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[oursecretways]

7. He calms you down while you're having a panic attack, PART 2

idol!Lee Know × fem!Reader note(s): gahhh i hate how i have to take it apart makes me want to post my works somewhere else too so I can post my works all together. genre(s): angst, fluff word count: 1.1k all together warning(s): reader having a panic attack, strong language, toxic work environment being called “baby” and “love” a lot

masterlist ║ invisible ask game ║part one

Once you got into the room, and saw him looking at you from the mirror, you broke down; the tears kept coming from your eyes, seemingly unable to stop, which didn’t help your hyperventilation. Lee Know stopped the music and went up to you as fast as he could. He has never seen you like this. So broken, so lost. “Baby? Love? Y/N? C’mon baby, talk to me” He called you multiple times before you even heard his voice. He pulled you in a hug, who knows how long you have been in his arms. “Don’t need to talk, baby, it is enough if you nod. Is it work?” you nodded. Minho knew how work stresses you out lately, and how your project manager been on your ass for the smallest of things. It angered him, he couldn’t understand why Mr. Whang is so hung up on you. He has seen how drained you have been lately,but he feels like this is a new low you’ve hit. “Okay, love, you don’t need to anything else, but breathe with me. Just mimic my rhythm, okay? Can you do that to me, cutie?” You nod, and try your best to comply. It was hard at first, but it got better. It took a lot out of you to pay attention to your breathing. Once you calmed a little and started feeling the numbness-needles in your limbs, you felt how your partner been caressing your back in a circular motion. When he figured you calmed down enough, he told you to keep the paste and called Chan up to let him know that he will continue tomorrow, but he needed to take care of you first. Thankfully the boys know you well, you all consider each other as friends, so Chris understood it, not like Minho does this often. Everyone knows that when he tells you that something is up, then things are pretty damn serious. He only let you go to grab his stuff and car keys. He got you into your designed passenger princess place, and got into the driving seat. “Before we go home, would you like any food?” You just silently shook your head, staring at your hands. You were exhausted, to say the least. He took your hands into his. The car drive was silent except the rain hitting the car and his singing. This was one of your favorite activity when it was raining: driving around and listening to his angelic voice.

Once you got home, he brewed some herbal tea, and ordered your most liked fast food. He cuddled up to you on the couch, letting you tell him what happened, which made him furious. After Minho made sure you ate, and calmed down, he let you sleep on the couch intertwined with him. Knowing that it has been a really hard day for you, he took a mental note to convince you to quit that stupid job.

[machaandlofi]

ABOUT ME

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ೀ Name: mattie

ೀ Age: 20+

ೀ Pronouns: she/her/hers

ೀ Birthday: 11.29.

ೀ Gender: female

ೀ Likes: music, pretty things, anime, games, art, food, napping

ೀ Dislikes: rude ppl, being ignored, horror, wet socks, not kissing goodbye to the homies

ೀ More info: writing tumblr: @oursecretways I take a long time to warm up if we ever start to talk

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[oursecretways]

“Look at all those chickens’’

OT8 × Reader notes: ngl this all started with me seeing a chicken art on my feed and I realized I want a couple dozen now lol, so enjoy my first imagine/drabbles. Also, sorry it got so late by the time I have finished this, I will revisit to edit this and that is why it got shorter and shorter at the end 😭 (Forbidden feelings coming soon♡︎) word count: 598 warning(s): none just pure fluff

Chan:

He would just look at you dumbfounded: what are you two going to do with these chickens? He knows you didn't think it through, he isn't mad at you, secretly loves all of them and wants to buy at least the same amount so you can have little chicken pairs.

Already thinking about buying a farm far away from everyone where you can have goats and baby cows, maybe some horse and of course dogs and cats. Heck, he would even buy you a whole zoo just to make sure his little princess has all the animals she can possibly think of.

Minho:

He would tease you with feeding them to his kids, enjoying how your face scrunches up from the thought. Deep inside, he is intrigued by them, and slowly warming up to the idea of having a bunch of baby chicks.

He also says up until the AM to look for chicken coops and things he can build for them so they can play and have a comfortable place to stay. He is trying to be secretive about it to surprise you and to not blow up his cover.

Changbin:

He would literally hold back tears and show you all the pictures he has saved on his phone about baby farm animals. He is a softie and you always knew it.

He names all of them silly names and feeling quite happy about them until one poops on his floor… he might be in for a wild ride with figuring out how to potty-train chickens.

Hyunjin:

He already wants to make sketches of you and your kids, thinking about poses he could have you hold them so he can make sure he gives justice to your beauty. Feels overjoyed by this new milestone you two accomplished: having a dozen of little feathery kids.

Han:

For a solid minute, he laughs, not thinking you are being for real. Then, when he realized he was happy, he named all of them names like pip, peep, squeak, lil pip jr. and the list could go on and on.

After a week or so of having them, he started “teaching” them how to fly, making you watch it in horror. But let's face it, he is so clumsy he has dropped one or two of them accidentally when you weren't home.

Felix:

As soon as you opened the box, his eyes light up, living that Stardew fantasy with you. He makes lots of pictures of them, you with the chicks, and his own SKZOO. He sends the latter picture to the group chat with the boys, announcing that BbokAri somehow ended up being a father and that the mother left them. You just laughed at the soap opera he suddenly started to write about his own merch plushie, but you didn't stop him.

Seungmin:

You showed him while the others were there as well, bragging about your new-found family with Minnie. Everyone was over the moon about how adorable they were, except your boyfriend, who simply told Felix that he thinks they are his kids, delivering it with the stone-cold expression he mastered probably at birth.

I.N.:

He gets super excited, although finds it a bit silly. Said a joke along the lines of must've cheated with Felix's SKZOO, which earned a chuckle from you.

As he starts to play with them, one immediately pinches him with its beak making you forget about your kids and making sure that your boyfriend is okay, babying him just a little more.

[oursecretways]

Hello!! ☺️

Could I please get #7 with Lee Know 💕

No pressure at all!

7. He calms you down while you're having a panic attack

idol!Lee Know × fem!Reader note(s): ahh of course lovely, hope you enjoy it, I really tried ngl lmao😭 I just love writing gentle and caring Minho content, he can be a bully, but we all know he is there to help anyone he loves 😌 hope you enjoy it ♥ it became a two parter because apparently you can only have so much characters in one tumblr post it is a two parter genre(s): fluff, angst word count: 1.1K (the two part together) warning(s): reader having a panic attack, strong language, toxic work environment being called “baby” and “love” a lot

masterlist ║ invisible ask game ║ part two

It was the most typical day at work: working your ass off so someone higher above, or some older colleague can steal your work, but what made it even worse that your work bestie can’t be here, since she went overseas with her family… “Lucky her” you think to yourself, as you come back from your lunch break, which you wished you wouldn’t have done. Looking back you should’ve said that you aren’t feeling well — which to some degree was true, you know one of those days when everything seems suffocating, much, much darker, and one ugly tone, and you break… yeah it was one of those days. As you sat down at your desk to continue your market research needed for your company new product. Man, you wished you would do what actually excited you: creating the product itself based on the research, but you are only a researcher, which is way more stressful than you like to admit to anyone, especially your boyfriend Minho. You two met him when you first moved to Korea — because you were always fascinated by the countries’ culture, and it was a childhood dream of yours to move to Seoul. Unbeknownst to you, that meant that you meet with a K-pop idol that happened to be your ideal man. When the two of you met, you did not know much about Stray Kids, only heard their song called Hellavator. But now you are a fully pledged STAY, teasing Minho that Ji is your bias every time you get the chance — even tho he secretly agrees and tells you that Han is his bias too.

Once everyone got back to their respected desk, your boss called you into his office, “Y/N, please come, I need to talk to you.” You already know it probably won’t be a talk of a lifetime, especially that he has been even a bigger prick than usual, because your department haven’t been meeting the monthly quota. Making Mr. Whang’s life harder than he would want it to be. “Yes sir? How can help you?” you asked sincerely. You felt your throat dry, and tried to focus on your breathing, believing it to be a little nervousness. The nicer you can act, the easier he would let you off… at least that was your oh so naive thought. He made sure that you know where is your place: six feet under him. He made you feel like you should crawl, especially that you accused his great friend, an honest, hardworking colleague, of stealing your assignment. And you tried to explain it to him that there has been injustice, because he did, in fact, steal your presentation that you have put countless all-nighters in, but he just kept on going. Even scolded you about being so uptight and a prude, how women nowadays suck “Woman nowadays don’t get put into their place well enough. I am sure if I would be that boyfriend of yours, I would teach you to know where is your place.” After that sentence, your view started spinning, as you became very dizzy. The autopilot mode been turned on, and you were agreeing with all he said, but in reality you couldn’t been further away from reality. “You can go, don’t bother for today, you are seemingly useless, not even saying what you think, all you can do is agree, truly useless. I don’t even know how they can hire an intern like you.” You felt as if your chest closing up by the time you got out of his office. If anyone tried to call your name, you couldn’t hear it with your heart beating loudly in your ear. Without noticing, you went straight to the dance studio, where your boyfriend of many years tries his best to come up with new choreography for their comeback. You knew he is alone because Hyunjin is on a fashion show and Felix is in the studio recording his parts.

[oursecretways]

4 with chan please 🤭

4. He gives you a piggyback ride

Chan × Fem!Readernote(s): I think I need to make separate posts because Tumblr and I will throw hands, I hope you enjoy it! ♥ genre(s): fluff word count: 323 warning(s): reader is pretty drunk, Chan is impatient

masterlist ║ invisible ask game ║Part two

You truly did not think your night would turn out the way it did. Your best friend Jia begged you to come and check out this new club, and let’s face it: you hated clubbing. You much preferred going to a pub or stay home with friends to drink and talk, but for some reason you decided that it won’t be a bad idea. You promised your friend that you will let yourself enjoy this. For her.

Oh boy, you were so wrong. You did manage to let yourself loose alright, letting guys take you to the dance floor and drinking pretty cocktails, or shots depending on what they bought you. In a way, that was your way of trying to forget your childhood friend, a.k.a. your lifetime crush: Christopher Bang. You weren’t sure when your feelings started, you just noticed it at the end of your high school years. Most of your friends thought that you are, were, or will be dating, but seemingly how Chris haven’t made a move you don’t think so. One could say that a girl can make the first move too, but you didn’t know how.

After a while, you lost Jia, but you were too drunk to care. Without giving much of a thought, called up the only one you’ve been thinking of tonight. It rang for a while making you question if he will pick it up but to your surprise a very groggy Chan picked up the phone “Y/N? Do you even have a clue what time it is?” you smiled to yourself, “no… but I don’t care, I just want to see you. Where are you, Channie?” Chris had to take a moment to understand what you were talking about because you slurred, making it way too hard to understand. As soon as he figured that you are way too drunk, he became worried, and the sleepiness left his eyes.

[oursecretways]

Is this what you call self-care?

Felix × Reader note(s): I am at the point where I feel like playing 72 hours of Stardew Valley is perfectly reasonable, so I hope u enjoy my first fanfic. Also, idk about you, but I feel like he would def enjoy some Zelda 😌… also, this isn't the longest fic out there, but it is a short story after all. Enjoy!☻ genre(s): fluff, silce of life word count: 1,795 warning(s): light cursing Just a chill day with Felix, while you’re trying to make progress with your uni work

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It was a regular Saturday for you, waking up at 6 AM and feeling your boyfriend's arm around you. After you turn your alarm off, you turn to look at him, smiling. His long, blond hair fell into his angelic face. It is so hard to not say fuck it and stay in bed with Felix, but you—with the smallest of movements to not wake him—get out of bed, making your way to the bathroom to get ready. After you get yourself into some comfy stay-at-home-and-study clothes, you brew yourself a cup of coffee with some coconut milk.

You've been researching for your midterm paper for a while now. It wasn't the worst topic, but selecting what's important and what isn't is where you were hopeless.

After restarting it for the hundredth time, you heard movements from your bedroom. You peeked out of the study/gaming room to see Felix's tired face, which filled your heart with warmth. "Good morning, love. How did you sleep?" He looked back at you while he grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge. "I slept well until some gremlin left from next to me way too early this morning." A smile crept up his face, reaching out for your hand so he could pull you in for a hug. He kept you close with one hand, resting his face on your head while you hid in the crook of his neck. His sweet scent filling your nose. "How's your university work going?" you scrunch your face, not even wanting to think about the research and writing your essay. "Well, I read a lot, but I do not know where to begin or what things are the necessities to put into my paper." You felt yourself wanting to throw a tantrum like the 5-year-old who you are at heart. He kissed your forehead, then put his pinky out. "Okay, I have a trade offer; once you're halfway done, we can play on our farm together." Your eyes lit up. You've been pretty hooked on Stardew Valley for a while now, especially since the new update, and you got Felix to play with you on his days off. Sadly, they've been pretty busy with their comeback, so you couldn't hang out as much. He usually got home by the time you were asleep, and you went to class or to the library to learn before he woke up, since it was soon time for your final exams. You only have one year back from your university, and you don't want setbacks, so it is important to get a good grade. Your parents would be pleased as well since you flew to another city to learn specifically there, so you want to make them proud. You link your pinkies together to form an unbreakable promise. "Okay, but no distractions! If you want to play, please play in the living room; we both know I won't ever finish my assignment with you distracting me." He chuckles and nods his head in agreement. You happily made yourself another cup of coffee, then went back to the study to work on your task. You still cannot believe it that you somehow snagged such a perfect man: he is supportive, understands your concerns, and can always accept your compromises. He openly talks to you about how he feels and bravely tells you if something bothers or concerns him. You honestly can't believe these past couple years have been real.

You've made a bit of progress; it helped that you talked with your old dorm roommates—you moved in with Felix about half a year now; you two realized that it would be the easiest since you went over any given chance anyways. They gave some good suggestions. Once you caught up with each other, you four said your goodbyes, since all of you have a lot of work to get done by the end of this month. After some time, you smelled a sweet scent coming from the kitchen. The door opened before you could sneak out to have a peek. Felix brought in your favorite cookies; it was a mixture of his classic chocolate chip and your oatmeal cookies recipe. You two perfected it while he got some time off, and you didn't have school just yet. His brown eyes looked at you proudly behind the plate of cookies with milk in his other hand. "How's your progress, baby?" He bent down to give you a peck on the lips. You waited until he put the plate and the cup down, then patted the ground next to you, signaling for him to sit down. He didn't waste any seconds, and plopped right next to you, happy that he could sit beside his girlfriend. Felix didn't want to make you feel pressured; he just wants to spend as much time as possible with you before he has to go back to endless dance practice, content creation, etcetera. You both know he loves doing what he does, but it can get overwhelming sometimes. They got cussed out a lot for the smallest of things, getting bullied and going as far as getting death treats. He was grateful for being able to work his dream job, and he is also happy that you understand what this kind of life comes with.

Felix watched you type your thoughts out in your document and started to play with your hair, which made you relax instantly. You couldn't help but melt into his touch. You leaned onto his shoulder, feeling exhausted. "I am almost done with half of my assignment; I just need another page, but I feel like my brain cells are giving up on me." He chuckled, placing a kiss on your head. "You got this; I believe in you." He started giving kisses all around your face, which soothed your tired thoughts. Felix eventually kissed your lips; the kiss was sweet and made you feel like you're under the sun at the beginning of the spring. You reciprocated immediately, feeling as though time had stopped—no tasks, no school, no pressure—just you and him tangled together in a complete state of Nirvana. Before it could get heated, Lixie pulled away, holding you firmly, so he kept up his strenght to not distract you further. "Is it okay if I play Zelda while I lay in your lap?" You saw a hint of pink on his face, making you smile. "Well, I am close to finishing it, so why not? I don't think it can cause any harm." Felix got up excitedly to get his switch with his headphones. He laid down and got comfortable, then started playing his game. He has been quite into it lately. The game was beautiful, and there were a lot of things to do. The excitement in him got you into playing it, asking for his help in some harder situations.

When you got done with half of your paper, you looked down and saw a sleeping Felix with a gaming console on the ground next to him. He looked so peaceful like this: his pink lips parted, his eyelashes casting shadows on his face, and his freckles painting constellations onto his features. You can't help but start connecting the dots on his face with your fingers, making his eyes flutter as he awakens. "What are you doing, gorgeous?" You lean down to kiss him as a response. You feel like you're going to explode with all the feelings inside your chest. "I am done with half of my paper; I didn't want to wake you, sorry." You pout just a little, earning a smile as he reaches for your face to caress it. "That's my good girl. Are you ready for some farming time?" You nod, knowing that you're going to end up either playing until the sun gets up again or none at all and will end up cuddling in bed.

You two made some lunch and plopped down besides each other. Your desks have been set against one another, his PC taking up one desk while yours is cluttered by notes and books for your university courses; you just keep pushing it back each time you take your laptop out instead of organizing it. Felix tried to reason with you or help with that mess, but that's how you were, looking unorganized yet knowing exactly what is where, always on point. That's what your grades always reflect: perfect or almost perfect scores, even though you procrastinate until the last minute. He smiled to himself, knowing how he and the boys wished they had this superpower.

You put on your two's favorite chill playlist and booted up the game. We made a lot of progress, stopping to occasionally show physical affection for each other or taking a quick bathroom or snack break. I didn't even notice how the time flied until you looked down on your watch, seeing that it had passed five a.m. "Yongbok, we have a problem. Have you checked the time?" He has been so into the game that he almost looked up into the corner to see the in-game time, realizing that this might become a problem in the future. "Oh shit, I didn't notice when it got this late. I mean, I am going to be okay; I won't work for a couple of days now, but when do you need to send this assignment in?" he asked, knowing damn well that you have a habit of sending in your tasks with one minute left on the clock, giving him a scare. One time, Chan got to see your study progress and felt his soul leave his body. He still remembers how he and Han watched how their leader scolded you about your academics and your attitude towards your learning, painting a picture of an overworked father lecturing his rebellious daughter, who—no matter what she's doing—will always be his treasure. It never got said out loud, but you became the younger sister of the group, with all the older members looking out for your happiness and safety. And Felix isn't sure that if you two ever break up—which, let's face it, is highly unlikely—he wouldn't get the shorter stick and wouldn't get scolded.

Once you two saved and logged off for the day, got ready for bed, you snuggled close to each other leaving sweet kisses on one another, fighting the strong urge to sleep. When he heard your breathing change, he knew that you were fast asleep, what he waited for all along. It makes him happy and calm, knowing you are asleep. He pressed a light kiss on your forehead.

"Good night, my love," and with that, he dozed off to sleep as well.

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Deus ex machina II.

idol! Minho × reader note(s): wee~ the second part ngl i love me some soft Minho moments genre(s): fluff, slice of life, little angst word count: 526 warning(s): reader thinking badly about themselves, kinda short

master list ║ part i

he took your hand and showed no matter what everything will be just fine♡

You woke up with an empty space behind you, which made you sad: last night made you forget that he is staying home for a couple of days. You stayed in bed, stretching, not feeling like getting up; your eyelids feel heavy and puffy from last night. Still feeling that heaviness in your chest, and the gray weather didn’t help with that. While you were deep in thoughts, you didn’t hear the door opening. “Y/N, are you awake?” you looked in the direction of the voice, it was your boyfriend carrying a tray in his hands. “Good morning love, I am sorry about last night” You felt like you wanted to disappear from everything, and everyone. Lino put the tray down to your bedside table, and crawled under the blanket to cuddle you, patting your back to make you calm down and forget your dark thoughts. The two of you just stay like that, intertwined and silent, until he moves to take the tray out he brought in: breakfast he made for you with grilled cheese, and cut up some veggies next to it, for dessert he made you a fruit salad with your favorite fruits. “We need to share it though, I can’t eat all of this” you looked with your knowing all look: that he was hoping to fatten you up, although it is all futile, because both of you know that you hate eating all alone. He sighed, and started eating with you; he didn’t say a word ,but he never has to: the two of your relationship constructs of mostly silence, and glances. None of you complained about it, quite on the contrary, both of you enjoyed it… oh, to have a place to call home and just be, not needing unnecessary little talks, or trying to talk awkwardly to fill the silence. With Minho, you learned to love the quiet, the wordless nights, to not be afraid of your own thoughts so much that you couldn’t shut the hell up. So many of your relationships consisted of just useless talks, desperately trying to grasp to sound. This didn’t mean that if one of you started rambling. He loved to listen to your stories about your day or your thoughts, theories about your current shows or books. Just how you loved when he talked about the guys, new music, fan interaction, or some random stray cat he has seen and tried to stop himself from bringing it home.

God, you love this man is what you were thinking about while nibbling on your grilled cheese, not noticing how you haven’t been thinking about lowly of yourself. Instead, the positive things about your relationship or your boyfriend, which is what Lee Know exactly wanted: not single negative thoughts. He knows you don’t necessarily ponder in your own personal hell, only when you overwork yourself and start to burn out. He also knows what is the best way of solving it: feeding you, cuddling in silence then watching a show or movie you both like, and after he texted the boys that he will be busy today, he plans to do exactly that.

[oursecretways]

Forbidden Feelings Masterlist

older non-idol!Chan x younger! fm! reader genre(s):fluff, angst, slice of life, College/Uni AU, friends to lovers, social-media au warning(s) going to add more as we go if needed: swearing, spiraling thoughts/feeling like not being enough, cursing, violence, age gap

You couldn't help but develop a crush for him; he was always next to you, always reliable. Will you be able to make him see you as an adult? What will your parents and brother say about it?

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[oursecretways]

4. He gives you a piggyback ride

Chan × Fem!Reader note(s): here is part two, I might've got a little carried away lmao. Hope you enjoy it all, I certainly did ♡ genre(s): fluff word count: warning(s):none

masterlist ║ invisible ask game ║part one

When he got there, you were sitting on the pavement in front of the club. “Y/N! Are you okay? Do you need water? Can you get up?” You could barely look up because of the sleepiness that hit her like a train wreck… Speaking of wreck, if your sober self would know the way you presented yourself ahead of your lifelong crush, you would make sure you dig a nice six feet hole for yourself. Since you took too long to give him any life signal he — without asking permission, although this is what you get for waking him up with his insomnia— just squat before you, putting your legs around his waist. Without much of a thought, you held onto his shoulders. He felt warm just like home, just like he always felt like even in elementary school. He used to take on a big brother role to make sure no one harms you, which you always found endearing, even tho he is only older by three months. As you're reminiscing about your past, you couldn’t help but silently smile to yourself, going unnoticed to the boy who carried you to your home. Since Chan thought you were asleep, he couldn’t help himself and had to pour his poor heart out “Ugh Y/N why did you go out and drink so much? Especially in a club? You always hated clubbing. This makes me way too worried, you know. What if someone would try to force themselves onto you? Especially when you look like this… although you are always gorgeous to me.” You felt the air get stuck in your lungs, thoughts going in the speed of light, but you are trying your best to remain calm on the outside, not daring to move even a pinky. “I know you’re probably asleep, but I must tell you this, before I would even try to get over you, because no way in hell I will be ballsy enough to tell you this in any other situation” You feel the remaining alcohol leaving your body rapidly, you are wide awake. “I have feelings for you… Like a lot, actually. Whenever you smile, or laugh, I feel like my heart is about to burst. I feel my knees getting week at the sight of you, and when I see your crocodile tears falling, I want to hug you tightly and kiss those tears down your cute face. I don’t even know when I started feeling like this, honestly…” You took this opportunity to stop him in his rambling “Channie, I —” As you spoke up, you felt his whole body tense. “Hey, it is okay, don’t jump to conclusions, I just can’t face you right now, I might die of embarrassment… To be honest, I think I have been liking you since high school? I am not even sure. I went to the club, because Jia really wanted just the two of us to go, and I thought it would be the best opportunity to try to get over you. I just couldn’t imagine you liking me… gosh, this is so cliché. You laugh at how silly the two of you are. He put you down and faced you. “Y/N can I kiss you?”

[oursecretways]

Deus ex machina I.

idol!Minho × fem!Reader note(s): I was listening to the song while I struggled to write and the idea came to me. Might be a bit shorter AND a two parter. genre(s): fluff, slice of life, little angst word count: 736 warning(s): reader thinking badly about themselves

master list ║part 2

where you're stuck on writing your book and Minho just tired and worried.♡

You’ve been sitting at it for hours at this point. Somehow nothing fixed it; you’ve done research, watched your current drama, drew your OCs, watched streams, ate, everything someone can name for writer's block, you did. It has been going on for weeks, at this point you considered writing an email to your publisher that you are giving up. You’ve been beating yourself up constantly, how bad of a writer you are, that you are a failure and that you will never be able to achieve your goals. It didn’t help that your boyfriend, Minho, is in Japan with his boy band doing promotion work for their next comeback. You wanted to be finished by the time he will be home, so you two have time, since the boys got a couple of days off in their hectic work schedule. 

It was passed 4 am when the front door opened — which you did not realize since you’ve been rewriting the same thing over, and over again — Lino quietly walked into the room after he got himself sorted out, thinking you might be asleep, but he was wrong. All he saw that you are slouching in front of the laptop, earbuds in, probably listening to one of your playlists, writing a paragraph, then deleting it, then writing it again. He knows that you always tried to solve the problem like this: going at it until it is solved, although maybe this time you should approach it differently, and he just knew how to. 

He tapped your shoulder, making you jump slightly. You took your earphones out as you looked behind you, shocked. “Min! Wait, what is the time? Oh god, I am so sorry babe, you could’ve called me!” He just chuckles and caresses your face, “I figured that you’d be sleeping, but I was wrong. Why aren’t you in bed? And don’t try to tell me you were just finishing up, I’ve seen you deleting and rewriting the same paragraph.” Minho knows you like he knows the back of his hand, you cannot escape his all-knowing gaze. “Okay, let’s go, we’re going to bed. You can save your progress, but you cannot do anything else, c’mon.” You stare at him in awe — after a while you pulled yourself together, saved your novel, and turned off your PC. He unloaded his dirty clothes into the laundry bin, and got ready for his bedtime. Once you finished packing your thinking, and putting your dirty dishes in the kitchen sink, you joined him. You brushed your teeth, did your skin care, and brushed your hair out; you massaged your neck and shoulders as you walked into your shared room. The smell, and the calming sound of the storm outside hit you just in the right spot; you felt your body starting to relax, as you climbed into your bed, finding a perfect spot in your boyfriends arm. You said your good nights, and you drifted off, not feeling the kiss he gave you on your head nor his worried words.

Your dream was horrible: you couldn’t finish your book, so everyone hated you. Minho was disappointed to the point he broke up with you. Minho woke you up, looking a bit worried, “Y/N! Y/N? Are you okay? What’s wrong?” You felt like it was silly, so you just shook it off. Couldn’t believe that you would make him wake you up just after a couple of hours of sleep, because you’re incapable of doing your job. You took a shaky breath trying to fight off the thoughts that yelled how worthless you are, or how you just got lucky, but you don’t deserve any of this. Minho made you turn to him, “Okay, this ain’t funny anymore, let’s be honest with each other. I see that you are stuck with your book, I assume you got into a slump. I will help you with it once we slept enough, but it is time to tell me what’s wrong, Missy” His firm, but kind voice is what broke you: you started crying talking about how you are a horrible person being for not waiting him more appropriately, how you cannot just write what you need to write and so on. When you looked up, you anticipated a disapproving Lino, but all you saw is concern. He pulled you closer, and hummed you sweet melodies until you fell asleep. 

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Y/N and her friends

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• Y/N priv and Y/N profile

— your older brother is Minho who is in the four most popular guys in your university you two love each other but both of you easily get into a fight with one another

— you’re crushing on your brother best friend, Chan since high school and too scared to act on it because he only sees you as a sister. You know your family would not be fond of the idea of you two dating.

• Soohee and Hana:

— Y/N roommates and best friends

— Soohee: dance major, she got to know Ji through you and started to date him at the beginning of this semester

— Hana: another photography major, always ready to hype you up

• Innie and Hyunie:

— Other closest friends of Y/N

— Innie and Hyunjin both love to call you out but whenever you need a shoulder to cry on they are there for you

— Both are photography majors.

• Lixie and Mini:

— Felix is a dance major and Seugmin is a music major

— they are roommates with Innie and Hyunie that’s how you got to know them and you adore both of them nonetheless.

— Felix loves to bake any kind of things and surprise you with them also adored by your brother's friend group who got to know them trough Minie

— Seugmin got introduced to you by 3RACHA first since they like to work with him for their assignment and vice versa

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Chan and his friends

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• Chan and Minho:

— Chan and Mino are best friends since kindergarten four of them (with the remaining duo of 3RACHA) of them hung out so much at your place they became family and even tho you aren’t related with blood you feel like they are. Although for chan you feel a bit differently. You always did but in high school you truly realized that it is love even tho all you tell people that it is only just a crush.

• Jisung and Changbin

— Ji been super grateful that you introduced him to Soohee who is the same age as you are, making it a two-year gap between them, although no one seems to care about it, which gives you hope.

— Binnie is always there when you need to go out and eat some good junk food or to have a personal coach out of your brother’s best friends he is the only one who knows you’re interested in Chan for a while, he just doesn’t know for how long exactly. You wanted to tell Han too, but sadly the man cannot keep a secret.

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Announcement

Heeeey

To everyone who has been wondering I am alive more active on my personal blog nowadays ( @machaandlofi )

Haven’t been writing as much since this month is about having fun and vacation since I haven’t been able to go to any of the summer before August bcz ✨ thingz ✨ buuuut once I am back fully ( a.k.a. end of August/ the beginning of September) I’ll be back on the grind ♡︎

Until then be good see you over my personal blog (although the most I do is be up to date with all of @felixknow ‘s post (she is literally so great check her out please not that I would need to give her a shoutout I just can’t say enough about how great she is or her fake text (or her little spicy stories with Han or Chan ))

Okay now that this turned into fangirling imma head back to enjoying my vacation and here are some pics, enjoy, much love!

Please stay hydrated and take ur meds ♡︎

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Oursecretways invisible ask game

I have seen more, and more people do it lately and felt the bravery to do it mostly to challenge myself hopefully it will not be a flop

personally at first I saw it on felixknows blog, please make sure you check them out they are literally amazing???

rules:

send me a number between 1-25 and a member

one prompt can be requested more with different member

if you rather have a drabble you can request multiple members.

you won't know what you've requested until I post it

That is it, can't wait ♥ take care

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Oursecretways Masterlist

currently, will mostly write skz fanfics (if this changes this post will get updated accordingly, don't worry)

bias: Bang Chan

bias wrecker: nowadays Han but tbh the whole group 🤧

reqs: open

taglist

categories: (m) for mature ; (f) for fluff; (au) for alternative universe; (a) for angst; (v) for violence; (s) for smut/ suggestive; (sos) for slice-of-life; (smau) for social media AU;

disclaimer: if any minors interact with any of the mature stuff (mature won't necessarily mean smut tho) they will get immediately banned from my blog ♥ ; this isn't the representation of how the idols are I only use their persona as a character etc., do not come for me, if they aren't how you would expect them to be, thank u ♥

———♡ Bang Chan

Forbidden Feelings (f) (smau) (au) (m) (a)

Invis ask game prompt 4 – Part 1 (f)

Invis ask game prompt 4 -Part 2 (f)

———♡ Lee Know

Deus Ex Machina I. (a) (sos) (f)

Deus Ex Machina II. (a) (sos) (f)

Invis ask game prompt 7 – Part 1 (a) (f)

Invis ask game prompt 7 – Part 2 (a) (f)

———♡ Changbin

N/A

———♡ Hyunjin

N/A

———♡ Han

N/A

———♡ Felix

Is this what you call self-care? (f) (sos)

———♡ Seungmin

N/A

———♡ I.N

N/A

———♡ OT8

“Look at all those chickens’’ (f) (sos)

request ║ invis ask game♥ ║taglist

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!Important announcement!

I have decided to revamp forbidden feelings

I have been putting it off to write it because honestly I am just not feeling it chief, like at fucking all and I hated it.

I have decided that I want to make it into a social Media AU with maybe smaller age gap and not trying to be so much like Hidden love because I can’t really deal with not straying too far from the original inspiration but I want it to be my story.

Those in the tag list ( @toomanybiasz @vixensss) if you want to be tagged later on let me know. If you do NOT want to be tagged do also let me know. Thank you ~

Invis ask game is in progress 🙏 much love

Mattie