#people are only really interested in me when i'm super masc. anddd when they can kind of project fantasies of me being 'dominant' | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

loyalhorror · 5 months

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ugh. i spent so long shaving all the hair off my shoulders, chest, arms, tummy etc because i felt like otherwise i just looked like A Man In Women's Clothes TM and it's just so like... i dont want to have to shave all the time to be considered Feminine :( i don't even think about it most of the time, but sometimes i catch sight of myself in pictures etc and i realise how thick my arm hair is and stuff or that i always have 5 o clock shadow no matter how much i shave and it's just. augh.

and ofc most of the time i love my body hair! and my beard doesn't bother me! it's just that when i feel like this--like i want to be perceived as a girl, specifically--i feel like i have to be borderline hairless and UGHHHHH

#rat.exe #also fyi i already know i dont have to shave and i can be a hairy woman if i want #but thats not really the point of this post #the point is that it takes a LOT of effort and time to get my appearance to something im happy with and even then its not really enough...#i think i'm also a little saddened because like.#i realised that on my ns.fw sideblogs like #people are only really interested in me when i'm super masc. anddd when they can kind of project fantasies of me being 'dominant'#unfortunately syd (the alter everyone was thirsting over because. he's intense) isn't around/interested rn #and the difference in how people perceive and treat me when i'm presenting myself as a softer queer nb girl is uhhh. well it's very obvious #obv thats prob partly just bc of the circles i'm in - primarily masc4masc since thats what syd was into #but. ugh.#not for daz

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