hello, the reason I deleted this blog was due to a breakdown I had and am still having. But I've had a bit of clarity during that breakdown and realized I fucked up a lot. Also me deleting had nothing to do with the callout blogs or the asks with the exception of the grooming ask I got! My mental health has always been fucky, I was feeling burnout, and the grooming anon stuff was kinda the straw that broke the camels back. I was friends with Aku and I did interact with them. I'm not gonna lie I had good times with them, they were nice to me, we had a lot of common interests, and I really wanted to see the good in them and I wanted to hear their side of things. I should have kept them blocked the first few times but I didn't. I wanted to form my own opinion about them. I shouldn't have ignored the warnings and the red flags with Aku or the shit they did. I'm not here to justify my actions and I want to take full responsibility for my actions on giving them a platform. Everyone has full rights to be disappointed and hurt by what I did. I've cut ties with Aku and deleted this blog. I deeply apologize to everyone I hurt and Aku's victims. For my own mental health I think I'm gonna keep this blog deactivated. I should have also been more open about interacting with them. That was dishonest of me, and I regret it. You don't have to forgive me, and you have all rights to be disappointed in me. I should have been more thoughtful about my actions and how they affected other people. As an abuse victim myself, I never meant to hurt anyone or put anyone in possible danger. However I still stand by the statement using my grooming as a gatcha and the anon stuff was fucking gross especially the mommy aku bit of the post. That part made me actively gag, and again me being upset about it isn't victimizing myself. You had full rights to call me out on the Aku stuff, I fucked up there and I'm willing to fully acknowledge it! But keep my grooming out of it! I don't care if it was a claim or how suspicious you thought it was. It was still a shitty one to make without proof. Saying might've or you took no joy in it doesn't make it better! I'm allowed to be upset when you use something that personal and shove it in my face. That was a low thing to do and you know it. You are right in the regard, I shouldn't have put what happened to me in my rules so much, but I have a bad habit of oversharing. It's something I've been trying to work on. Will I come back? Who knows, maybe in time! but for now, goodbye and so long. If you wanna know my personal blog, message me privately. For now, I'm gonna focus on my art👍 If I do come back, I promise to do better and work hard to fix what I've done and keep myself accountable. This apology isn't damage control or to get sympathy because that's a shitty thing to do. This is a way to take accountability for my actions.
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{ ooc } I've been following a few of your blogs for a while I think and I've admired each muse you've taken on. Even when I didn't rly know the character all too well, the fact that you write them makes me want to interact with them. I just think you're a very good writer and you have a really fun / lighthearted way of running your blogs. I think you're rly amazing and your blogs are amongst my faves to follow & see on the dash ~
This blog will be archived and moved to a side blog for the new hub blog along with my mad rat blog! Both will have the same urls and both will be side blogs. So if you get followed by a blog called Pineapplemintss that's just the hub blog! Since the hub blog won't be much work to make I'm gonna work on it along side Fern's blog. Then I'm gonna work on the new blog for Asgore, then mad Rat, then my multifandom multimuse! Of course while I'm working I'm still gonna be active on @hell-side!
you're not sure if they know you're there or not. you're not sure if it matters. you watch them sway to the music, watch as they twirl around and smile for no one but themselves. they're free and laughing. they're alive and vibrant. they're everything you might never be except when you're with them. so full of life it makes something in your chest tighten. there are frown lines at the corners of your mouth but your lips are smiling right now. rare. and often, only for them. they have light in their hearts and some days you fear the darkness in you might swallow it whole. but they'd never let you walk away. so make sure the darkness inside you keeps all the other monsters away from their tender heart.
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Tagging: @pineapplemintss @tximidity @game-weaver @thcsevoices and anyone who wants to give it a go!
( Absolutely music and looking at some kickass images/pictures of them do wonders for me to start ruminating on them. )
( I tend to listen to their themes in movies/ova’s/whatever’s soundtracks as I’m writing for that certain mood, more of like ambience than lyrics but they do sprinkle themselves in whenever possible. Images give some neat little thoughts but totally depends on their concept/composition. Really sets the mood for me as well. afndlsfjg just.. yeah pretty much those are my two prominent inspirations. )
( when i find a gem, i just fucking hoard it like a dragon among his hoard. )