#palm oil isnt even a food grade oil and its in butter or fed to cows and fucking rips my insides out | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

andragoras-in-vanity · 2 years

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i really want some cookies or muffins but even if i had the energy to make them i can't because we live in an actively hostile society where butter costs 7 bucks a stick if you dont want palm oil in it, so i have to make the one i have last until it goes on sale IF it goes on sale.

i cant even get premade stuff from the bakery because i live in a city and there are none outside of the grocery store that put who knows what in their recipes, all of which make me sick if i eat the quantity id really like to.

can i substitute ingredients? no because im fucking disabled and allergic to soy and sensitive to oils. the fact premade things are now cheaper (clothing, food, anything) than getting to supplies to make things yourself is pure ablelism and false scarcity and even if its not outright killing us it IS making life unpleasant and difficult. even if our diets and lifestyles arent an able persons definition of healthy, we arent even allowed to try to do better for ourselves and im speaking as someone whos mum pays for groceries since we live on the same property, i cant imagine how much worse people on disability income have it

#ableism #disabilities #disabled #ibs #fibromyalgia #dietary restrictions #ssi #odsp #disability support #palm oil isnt even a food grade oil and its in butter or fed to cows and fucking rips my insides out #and im already sensitive to dairy unless its butter due to the processes in making it #but i have to be so careful that it comes from a good clean farm with healthy animals #this brand is reletively local but its still so expensive because they dont feed any of that shit to the animals and the packages never say #anything about whats fed to the animals or if its bulked up with palm oil but you can feel it cause anything with palm oil feels more solid #and its disgusting it tastes different too. and all i want is some oatmeal muffins #im starving i dont have a full kitchen so i basically live on bread cereal which im also low on because theres a shortage and chicken #which is disgusting and just ..not real chicken cause the brand i like discontinued their best breaded chicken breasts years ago #and the bread i have to eat i either have to make with flour thats fucking expensive as hell and pray i dont run out of yeast #or my mum has to drive two cities over to an independent bakery that uses pretty much the same recipe i do #but even if i could afford the ingredients i dont always have the energy and rn i DEFINITELY dont have an oven unless i want to haul all #my stuff upstairs and hope the gas oven doesnt fuck up and catch fire because thats just my life #im starving all the time and i dont want to be and i dont even have to be if my gut isnt already shredded #but we live in a world that would rather kill us than help anyone at all let alone dosabled folks #i also live in the worst fucking province after nb and quebec #its the most expensive part of canada even compared to bc which.. ......its fucked up considering they USED to be the most costly #but anyway i wake up and go to sleep hungry because i cant drive so i have to make sure i dont run out of the food i DO have and CAN eat #if my mum isnt dping a grocery run that day #dont ask me when the last time i bought salt was #that box is getting real low #but yeah im sick of living here and this world already hated me before i got this sick and i hope it all burns itself to ash 😌

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