straddling him with a mischievous smile upon her face. “So,” she said teasingly, running her hands through his chest hair, “if you wanted a child, why didn’t you just will it before now?”

She was surprised when Killian’s face actually tinted with a faint blush. “It isn’t exactly something I could do without you . . . er, noticing.”

Emma’s eyebrows shot up. “Will it hurt me?”

Killian smiled a bit cockily, “Oh no, Swan. I have a feeling you will thoroughly enjoy it.”

Emma cocked her head, smiling even more broadly, “Oh really?” She leaned closer to him, her lips hovering just over his. “So, are we doing this?”

Killian just nodded, then pressed his lips to hers. It didn’t take long for the kiss to become heated, and soon what little clothes they were wearing had been discarded.

Killian was always an attentive lover, ever in tune to what Emma needed in order to climax. He knew Emma’s favorites, but he also seemed to intuitively know when she wanted something different. In short, the man was just plain good in bed.

But tonight was different. Emma was glad that Henry had moved out and that they had no neighbors on this corner street because she had never cried out so loudly in ecstasy. Emma couldn’t even explain the sensations that washed over her. In some ways, it was as if they truly became one person for a moment. She also saw herself in that moment through his eyes: her body incandescent and dazzling. For one exquisite moment in time, she felt what Killian felt when he made love to her, and it was indescribable.

Afterwards, Killian was trembling in a way she had never seen, and his skin felt clammy as he drew her close.

“Oh. My. God.” she gasped. “That was the most amazing experience of my life. How are there not millions of elves? I want to do that again. And again. And again.”

Killian laughed wearily. “Well,” he gasped, “that’s going to be a bit difficult on my end.”

Emma shifted to see Killian struggling to keep his eyes open. His face was pale and waning. She reached up to cup his cheek, and found it cold. “Are you okay?” she asked in alarm.

“Aye,” he gasped out sliding farther beneath the covers, “I just need to sleep . . .”

His voice slurred as he spoke, his eyes fluttered closed, and then he was fast asleep. He was like any man, ready for a nap shortly after sex, but she had never seen him like this. Her brow furrowed slightly in concern as she leaned over and kissed him gently. She rolled over to go to sleep herself, but she lay awake for a long while, her hand on her abdomen and a smile upon her lips.

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Killian had mentioned to Emma once that elves rarely conceived children, and as the days went by, she saw firsthand why. Killian had her scared to death, sleeping for three days straight. Even when he finally woke up, it was another five days before he had the strength to get out of bed. Yet every time she went to check on him, he assured her it was normal when conceiving an elven child.

“Well,” she quipped one day as she sat on the edge of the bed, brushing his hair back from his face, “it better have worked.”

He smiled, turning his head to kiss the palm of her hand. “Oh, it worked. Trust me, love. When an elf wills a child into existence, he always succeeds. You are with child at this very moment; there’s no doubt about that.”

Emma rested her hand upon her still flat stomach, a look of wonder lighting her eyes. Killian’s own eyes were bright even as they drooped with fatigue. Emma thought she felt a fluttering within, though she knew it was far too soon for that. It was only her imagination, filled with joy and anticipation.

As if he could read her mind, Killian told her, “You aren’t imagining things, my love. The babe is moving within you.”

Emma gasped in surprise. “How is that possible?”

Killian mumbled his next words as he drifted off to sleep, “Did I mention that the gestation period for elven babies is different?”

Emma shook her head at her now sleeping husband. “No, Killian Jones, you left out that little detail.” But then she felt that fluttering again, and she couldn’t really be angry. This was going to be interesting, that was for sure.

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Dr. Whale didn’t know any more than any other doctor when it came to Emma’s very unique pregnancy. According to the books on elves in the library, an elf was pregnant for only three months. But Emma wasn’t an elf, and Killian was only half elf, so they really just had to wait and see. And so it was, that after less than six months of pregnancy, Emma gave birth to a healthy, seven pound baby girl. When she first held her, warm and squalling, Emma laughed as she traced the baby’s tiny ears.

“Look, Killian,” she told him, “elf ears.”

She was perfect.

#cs ff #cssns #cssns 2018 #ouat lotr crossover #killian as part elf

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clockadile · 5 years

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The raw scans of the watercolours I did for @whimsicallyenchantedrose ‘s fic Until the Stars are All Alight as part of this year’s @cssns. I had a lot of fun with these. Frantic panicking of remembering how to live without an undo button fun.

Be sure to check out her OUAT/LOTR crossover here on tumblr and over on AO3

#cssns #captain swan #captain swan supernatural summer #ouat fanart #cs fanart #ouat #my arts #ouat art

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whimsicallyenchantedrose · 4 years

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For the end of the year fic asks: What about #5, 14, 19 & 23?

Thanks for the ask, @snowbellewells! I’m sorry it’s taken so long to respond, but this time of year is just crazy!

5. Most popular fic this year

My most popular fic this year was Brunch. This was a totally impromptu fic that wasn’t planned, but it is possibly my most liked/reblogged post on Tumblr this year. Y’all are really into breakfast food related innuendo with a dash of humor, hehe.

14. A fic you didn’t expect to write

Honestly, that would probably also be Brunch, but since I used that for the previous question, I’ll chose something else. I think my CSSNS story, Until the Stars are All Alight fits the bill. While I’ve enjoyed reading the stories everyone has written for the CS Supernatural Summer, I never expected to join the event myself, mainly because I’m just not that into supernatural stuff like werewolves and vampires and the like. But then something happened. The idea to do a CS/LOTR crossover just wouldn’t leave me, and so here we are. This story is taking me the longest to write of any multi chapter I’ve ever done, but the extra time I’m taking to mull over ideas seems to be paying off. Usually the chapter I end up with is quite a bit different from the chapter I originally planned to write, but it’s better than my original plan. Note: with the ridiculous busyness of this time of year, I’ve kind of had to put writing this story on hold for the moment, but don’t worry. It won’t be abandoned, and I have the next chapter mapped out in detail, so after the holidays, hopefully I’ll be able to update faster.

19. Any new fics to start next year?

No specific plans, but I still have a few ideas I’m mulling over. I would like to write a fluffy “what was happening in SB during season 7” fic which basically just shows the SB folks living out their happy beginnings. If I could make any sense of timelines and how things work together, I’d like to write a “season 8” fic. I’ve been mulling over an OUAT/Manifest cross over. I would like to write a CS Kate and Leopold au and maybe an au of one of Jane Austen’s books—Pride and Prejudice is my favorite, but it’s been done a few times before, so maybe Persuasion? Which I work on or whether I end up working on any of them is anyone’s guess, but those are my thoughts so far.

23. Fics you wanted to write but didn’t

Any of the fic ideas from the question above would work for this question as well, but beyond that, I’ve seen so many interesting fandom fic events over the last year that I would have loved to join. Unfortunately this past year, it just wasn’t a possibility. It’s been a busy year fraught with a lot of personal/family stuff, some good, some bad, that’s kept me busy. Fingers crossed for a calmer, less busy 2020!

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shady-swan-jones · 7 years

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Do you know of any cs ff taking place in Tolkien's universe or that is a crossover with LOTR?

there is this series for general audience, but i’m afraid there’s no cs one.

Strong Intentions - Part 1 by Aria Breuer Part 1, Pre-Written. In Storybrooke – a town in Maine with no magic – Emma Swan meets a man working at the Schoolhouse. Henry, on the other hand, claims this man is in his storybook, Once Upon A Time, but – like everyone else in the town – does not remember who he is. A crossover between The Lord of the Rings and the ABC television show "Once Upon a Time". AU. No slash.

Strong Intentions - Part 2 by Aria Breuer Part 2. Emma and Hook have returned to the present with Maid Marian, damaging Regina's happiness. Frodo, in turn, meets an old friend. In the past, 12-year-old Frodo searches for the reason why his parents traveled to Arendelle.

Strong Intentions: The Bonus Version - A Drabble Series Moment by Aria Breuer While at Bag End, the hobbit Frodo Baggins finds a mysterious box. Pressing the remote, he sits and watches the entire "Once Upon a Time" series, giving comments as he does so.

#cs fic rec #ouat crossover #ouat lotr #Anonymous #answered

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Verse Masterlist

So this is a very long post therefore I’ve put it under a readmore. These are my current verses all of which are open to everyone

CANON

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1st regeneration tag - v: daughter of the silence This is Melody’s life growing up under the care of Dr Renfrew and the Silence.

2nd regeneration tag - v: going full circle After regenerating in 1969 Melody was taken to Leadworth in 1991. She grew up with foster parents who were very absent. Her best friends were her own parents. Goes up to episode Lets Kill Hitler.

University Verse tag - v: becoming river song This verse follows River when she’s becoming the woman we know. She’s at university studying to be an archaeologist. It’s the first time she’s been free from the Silence.

Professor Verse tag - v: professor river song After being released from prison River went back to university. She became a professor lecturing archaeology. This verse is for both pre and post library. The majority of threads are post library.

Darillium Verse tag - v: twenty-four years Pretty much what it says on the tin, this verse is for River and the Doctor’s time on the planet Darillium.

AUs

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MOST USED

Stayed Verse tag - v: if she stayed This is AU from ‘The Angels Take Manhattan’ River stayed with the Doctor aboard the TARDIS. They still went to The Pasternoster Gang and stayed there to mourn meaning they met Clara. It means that the plots of the show still go just as they did without River but obviously she’s there too. Open Starters for this verse are here and mostly towards the Doctor.

Returned Verse tag - v: if she returned Following on from 'if she stayed' after River’s twenty-four years with the Doctor she goes to the Library but is very quickly reanimated and brought back to the Doctor. So she travels with him and his companion(s).It means that the plots of the show still go just as they did without River but obviously she’s there too.Open Starters for this verse are here and mostly towards the Doctor.

OTHERS

Mum Verse tag - v: talks with mum or v: mothering river A nice simple verse. My main verse River cannot have children so this verse is for my interactions with OCs (to whom I am very welcome) and also any threads where River discusses having children, is pregnant or has children.

Fobwatched Verse tag - v: fobwatched verse River was as she is in the main!verse, she had gotten out of The Library and for a while The Doctor and she were safe, but then she fell pregnant. The Doctor soon realised that she wouldn’t survive the pregnancy in her current biological standing. They decided that a fobwatch would be the safest outcome. River was meant to be dropped off in Leadworth 2015 and the Doctor would meet her and wake her up, once the pregnancy was over. But something went wrong and she ended up in Victorian England, she doesn’t know where her husband is or who he is, only that he is a good man and will come home soon. She now has a three year old son named Rory and works as a Nanny.

Kovarian’s Verse stockholm syndrome tw tag - v: madame kovarian’s daughter In this verse River did kill the Doctor but she’s not that evil. She just wants to please Madame Kovarian who she has a case of Stockholm Syndrome towards. She is completely dependent on Madame Kovarian and is very defensive if people try to talk against her.

Master’s Verse stockholm syndrome tw, abuse tw tag - v: the year that never was This verse is set in the Year That Never Was, where River is kept as The Master’s prisoner aboard the Valiant. Due to the paradox she sort of lost who she was. River is practically the Master’s pet, she does as he asks when he asks and won’t talk to many other people. She’s been abused by The Master to become this way.

Human Verse tag - v: a human life As the name might suggest River is human in this verse, she doesn’t know the Doctor, she doesn’t know her parents or anything about aliens. She is just an archaeology professor at Oxford University.

Melody Pond Verse tag - v: beloved melody pond This is what would have happened if baby Melody had not been taken by The Silence. She is a normal little girl with Amy and Rory raising her.

Sick Verse tag - v: the doctor’s patient To get out of the Library River was placed in a new body however due to the body being completely new it’s immune system was very weak and soon she found herself unable to go very long without medical help and so she called her Doctor.Now she stays aboard the TARDIS where she is connected to a life support system. She still does archaeological research and writes textbooks instead of going on actual digs. She misses it but knows it’s for the best.

Pond Verse tag - v: melody williams is a superhero This is a very AU verse. Melody didn’t regenerate in New York and turn into Mels, instead she stayed as a very sick little girl looking for her parents and somehow she does finding them in Manhattan.Basically Melody getting the childhood she deserved and Amy and Rory getting to raise her.

SJA Verse tagged - v: sarah jane’s niece Based on this gifset. Knowing where to find Melody the Doctor took her from the Silence, with the help of Jack Harkness and Torchwood, however Melody was still in a lot of danger and so the Doctor felt she was unable to go with Rory and Amy, yet.And so he left her on Sarah Jane’s doorstep with an explanation of what was going on. From then on she stayed with Sarah Jane, Luke and a few years later Skye. She is known as Melody Williams and is known to others to be Sarah Jane’s niece.Amy and Rory are able to visit, and do, as often as they like.

Vault Verse tag - v: stay alive This verse is set in series 10. Instead of Missy in the vault it is River. The Doctor finds a way of saving River and he works out how to do it after reassembling Nardole. He found a way of attaching River’s consciousness and head into the robot that had kept King Hydroflax alive for so long. As it was stated that it was basically built in life support he argued that until he could keep River asleep until a new body had been created.And it worked, almost, River was transferred into the body and it was successful with all memories intact. But she couldn’t sleep, instead she works up periodically and cannot control the robot she has been placed in, that is why she has been placed in the vault. For her own safety, as she has poor health and immune system, and others from the robot.

Sisters Verse (mainly with @madasateacup) tag - v: strength of a sister AU as of Angels Take Manhattan where Amy and Rory didn't get taken back in time and instead continued their life in Leadworth. Soon afterwards they adopted a little girl named Collie. Although originally nervous River soon fell in love with being a big sister. Follows their interactions as Collie grows up.

Doctor Verse tag - v: i am the doctor This AU takes place where 'River' is in the place of the Doctor. She's one of the reincarnations who just decides to call herself River sometimes.

Dark Verse tag - v: dark river As the name might suggest this verse is for a dark version of River. Having gone mad after several brainwashing sessions following the Doctor's 'death' by the Silence River doesn't believe anyone anymore.She killed her way out of Stormcage and now roams the universe bringing havoc and destruction on the people she believes have wronged her.

CROSSOVERS

So I am in a lot of fandoms, chances are if I follow you and you’re not in the DW fandom then yours will be listed here. I always prefer to rp in these verses rather than a crossover verse where there’s lots of confusion.

OUAT tag - v: ouat

HARRY POTTER tag - v: hogwarts

DIVERGENT tag - v: divergent

X-MEN tag - v: mutant xmen

SHIELD/MCU tag - v: shield

THE HUNGER GAMES tag - v: hunger games

PIRATES tag - v: a pirates life for me

VIKINGS tag - v: how to train your dragon

WICKED tag - wicked

LOTR/THE HOBBIT tag - v: elf in middle earth

THE 100 tag- v: the 100

JURASSIC PARK/WORLD tag - v: jurassic world

VAMPIRE tag - v: vampire

POLICE tag - v: di river song

ELEMENTARY (AND OTHER SHERLOCK SHOWS) tag - v: sherlock’s consultant

Z NATION (AND OTHER ZOMBIE SHOWS) tag - v: post z nation

RICK RIORDAN BOOKS tag - v: camp half blood

NEWSIES THE MUSICAL tag - v: seize the day

THE ADDAMS FAMILY tag - v: when you’re an addams

SENSE8 tag - v: last of her cluster

CRIMINAL MINDS tag - v: interpol agent

HOUSE tag - v: house

#verses

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lurkingxmurmur · 3 years

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rules

(they seem long but most things are just needed before you follow, like who I don’t write with)

about me and about the blog:

-mun is 30+, my name is ele, I'm Italian, aro-ace, have a thousand blogs, I am chronically ill and write less when very sick, more when feeling better. I adore shipping, I love platonic relationships and hate forceshipping. Happy to plot so we can get through first meetings quickly/come up with ‘they knew each other before’ backgrounds. Looking after my grandfather and giving him priority from 3pm to 7:30 very day.

-this blog is a bit of a mix of legends about Lorelei the siren (which some consider always ready to 'entertain' men, some see as a woman betrayed by her lover who fell off a cliff/jumped off it) and of the imaginary version of Jenny Lind, singer from The Greatest Showman. And I mean “mix” very loosely, all I really kept is the faceclaim, the born out of wedlock singer from centuries ago and the cliff-siren parts. -I can adapt to fandoms with magic and fandoms with none easily as you can see in her about page. You don't need to know ANY specific show or legend beforehand. Locations/small details will be changed to adapt to different fandoms, for example for ouat characters she could come from one of the Northern Islands near Arendelle.

who I write with:

-this blog is a sideblog for thecharmingknightemma and because I believe that some muses who work well with Emma wouldn’t with Lorelei and viceversa, I will follow you from mainforlurkingxmurmur, mutuals only. Especially interested in interactions with POTC, Merlin, Galavant, OUAT, LOTR characters and others you can imagine bumping into a siren/human singer in the early 1700 (but also willing to with characters from shows I don’t know if you are okay with me being in the dark and you are interested in a singer with a terrible reputation or a siren), and like I said in the pinned post I could come up with crossovers, like marvel etc, but they’ll need to involve time-travel or curses.

who I don’t write with:

-I will block people I don’t follow who try to push me to interact with them, I will follow you without needing any prompting if I think our muses will click - in general please don’t ask me to check your blogs even if we already rp in others, it’s so awkward if I don’t think it will work. I’d rather not write with characters from vampire diaries, teen wolf, riverdale, gossip girls, stranger things, and any zombie/demons show EXCEPT for IZombie, Lucifer and Buffy/Angel. Either I don't know the shows or have material that I don't like or triggers me.

triggers and a disclaimer about her magic before people get mad:

-in her backstory you have an uncaring mother, a man who reacts to rejection with trickery and ruining her reputation and a man who reacts to it with violence and nearly kills her. This to warn you in case it's triggering for you. I don’t write miscarriages, toxic relationships/rape between our muses. Please tag your gore and nsfw. I write NSFW selectively otherwise fade to black.

-because her curse is hyper specific and Lorelei was twice hurt by men she had rejected, first her reputation then her body, her singing as a siren will attract cis and trans men (attract as in they are entranced by her voice and it soothes their hearts, it's not sexual) and she will magically feel which ones have hurt women, either their reputations, hearts or bodies, because they were rejected (marrage proposals, sex, being together, anything goes) Her purpose is then to avenge those women. I’m not claiming that other types of violence aren't important or that men can’t be victims or that women can’t be monsters, or saying anything about trans people (just that trans men are men and therefore a curse will not make distinctions if it's meant to attract men).

activity:

-this is a blog for an oc adult female character so I'm not exactly expecting a lot of activity? Not saying this in a self-deprecating way, more to say that even if I'm not writing replies I'm probably not on hiatus but I simply have no material. My typical rules still stand regardless: this is a stress-free zone ic and ooc, you write when you want, what you want, send as many memes as you want, can turn them all into threads, can drop them, and so on. That said, if you are a mutual who plays a character from the aforementioned fandoms and ask me to rp I will cry.

#rules

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iamstartraveller776 · 4 months

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

Stole this from @curator-on-ao3. (Thank you for the open tag!)

1. how many works do you have on Ao3?

111, not including the dozens of ficlets and short one-shots I've posted as separate chapters in fic collections.

2. what's your total Ao3 word count?

614,875 and counting.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

I've written for: Star Trek (TOS/AOS/DISC), Star Trek: Enterprise, Labyrinth (1986), Marvel, Once Upon a Time, Shadow and Bone, and LOTR: The Rings of Power.

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

The Princess and the King (Labyrinth, Jareth/Adult Sarah) A little girl wanders into the Underground and Jareth's life is forever changed. [3,467 words]

Text Alert (MCU, Loki/Jane Foster) Late one night, Jane found herself in an online chat room for Harvard alums. She and the user youweremadetoberuled hit it off and began a strange, anonymous friendship. [16,129 words]

Intoxicated (Star Trek TOS/AOS/DISC, Sarek/Amanda Grayson) Amanda Grayson sets out to make nice with Sarek, the infuriating Vulcan ambassador to Earth. Her future career prospects are on the line, after all. There's only one problem: the ambassador isn't quite himself. [9,034 words]

Drunk Dial (Labyrinth, Jareth/Adult Sarah) Five times Sarah drunk-called the Goblin King. One time he sobered her up. [7,138 words]

Touch (MCU, Loki/Jane Foster) The first touch was her fist to his jaw, and she thought the last was when he pushed her out of the way of a Dark Elf bomb—until he showed up years later with a proposition she had trouble turning down. [4,014 words]

5. do you respond to comments?

Yes, absolutely. That's my favorite part about writing fic—being able to interact with readers. Sometimes I'm slow in replying, but I promise I always will.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I have a few stories with unhappy endings, but I think this one is the most gut-wrenching read: Just a Dream (Labyrinth, Jareth/Adult Sarah) He can have her in their shared dreams, but is it enough? Obsession can be a dangerous thing. [1,644 words]

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I tend to mostly write happy endings—at least for stories that have a proper ending. I think there would be too many to list here.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

It's happened infrequently. I just delete the comments. I'm too old and tired for that kind of manufactured drama.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No, not really. I mean I have a few—very few—M-rated stories, but it's pretty much all feelings with pretty words and metaphors. The tension is my favorite part. When it comes to resolving it, I tend to be a "pan to the sky" writer.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I have written a couple. The zaniest? When Fairy Tale Meets Mythology (OUAT, Captain Swan; MCU, Loki/Jane Foster) While searching for Henry, Emma and Hook happen upon a strange couple in Neverland. [1,209 words]

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I was asked once, but I don't know if they followed through. I have had someone turn one of my stories into a podfic, though.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep. I'm a fandom old. I hail from the days of doing fic Round Robins and fandom Big Bangs.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

The USS Enterprise NCC 1701 D, though the Jolly Roger comes in as a close second.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

The companion fic to Three Months on Vulcan where we follow the escapades of Soval and Amanda Cole as she works as his assistant. I was going to call it Lost in Translation. But my drive to write it has fizzled out over the years. I just don't have it in me.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Fleshed out characters, humor, pretty prose, banter.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

F I N I S H I N G. Seriously, that's my goal for 2024: to finish at least 3 of my languishing multi-chapter fics. Also, I want to improve my longfic game. I tend to rush through the plot.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I've done it, though I try not to overdo it. And I try to make it easy for the reader to understand from context so they don't have to constantly jump to end notes for the translations. I've been super fortunate to have a native-speaking fandom friend help me with Norwegian for some of my MCU stories. I've used Google Translate for Icelandic, and the Vulcan Language Database. Trying to write in Quenya is the worst, though. Never again! *gives Tolkien a side-eye*

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Star Trek: Enterprise

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

That's like asking me to choose a favorite child. How about one for each fandom:

Through the Dark Mirror Series (Star Trek: Enterprise, Trip/T'Pol) Stories that take place before, during, and after the events of the "In a Mirror, Darkly" episodes. [14,633 words and counting]

Pertinacious Wills (Labyrinth, Jareth/Adult Sarah) Regency AU Sarah Williams’s life is turned upside down when her widowed father remarries. At the same time, a new lord has taken over the Labyrinth who may be the most insufferable man Sarah has ever known. But as she is thrown in, quite against her will, with him and his kind, she discovers mysteries that call to question everything she thought she knew. [46,963 words and counting]

Blood for Blood (MCU, Loki/Jane Foster) He missed his chance by a heartbeat—the difference between life and death. Now, the mantle of savior rests on Loki’s shoulders. Will the mercurial God of Mayhem rise to the challenge of rescuing the nine realm from eternal darkness? [4,330 words]

The Worth of a Broken Soul (OUAT, Outlaw Queen) As a Keeper of the Watch, Robin hasn't been a mortal's personal guardian in centuries, but he's been tasked with a special case. Regina Mills is full of hate and anger, her aura so black it's difficult to find any hope left inside of her. Robin is determined to succeed in his assignment, even if it requires unconventional methods, but drawing her closer to Redemption is changing him as well. Will he pay any price for her salvation? For the salvation, too, of the lost souls he's unwittingly collected along the way? [14,407 words and counting]

The Nightwalker Chronicles Series (OUAT, Captain Swan) Emma Swan is an expert private investigator, but recently she's witnessed things that even she cannot explain. The only one willing to help her safely navigate the underbelly of the city in search of answers is the man who saved her life, a mysterious artist with secrets of his own. [6,448 and counting]

I haven't written much for either Shadow and Bone or The Rings of Power, and I don't feel like I have proper favorites for them.

Yes, I know I'm not listing any of my comedies, dear friend who knows who they are. That's because they aren't *my* favorites.

Tagging: Are you a fic writer? Consider yourself tagged by me—if you want to play, that is.

#tag game #questions for fic writers #this was fun

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the-lady-ev-blog · 7 years

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OOC: Looking for more blogs to RP with!

Like/reblog if you’re:

Emerald City

OUAT/OUATIW

Harry Potter

Fantasy

LOTR

Disney

Gods and deities

Anyverse

Crossovers/OCs welcome!

#emerald city rp #ouat rp #harry potter rp #disney rp #lotr rp

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searchingwardrobes · 5 years

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Of Earth and Sea: 4/9

My fic for the 2019 @cssns will drop this Friday, so to celebrate, I’m re-posting my fic from last year (and also because I was a tumblr newbie back then and didn’t post the chapters here, just the link to Ao3)

Gorgeous art by @shipsxahoy!

Rated T

Tagging: @let-it-raines @profdanglaisstuff @optomisticgirl @wellhellotragic @welllpthisishappening @jennjenn615 @kday426 @mythologicalmango @thislassishooked @resident-of-storybrooke @xhookswenchx

Chapter Three:

Killian followed the loud and boisterous group of royal navy men into the tavern. His brother had frowned in concern when he told him he was heading out with some of the other men to celebrate making Lieutenant. Liam would frown even more if he saw how seedy this tavern was. But Killian hadn’t had a single drink since enlisting. Surely one night of carousing wouldn’t ruin him.

“The first round is on me, lads!” Killian announced as they approached the bar which resulted in a resounding cheer from his mates. Liam’s disapproving voice was like the proverbial angel on his shoulder, so he ordered beer instead of rum.

A few pints later, and the beer became rum. A few rounds of rum, and Killian knew he was in serious trouble. There was a raven haired bar wench in his lap, and another with caramel colored curls leaning over his shoulder, whispering scandalous things in his ear. The lass in his lap shoved the other away.

“I saw him first,” she snapped.

“That may be so,” the fairer haired beauty retorted, “but I have more experience to offer.”

Killian laughed as the brunette with the olive complexion took the younger woman by the ear and yanked her off Killian’s lap. She then leaned over, her curls brushing against his cheek and her ample bosom on clear display. Her gray eyes sparked with mischief.

“A private party upstairs, Lieutenant?”

Killian grinned as he knocked back another shot of rum. “Aye, lead the way fair maiden!”

He rose, the lady’s hand in his, arching his brows at the hoots and catcalls of his fellow naval men. He realized just how much liquor he had consumed when the stairs bucked and swayed in his vision. The maiden was awfully strong for a lass, helping him along.

“You didn’t say anything about payment,” Killian slurred as she yanked him into a room at the top of the stairs.

“My payment comes later, and isn’t coin,” she replied cryptically.

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Killian squinted against the morning light coming through the tiny window. He groaned as he clutched his aching head. He was naked under the covers, but he was alone in the bed. He blinked at the figure sitting in the chair in the corner of the room.

“I have to say,” the feminine voice spoke casually, “I’m not normally as into bedding mortal men as my sister Aphrodite. But you’re not fully a man, are you?”

Killian blinked and the figure came into slightly clearer focus. Instead of the homespun garments and corset of a bar wench, the woman was wearing a shimmering gown of white with gold embroidery. Silver sandals graced her feet, straps criss-crossing halfway up her thighs which were on display through the very long slit in her gown. A circlet of gold rested upon the caramel colored curls that now tumbled down her back and over her shoulder.

“I – I’m sorry,” he mumbled with a tongue that tasted of straw, “did you just something about Aphrodite?”

“Let me give you some wisdom, Lieutenant,” she said with a hint of sarcasm, completely disregarding his question, “a man with elven blood shouldn’t waste his talents on barmaids. I have to say my sister was right about your kind. You make excellent lovers.”

Killian grasped his forehead as a headache pounded behind his temples. “I’m not . . . an elf,” he grunted.

The woman rose and sauntered across the room, her curves swaying. She knelt by the bed and brushed his hair back from his face. “Ah, but elven blood still runs through your veins, Dunedin.”

Then a warmth radiated from her fingers and his mind was suddenly clear, his mouth and throat no longer dry. He eased himself up carefully, but there were no longer any affects from the drinks he imbibed the night before. The woman rose and arched a brow as she regarded him.

“You don’t hold your liquor as well as an elf, but still, you show rather high tolerance for its affects.”

“Who are you?” He glanced frantically about the room. “And where are my clothes?” It wasn’t just that he was naked and therefore, vulnerable, it was also that he had lost his brand new uniform. On his first night as a lieutenant!

“I didn’t want you rushing off too soon,” she replied, her lips quirked up in a smirk, “although, being a goddess, I could find plenty of ways to keep you where I want you.” She paused to peruse his form, her eyes lingering on the sheet pooled low, almost to his hips. She lifted her gray eyes to meet his blue ones.

Understanding finally dawned. “You’re Athena!”

She merely tilted her head in acknowledgement.

“But why would you . . . um . . .” Killian glanced about, pulling his sheet up to mid chest.

“Well, aside from the obvious pleasure of it, I have need of you. My brother Dionysus has stolen something of mine. You will get it back for me.”

Killian narrowed his eyes. “You’re a goddess. Can’t you just get it yourself?”

Athena lifted her gray eyes to the ceiling in irritation. “My brother has these annoying pests who serve him called dryads. I, being a child of Zeus, could never get past undetected. But an elf, however –“

“I told you, I’m not an elf.”

Athena arched a brow. “And you’re also not afraid to argue with a goddess. I wouldn’t be so recalcitrant if I were you, Dunedin, you’ve been marked.”

Killian felt a sudden warmth upon his chest, above his heart, and cried out. When he looked down, the symbol of an olive tree had been branded there.

“The symbol of Athena,” the goddess explained. “You have 48 hours. If you haven’t retrieved what was stolen from me by that time, you will be transformed into a . . . “ she paused, tapping her lips with her fingertip as she contemplated him, “a spider? No, I’ve done that before. A dolphin since you’re a sailor? No, that would be copying my brother. I’m thinking a bird . . . “ she snapped her fingers suddenly, “I’ve got it, a raven! Yes! Black feathers, tortured, brooding . . . yes, it suits you.”

“You know,” Killian quipped, “instead of picking out my punishment prematurely, you could tell me what I’m supposed to be stealing.”

She chuckled. “Yes, I like you Killian Jones. What you’ll be stealing is my olive tree. It’s supposed to grow on Mt. Olympus, an eternal source of wisdom for both gods and men, but my foolish brother is using it as a centerpiece for his orgies.”

“You can make liquor from olives?”

Athena glared at him. “You puny half-human, no. Its leaves are gold and silver. And my simpleton of a brother likes shiny things.”

Killian nodded. “Okay, shiny magical olive tree. Got it. Now um . . . about my clothes?”

Athena grinned slyly and suddenly, his uniform was there, dangling from her delicate fingers. “Come and get them, sailor.”

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Killian grumbled as he made his way through the thick foliage. Here he was, following an enchanted compass that would supposedly lead him to a part of the forest that no mortal man could find. Yet he could because he wasn’t fully mortal. Maybe.

At any rate, he had to embark on this quest alone. Mostly because it would lead to certain death for anyone else. But also because he didn’t want anyone to know of his lineage. It shouldn’t have mattered. It wasn’t as if he could wield magic or bring curses down on anyone. But being different meant people treated you with suspicion at best, outright fear at worst. He definitely didn’t want that tainting his service in the navy.

Killian stopped suddenly and dropped to his haunches. One thing that all Dunedin possessed due to the elven blood in their veins was a close connection with nature. It was what made him an uncanny navigator at sea. It was why he could smell a storm on the breeze when it was still miles away.

And it was why he could now feel the lightest of footfalls vibrating through the earth at his feet. Or more specifically, through the root systems of the trees. He walked on for twenty more minutes before he decided to let his pursuers know he was aware of them.

“Show yourselves!” he cried out, unsheathing his sword. Killian turned in a semi-circle. His elven ears picked up the fluttering of a leaf half a mile away. His elven eyes picked up a bird taking flight in a bush two miles ahead of him. Still no one showed themselves. “I know you are part of the trees!”

The bark of every tree in a sixty yard radius around him cracked and groaned. Then a circle of maidens burst forth from them, and every single one had an arrow cocked at him.

“Bloody hell,” Killian muttered under his breath.

“Why are you trespassing on Lord Dionysus’s lands?” one dryad asked him.

“Well, you see,” Killian chuckled nervously, rubbing at the back of his neck, “I was just minding my own business when this quite angry goddess decides to brand me. And now, well, all I want is a little tree that she’d like back. I’m sure it was just a misunderstanding. Sibling rivalry, you know. I have a brother myself –“

“Stop. Talking.”

“Aye, madam dryad, my apologies. However it does seem we are at an impasse, so if you could just kindly take me to your um, Lord Dionysus, so I can discuss this with him, I would really appreciate it.”

Another dryad rolled her eyes and yelled, “shoot!”

Killian cursed again as he deflected an arrow with his sword and then plunged through a break in the circle of dryads. He really wasn’t sure how he was going to manage to get out of this. Liam, I should have listened to you about the rum . . .

Suddenly, there were arrows zinging over his head and into the throng of dryads. One maiden warrior after another fell before the onslaught. Killian twisted his head to see what the hell was going on and tripped on a root. He cursed his own clumsiness until he saw that it was no accident. A dryad stood over him, her arms lifting at her sides as roots twined around each of his limbs.

“Athena should have found a true elf” the dryad spat, and Killian closed his eyes, bracing himself for death.

When nothing happened, he opened his eyes to see the dryad lying dead on the ground next to him. Above him a tall, slender man with long, light-blonde hair and elven ears lifted a sword.

“No, no, no, no!” Killian cried, words failing him. But the elf merely hacked at the roots, setting him free. Once he had hauled Killian to his feet, he held out a hand for him to shake.

“It’s wonderful to finally meet you, Killian. I’m Legolas, a friend of your mother’s”

Killian groaned as he shook the elf’s hand. “My mother sent you?”

Legolas grinned as he slapped the younger man on the shoulder. “Aye, and my friends and I arrived just in time.”

Killian hung his head, massaging his temple. He was nineteen and needed his mother to send help. Once again, he was relieved that none of his shipmates were here to witness this humiliation.

“Come on,” Legolas said to him, “let’s go have a little chat with Dionysus.”

Later that night, the elven warrior bid Killian farewell at the edge of the wood. The olive tree had been returned to Athena, and Killian’s chest no longer bore the brand of the goddess, yet shame and anger towards his meddling mother had Killian’s jaw clenching.

Legolas seemed to sense what he was thinking as he slapped him once again on the shoulder, “Don’t feel bad, my boy. She worries about you.”

“Well you can tell her that from now on I can fight my own battles!” He winced at his own voice, which sounded so young and inexperienced.

Legolas chuckled in understanding. “I will. But she’ll always be your mother. Mine is the same.” The elf reached into his satchel and took out a hard leather flask. He tossed it to Killian, and the young man fumbled to catch it. “Dionysus’s gift to me should be yours. One elf to another.”

He had corrected a goddess when she had called him an elf, but with Legolas it sounded as if he were bestowing an honor. Killian gave the older elf a crooked smile as he weighed the flask in his hand. “Dionysus said this flask never runs dry, filled with whatever alcohol a man prefers.” He tossed it back to Legolas. “Rum makes a man drunk, and when a man is drunk, it gives him bad form. I’ve learned my lesson.”

Legolas chuckled as he pocketed the flask. “Okay, lad, but one day, I have a feeling you’ll want it back.”

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“Lend dreams nin mel

Glenn-nai i even lands

Lend songs bo i thul

Im tur-feel ha in i nen,

Im tur-feel in i coe,

Im tur-smel ha in i gwilith”

Emma smiled as she leaned against the doorway to the nursery, watching Killian sing to their baby girl. He gazed down at her with such tenderness, that it absolutely melted Emma’s heart. Killian glanced up and grinned when he saw her.

“She’s finally asleep,” he whispered as Emma tiptoed across the room.

Elien Hope Jones was still only three weeks old, and still needed to nurse every three or four hours, around the clock. Not only that, the pediatrician thought she might have acid reflux because she fussed for at least a half hour after eating, scrunching up her poor little face and arching her back. Exhaustion and hormones had finally pushed Emma to the breaking point, and after Elien’s last feeding, she had lost it completely, sobbing against Killian’s chest that she was a failure. Her own milk was making their baby sick. He, of course, had soothed her calmly, despite the baby’s piercing wails. Then he had sent her on a walk.

“An elven lullaby?” Emma asked. She reached a hand out to rub Elien’s fuzzy little head, then stopped herself lest she wake the baby. Instead, she buried her fingers in Killian’s hair.

“Mhm,” he said, closing his eyes contentedly at her ministrations. “Elven songs have an almost magical reputation with children. Don’t know why I didn’t think of it sooner.”

“How does it go again?”

Killian grinned up at her knowingly. After learning of his heritage, Emma had asked him to speak elvish often. For some reason, she found it incredibly sexy, especially when he sang in elvish.

“Lend dreams nin mel glenn-nai i even lands. That means, sweet dreams, my love, and go to the elven lands. Lend songs bo i thul, which means sweet lullabies on the wind. And im tur-feel ha in i nen, im tur-feel in i coe, im tur-smel ha in i gwilith or in English, I can feel it in the water, I can feel it in the earth, I can smell it in the air.”

Emma arched a brow in surprise. “Seriously? Tolkien didn’t make that up?”

Killian chuckled softly, “Let me, guess. It’s in a movie.”

Emma shook her head. “Why am I still surprised by these things?”

Killian rose carefully from the rocking chair and then lay Elien carefully in her crib.

“Are you sure?” Emma whispered in concern, grabbing his arm. So far, she had only slept in the bassinette in their bedroom.

Killian nodded, pressing a kiss to Emma’s forehead, he then led her from the room, pulling the door shut slowly before turning to her and speaking. “You’re exhausted, love. You need a good night of uninterrupted sleep. Elven lullabies work wonders, I promise you. This could be our answer to her sleeping through the night.”

Emma’s brows creased in concern and Killian rubbed her arms up and down in an attempt to get her to relax. “But what about SIDS?”

Killian drew her close, tucking her head under his chin. “She’s swaddled and she’s on her back. We have a baby monitor with a bloody video screen. She’ll be fine.”

Emma nodded and let out a long sigh. Her weariness suddenly felt as if it were a lead weight on her shoulders. She didn’t protest further as Killian guided her down the hall. She crawled into their queen size bed, casting a worried glance at the bassinette. Yet when her head hit the pillow, her fatigue took over, and after one brief glance at the baby monitor, she was in a deep sleep.

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When Emma awoke next, it was in a panicked fog. She could have sworn she heard Elien crying, and her full, leaking breasts attested to the same. Yet it wasn’t crying she heard from the monitor, but contented cooing sounds. Honestly, sounds she had never heard from her baby daughter until this very moment. Emma rolled towards the monitor, and what she saw on the small, grainy screen had her bolting from the bed.

“What is it love?” Killian cried out, springing from the bed and following close on her heels.

Emma skidded to a stop in the nursery doorway, her heart pounding wildly in her chest. She hadn’t imagined the ghostly figure on the monitor. For there, bending over Elien’s crib, was a shimmery figure with long auburn hair. Tauriel startled when she saw her son and daughter-in-law in the doorway.

“How dare you!” Emma cried, rushing forward and shoving Tauriel aside. Or as much as you could shove a person who’s body wasn’t completely tangible.

“She called to me,” Tauriel tried to explain in that high, light voice of hers.

“The person she’s calling for,” Emma snapped as she gathered Elien in her arms, “is her mother. She’s hungry.”

Elien started to fuss in Emma’s arms as she made her way to the rocking chair. She sat and shoved down the strap of her tank top, not caring that Tauriel was in the room. Elien rooted around hungrily, then gave a sigh of contentment when she latched on and started to eat. Emma sagged wearily against the back of the chair and gave Tauriel a withering glare.

“You gave her an elven name,” Tauriel said, that smile that was so like Killian’s tugging at the corner of her mouth.

“It’s not like I have anything against elves . . . in theory,” Emma snapped. Was the woman really going to stand here and chit chat? And pretend that she hadn’t materialized in their house in the middle of the freaking night? Pretend she hadn’t gone to their daughter’s nursery without permission?

“Emma –“ Killian started, and it immediately made Emma bristle. She could tell by his tone that he was about to attempt to smooth things over.

“No son,” Tauriel interrupted before Emma could even open her mouth, “I’ll go.”

Emma expected her to shimmer and then fade away like she normally did, but instead she turned and walked out the door and down the stairs. It was then that she realized that her mother-in-law was in a more corporeal form than she normally was.

“Emma,” Killian started again, sinking down on his knees by the rocking chair, “she really couldn’t help it.”

“What the hell?” Emma snapped. “You’re seriously defending her?”

“She wasn’t speaking metaphorically when she said that Elien was calling her. That lullaby I sang? It speaks the truth. Children can visit the elven lands in their dreams, and when they do, an elf can become their guardian angel, so to speak.”

Emma stared down at Elien, who had for the first time since she was born, fallen asleep while nursing. Her breaths were deep and even, her tiny hands tucked contentedly at her cheeks. Emma wanted to stay mad at Tauriel, truly she did, but Elien became a different baby after that. She slept seven hours each night, napped for two hours morning and afternoon, and was overall a happy and content baby the rest of the time. And if Emma heard her daughter’s delighted squeals followed by elven songs in the night, she tried to tamp down the jealousy and just be happy that her baby girl was happy. To take delight in the thought that her daughter had more family than lost girl Emma could have ever imagined.

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Chapter Four:

She walks in beauty, like the night

Of cloudless climes and starry skies;

And all that’s best of dark and bright

Meet in her aspect of her eyes:

Thus mellow’d to that tender light

Which heaven to gaudy day denies

Killian’s gaze shifted from the pages of the book he held to look down at the woman in his arms. Milah tilted her head to look up at him, wonder shining in her gray eyes. He got lost staring into them until a smile tilted her lips and she poked him in the ribs.

“Is that all?”

Killian chuckled, ducking his head in slight embarrassment. “Nay, I apologize. I simply got distracted thinking about how perfectly this poem describes your beauty.”

Milah’s smile broadened in delight as her fingers combed through his chest hair. “Then by all means, Captain, finish the damn thing!”

Killian arched a brow at her, dramatically cleared his throat, then resumed the poem.

One shade the more, one ray the less,

Had half impair’d the nameless grace

Which waves in every raven tress,

Or softly lightens o’er her face;

Where thoughts serenely sweet express

How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.

Killian paused once again, distracted this time by Milah’s own “raven tresses” that cascaded in a riot of messy curls down her bare back. The dark color contrasted sharply with her porcelain white skin, and Killian reveled in the feel of both silky hair and soft skin as he ran his hand across her shoulder and down her arm.

And on that cheek, and o’er that brow,

So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,

The smiles that win, the tints that glow,

But tell of days in goodness spent,

A mind at peace with all below,

A heart whose love is innocent!

Killian tossed the book aside to gather Milah in his arms, burying his nose in the mass of soft curls, pressing the gentle curves of her body against the hard planes of his chest. He trailed whisper soft kisses along her jaw, breathing out words of Lord Byron’s poem that made him think of her. She wrapped her arms around him, burying one hand in his hair, and pressing the other between his shoulder blades. She let out a light, sarcastic laugh against his collarbone.

“Our love isn’t exactly innocent, though.”

Killian pulled away from her and she lay back against the pillows, one hand sprawled above her head. He traced his fingers along her chin, then let his hand drift along the curves of her body.

“But you know you aren’t just a pirate’s conquest, right? I love you.”

She smiled up at him, then reached up to cup his face. “I know.”

He kissed her softly, not allowing it to become heated so she would know the sincerity of his words. When he pulled back, a sad smile marred her face as she traced his jaw with her fingertips.

“I don’t doubt your love, but it does baffle me. I’m nothing. A farmer’s daughter, a farmer’s wife, dirt under my fingernails.” She gestured to the book he had tossed to the floor. “You read these beautiful words to me, while I can’t even read the labels to tell which is a bag of sugar and which is flour.”

Her voice rose in agitation, and her gray eyes widened and darted about. He drew her close, cradling her head against his shoulder and kissing her temple. Milah was a confident woman with over a decade of life experiences above Killian’s twenty-two years, and yet there were times that an inexplicable panic seemed to overtake her. She reminded Killian of a caged tigress he had seen in Agrabah once. The creature had been beautiful, its lithe body rippling with barely contained raw power. Yet it paced its cage, agitated and practically trembling, sniffing at the bars as if wondering, yet not daring to hope, that there might be life outside its tiny world.

“Take me away from here, Killian,” Milah practically begged, grasping desperately at both his arms. “You said once you could show me the world.”

Her request set his heart tripping in his chest. From the moment they’d met, he had been fascinated by this woman. And truth be told, it hadn’t taken much after that for him to fall completely in love with her. He had wanted to take her away with him, had honestly prolonged the Jolly Roger’s stay at this port in hopes that he could win her heart. But last night, he had learned Milah was keeping one very important detail from him.

She had a son.

“Milah,” he began gently, carefully, “believe me when I say that I wish to spend every moment of every day with you. Nothing would make me happier than to show you the wonders of every realm.”

He felt her stiffen in his arms. “I’m sensing a but coming.”

Killian let out a long sigh. “But have you thought about what leaving with me really means? Life at sea isn’t always an adventure. There are many long, monotonous days, the food starts to run low, sickness runs rampant. The ship is either freezing cold or oppressively hot. Not to mention I and my crew are wanted men –“

Milah cut him off with a shove to his chest as she pulled away from his embrace. “I should have known,” she muttered, shrugging into a satin dressing gown Killian had given her the first night they had made love, “men always make empty promises, don’t they?”

Killian sat up and lifted a hand towards her, “Milah, I didn’t say no.”

“You didn’t say yes either,” Milah countered.

Killian ran a hand through his hair in exasperation. “I just want you to be sure, my love. I don’t want you having any regrets.” He searched her face, weighing his words before finally speaking them, “What about your son?”

“I never asked to be a mother!” Milah practically shouted, flinging both arms wide. “A wife and a mother – those were the only choices offered to me in this god-forsaken village. I had a drunken father who saw me as nothing more than a glorified maid-servant. Then he arranges a match with Rumplestiltskin,” she spat out the name as if it were a vile curse word.

The emotions contorting her face would seem like anger to most, but Killian saw the anguish there. He thought of rising from the bed and going to her, but something in her eyes held him back.

“If I stay here, Killian,” she explained, fisting a hand at her breast, “I will die inside. I love my son, but I can’t live like this anymore.”

A long, tense moment stretched between them. Milah’s gray eyes were wet, but no tears slipped free. Oh, she was strong, like the flint of her eyes. She may not be a pirate yet, but she would be.

“I suppose we could come back for your boy. When he’s old enough,” Killian finally said.

The intensity in Milah’s face broke into a wide grin and she let out a hearty shout of joy as she jumped onto the bed. She sent Killian sprawling onto his back as she tackled him, peppering his face with kisses. He laughed.

“Let me up so I can dress,” he chuckled. “I need to procure provisions to make you more comfortable on the voyage as well as round up the crew.”

Milah clasped her hands beneath her chin, her face softened so that she looked like a young girl. “When do we set sail?”

“First thing on the morrow,” he told her, brushing her lips with a quick kiss, “so you have plenty of time to go home and say goodbye to your lad.”

Milah’s face fell as she shook her head vehemently. “I can’t, Killian. I’m afraid if I see Baelfire again, I won’t be able to go through with it. Can I please just stay here in your quarters?”

“Alright my love,” Killian replied as he twirled a lock of hair around his finger, “if that is your wish.”

And therein was the heart of it; he loved her and couldn’t deny her anything.

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It was at a dairy farm on the outskirts of town that Killian saw her. He thought he saw a flash of red hair as he paid the diary maid for a dozen roosting hens. He normally only got half a dozen, but with Milah joining them, he wanted the galley better stocked. He had spent little of his share of the spoils during this particular shore leave, preferring Milah’s company over other diversions.

He ignored the familiar presence as he turned from the farm and headed for the road. Yet she was not to be deterred.

“You’re making a mistake.”

Killian stopped midstride, hanging his head as he let out a deep sigh. He hooked one thumb into his belt loop, putting on a casual air as he turned.

“And why, pray tell, do you think you have any say in the matter?”

His mother’s normally serene expression flinched slightly at his bitter words. “I know your stubbornness well –“

“Then why waste my time?” He turned from her and kept walking.

“I also know how you feel about children being abandoned.”

Her words cut him to the core, and he whirled on her, his anger rising to the surface. “Don’t you dare compare Milah’s situation to your own, mother!”

Tauriel clasped her hands and tilted her chin slightly. “I don’t. For I have never left my son.”

“Never left?” Killian spluttered, shaking his head in shock. “How can you even say that? You aren’t even really alive!”

“I have fought against my very nature, Killian,” Tauriel tried to explain as she took quick steps closer, “fought against the ways of my people. I fought so hard, and in the end, the best I could do was choose you over your father. Can’t you see that?”

Killian raised his hand as if to ward off her excuses. “And what of Liam? You cast him aside. Because he wasn’t one of our kind.”

“That wasn’t –“ Tauriel pressed her lips together and took a deep breath. “Listen to me, Killian, please. Milah is choosing you over her son, and the ramifications of that are beyond what you can see.”

“Okay then,” Killian spat mockingly, “then enlighten me? What exactly are the ramifications?”

Tauriel frowned and massaged her brow. “You know the future is ever changing. It’s like the ripples caused when you toss a stone in a pond.”

“No more riddles. No more pretending to be my doting mother. You have no idea who Milah is or how difficult her life has been. We will come back for the boy when he’s old enough, I swear it.”

Tauriel’s form started to shimmer and fade. Just before she left, she gazed at him sadly and said, “It will haunt you, Killian, taking that boy’s mother away.”

When she was gone, Killian swore as he kicked at a stone in the path. For once, she had been a proper mother. Telling him things he didn’t want to hear because he knew she was right.

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“Wake up and look alive, you sorry lot of bilge rats!”

Killian wasn’t surprised at the barely concealed rage amongst his crew at being awakened before dawn after a night of carousing. Nevertheless, he continued to shove drunken sailors from their seats, and swipe at every surface within the tavern, sending half empty tankards of ale and rum splashing to the floor. His announcement would bring merriment, and then all anger would fade. Of that he was sure.

“Look alive, mates, we set sail at first light!” the answering groans were of little surprise, so he quickly added, “And I’ve captured us comely loot, my lads. The dark haired lass who has been making merry with us these past few weeks is at this very moment locked in my quarters.”

His announcement woke up the stupefied men. Some cheered, some catcalled and shouted out lewd remarks, while others seemed more baffled.

“Milah, sir?” one man asked.

“Aye,” Killian answered with a grin.

“And we be sharin’ her cap’n?” another asked. “Like any other loot?”

“Men have needs don’t they?” Killian answered with a hearty laugh.

The men catcalled further at the clarification, especially once they realized who Killian had “kidnapped.” He had seen the looks Milah had garnered from his crew whenever she had entered the tavern. He had no intentions, of course, in sharing her. Or using any woman in such a vile way, truth be told. But for one, he had a reputation to uphold.

And for another, he had a plan to set in motion. When he saw the tavern keepers’ daughter attempt to stifle a gasp and then run out into the streets, a sly grin spread across his face.

He would give this Rumplestiltskin one more chance to prove he deserved Milah. Then hopefully he could put his mother’s concerns far from his mind.

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“You did what?”

Killian set both hands on Milah’s shoulders, but she shook them off.

“You started a rumor making me out to be a common whore, and now you expect to fight for who gets to claim me?”

“No, Milah, of course not,” he tried to clarify, “I just -“ He broke off, running both hands through his hair in agitation. He didn’t want to share his past, but he saw no other way to calm Milah down. He took both her hands in his and eased down onto the bed, drawing her with him.

“I saw my mother today,” he began slowly. He explained his conversation with Tauriel on the road. That of course meant he had to explain everything else. Who he was – what he was – and all that he had been through as a boy. He had told Milah already about being a slave and about Liam, but he knew that the rest of the story might push her away. He feared it had when she slowly withdrew her hands and looked away from him.

“So you don’t approve of me leaving Bae,” she whispered.

Killian reached out to gently grasp her chin and turn her face towards him. “Honestly, I don’t like the idea of breaking up a family. But I know how trapped you feel. Even though I’ve turned to piracy, I still believe in good form.”

Milah gave him a tremulous smile. “So what do you propose then?”

He took a deep breath, hoping she would understand. “Word has gotten around that you are here against your will. As much of a coward as you claim your husband to be, surely he will come for you.”

Milah scoffed, “I wouldn’t be so sure about that.”

“Well, if he doesn’t show, that’s that. We sail at dawn.” Killian took a deep breath as he ran his thumb across Milah’s knuckles. “If he shows, then we fight for you.”

“Killian!” she explained. “You can’t be serious! He could never match you in a dual! Do you plan to kill him?”

He knew she was right. The man could barely walk, much less passably use a sword. “If he fights, I’ll give him quarter.”

“And me?”

“You will be free to go,” Killian paused, arching a brow at her, “wherever you wish.”

Milah grinned and threw her arms around his neck. “And if by some miracle my husband wins?” she whispered in his ear.

He pulled her even closer, burying his fingers in her hair. “Then you shall be my paramour. The light that guides me home.”

Milah pulled back and cupped Killian’s face in her hands. “As poetic as that sounds, Captain, it isn’t enough for me. One way or the other, I’m sailing away on the Jolly Roger.”

In the end, she was right. About her husband and her own destiny. Years went by, the ripples grew, and in the end, Tauriel was also right. But even as the pain of his shattered heart and his missing hand threatened to overwhelm him, Killian knew he would have done it the same way all over again.

He was more like his mother than he cared to admit.

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Killian stopped in his tracks as he came out onto the back porch. Emma was sitting in the grass with Elien in her lap, and sitting across from them was his mother. And if he hadn’t known any better, it would have looked like a normal scene. Tauriel lifted a carefully woven garland of clover and set it atop the two year old’s head. Elien squealed and clapped her hands in delight. She twisted herself as if trying to see the garland atop her own head, and the funny face she made had Emma and Tauriel laughing as they caught each other’s gaze. The child reached up to touch the garland, sending it sliding down her light red hair to rest against her ear. Elien seemed to Killian to be a combination of his mother and his wife. Her red hair was lighter than Tauriel’s and shimmered with golden hues when it caught the light. Her green eyes were a shade darker than Emma’s yet a shade lighter than Tauriel’s. Her nose and chin were all Emma, and of course, the light dusting of freckles across the bridge of her nose she got honestly from both sides of the family. Even Killian had been freckled as a youth.

She was basically the prettiest little lass in all the realms.

Elien turned then and squealed even louder when she saw her father. “Papa!” she cried as she raced across the lawn. Killian thought with pride that she was rather coordinated for a two year old. He bounded down the steps and scooped her up, peppering her face with kisses, delighted at the sound of her laughter. Emma, face bright with sun and happiness, came to give him a kiss hello. They traded off working at the station in the afternoons so one of them could be home with Elien. In the mornings, she went to Ashley Herman’s Mother’s Morning Out.

“Say hello,” Emma whispered in his ear, inclining her head towards Tauriel. Louder, she said to their daughter, “Come help Mommy get dinner on the table, okay, kiddo?”

Elien started to pout until Killian tickled her and made her giggle. Then she willingly went with her mother. Killian turned to his mother and was surprised to see her already fading away. Just moments ago with Elien, she had seemed as firm and real and alive as she had when he was a boy. Killian quickened his steps as he crossed the lawn, and she reached out for him.

“Mother?” he asked with concern.

“You’re happy, son.”

That was all she had time to say.

Killian frowned at her abrupt departure as he headed back into the house. Emma’s own smile fell when she saw the concerned look on his face.

“Killian,” she said quickly, “I hope you’re not mad.”

“Mad?” Killian furrowed his brow in confusion. He took in Emma’s demeanor: the way she bit her lip, avoided his gaze, and shuffled her feet. “Wait. Has this been a regular thing?”

“Well, yeah,” she admitted with a shrug. “Elien loves her, and . . . “ she hesitated for a moment, wetting her lips “your mother seems, more . . . I don’t know, real when she’s with her.”

Killian’s heart sank as suddenly everything fell into place. How rarely he saw his mother any more, how quickly she had faded when Elien went inside the house, and above all, his mother’s cryptic words. “She doesn’t think I need her anymore,” he whispered softly, “but Elien does.”

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Killian was quiet for the rest of the evening. Emma was used to him brooding when something was bothering him, and they had been married long enough for her to know that all she could do was give him time. Still, when they crawled in bed after reading Elien a bedtime story, she curled up against his chest and splayed her hand over his heart. Just so he would know that she was ready to listen.

“How long?” he finally asked.

Emma’s fingers paused in raking through his chest hair. He didn’t sound angry, just disappointed. She still wasn’t sure why she had hidden this from him. She swallowed before answering, “Just since spring began. I swear.”

“A whole month? And you never thought to mention it?”

Emma propped herself up on her elbow so she could look him in the eye. “I didn’t intend to hide it from you. I actually thought of bringing it up dozens of times, but for some reason I always hesitated. The two of you have such a strained relationship already, and then you made that comment about not seeing her as much anymore –“

“What comment?”

Emma sighed. “Remember? You kind of sarcastically said something like I suppose my mother’s back to watching from a distance.”

Killian let out a long, weary breath as he rubbed a hand down his face. “Aye, now I remember.”

Emma massaged his shoulders. “Talk to me, babe.”

Killian finally opened his eyes, his bright blue gaze filled with a sadness that Emma recognized immediately. “It shouldn’t matter to me anymore.”

Emma gave him a small smile as she cupped his face in his hands. “Don’t say that; especially not to me. Remember what you said to me once? That wounds of childhood linger? No one gets that more than me.”

He gave her a wobbly smile in return. “When an elf’s heart is broken, and they waste away, their curse isn’t just that they are forever trapped between life and death. They are also cursed to wander after the one they love most.”

Emma nodded as she mulled over his words. “But your mother didn’t wander after your father, she wandered after you. You were the one she loved most.” Killian fell silent, taking Emma’s hand in his and running his thumb over her knuckles. Finally, Emma quietly asked, "Doesn’t that prove how much she loved you?”

Killian didn’t answer, but Emma could see his jaw clenching. She laced their fingers together and lifted his arm up. She slid underneath and rested her head against his chest.

“It doesn’t matter to a kid, does it?” she began. Killian made no response, so she continued. “My parents putting me in that wardrobe – I get that, you know? They didn’t know what the curse would be. They wanted me to have my best chance, same as I did with Henry.” Emma took a deep breath. Her next confession was something she had never told him before; never told anyone. “But when I found out they could have come for me when I was in foster care? With the flowers? I told Mom I understood, but honestly? That hurt. I mean, couldn’t they have found a way? Raised me, brought me to Storybrooke when it was time for me to break the curse? I don’t think I could ever tell them any of this, but it made me feel . . . rejected. Maybe if I grew up in royalty I would get it, I don’t know. But the little lost girl in me? She wishes her parents had come for her.”

Emma hadn’t realized she had begun to cry until she felt the tear slip down her cheek and splash on Killian’s chest. He must have felt it too, because his arms tightened her.

“You understand me, Swan,” he whispered against her hair, “you always have.”

He told her nothing more that night. They made love, in an almost reverent way, the coming together of two broken people. Later, they heard Elien’s babbling on the baby monitor accompanied by Tauriel’s elvish songs.

Killian reached over and switched it off.

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It was amazing, really, how quickly Emma’s opinion of her mother in law had changed. When she and Killian were first married, the woman was an intimidating mystery. This almost angelic, other-worldly being who made Emma feel painfully ordinary. Then she had swooped in and comforted Elien when Emma couldn’t, and ugly, hot anger had welled up. Okay, maybe it was more jealousy than anger. No one wanted her mother-in-law implying that she couldn’t cut it as a mom. Especially Emma Swan Jones, who had enough baggage in that department, thank you very much.

So Emma really hadn’t expected to get to a place where she looked forward to spending time with the woman. Yet, here they were. Tauriel’s afternoon visits right after Elien’s nap on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays had become a special part of the day ever since the snow’s melted. Elien adored her grandmother, and Tauriel had a kind of gentle strength that reminded Emma of her own mother. Granted, the woman never seemed to understand any of Emma’s jokes, and she was even more clueless about pop culture references than her son, but they still spent most of their time in pleasant conversation, smiles, and laughter. Most of the laughter coming from Elien’s antics. The more time Emma spent with the woman, the more she understood her husband. His steadfastness, his almost obsessive commitment to whatever task he set his mind to, his uncanny ability to read people, and even his rebellious streak – all of these he had inherited from his mother.

Emma also felt freer around her mother-in-law when it came to her magic. While elven magic was of a different sort than the kind Emma possessed, they were still somewhat kindred spirits in that regard. And though her parents were supportive of her magic, she always got the sense it still made them a bit uncomfortable. She never felt that way around Tauriel. So they would both use their magic to entertain little Elien. Emma would make tiny sparks in the palm of her hand and watch her daughter’s eyes light up in wonder. Tauriel would make the water in the garden fountain leap up in the shapes of horses or dancing maidens, and Elien would laugh as she reached out to grab hold of the figures in the water. Then her little brow would furrow, in the spitting image of her father, and Emma and Tauriel would both laugh at her confusion.

And the first time Elien herself showed signs of magic, causing the lights to flicker when cutting her first set of molars, Emma had poured out all her fears and worries to Tauriel. Then the two of them, mother and grandmother, gave the little toddler her first magic lessons.

After that first lesson was when Emma almost told Killian about these afternoon visits. Elien had conjured up a circlet of flowers atop her papa’s head at dinner that night. But Killian had been so proud of his daughter, and so delighted, that Emma hadn’t wanted to risk ruining his mood.

It was a wonder, really, that Killian was so proud of Emma’s abilities, and by extension, their daughter’s. Magic had brought him so much pain, and yet he didn’t want Emma or Elien to change or hide that part of them. It made Emma love him that much more.

And it was her love for her husband that made Emma’s emotions so raw the next time Tauriel appeared on the edge of the wood at the back of their property. Emma was pushing Elien in the baby swing that David had hung from their large oak tree. Tauriel smiled in greeting as she approached, but all Emma could manage was a tight nod in answer. Of course, like her son, Tauriel knew immediately that something was wrong.

“Is Killian alright?”

Emma managed a smile at the concern in the woman’s voice. She was, after all, a mother too. “Yes, he’s fine.”

Tauriel gave her a lopsided grin, another trait Killian inherited from her. “That’s only partially true. Isn’t it?”

Emma sighed, gave Elien a good push that would keep her going for a while, and then turned to her mother-in-law with her arms crossed firmly across her chest. “Okay. I understand what happens when an elf suffers a broken heart. But . . . you were still around. I’ve seen you now with Elien. You were able to stick around longer when Killian was younger, weren’t you?”

Tauriel’s gaze softened and her eyes focused on something unseen, “Yes, I could take solid form then for sometimes hours at a time. Especially at night. But even in the day time, we had some wonderful times. If he could get away to the woods, that is. We would play hide and seek or climb trees. Even by the shore I could come to him. Not for so long, but long enough to give him a hug and a kiss and see what sea creatures he had discovered in the tide pools. If he hadn’t been at sea –“

Emma cut her off sharply. “Do you know what he endured?” Her voice shook, remembering things Killian could only tell her in the dark because they were so horrific. Things that happened to a small, pretty little boy on a ship full of loathsome men. She pressed her eyes together to keep the tears at bay. “And you just stood at a distance!” Her voice was rising now. “You didn’t even try to protect him!”

The swing had stopped moving, but Elien seemed to sense the tension between her mother and her grandmother. She remained silent, sucking on her fingers as her eyes darted nervously between the two women. Tauriel’s face had turned almost white from Emma’s verbal onslaught. When she finally spoke, her voice first came out strained and almost a whisper.

“I tried!” she choked her emotions as tears welled in her bright green eyes. “God, I tried! I broke past my elven limitations, but the sea was a barrier I couldn’t break. Until he dreamed. Or worse. I’ll never forget finding him curled in on himself, his little body broken.” She broke on a sob, covering her face in agony. When she pulled her eyes away, her face was wet with streams of tears. That was all it took for the tears to flow down Emma’s face as well. “I held him and sang. Elven music can heal. It healed his wounds and eased his physical pain, but nothing could touch his broken soul. I watched helpless over the years as his heart broke again and again and again.”

She beat her chest in rhythm with each again. Emma had never seen her so emotional.

“As a mother, can you not comprehend what kind of hell that is?”

A sob broke from Emma’s throat at her question. “No,” Emma managed to choke, “but I can imagine.”

Tauriel tilted her head back, hugging her arms to herself. “And Liam? I loved him as if he were my own flesh and blood. Yet I couldn’t speak to him or hold him. Do you know what it’s like to know your child is out there, but you are powerless to communicate with him? Powerless to let him know that you do love him?”

Emma’s tears were a silent thing now, rolling in rivulets down her cheeks. She nodded her head. “Actually, yes. I do know what that’s like. For ten years I knew Henry was out there somewhere. But I had no way of knowing if he was happy or safe. I had no way to explain to him why I gave him up.”

Tauriel took a tentative step closer, her hand out to her daughter-in-law. Emma took it, hesitant. Tauriel pulled her close, wrapping her in a hug. She wasn’t has soft as Snow, with her tall, willowy figure, but she was warmer somehow. And she smelled of earth and flowers. Emma breathed in deeply, and she literally felt strength flow into her veins.

“I can do nothing for the cracks in your heart,” Tauriel whispered to her, “but what strength I have, I give it to you, daughter.”

Emma felt almost embarrassed when Tauriel released her, giving the woman a shy smile as she tucked her hair behind her ears. She turned back to give the swing a push.

“Effie push me!” Elien demanded, kicking her little legs stubbornly.

Emma glanced at Tauriel and chuckled, wiping at the tear stains on her cheeks. Elien had made up the name for her grandmother, a title they could only guess was a two year old’s way of saying “elf.”

“Effie” obeyed the toddler tyrant, coming behind her and giving the swing a push.

“Emma,” Tauriel said softly, “my sin was giving my heart to Brennan Jones. And believe me, I have paid that penance. But the worst torture was the penance my boys had to pay. And I will never forgive myself for that.”

Emma leaned against the trunk of the oak tree and took in Tauriel’s tortured green eyes and the clenching of her jaw. Yes, her husband was much more like his mother than he realized, from the angular features to the lingering sense of self-loathing. And suddenly, she understood them both.

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Of Earth and Sea: 2/9

Rating: T

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Chapter One

Killian grunted as he swung his arm up to the next ledge. He dug his hook into the craggy rock and pulled himself over the edge. Arms trembling from the long climb, he stood at the pinnacle of stone and gazed out at the horizon. He pulled the water skin from his satchel and took a long drink. He could see the Jolly Roger moored just a few leagues out from the rocky shore. His crew, especially Smee, hadn’t liked the idea of him making this quest alone. The witch, however, had made it clear. This was his journey to take and his alone. He was glad now for it; climbing over these rocks would have been even more difficult with a companion.

The salty breeze ruffled Killian’s hair and tugged at his blouse. He breathed deeply of it, the scent calming him as it always did. And yet there was another tug on his soul. That of rich loam, green moss, and the ancient groaning of trees. He shook his head as if to fight off that half of him. One thing was for certain; he was eager to be away from this rocky terrain.

He turned away from the view of the coast to make his way down into the valley below. The rocks were loose, held together by pebbly soil. Going up it had been both an aid to his hook and a danger. Imbed his metal appendage into a crevice too loose, and he could have gone tumbling to his death. It had been slow going. Now, the loose ground beneath his feet made it a quick journey to the floor of the valley below.

As he walked along the tiny trickle that he supposed could be called a stream, the ground slowly became less rocky. Soon, the water was a true stream, tumbling merrily over smoother rocks. Then it became a lazy river that emptied into a tranquil pool. A thin waterfall streamed from the cliff above, casting a shimmery rainbow in the mist.

By this time, the sun was beginning to dip low, so Killian made camp. He found a spot near enough to the water for the ground to be softer and more comfortable, but near enough the rock wall to keep him hidden in shadows. He didn’t dare make a fire. He ate from his meager rations and then curled up upon the grass, using his satchel as a makeshift pillow.

Dawn had barely come when a rustling sound awakened Killian. He started up from a light sleep, his sword quickly drawn. Heart pounding, he gazed about to see nothing. The silence surrounding him was an oppressive thing, causing the hair on his neck to stand up.

Then suddenly, something white was swooping down, almost clipping his head. He ducked, swearing under his breath, and then blinked in shock when he lowered his arms and looked up. There, standing calmly and regally by the water’s edge was a pure white swan. It lowered its head as if in greeting and Killian rose slowly to his feet. He eased closer to the bird, a question furrowing his brow.

“Is this the sign the witch spoke of?” he asked in a whisper. It felt odd to speak at all in this still and quiet place.

The swan bent its neck slowly, its beak almost to the ground. It seemed to bow before him. Then it turned suddenly, flapped its wings, and rose into the air. It spun in a circle above Killian’s head, then dove into the stream of the waterfall.

Killian rolled his eyes. “I suppose it wants me to follow it,” he muttered sarcastically.

He re-sheathed his sword, slipped his satchel over his head, and made his way gingerly across the slippery rocks to the waterfall. He reached out with his hand tentatively, and jumped slightly when the water parted like a curtain. On the other side, he could see the swan standing patiently, as if waiting for him.

“Bloody hell,” he muttered as he stepped through, “this better not be a trap.”

Once beneath the waterfall, the swan disappeared. Killian swore again as he turned in a circle. What now? He edged closer to the smooth, rock wall behind the falls, running his hand over the slick, wet surface. He paused when he felt indentations beneath his palm. He drew closer, and sure enough, there was a carving there. The elegant neck of a swan, the etchings of feathers at its back. Killian pressed harder against the carving, and a disk of rock collapsed into the wall, light shooting around its edges. Killian squinted against the sudden bright light, backing away hesitantly from the magic. But as the spots of light cleared from his vision, he saw an open archway and beyond it a tunnel carved into the side of the mountain.

Killian stepped inside, wondering how he would see in the dark cavern, only to see a light bouncing ahead of him. When he hesitated over following it, the light seemed to become agitated, coming closer and then skittering away again. As if the light were entreating him to follow.

Killian took a deep breath, reminding himself that swans – white ones at least – were an omen of light magic, not dark. Then again, his own heart was filled with nothing but black deeds. Perhaps the light here wished to snuff out the darkness of his villainous heart?

He made his way down the tunnel, hand hovering at the hilt of his sword, his hook held aloft and ready. The tunnel suddenly curved and dipped downward, and the light he had been following suddenly enlarged and morphed once again into the beautiful white swan. It seemed to stare at him for a moment, then it turned and flapped upward, disappearing in a shower of rainbow colored light. When the bird disappeared, there before him was a simple pirate’s cutlass hanging in an alcove of rock.

Killian shook his head in confusion as he stepped close. He picked up the cutlass, weighing it in his hand and examining the hilt. He rolled his eyes and tilted his head back when he saw the language etched there.

“Elvish,” he muttered, a bitter edge to his voice.

“You found it,” said a breathy voice behind him. He knew that voice well. It’s soft, airy quality that used to soothe him as a child.

Now it sent anger pulsing through his veins.

“You?” he choked out. He had meant it to come out accusing, but instead he sounded like a hurt and betrayed child.

Tauriel came closer, steps hesitant, her hands clasped before her. Her ginger hair was covered by a hunter green cloak. Killian took a step back, wary of her intentions.

“You were the witch in that glade?”

She shook her head, pulling the cloak from her head. “No, but she wasn’t a witch. She was one of my kind. One of the few willing to help elves in my position.”

“You mean the ones neither living nor dead?” Killian spat. “Nice of her. I should have known this was about you, not me. This weapon won’t even work against the Dark One, will it?”

Tauriel remained completely serene, though her eyes became dull and sad. It was an elven trait that Killian had always found infuriating, especially since his own emotions were always so volatile.

“No to both. No, it won’t help your quest against the Dark One. And no, my son, this is not about me at all. You are floundering, Killian, and I can watch it no longer.”

“Ah, yes,” Killian quipped, gesturing with his hook, “watch. All my mother ever does, ever has done. Watch. And what exactly about the show bothers you?”

Tauriel blinked as tears formed in the corner of her eyes, “You are in pain, Killian. You have closed your heart off, wary of love, and filled it with darkness instead.”

“What worries you, mother? That I will waste away like you?” Killian is practically snarling now, his fist clenching. His mother’s form is shifting, and he knows soon she will fade away. Trapped between the living and the dead, she can only communicate with him for brief moments at a time.

“No. For thankfully, the woman you lost was not your true love.”

“How dare you!” Killian cried, his face contorting with pain. “How dare you question the depth of my love for Milah!”

“Oh, my darling,” Tauriel said, reaching her arms out towards him, but they were now so ethereal, she couldn’t touch him, “that isn’t what I mean at all. But you can love again, I have seen it.”

Killian shook his head, “Please, none of your elven prophecies. All your kind ever does is speak in riddles. I’ve no time for it, nor do I put any stock in it.”

Tauriel was only a mere shadow now. “Even so, take the cutlass, my son. The swan would not have led you to it if it weren’t meant for you.”

Killian looked down at the weapon in his hand. It wasn’t delicate enough or ornate enough to have been wrought by elven hands. And yet the words etched into it were elvish. “What does it say?”

He looked up to find his mother gone; his question unanswered.

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Killian Jones had varying types of dreams. Like anyone, some were a bizarre mixture of sights, sounds, and thoughts. Ridiculous tumblings of his mind with no meaning. And like anyone he also had dreams that represented his deepest desires and fears. Emma figured prominently in dreams like that and had for some time.

But being a few centuries old with far too many regrets, Killian also had dreams that were simply memories. *Most of them painful, causing him to wake with a start. Then he would take in his surroundings, see Emma lying peacefully next to him, and feel his heartbeat return to normal.

This morning was one of those times, though the memory of the swan, the cutlass, and his mother was not particularly disturbing nor wrought with regrets. Nevertheless, it troubled him, and he spent several minutes watching Emma sleep. He admired the way the early light of dawn shone against her hair. He lifted a few strands, relishing the soft feel of them between his fingers. The strap of her tank top had slipped from her shoulder during the night, and he leaned forward to fix it, his hand lingering against her skin longer than necessary. He leaned forward and planted a kiss there as well. Emma sighed and shifted, but didn’t waken.

He rose quietly from the bed, grabbing a t-shirt from the hamper and slipping it over his head. He didn’t bother with his brace, a fact that still, five years into marriage, filled him with gratitude and wonder. Emma truly loved every part of him.

He walked downstairs to the kitchen and used the Keurig machine to make a quick cup of coffee. He grasped the mug in his right hand and made his way to the back porch. His eyes scanned the quiet yard. Many would have missed the figure on the edge of the property, her green and brown garments blending into the trees. But Killian had the keen eyes of a sailor.

Okay, and the keen eyes of an elf, too.

He ground his teeth, his jaw clenching as he made his way across the yard to her, the dew on the grass wetting his bare feet.

“Mother.”

“Killian.”

“Why are you here?”

“I’m always near, my son.”

Killian closed his eyes tightly. So many emotions swirled through him, it was hard to pin down exactly what he was feeling.

“I didn’t ask you to.”

Tauriel raised her hand as if to touch him, then retreated. “Now that you’ve made a home, and are no longer at sea, perhaps we can . . . get to know one another again?”

“And how is that going to work exactly? 5 minutes at a time?”

As if to confirm his words, Tauriel’s shape began to fade. As she disappeared into mist, she smiled and said, “I love you, Killian.”

When she was gone, his fist clenched around the coffee mug. For some reason, anger surged through him and he threw the ceramic as hard as he could against the nearest tree where it shattered into pieces.

“Killian?”

He turned to see Emma standing on the porch, her arms tight around her chest as she shivered barefoot in her knee-length bathrobe. As he walked towards her, he tried to give her a bright smile, and she gave him a crooked one in return.

“I never liked that mug either,” she quipped with a nod of her head towards the trees.

That got a laugh out of him as he walked up the porch steps. He enveloped her in a hug, placing a kiss against the top of her head. “Sorry, love. Tis nothing.”

“Why are you so upset with her still?” she asked, lips pressed against his collar bone. “I thought you both said what you needed to.”

Killian sighed as Emma pulled back to look into his face. His mother had shown up five years ago, right before their wedding. It had been a lot for Emma to process, finding out he was a Dunedain – half-elf. But she had taken it all in stride, including his mother who hovered between the land of the living and the dead.

“So did I, love. But I didn’t expect her to linger here.”

“She loves you,” Emma said, rubbing his arms gently up and down.

Killian gave a half-hearted smile. “I know. It’s just hard having a mother who’s . . .”

“A ghost?”

“I told you, she’s not a ghost. She’s not dead.”

Emma shook her head. “Okaaay, but she’s not really alive, either. Ghost is the easiest label.” Killian opened his mouth, and Emma lifted her hand to stop his explanation. “I know, I know. She’s immortal, but your father broke her heart, so she wasted away, blah, blah, blah. Got it.”

“Are you regretting marrying me? With my elf ears and my half-dead mother?”

Emma truly laughed as she lifted her arms to loop them around his neck. “With my life? You’re one of the most normal people I know. Even at three hundred plus and counting.”

Killian quirked a brow at her teasing. “And at least I’m not a flying monkey.”

Emma rolled her eyes and smacked him in the chest. “You’re never going to let me live that down, are you?”

She kissed him lightly as they both laughed. Killian then steered her towards the door back into the kitchen. They made breakfast, moving around the space together with five years of practiced ease. Then Emma went to take the first shower while Killian did the dishes.

If she noticed that he had side-stepped her question about his mother, she didn’t let on.

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Of Earth and Sea: 9/9 (Epilogue)

My fic for the 2019 @cssns will drops TOMORROW, so to celebrate, I’m re-posting my fic from last year (and also because I was a tumblr newbie back then and didn’t post the chapters here, just the link to Ao3)

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Rated T

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Epilogue:

Killian still wasn’t quite used to seeing his mother this way: sitting with a cup of Granny’s coffee, wearing a cream colored blouse and dark wash jeans. A necklace hung around her neck of green, blue, and brown beads, a gift from Emma and Elien. His little girl had explained that the colors reminded her of the elven lands. Tauriel’s red hair was pulled back from her face in a barette rather than in the loose knots of an elf. But the hairstyle still put her pointed ears on display.

“How are you settling in?” he asked her before taking a sip of his own coffee.

She smiled contentedly. “My room here is quite comfortable. And Moe French is being very patient with me at the flower shop. I’m still having trouble with that . . . what’s the magic box called again?”

Killian grinned over the rim of his cup. “A computer, mother.”

“Right, the computer,” she replied with a matching smile.

Belle was kind to put in a word for Tauriel with her father. The shop was the perfect fit for her, putting her close to the sights and smells of growing things. Still, he sometimes caught her looking longingly towards the woods at times. That was why he was secretly negotiating with Rumple to purchase his old cabin. He knew she would be happier out there.

Tauriel set down her mug and regarded him thoughtfully. “But checking up on me isn’t the reason for this breakfast, is it?”

Killian sighed. “No.” He ran his finger along the edge of his mug nervously. This had been Emma’s idea, though he knew she was right. He and his mother needed this conversation.

“You can tell me anything,” she said softly.

His mother already knew his darkest sin. How could he possibly make things worse? “Why did you stay away so long? After . . . you know, what happened with father.”

Tauriel’s brow furrowed. “You asked me to stay away.”

Killian swallowed hard. “I thought . . . perhaps . . . that I had fallen too far. Become too dark for you . . . to love me.” He blinked furiously, willing himself not to let a tear escape. He suddenly felt like a small boy again.

“Oh, darling,” Tauriel said, reaching across the table to grasp his hand and hook, “nothing could ever erase my love for you. And trust me when I say I was never far. But you had suffered so much loss, had so much pain and anger, I thought it was best to heed your wishes and give you space.”

Her eyes shone with tears as she continued. “And I was watching when you met Emma the very first time, and I knew you had found your true love.”

Killian chuckled. “It wasn’t exactly love at first sight.”

“A mother knows. So I kept watching, so proud when you became the hero I always knew you were. And when Emma accepted your proposal, I finally thought that maybe you would allow me back into your life again.”

She squeezed his hand and hook with affection and Killian lifted her hand to his lips and brushed a kiss there. “I love you, mother. I’m so happy you’re here with us.”

Tauriel’s smile was beaming as she pulled her hands into her lap. “I have waited so many long years to hear you say that.”

The tender moment was interrupted by a perky voice bustling into the diner.

“Tauriel,” Snow exclaimed, approaching their table with a large binder in her arms, “I hate to interrupt your breakfast, but I found some things on Pinterest this morning for the party, and I just had to show them to you.”

Emma was behind her mother, her hand grasping Elien’s. She caught Killian’s eye. “Sorry, I couldn’t stop her.”

“Nonsense!” Tauriel said, sounding almost as eager as Snow, “I can’t wait to see it all.”

She gestured for Snow to sit next to her and the two women began to eagerly pour over the contents of the binder. Elien insisted on sitting between her Grandma and her Effie, practically climbing over the table to squeeze between them. Emma shook her head at the three of them as she slid into the other side of the booth next to Killian.

“Oh, I like this,” Tauriel said, pointing at a picture in the binder.

“Isn’t that adorable?” Snow gushed, “The kids get to decorate little bottles and put sparkly sand inside as fairy dust.”

“Real fairy dust?” Elien asked eagerly.

“No, sweetie,” Snow laughed, running her hand over her granddaughter’s strawberry blonde curls, “just pretend.”

“Oh, and look at this, an archery competition,” Tauriel continued, turning the page.

“With foam tipped arrows of course,” Snow explained, “I thought we could put it right next to the horses. David’s going to dress up in his Prince Charming clothes and give the kids rides.”

“Mom,” Emma spoke up, “it’s just a kid’s birthday party. It sounds like your throwing Elien a full blown Renaissance festival.”

“Five is a big birthday,” Snow argued, and Emma laughed lightly at the indignation on her mother’s face. “And she’s a princess.”

“On both sides,” Tauriel put in.

“That’s right,” Snow said, a hint of teasing creeping into her voice, “Killian never did tell us he was of royal blood.”

Killian coughed, his face turning red. He scratched behind his ear as he muttered, “Well, I never said anything about being part elf either.”

“But Papa’s proud of being an elf now, and so am I,” Elien announced, pushing her hair back to show off her ears. “See how cool my ears are? Just like Papa’s and Effie’s”

Everyone laughed at Elien’s pronouncement and Tauriel pulled her in for a tight hug and a kiss on the cheek. Emma watched her daughter, sandwiched between two grandmothers who looked no older than her parents but were technically 60 and 500. Then Emma squeezed the hand of her daughter’s father, who was 300, but didn’t look a day over 35. Emma was sure there would be days when Elien got older that she would roll her eyes in embarrassment over her crazy family, but Emma hoped she would also know how incredibly blessed she was.

Killian leaned over and whispered in her ear, “Nin ylv na-pant.”

Emma grinned, her eyes bright. She always loved to hear him speak elvish. “What does that mean?”

He kissed her forehead before answering, “My cup runneth over.”

He always could read her mind. She wondered if that was an elf thing.

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Of Earth and Sea: 7/9

Gorgeous art by @shipsxahoy!

Rated T

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Chapter Six:

For all the stories of hospitality and loyal friendship of elves, they were by and large an isolated people. Their lands were cloaked with magic and protected from what they saw as the corrupt influence of men and dwarves. They scoffed at the fairies who helped people while living high above them, using magic that the elves considered crude. The magic of elves was a mysterious thing; tied to the earth and highly spiritual in nature. They didn’t flit above it all like the fairies did, and if a human or dwarf needed their healing arts or their bows and swords, they would gladly give it.

Yet they still rarely fraternized with those not of their kind.

Tauriel mused over these things as she made her way through the forest towards the nearest village. She had never been to a tavern, but Legolas had. He said that the men’s ale and other spirits had little to know effect on elves. But the company was distracting.

And Tauriel desperately needed a distraction.

There were so many things she didn’t understand about the ways of her people. They were such a study in contradictions, and often Tauriel wanted to rebel against some of that hypocrisy. Why hide away in enchanted lands while men suffered and died? And why was it so scandalous for an elf to love a man when everyone knew of the Dunedin –the half elf. They had to come from somewhere.

And why was it so scandalous to love a dwarf?

She shook her head against that thought and massaged the ache that still rested at her breast. Perhaps she would not have been so open to the man she met that day and his charms if her heart had not been so raw.

She was still almost a mile from town when she saw him. He was of slender build, though broad shouldered, and he held a bundle in his arms wrapped in a dirty muslin cloth. With rapid, purposeful steps, as if he couldn’t complete his task fast enough, he approached the large, smooth stone by the tree line. He bent and deposited the squirming bundle gently. Pudgy little hands lifted from the folds of the fabric, grasping in the air for something, tiny fingers flexing then closing again.

“Glad, gar-hi hen,” he cried out into the woods.

It was the cry of human parents who couldn’t – or wouldn’t – care for their infants. They believed the elves would find these orphans and take them in, and sometimes that was true. But the woods were wild and sometimes, by the time the elves found a child, it was too late.

The man began to back away from the infant, who began to cry as if he understood his fate. Tauriel could contain her indignation no longer. She burst from the shelter of the wood and dashed to the child shivering on the slab of stone. She scooped him up while simultaneously shouting at the child’s father.

“Why are you humans so cruel?” she cried as he stopped and turned back towards her in surprise.

The man looked truly stricken as he lifted both hands in a placating gesture. “I can’t care for him,” he attempted to explain, “and everyone knows the elves foster many human children.”

“Many is a slight exaggeration,” Tauriel snapped. She tore her eyes away from the man’s much too attractive face and gazed instead at the babe in her arms. The child grasped onto her finger and pulled it to his mouth, sucking hungrily. He was still red and oh so small. And much too thin. Understanding dawned and Tauriel gasped, “His mother died birthing him. Didn’t she?”

The man before her ran a hand wearily over his face, nodding his head as he did so. His anguish seemed so deep, that she took a step forward and placed a hand to his arm.

“Keeping him is too painful, for it will remind you of her.”

He shook her hand off in irritation, and shouted, “No! It’s that I have no bloody idea what to do with him. Feed him? Care for him? I’m no father!” He began to pace, mumbling in agitation, seemingly caring little that she was listening. “He’ll remind me of his mother? That’s ridiculous. Remind me of a woman I just paid coin for? I was . . . lonely. I thought those type of women took care of those things . . . and then this,” he gestures almost in disgust at the tiny bundle in Tauriel’s arm, “shows up on my doorstep. The old woman who brought him said there was no doubt he’s mine. He’s probably got diseases . . .”

“A boy needs his father,” Tauriel said in disgust after his tirade. The man collapsed onto the large rock, his head in his hands. To her shock, he began to weep.

Tentatively, Tauriel sat beside the man. She shifted the baby to the crook of one arm and put the other hesitantly about the man’s shoulders. Her touch made him stiffen, and he sat up suddenly, rubbing at his face. Unsure what to do, she withdrew her arm and focused once again on the baby in her arms. He had the lightest peach fuzz on the cap of his head, and she ran her hand over it gently. She couldn’t help smiling down at him as he let out a little shuddering sigh, seeming to melt into her embrace. When she began to speak again, she was addressing the man next to her, but she kept her gaze trained on the infant’s face.

“Elves are not entirely welcoming to those not of their kind, especially the Woodland Elves. They will raise this boy, it is true, for they will never abandon an innocent to a cruel fate. Yet he will always be an outsider, never to fully belong.” She traced the baby’s petal-soft cheek and let out a small sigh as she finished.

“You sound as if you’ve experienced such rejection personally.”

She turned to find the young man gazing intently at her, his lips turned up in a charming smile. She now saw that his eyes were a bright blue, like the forget-me-nots that bloomed in the meadow. Tauriel glanced away from his penetrating gaze, a blush rising to her freckled cheeks.

“I may know a bit of what it feels, I suppose. My people are very . . . set in their ways.”

“Yet you push the boundaries.”

She turned at his words to find him regarding her with unabashed appreciation.

“I’m Brennan,” he told her, his smile widening to a full grin.

“Tauriel,” she replied with a simple nod.

He leaned back slightly, crossing his arms over his chest, “And a lovely lass such as yourself must either be an elven princess or betrothed to an elven prince.”

She blushed deeper at how he had unwittingly hit the mark. “There are those who wish to choose my fate for me,” she told him bitterly.

“An arranged marriage?” Brennan questioned, scooting closer. So close, that Tauriel became completely intent upon the baby in her arms. “While your heart belongs to someone else . . . a simple warrior perhaps?”

Tauriel gazed into the distance. “I almost loved. Once. And you guess rightly that he was a warrior. He died in battle before I had a chance to give him my heart. “

“But he loved you.”

Tauriel turned, surprised. Brennan reached up and tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear, his fingers barely brushing against the pointed tip. It sent a pleasant shiver down her spine.

“Yes, but it would have been forbidden. He was not of my kind.”

Brennan’s gaze was fixed on her. Uncomfortable with the feelings he stirred in her, she looked down at the baby who had now fallen asleep in her arms. No one had gazed at her that way since . . . well, in a very long time. Her heart swelled also at the solid warmth of the child she held.

“What’s his name?” she asked almost in a whisper.

“Liam.”

“Liam,” she breathed, leaning forward and brushing a kiss to his forehead. The place where her kiss had landed glowed slightly, and some of her elven strength seeped into his small frame. He let out a deeper sigh of contentment, and Tauriel relaxed when color rose to his slightly plumper cheeks.

“Come with me and be his nurse,” Brennan asked, voice eager. For the first time since he set the child down upon the stone, he reached out and set his palm against the boy’s head. Tauriel looked up again, not realizing how much closer he had drawn to her. His smile was intoxicating, his nose almost brushing hers. “You love him already, I can tell. We could be . . . almost like a family.”

Tauriel could admit, years later, that it had been a rash suggestion on his part. And on hers, she had been an absolute fool to accept. But her future among her people had seemed so stifling, and Brennan’s bright blue eyes seemed to hold so much promise. And the desire in those eyes lit a longing in her heart that had lain dormant after so much grief.

So she went home with him.

It wasn’t long before she became more than a nursemaid, finding herself in Brennan’s bed. She gave herself to him completely, in the elven way, giving him another son. But instead of naming him after Brennan or someone in the Jones family, Tauriel insisted on naming him after a warrior who died too soon, before she could really love him. She changed the name slightly, so Brennan would think it was elvish, but it was a tribute nonetheless.

She named him Killian.

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Emma hit the ground with incredible force, almost face-planting into the ground. As it was, she got a mouthful of grass and when Killian rushed to help her to her feet, she was gagging and spitting.

“I forgot how jarring portal jumping was,” she muttered, “last time we did this, I landed on my feet.”

“Well,” Killian chuckled, as he helped brush her off, “it has been awhile.”

Emma picked some stray leaves from her hair as she turned in a circle and looked around. The trees seemed much taller and denser than she remembered in the Enchanted Forest. “What realm is this?”

“Still the Enchanted Forest, just a different kingdom. Middle Earth.”

Emma looked at her husband with an arched brow. “Seriously?” Emma rubbed her temples where a headache was beginning to form. “Never mind. I shouldn’t be surprised anymore. And I don’t care what this place is as long as we can find our daughter.”

Killian put his arm around her and drew her close. “We will, love.” Then he pressed a kiss to the top of her head. “It’s the family motto, isn’t it? That we always find each other?”

Emma attempted a half smile. “Well, this time around we need your mother’s help. Have you seen her?”

“I’m right here,” Tauriel called out, and Emma turned to see the woman striding from behind a large tree. She had never seen the woman look so determined. “You’ll need my help or you won’t get anywhere with the council.”

Emma crossed her arms. “The council? And how are you supposed to help when you keep disappearing?”

“I will let my son explain everything to you on your journey. You must go and retrieve the Arkenstone. It is the key to saving Elien,” as she spoke, Tauriel began to fade.

Emma dropped her arms, clenching her hands in to tight fists. “What? No! We don’t have time to go on a quest for some stone; we need to find our little girl!” Tears sprung to Emma’s eyes. “Elien’s only four! She’s probably so scared . . . “

Killian took her in his arms immediately, cupping her head and running his fingers through her hair soothingly. “Emma, I am just as frantic as you are to get to my little cygnet. But if my mother is right, and the elves have taken her, then no harm will come to her. Elves are the guardians of children, and their lands are enchanted with the strongest light magic. The worst that can happen is that she’ll miss us. And Granny’s onion rings.”

Emma managed to chuckle against his chest at that. She looked over at Tauriel and straightened, throwing her shoulders back resolutely. “Okay, then, how do we get this . . . stone thing?”

Tauriel’s face fell, “Unfortunately the answers you seek are with my people. Specifically my mother.”

“Who’s your –“ but Emma’s words trailed off as Tauriel disappeared.

“Well,” Killian said with that false smile he always used when he knew they had a difficult task ahead, “to the Woodland Elves it is.”

Emma turned to her husband and pinned him with an intense stare. “Killian. Who is Tauriel’s mother?”

The smile fell from Killian’s face and he swallowed nervously. “That would be the queen herself . . . “ he paused for a bit as if wary of continuing, “Galadriel.”

Emma blinked rapidly. “Galadriel? Are you kidding me?” She shook her head. “Captain Hook’s grandmother is Galadriel from The Lord of the Rings?”

Killian shrugged. “Come now, Swan, after all this time, that’s the weirdest connection you’ve heard?”

Despite the stressful situation, Emma had to laugh. After all, she lived in a town with Rumplestiltskin, the son of Peter Pan and the Black Fairy. She had gone to a wedding in Oz to see Red Riding Hood marry Dorothy. Her son, the grandson of Snow White and Prince Charming, had taken the daughter of the Mad Hatter to the prom.

“Point taken,” she grumbled. She fished a rubber band out of her pocket, then pulled her hair back into a messy ponytail. “So, pirate/elf, do you know how to get to Galadriel’s kingdom? Cause your mom sort of vanished on us again.”

Killian closed his eyes for a moment, tilted his head, and took a deep breath. When he opened his eyes, they seemed even bluer than normal. “I can feel it in the water, I can feel it in the earth, I can smell it in the air. Those aren’t just pretty words in a lullaby. As a Dunedin, I have a connection to nature that’s difficult to explain. I especially have a connection to the land of the elves. Therefore, I have no doubt that we must head northeast. And luckily, I also know we will be there before sunset.”

“That’s good news at least,” Emma sighed as she followed her husband deeper into the forest, “will these elves have dinner ready, too?”

“Actually, they probably will. Elven food may be different from what you’re used to, but its always sweet and always refreshing.”

“You had me at sweet.”

Killian chuckled, then they both fell silent for a few moments. The woods seemed darker and denser by the moment, and Emma reached out to grasp her husband’s hook. “Um . . . babe . . . what’s the name of this forest?”

Killian hesitated, scratching behind his ear. That gesture was like a neon sign to Emma – whatever forest they were in, it wasn’t good. “Ahem . . . Mirkwood.”

Emma’s face paled remembering the movie The Hobbit. “Shit. Killian, I swear, if one of those spiders comes after me –“

He pulled her against his side and gave her a squeeze, “I won’t allow it, darling.”

“You better not because you know how I feel about those things. Ever since Gideon . . .” she trailed off again, eyeing the forest nervously. Was it just her or was it filled with all sorts of creepy sounds? She tripped over a thick root, and Killian quickly steadied her with hand and hook at her waist.

“Well, love,” he told her with a cheerfulness in his voice that was in sharp contradiction to the setting, “my mother did want me to explain some things to you. So how about a story?”

Emma squeezed the hand that still rested at her waist. “You are good at those.”

“So, this elven council - and part of this your Tolkien fellow got right – was formed thousands of years ago when an elf named Cilbarin forged nineteen rings of power.”

Emma clambered over a group of mossy stones. “You mean the ones Sauron corrupted when he made the one ring?”

“Aye, one ring to rule them all. So it goes. Anyhow, the elves were given three rings, the race of men nine, and the dwarves thirteen.”

“I remember that from the movie. I never understood why the dwarves needed so many.”

“Well,” Killian laughed, “apparently they like to do things in large groups.”

Emma laughed too. “So that’s where the elven council came from?”

“Aye. These three elves were chosen because they were the rulers of the three races of elves. The Lake Elves, the Woodland Elves, and the Elves of Rivendell. Water, earth, and air.”

Emma’s brow furrowed. “What’s Rivendell got to do with air? I thought it was full of waterfalls and stuff.”

“Aye, but it’s in the mountains. And when we go there to bring Elien home, you will smell something different in the air there. I can’t describe it exactly . . . it’s the way I imagine a star would smell.”

Emma shook her head. “I didn’t know stars had a smell.”

“They do,” Killian said, almost wistfully.

Emma tugged gently on his hand. “Is that why you wanted to name our daughter the elvish word for star?”

Killian smiled as he tucked a strand of Emma’s hair behind her ear. “No. I wanted to name her Elien because she, and you, are the lights that I know will always guide me home.”

Emma couldn’t help herself, she cupped his face in her hands and kissed him soundly. “Then let’s go get our little star and take her home.”

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Killian knew that the sun hadn’t set, and yet there was no denying the darkness that surrounded them. He could sense Emma trembling slightly next to him. She had tried to brush it off, saying she was cold, but Killian knew better. The giant spider Gideon had sent after her did a number on her. Ever since, she was absolutely petrified of spiders. His tough Swan, who hadn’t flinched at the sight of a giant, would scream bloody murder if she saw a spider in their house. Once she had walked into a spider web and almost had a panic attack. Not that he blamed her. Being trapped by a giant spider wasn’t something he wanted to experience either.

Killian tried to be subtle when he pulled his cutlass from its scabbard, but Emma’s widened eyes showed he hadn’t fooled her in the least. Emma’s face drained of color, but she still lifted her arms in determination, ready to send a burst of magic at anyone – or anything – that might attack. And Killian definitely had a bad feeling about this part of the forest. The air smelled dank and his ears kept picking up scuttling sounds.

He thought he had a tight grip on his sword, but when he suddenly found himself yanked off the ground, he lost hold of it. Emma shouted his name, and he saw a burst of magic shoot over his head. A hideous screeching sound followed, and Killian went crashing back to the forest floor.

“Shit, shit, shit,” Emma muttered as she pulled the sticky string of webbing off his back, “it had to be spiders.”

“I get that reference,” he chuckled, and even in the dim light he could see Emma roll her eyes. “Back to back.”

Emma nodded and turned, her hands up and ready. Killian widened his stance and held both sword and hook aloft. Spiders seemed to be scuttling through the trees above by the thousands, but Killian knew it was probably only a dozen or less. Half of them sent lines of webbing out with their spinnerets as the other half clambered down the tree trunks and charged at Emma and Killian. Emma’s magic seemed to be incredibly effective in stunning them, but not destroying them.

“What are these, zombie spiders?” she snapped. “This magic I’m using ought to be frying their asses.”

Killian didn’t have time to answer as he battled three spiders at once. He hacked two front limbs of one and stabbed the other through one of its many eyes. But the third grabbed him by the leg, yanking him backwards towards the trees. Killian managed to keep hold of his weapon this time, but his position was an awkward one. Before he realized what was happening, he was dangling in the air again, this time upside down.

“Emma!” he screamed, not for help, but because he could see her below, the spiders closing in around her.

What happened next was chaos. One moment Emma was turning to look up at him, trying to blast the web that held him with her magic, and the next a spider was leaping at her, knocking her to the ground. Killian screamed and fought his bonds as Emma wrestled the spider, narrowly missing stab after stab of its stinger. Killian heard a loud hiss above. He tore his eyes from Emma to see a spider hovering over him, its stinger ready and its arms reaching out to grab him. Then there was a whizzing sound right near his ear followed by an arrow imbedding itself in the spider’s head. Arrows were twanging everywhere, and light was illuminating the darkness. Spiders fell and others retreated back up into the tallest branches of the trees.

“Emma!” Killian yelled as the blood continued to rush to his head.

“I’m okay!” she called back.

There was another twang and a “whoosh,” and then Killian once again plummeted to the ground below. He groaned and rolled over just as Emma rushed to his side. She was trembling as she peppered his face with kisses, then she let out a tremulous sigh as she buried her face against his neck.

“I hate spiders.”

Killian held her close as he looked at the figure standing behind her. The elf gave him a smug smile as he slung his bow over his back. “Killian Jones. About to get himself killed. Again.”

Killian shook his head. “That was one bloody time.”

“That I witnessed. But tales of you have become legend, my old friend. Survivor indeed. How old are you these days? 300?”

Killian groaned as he hoisted himself off the ground. “Give or take. And my joints are beginning to feel it.” He then extended his hand, which the elf shook heartily.

Behind him, Emma cleared her throat. “Want to introduce me to your friend, Killian?”

“Yes, darling, I’m sorry. Emma, this is Legolas.”

Killian had sat through hours of Peter Jackson with Emma and Henry, so he knew his wife would have a reaction to this latest introduction.

But he hadn’t expected her to faint.

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“Perhaps she is simply overwhelmed by the events of the day.”

Killian shifted Emma’s weight in his arms as he stepped carefully over some roots. “My Swan is of much tougher stuff than that. I have never seen her like this.” He wished she would yell at him, demanding he put her down. Or at least mumble a sarcastic comment against his chest. About Legolas and his pretentious speech and how she should have known Killian was an elf, too.

“Your mother and your grandmother both said the savior would be your true love. But I must confess, I never really believed them.”

Despite his concern for his wife, Killian managed a roguish grin for his old friend. “Considering the mess you had to get me out of all those years ago, it’s no wonder you were skeptical. To be honest, I can scarcely believe it myself sometimes.”

“Your mother always said you were more like your name sake than your father.”

Killian couldn’t help gaping at that revelation. He shook his head as he pressed his lips together. “I doubt she would say that now after what I’ve done.”

“After what?” Legolas chuckled. “What mischief have you done in the last few hours, Dunedin?”

Killian stopped, the elf’s words confusing him. “What do you mean?”

“Your mother told me how much you reminded her of Killi on multiple occasions, the most recent being earlier today.” Legolas clapped Killian on the shoulder. “How do you think I knew to come for you?”

The fair haired elf gave Killian a wide grin, then continued forward into the thick wood. Killian stood still, blinking in surprise at his words. He glanced down at Emma, growing more concerned at her waning complexion and shallow breaths. His regret and shame could be pushed aside for now, his wife needed the healing arts of the elves, and soon.

Ahead, Legolas pushed aside a thick curtain of moss that clung between a huge tree and a pile of boulders. To the casual eye, it seemed to simply cover more large stones. Yet when the elf pushed it aside, it revealed an opening. Killian followed him through to be bathed in soft, ethereal light. Sound seemed muted here, the air filled with the haunting song of elves. Killian suddenly felt simultaneously lighter and stronger. He remembered this feeling from his childhood when he would visit the elven lands in his dreams. The Woodland Elves walked on their light footfalls, almost floating around him as they went about their ordinary tasks. One woman came forward with lambas bread on a large waxy green leaf.

“Some food for our guest,” she said in a gentle voice.

Killian shook his head then nodded toward Emma in his arms. “I can’t think of food until my wife is seen to.”

“I know what ails her.”

Killian would know that voice anywhere. Deeper and more commanding than his mother’s, yet still airy and breathy. He turned to see Galadriel herself regally descending a wooden staircase that wrapped its way around the bottom of a wide tree trunk. Legolas beside him bowed deeply to the queen, and Killian did the best he could with Emma still in his arms.

“Put her here,” Galadriel ordered, gesturing to a pedestal that looked like some sort of stone altar. Elven runes decorated it, and the parts Killian could see read, Of true love intertwined, a heart of stone turns to flesh. Though what exactly that meant, he had no clue. Elves loved being cryptic. Yet Killian obeyed the queen, and deposited Emma gently upon the thick pile of pure white cloth artfully draped across the top of the stone pillar.

Killian pulled his arm gently from behind Emma’s head and ran his hand tenderly across her check and then rested his palm against her heart. He looked up at Galadriel in alarm. “Her skin is like ice yet her pulse is racing.”

“She is the savior. Her heart knows it must free the Arkenstone. All things have aligned. The time is now.”

Killian shook his head in frustration. “There you go with those elven riddles again. Would you please just get to the bloody point! How do we make her better?”

Galadriel came forward, reaching her arm out to hover over Emma’s body. Her eyes fluttered for a moment, then they snapped wide as they regarded Killian coolly. His own blood suddenly felt like ice in his veins. He had a feeling he wasn’t going to like this.

“The Arkenstone,” he said as the silence stretched too long, “my mother mentioned it. Said we needed it to convince the council to relinquish Elien. She said you knew where it was.”

“I do,” Galadriel replied in an almost bored tone, “but you already have it.” She lifted her arm and pointed at the cutlass at Killian’s hip. “You’ve had it for years.”

Killian pulled the sword from its scabbard and stared at in confusion. He then looked back up at the elf queen with an arched brow. “This is just a crude pirate’s cutlass that just happens to be engraved with elvish runes.”

“Your mother sent you on a quest for some old useless sword? Think, Killian. I foresaw the same future as she. What led you to the cave that held that weapon?”

Killian looked down at his wife in wonder. “A swan,” he whispered hoarsely.

Galadriel reached down and ran a delicate hand over Emma’s golden hair. “Long ago, an elven maiden fell in love with a man – a boy, really - of a race called the Tuor. They were a people with the sea in their veins, and they were not willing to dwell long where they could not hear the sound of its waves. The elf and the lad were very young, and their parents forbade them to be together. Foolish and young, they sought a witch and asked that she join them together eternally. They didn’t stop to ask the price.”

Galadriel waved her hand over the hilt of the cutlass. The elvish runes shimmered and then morphed into a blood red stone. Killian startled.

“The Arkenstone!” He reached down with his hook and tried to pry the gem free.

“That won’t work,” Galadriel said, infernally calm. “The Arkenstone is the heart of the elven maiden; the cutlass the heart of the Tuor youth.”

“That’s . . . morbid,” Legolas spoke up for the first time. He leaned over Killian’s shoulder in curiosity at the weapon.

“The elf’s parents were devastated,” Galadriel continued, and Killian wanted to scream at her to hurry up and get to the point of the story. “They enchanted the sword, protecting the Arkenstone with those runes. Then they constructed this altar. They were my great, great, great grandparents,” Galadriel looked up to fix her gaze on Killian, “and you, my grandson, are a descendent of the Tuor. That is why the earth and sea are so balanced in your blood. It is why you are happy in that quaint little town by the ocean. Why you aren’t fickle like your father was, always drawn to the open water.”

Killian’s jaw clenched in frustration. “As fascinating as my lineage may be, I’m more concerned with the here and now. Mainly my ill wife and my kidnapped daughter. So if you could kindly get to the point.”

Galadriel pressed her lips together, then released a long sigh. “The runes foretell of a love that will make right all wrongs. A love between a redeemed one and a savior. Your mother and I have known for many long centuries that the redeemed one was you. You can use Emma’s heart to release the Arkenstone.”

Killian’s brow furrowed. “I’m not sure I like the sound of that.”

“Take the cutlass . . . and run it through Emma’s heart.”

Killian tossed the sword upon the ground in anger. “No! Never!”

Galadriel picked the weapon up and handed it back to him. “You must. Trust me, Killian. All will be right.”

Killian swallowed hard, refusing to take back the sword. Tears pricked his eyes as he looked down at his wife and back at his grandmother.

“If you wait much longer, she will die.”

For a long agonizing moment Killian caressed Emma’s face. He couldn’t deny that her skin was growing colder and her lips were faintly blue. He took a deep breath and slowly took the sword from Galadriel.

“Consider it pay back,” Galadriel remarked with the slightest twitch of her lips.

Killian scowled openly at her. “That isn’t funny.”

Galadriel gave a slight half shrug, as if the entire situation was of no consequence. It irritated him and gave him hope in equal measure. He swallowed again, several times, his throat going dry. Tears welled up in his eyes so that it was hard to see Emma through them, but he didn’t let them fall. His hand was clammy as it squeezed the hilt of the sword.

“You must drive it straight through her heart,” Galadriel instructed.

“And you promise she’ll be okay?”

Galadriel nodded serenely. “I give you my word that all will be right.”

Killian took a deep breath, closed his eyes tightly and raised the sword high, poised over his true love’s chest where her heart beat such a rapid rhythm, he swore he could hear it. He opened his eyes to be sure his aim was true and plunged the sword into Emma’s chest. Her eyes flew open and a gasp flew from her lips. Then she choked and sputtered in pain. Blood poured from the wound in her breast.

“K-Killian?” she asked in anguish, a single tear slipping from her eye.

The cutlass turned to ash and blew away on the wind, much like another sword from another dark day so long ago. The Arkenstone fell into Galadriel’s outstretched palm. With the weapon gone, Emma’s wound poured thick red blood. Killian cared nothing for the ancient gem. He fell to his knees beside his wife, tears streaming down his face.

“I’m sorry, so sorry,” he choked out. His hand hovered over the rapidly bleeding wound, unsure what to do. “What’s happening?” he shouted at Galadriel.

Emma convulsed as he drew her in his arms. She kept trying to speak, but all she could get out was a broken attempt at his name. He sobbed as he held her in his arms.

“You said she would be okay!” he screamed at Galadriel. “Do something! You promised me!”

Galadriel still stood, so calm and regal before him. “I said all would be right. I never promised she wouldn’t die.”

“What!” he screamed.

“Killian,” Emma said weakly against his chest. When he pulled back to look at her, she reached up and cupped his face in her hands “I love you. Take care of Elien for me.”

Then she shuddered and went limp in his arms. Killian’s wails now were unintelligible. Legolas raced forward, his face pale, but Galadriel stopped him. The sight of her, still so self-righteous and calm, sent rage through him.

“You lied to me!”

Galadriel shook her head. “This isn’t an ending, Killian Jones. You are her true love. You still have a heart beating in your chest. Share it with her.”

A tiny flicker of hope flared to life within him, but it sputtered out just as quickly. “How can I? You said yourself her heart is – was – pure. Mine? It’s blackened. I can’t curse her with it.”

Galadriel shook her head. “Do you ever listen? Just like your mother before you. How many times have you been told that your heart is elven through and through? It is steadfast, loyal, devoted to a fault. And above all else, it is of pure origins. Men were molded of dirt and clay; elves were molded of the stars. They can never be fully corrupted.”

Killian didn’t know exactly where she was going with this (why did elves talk so bloody much, anyway?), but before he could interrupt her with dripping sarcasm, she reached out and unceremoniously yanked his heart out of his chest. He cried out in pain. (Seriously, he would never get used to that very unpleasant sensation.)

But when Galadriel held his heart up in front of his face, all the pain was a distant memory. For there, pulsing in his grandmother’s palm, was a perfect, pure red heart. His heart. From his own chest. If he hadn’t experienced it himself, he would have thought it a trick.

“B-but . . . how?” he stuttered.

“Redemption, Killian.” And the smile she gave him was gentle and kind. All he could do was swallow and give her a nod in return. He lay Emma down gently upon the blood-stained cloth of the altar. He then lay down upon the mossy ground next to her.

The pain he had felt when Galadriel removed his heart was nothing compared to the pain when she twisted it and tore it in two. He felt dizzy and disoriented for a moment, until she plunged half of it back into his chest. Life seemed to surge through him, and he sat up quickly and rushed to Emma’s side. He smiled tentatively when he saw the color in her cheeks, and he reached out to brush her hair from her face as her lips parted with a tiny puff of breath. Then he laughed with happy tears streaming down his face when her eyes fluttered open.

“Killian?” she asked, her brow marred in confusion.

All he could do was pepper her face with kisses and then draw her close, cupping the back of her head with his hand. She hugged him back, but he could tell from the stiffness of her body that she was still confused.

When she pulled away from him, she looked around at the blood, then touched the jagged rip in her blouse. She blinked several times then cocked her head at him and asked, “Did I just . . . die?”

Killian laughed again as he kissed her swiftly on the lips. “Yes, but you’re back. You’re back.”

“Wait a second,” Emma said, pushing him a bit roughly by the shoulders, “did you stab me, pirate?”

Killian glanced up at the elf queen and then gave his wife a smirk. “We can consider it payback.”

Emma rolled her eyes and smacked him lightly in the chest. She swung her legs over the side of the stone altar, and Killian put his hook at her back and took her hand in his. “Easy,” he warned, “you did just die, love.”

“Yeah,” she told him as she shooed away his fussing, “and I feel like shit, to be honest. How have you done this so many times?”

He chuckled again and couldn’t help grabbing her and kissing her again. God, he was so relieved that he hadn’t lost her. Emma laughed herself and gladly kissed him back. Then she shook her head and placed her hand to her chest in awe.

“Did you . . . ?”

He grinned broadly at her, but also couldn’t help scratching behind his ear. “Aye.”

She shook her head and kissed him again.

“I must say,” Legolas quipped, “you both really embrace this true love thing wholeheartedly.”

Emma pressed her forehead to Killian’s, blushing prettily. Then she looked at the elf and pointed a finger at him. “And you’re seriously Legolas?”

The elf sketched a quick bow, “Ah, so you’ve heard of me?”

Emma shook her head and glanced at Killian, “I can see you come by your cockiness honestly.” Then Emma saw the queen, who had taken a seat upon a throne of polished branches. “Galadriel?” Then she whispered to Killian. “Are we supposed to bow?”

“I think that ship has sailed, love,” he whispered back.

Galadriel spoke, “While I am grateful for the savior’s help in releasing the Arkenstone, your presence here is not wanted, Dunedin.”

Killian’s jaw twitched as he snapped a reply, “If you didn’t want us here, grandmother, then you shouldn’t have kidnapped our daughter.”

Galadriel arched one eyebrow. “That was Elrond’s doing, not mine.”

“Please,” Killian scoffed, “you’re the most powerful of the council of three. Even if Elrond acted alone, you would have known of it. Now what purpose do you have for my little girl?”

Galadriel sighed as she lounged back upon her ornate seat. “Our people are dying out. In particular, none of the council leaders has an heir. Arwen wed a Dunedin, your mother . . . “ here Galadriel gave a wave of her hand as if Brennan Jones weren’t even worthy of mention, “and Legolas here refuses to wed, spending his days fraternizing with dwarves.”

Legolas pushed forward off the tree where he had been reclining. “Why single me out? Everyone knows it’s rare for an elf to wed, even rarer to procreate. Why do you think we’re going extinct?”

Galadriel gave Legolas a withering glare, “As Prince of the Lake Elves, it would have been your duty.”

Legolas released the fists he had subconsciously been clenching and let out a quick breath. “Killian,” he said, taking his old friend by the hook and giving it a shake, “it’s been a pleasure, but I will take my leave.” He then turned and scowled at Galadriel. “Perhaps then her majesty can focus on the more important matters at hand.”

As for Emma, her mind was still whirling with the implications of Galadriel’s words. “Wait. You’re talking about heirs and the survival of the elves. You’re not talking about . . . I mean . . . my daughter’s only four-“

“And we wish to raise her as an elf in the safety of Rivendell. Messengers have already been sent to King Aragorn, and we hope a betrothal between Elien and his son will swiftly be arranged. They are both Dunedin, so it isn’t ideal, but eventually their bloodline-”

Killian and Emma spoke at once, interrupting the queen.

“Hell no.”

“Over my dead body.”

Emma reached over and put her hand to Killian’s lips, “I think we’ve had enough dead body’s for one lifetime, babe.”

He kissed her hand quickly then turned to the queen. “Emma and I make one thing perfectly clear: Our daughter is not a pawn for political gain. She will be raised by her parents, given the happy home we were both denied, and all decisions for her future will be Elien’s and Elien’s alone.”

Emma nodded firmly in agreement. “No one decides our daughter’s fate for her. No one.”

Galadriel hung her head for a moment or two, then lifted it to gaze intently into Emma’s eyes. “I know what it is to marry for duty. It is why I broke with the council over this.”

Emma’s expression softened. “Thank you.”

Galadriel rose regally, extended the Arkenstone, placed it in Emma’s palm. “This is the key. It can only be used once; to transform an elf into a human, fully mortal. Arwen and Aragorn sought it for ages to no avail. It was meant for you.”

Emma gripped the stone in her fist and turned a wary gaze to her husband.

“So that,” he asked, “will remove any elven blood from my daughter? She will no longer be part elf?”

Galadriel turned away and walked over to retrieve a pitcher from a table beside her throne. “Aye,” she answered simply before filling the pitcher from a stream of water that poured over a mossy opening in a nearby tree.

Emma shook her head. “I don’t like this, Killian. It’s still taking away a part of her. Against her will.”

Killian nodded in understanding as he closed his hand over Emma’s, the both of them now clutching the stone. “I know,” he said slowly, his jaw clenching, “but it may be the only way to peacefully take our little girl home.”

“Or we can bust in there and take her by force,” Emma snapped.

“Don’t underestimate the power of the elves,” Galadriel warned, “they are fierce warriors.”

“And there are only two of us, love,” Killian added gently.

Emma sighed deeply, her brow furrowed in concern. Killian knew she didn’t like it, but what choice did they have?

“Your mother,” Emma said hesitantly, “perhaps she can convince the Rivendell elves to let her go?”

“Don’t be so sure that you will find help from my daughter,” Galadriel said cryptically. She had moved to stand before a shallow stone basin filled with water. She gestured for them to come closer. “See what there is to see.”

Emma grasped her husband’s hook and found comfort in the nod of his head and his hesitant smile. They took their place in front of the basin. If this was anything like the movie Emma had seen, she knew what this was. Galadriel’s pool. The elven queen poured water from her pitcher in the water so slowly and carefully, that it barely made a ripple on the surface of the water. Emma leaned closer.

“This is a mirror into time,” Galadriel intoned, “showing what is, what was, and what will be.”

Emma glanced up with an arched brow. “Do you really have to say that? Or is it just for dramatic effect?” Galadriel pierced her with such an icy glare, that Emma quickly diverted her gaze and mumbled, “Sorry. Continue, your . . . er, majesty.”

“Another possibility is before you,” Galadriel said as the waters of the pool shimmered. A male elf appeared, with a tight, serious face and dark hair. “Elrond may be willing to trade Elien for the Arkenstone.” The pool rippled again and showed a happy family, an elven mother, a human father, and a curly headed little boy. “His daughter Arwen is destined to live a long, lonely immortal life. The Arkenstone can spare her that pain.”

Galadriel poured a bit more water into the pool, and this time the ripples caused the basin to shake and the water to swirl. Killian pulled Emma closer to his side as they looked down into the churning water. They both gasped as they saw Elien being pulled away by a group of elves, screaming, “Papa! Mama!” Emma clutched the front of Killian’s shirt, her heart breaking. What they saw next confused Emma and made Killian’s jaw clench and his hand tighten into a fist. Tauriel held the Arkenstone in her palm as a red mist swirled up from it. She seemed to breathe it in until the stone was drained of its color and it lay like gray rock in her hand.

“What does that mean?” Emma asked, glancing between Galadriel and Killian, utterly confused.

“She will steal it,” Galadriel told them, “and use it for herself.”

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